As crazy as it seemed, I wanted to go back inside. Even after all I went through, going back was looking more and more appealing. The outside world was just too different for me to handle. 997Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWG8dXXgvki
My cube is all i'd ever known.
There was so much. Just too much. I couldn't deal with it. 997Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuWrJmAdu5B
My body froze up and I looked around for any sign of danger. My senses became more sensitive as I grew more parenoid. I had no idea what I was getting into. And I had no idea how traumatizing it would be. I just had to be free.
I had no idea there would be crisp white snow that painfully recalled memories that I had buried deep inside my mind. 997Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpxBnNdtGNa
Memories of perfect white lab coats. 997Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlWN2hFsrgw
'White cloth walking just out of reach from my bound hands, coldly looking at me from afar.'997Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfAcyHbSKmm
Memories of blue gloves that smelled of the unpleasant combonation of rubber and disinfectant. 997Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoWosfGcMSM
'Blue fingers reaching out to me. Hope that I will be saved, right before the betrayal and torcher.'997Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeROhmMM71o
Memories of white masks covering things unknown to me.997Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLjSB8nB1kW
'The smooth curve of cheek, the unexpresive porceline mask. Never knowing white lies under there.'997Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbSZehkRkIp
Trees that's ragged branches that lurked with dangerous unfamiliarity.997Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡthrdzIlT51
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Skies that spread out endlessly making you feel as small and insignificant as the stars that shone above without purpose.997Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuMzkTElQV6
'Uselessness'997Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOTgeVwW8Y5
And gusts of wind that felt like daggars piercing through your skin out in the cold November air.997Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRwE6e8MPdY
And I was only wearing a thin brown covering. Nothing decent enough to wear out in the middle of the winter.997Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRCSKJ1jZvD
I sat down and brought my knees to my chest, hugging them close to my body out of shock and in reaction to the unpleasant change in weather. Trying to process everything I was taking in at the time.997Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3WE7Vegdxq
After a few seconds I jumped back up again, glaring at the pure white that covered the ground, momentarily distracted from how scary the outside world was.997Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaUO7deXRBa
I laughed bitterly at how similar snow was to the Bleach Coats I had known so well. 997Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUobYzGPexV
They were both perfect. So, so, untainted. As if mocking my dirty, scruffy apperance. And they were both so cold and emotionless. A perfect match.997Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7uVRknNvUf
But then my eyes grew wide with realization. I was outside. Finally. After all this time, I was free from my confinement. From my safe cell. My cube. I knew every nook and crany. It was so... familiar. Was I sure that I wanted to leave that and explore a world of danger and recklesness? 997Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ11b3CDfMj3
I took a step back due to my second thoughts and twirled around to face the cement building I just escaped from.997Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4LytMiagaS
I saw a blurr of boring grey in the shape of a large square through the misty evening air. It was the same bland colour as I grew up with, but it was broken.997Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkDcL6GtjF7
It had cracks and dents. It had chiped paint and dry, Autumn leaves scattered here and there. It had old cigarette buds and the distinct smell of urine. To put it simply, it was beautiful.997Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAVcofFeOPI
Was this what the outside world look like? Was everything imperfect? My face strtched into a smile at the thought of broken, run-down buildings.997Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9FGBjGdEia
And with that, I ran. 997Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTkdpyq9FgE
I relished in the feeling of the wind wipping my hair around, despite the the chattering of my teeth or the numbness in my bear feet.997Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJr3aKay3dO
I ran and ran and ran until stopping before a wire gate. The gate separating me and my freedom.
You may think that I was free the moment I stepped out of that building, but I wasn't free from myself. I was still trapped in my insecurities. Even though I knew that even after passing through that gate, I would still be cautious and paranoid, I could be free. Truly free. 997Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzh4mJYdGV7
And with a smile I oppened the gate to my new beggining.
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Eh? Eh? I rewrote it per LDF's extreemly awesome constructive critisism, now I hope it's a bit more realistic. I know its shorter than before, but I started and it ran away from me. Because of my inspiration, I might make this multi-chapter, but it will take a long time. 997Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡigGtwz48wr
See you next time!997Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOgHafWPD2X
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