『原來我從來…都不曾瞭解妳……』30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe5jF4JtLWE
某個夜晚，研究所內30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqf3zwa2Cd
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許墨坐在辦公桌前，筆電的螢幕映出冷色的光，映照著他略顯疲憊的側臉。這幾天，他不止一次地伸手撥通微瀾曾經的號碼，但每一次，都是冰冷的「此號碼已被註銷」。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnS9PqW6lVW
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他合上筆電，低頭揉了揉眉心。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftZ9AOPcDc
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她走了，走得乾乾淨淨。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp4ptkVMUkT
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他不是沒試過找她。他去了她的公寓，但那裡早已換了新房客。他聯絡了她曾經的同事，但沒有人知道她的下落。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLENBxnqVG
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在試圖撥通微瀾的電話幾個月後，許墨停止尋找。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJttgjEqLOq
他想，她不回來，對她也是好事。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoEl4bAGNo1
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──可笑的是，這句話，他連自己都說服不了。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡULGkW7fglt
某日，研究所30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOzlzNaWE9e
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「許教授，這是最新的報告。」助理將文件遞給他，目光閃爍了一下，「還有……悠然小姐今天有約嗎？」30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSKYIQkCUQQ
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許墨翻閱著文件，淡淡地回應：「她和李澤言約了下午茶。」30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ82isdXbKPI
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「……」助理沒再多說什麼，只是離開前忍不住看了他一眼。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA55J0rAiU3
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這陣子，許教授的情緒變化雖然細微，但仍舊讓熟悉他的人察覺了些端倪。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHRi2ftblOD
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他依然準時進出研究所，依然做著嚴謹的實驗，依然是所有學生與研究員口中的「許教授」，可他似乎變得更加沉默，也變得……不再那麼專注了。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM018WbIj77
那天，他與悠然約在咖啡廳見面。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjdm3PGkkFa
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悠然是個細心的人，即使他沒有特別說什麼，她仍然察覺到了異樣。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ5qRZ5Sm5O
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「許墨，你最近……心情不太好？」30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtIDhFEWhHw
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他聞言，抬起眼看她，語氣淡淡：「沒有。」30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡshPTcmG3bk
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悠然沒有說話，只是飲了一口面前的果汁，然後才像是隨口提起似的：「我之前聽說，微瀾離開了？」30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPiQH45lXzF
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許墨的手微不可察地頓了一下，但很快恢復正常：「嗯。」30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcxU0ZxwgKz
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「……你沒有試著去找她嗎？」30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvbX8To0RrN
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「她會回來的。」他的語氣仍然淡漠，仿佛這是一件再自然不過的事。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBwmIFTp0Bu
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悠然看著許墨，沉默了一會，像是在思索著什麼。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2QJdyzc55e
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「許墨，微瀾很好，不是嗎？」30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJRtGPGUkO
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許墨抬眼看她，沒有否認。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwo6tVNWubY
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「我一直以為，你們很穩定、很幸福。」悠然語氣很輕，像是在陳述一個簡單的事實，「但你現在的樣子，並不像是一個剛分手的人，反倒像是……」30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP0Dys6Jpkw
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她頓了一下，微微傾身，低聲道：「你像是一個失去習慣的人。」30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtEftWFQpiR
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許墨的指尖不自覺地蜷了一下。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpnfeZ7NKHn
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「所以，許墨——你是真的愛她，還是只是習慣有她的存在？」30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrzWTSxXCRn
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這句話，讓許墨的呼吸頓了一拍。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ78YFOmSedP
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「愛，應該不會是這種狀態的吧？」悠然輕輕笑了一聲，語氣帶著一點憐惜，「如果你真的愛她，怎麼可能到現在才開始想要挽回？」30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnuEjycqlR0
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許墨沒有回答，只是低頭輕啜了一口咖啡。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZZd9UijosJ
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悠然看著他的沉默，最後只是搖搖頭，語氣淡然：「算了，這是你的事，我只是提醒你，確保你想清楚自己在做什麼。」30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡudhpR8ChfU
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他放下杯子，緩緩開口：「悠然，妳跟李澤言約得時間快到了。」30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡabdOMZl9EO
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這句話等於是間接終止了這場對話。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG6On2Gg0AR
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悠然低低地笑了一聲，搖搖頭，她明白許墨大約是不想跟她談了。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeiq8ErWY93
只是看著許墨的目光中，多了一絲可惜的情緒。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ydKi3nrKz
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「許墨，」她最後說道，「希望你是真的確定自己想要什麼，而不是等到失去了，才發現原來你根本不曾擁有過。」30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdPHy9rqhX
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那一刻，許墨心底像是被一隻無形的手緊緊抓住了。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHnA5XnyriH
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悠然起身離開了。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAnORfCU1Jw
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許墨靜靜坐在咖啡廳裡，久久沒有動作。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQwj9ezZCAF
杯中的咖啡早已涼透，他卻沒有察覺。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLTdR8iF12O
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悠然的話在腦海中盤旋不去。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0rUbTWQvyw
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——你是真的愛她，還是只是習慣有她的存在？30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjzkKDt99dA
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他指尖微微收緊，低頭看著桌面，嘴角彷彿要笑，卻又沒能笑出來。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ63zUmvRIAv
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——如果你真的愛她，怎麼可能到現在才開始想要挽回？30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI87TtuvOzC
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許墨閉了閉眼，指腹輕輕揉了揉眉心。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMy1CnlmDUe
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原來，他一直在等她回來。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD2tiVFO5g0
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可是——30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiEykPt2tS4
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她真的還會回來嗎？30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ9HSgu0mbl
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還是，她這次，不要他了？30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYbGR0dfGDw
幾個月後，當他以為一切會恢復正常的時候……30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXCfq2eeKGt
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那天，他通宵了幾日的實驗，回到家中，準備稍作梳洗再回研究所。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ujg606b97
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當他踏入公寓，房間的燈亮了，他一楞。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxVpwe1sJok
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快步走進房裡，卻發現──30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJR7FuaZz1
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──只是被一隻闖入的野貓無意開啟的燈。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBFgVwGr2PN
……還踢倒了他的盆栽。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXJKbh6sWSM
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許墨沉默地收拾著散落的書頁，正要將它們重新放回書架時，一張夾在書中的書籤飄落在地。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqs9w7f6ysf
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他彎腰撿起，目光落在上面的字跡。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs5K0mwNvvZ
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許墨指尖微顫，心底像是有什麼被狠狠刺了一下。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVVd4UWeqQB
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那時的她，到底是抱著怎樣的心情，寫下這句話的？30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtmb2xIKY5F
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……而他，又曾如何回應？30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGq8z3ORaC
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那晚，他睡不著了。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7RbHWto4Q
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第二天清晨，許墨站在窗邊，望著城市的天色慢慢變亮。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsloZILnb1A
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他終於意識到，這種空蕩蕩的日子，已經讓他無法忽視內心的缺口。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHB8nWK5wQg
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他想，他還是得知道微瀾究竟在哪。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyYgpH80Lja
如果她能回來，他還能照顧她。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSrZZljkPlr
但這一次，他不能再等著她回來了。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaiTNrGanHF
他得自己去找。30Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8tJJf7V59L
