Today was surprisingly warm for March. It felt like August instead. 789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1km2Hf6DRa
I was in three different departments at my job, doing all the tasks others could, but they decided to give me. 789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3HdpQYYGHV
I am coal for a fire they never want to see extinguished, yet here I burn out.789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwTmrlNrVR9
It's been four months since that day.789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk2e4MUkLmv
Call me Hidaka. It's my lesser-known name, but that doesn't bother me. 789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBOHrk2Ub0m
I'm young still, 22, yet old in spirit. I have lived a lot of life. Much more than a lot of people my age. 789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1VtOf18S2I
That may sound petty or like a brag. But trust me, I in no way feel pride in this. 789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl0P67uga64
Only loneliness.789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfU5MVfAL9F
At 16:00, I clock out and get ready to leave. There is a party at my family's home tonight, but I feel like ditching. Too bad I can't drive.789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1uQUzQ5yh1
My brother sends a text to me, stating only good news. After being belittled by one of my managers all day, it's nice to have something to smile about. 789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVM2ZTDQfas
Once I gather my things, I go around the store to buy some items for myself. 789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9A1yk7d1O
On impulse, I decide to buy a picture. I never buy décor, but this was a must. 789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8eaB0g9xA9
It was a photograph of cherry blossoms. 789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeQybMBjZvx
One thing everyone quickly knows about me is I love cherry blossoms. They remind me of good, whimsical memories. They recall a sweet time before this era.789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4z2reSYjPu
They remind me of home. 789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3L4QRLoC0H
The guests arrive a little later than 18:00, but I don't mind. I'm not the one hosting, anyway.789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡon8wLvXXz2
My sister and brother are making an effort to make more friends at their church. I think that's amazing. They found a place they really like. 789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAtOALcPzj2
All night, we play board games. Not much conversation is actually done, and when we all stand to talk, it is dead silent. 789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGYlzc6EBjH
I don't want to be here. 789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlD6HJ9Lp4X
It is now 0:04. I sit in my messy workspace, staring at the faux ivy hanging from the ceiling. 789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMVIa2mkGlc
I contemplate a lot of things at this time of night. 789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP8J1aNWqMj
I think about my job and the anxiety of being a hamster stuck in a plastic ball forever.789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGGy6KV40lk
I think of how I didn't care for company and how I wished I was left alone this evening. 789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6JioUWKdwt
I think about how I haven't had a proper church home in almost 2 years and how I wish I could find a place and congregation to return to each week. 789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq5aLuW69bx
I think about being 22 and how my sisters want me married. I don't want to think about it now.789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRESZ0pN7BJ
Most of all, I think of 2 years prior to this time. It was a time of freedom and promise, a time where I truly thought I knew where God wanted me. 789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGo7iLwvS9
Now, I have a better understanding of where to go next. Better than I did four months ago. But I'm still the same. 789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Ltob1NlEA
I'm still lonely. I still feel depressed and bitter. I still feel dejected, betrayed, and abandoned. 789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPPIvnjErzh
Maybe I should sleep all of this away. I think I need to talk to God more about this sorrow.789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdLr0DjP4Em
I know all of this makes no sense. But I hope I can prove to you it will. 789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwI9KYGra9
I want it to make sense.789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHS7KWRvJn1
But alas, I must rest. Sleep only comes for the traveler once a fortnight, so I must seize it like a prize. Now I will go to the place of my dreams, a place where these past four months haunt me no more.789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgl00nuP4gk
The PaperGarden.789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc9h54BE8PW
To be Continued...789Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG4PIsxJ3gZ
