#1 Entry: Why I Started This.755Please respect copyright.PENANAECJt0tyqZT
This is actually personal. And I don't expect anyone to read this. It's a surprise that you are so. And no, this entry is not about the bad-ness of smoking, drinking or doing weed. Not yet, anyway. It's about what happened, fifteen minutes ago.755Please respect copyright.PENANAPwGjmlhr5q
A while ago, I got so effing frustrated at a guy I almost dated. We didn't date- why? Because he wasn't ready to make it official, even after six months of him knowing that I really liked him. 755Please respect copyright.PENANA5ArDt30UoP
His excuse: He found me adorable. And in his bucket list, it was to stay single till college graduation.755Please respect copyright.PENANAoIWSqD4fMT
Thinking about it, that sounds like an excuse right about now. Why was I so stupid? 755Please respect copyright.PENANA5UKk7KlccN
Moving on to present day, two months after I called it off (though, there was nothing to call off), the following happens. 755Please respect copyright.PENANAeOmaW4rxWx
It's a bit immature, but tell that to him. 755Please respect copyright.PENANA9Nfz5zqEM2
I commented on his frequent change of instagram username. and well, he tells me to F.O. for it. 755Please respect copyright.PENANAxCUQ7Z1vUp
So yeah, apparently we're still in highschool. 755Please respect copyright.PENANA1lT1NYbTp3
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And I wanted to RANT about it, you know?755Please respect copyright.PENANAcd3h5sXysO
Throw my hurt feelings out to the world, so my heart feels empty.755Please respect copyright.PENANADQQefdaCO9
But I couldn't use Facebook (he's a facebook friend). Instagram. (same reason). Nor Twitter (I don't tweet my feelings, duh.)755Please respect copyright.PENANAL25BVMwdAw
So I came here. and TADA! A blog. 755Please respect copyright.PENANAnHJn4vSREm
I'm so glad. But I can't type as fast as my thoughts. And I feel pretty damn bad about it. It's stupid. I know. 755Please respect copyright.PENANAsVJTSRW1Nt
But he shouldn't be the one to get all riled up about it. Right?755Please respect copyright.PENANAvybneOg99s
I mean. He didn't want to commit. When I was so ready. 755Please respect copyright.PENANAJB2sNdeNAZ
So calling it off, was it that bad?755Please respect copyright.PENANAxOJtTzKg5X
Though the way I called it off was pretty damn stupid, bad and outright mean. So maybe yes, I deserve this. 755Please respect copyright.PENANA95373zZSTm
BUT. A huge BUTT- I mean, butt. But. (sorry)755Please respect copyright.PENANAX8LW5KCNWv
But. It's been two months. It wasn't like he was in love with me or I broke his heart. 755Please respect copyright.PENANAbANbBbuWxk
If he wanted to be with me, he could have just EFFING taken the step. 755Please respect copyright.PENANAu2gsr394oa
But no. So now. His friends, who were also my friends, don't talk to me. 755Please respect copyright.PENANAqlt1PfUSIW
He once mentioned that the entire class hates me. Which is not a shocker, really. I had that coming. 755Please respect copyright.PENANAwjJIKj3lxO
So. All these frustrations have now led me to bottle up and almost burst like Mount Vesuvius. 755Please respect copyright.PENANAiIJHTUCZKP
Henceforth, we have this. 755Please respect copyright.PENANALR3H3YdlLZ
Thanks for bearing with me. 755Please respect copyright.PENANA7ar8cGqTMn
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