Watch this space, my brother said, did he know something I didn't, has Alex said something to him, who the hell am I trying to kid, guy's don't talk to me, let alone like me.855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLNILch0knL
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No Reagan, get the idea out of your stupid head, he's just being nice because mates with your brother, but that doesn't mean for once second you can't drool over him or imagine him...... Oh Jesus Christ! Shut the f%&k up already. 855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3FkGgOAFus
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I look over to see the diary on the bed, why the hell did he think I needed one, was this the only way I can display my true feelings, without giving the others satisfaction of seeing me cry.855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79VJr5Neue
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Hold on a god damn minute, not only is he hot and sexy with suckable lips, but the boy was a shiting genius! Ah, what the hell, I open it up and start on the first page, here goes.855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8SdlT5Urz
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Welcome to the world of Reagan, Charles, where nothing goes right, where every guy I fancy runs away like they're being chased by a herd of elephants.855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVaSDfcNt2u
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How the hell am I going to get any guy to see me, not some 14 stone midget who has a big round belly and big ta tas.855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXx7ntiiCnC
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I'm not even an adult yet and they already give me back ache.855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUr7hTSJUeB
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I have naturally auburn curly hair, not so much curl, but corkscrew curly, with big brown eyes, I'm not the ugliest person, but I'm not the prettiest either.855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZFf0lgOCU
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Ok, so here I am writing in this stupid thing, I know people have them, but I never thought I would need one, I just carry my hurt on my shoulders.855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnv08l9geS8
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I'm what they call an open book, I wear my heart on my sleeve, I shy away and I don't show my emotions, I won't let them see it.855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8WT4o33cOc
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I think that's why I run away with my gob sometimes, people would think I'm no different to the bullies because I create names for them in my head! Or I'll answer back, or if they upset me too much I'll be planning their own funeral! But the difference with me and them is, I would and could, never hurt them, It's not in my nature.855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9wHFmygLeJ
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I keep it all in my head.855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSlBPBSRTM
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When I was thirteen after a solid week of abuse and torture from home and school, I thought it was time to end my life.855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgXAKoSI5C3
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I felt I didn't belong anywhere, so when everyone went to bed one night, I crept down and got one of my mums razors, and well, they said for my age, I certainly knew what I was doing and if only my brother hadn't come down cause he was sneaking out, I would have bloody succeeded.855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqmQyl0Eiwl
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I remember him sobbing holding me so close, telling me to hang on, I didn't want to hang on, I didn't want to feel pain and rejection anymore, I wanted to feel peace.855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsukgpaNmve
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Two years later, my brother is always there for me, yeah nothings changed, but after seeing how much it affected him I swore I would plod on for his sake and f%&k everyone else who tried to drag me down again, now I'm glad I did. 855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi78lzwYeYc
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I'll never be twig thin, I'll never be popular, but what I could be is real, if real means I use a lot of profanity and create my own little dream world to cope with it, then so be it.855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEnooBCMKmC
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Shit I'ts almost 1:am, here I am writing in this pissing book about the ins and outs of who I am, but deep down I still feel like I still don't know who Reagan Charles really is.855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ3VYe4ipL3
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I close the book and place it on my night stand I snuggle into my panda and fall fast asleep hoping for some solid sweet dreams. 855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77ejssLtg6
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I was back in the meadow laid across a blanket, I was smiling, laughing, I looked happy, a hand moved a misplaced strand of hair away from my face, but I couldn't see who it was.855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2PppahO6Zg
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Oh for god sake I don't want to see myself, move out the way, let me see who you're with, I see myself smiling again and I blew whoever it was a kiss then I giggled sipping on a water bottle, aw what the hell your drinking water for, you never drink water! I see a hand on my leg and my cheeks go red and I'm finally looking at the person who's making me all hot and flustered. Omfg wake up! Wake up you stupid mare, it was Cal! Oooo shit.855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS8a1bL75eR
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"Reagan! Reagan! Wake up turd burger, your fans await you, come on!" 855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6n4wsIlRei
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I open my eyes giggling "Yes, yes, I'm awake and the only fan I got is you," he smiled at me "I'll be your number one fan forever, but I'm thinking after yesterday you got a few more, now get dressed!" I threw panda at him he quickly ducked, moving quickly out my door laughing.855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8xUe8FmTBD
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After a soak in vanilla bath oil, I sprayed myself heavily in vanilla, musk and decide to leave my hair down, I put a small amount of makeup on I was ready to indulge in another day of piss take.855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9rnbS5dvFg
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"Morning sweetheart," I see dad sitting at the table, "Morning daddy," he grabbed me as I walked past and pulled me onto his lap, he shocked me we wasn’t a huggy type of family there wasn't a lot of that between my parents either but I knew my dad loved me.855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxEAxZjGW9Y
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He tried to show me affection often which is more than I can say to my mum, she was stone cold that's for sure.855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIm4PA8Ti2
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"I'm sorry about last night Huni, your mum can sometimes be a little cold, but she does love you! I rolled my eyes, "It's ok dad, I'm use to it," he smiled, "I know but It's not right, anyway I've told your mum that your going to Cal's barbecue tonight with or without her permission," and he winked.855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxUd7dQ6QmZ
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"Thanks dad," I grabbed a bottle of juice and a banana and followed my brother out to his car, "So, you and Alex, do you like him Reagan?" I looked at him in shock "Would it matter if I do? besides he's way out my league, so you got nothing to worry about," he laughed.855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQApQ3NIZB
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"Your not out of anyone's league, don't ever let me hear you say that again, he seems quite smitten by you," there goes the beet cheeks again.855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6tDsjavgB
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"Shut the front door! Your joking with me, you got to be kidding." He shakes his head "No I'm not, but don't let him know I told you," I nod in response.855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyzYSZCjDHS
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I sit in silence the rest of the way, I felt excited, so excited I could probably piss myself, I giggle inwardly, but then my excitement turns into utter confusion when we pulled into the school car park. 855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0M0qH2GFq2
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I kiss my brother goodbye and ran, well stompede all the way to the girls toilets, into my favourite cubicle.855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1PkPJvWvBM
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I say my favourite the reason being is, I've kind of drawn all over one wall in different designs, you can tell I spend alot of time in here, but now I needed my tranquility more than anything. 855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTzq2chyjgq
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Help! My brother seems to think Alex also likes me, what do I do? Do I confront him? Do I leave him to tell me? Hold up what the hell am I doing, the diary ain't going to come alive and say "Hmmm I'm not sure Reagan! Oh jeez! Maybe I need some nutty pills, ok Reagan this is upto you not a diary, ok lets break it down.855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKq1iG3W4z
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Alex ❤❤❤855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYQwWdfmuds
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6ft 3(I'd have to stand on Orange boxes just to lips him)855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ74TaDSyIs3
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Brown tousled hair (sexy bed hair)855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOAAk9OEu9z
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Hazel eyes (come to bed, Right now! Eyes)855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJPouMwhAtI
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12 pack (I exaggerate you not! But you get me)855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE6gaxupnMA
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Nice bum(you could crack a nut in them cheeks)855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbnAqSjtQdu
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Omfg! Let me have him right here right now on this bog.855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡesMEJItFR6
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I laugh out loud, oh shit shhh, I'm meant to be in lesson. 855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUdxeschEJf
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Ok now for me this should be fun855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeIUYYfM82Z
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Reagan Charles855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmAieMgpxA
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5ft4(short ass) 855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4D4udyAzcB
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44dd(they go south when I lay down)855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7LgEmYNV35
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Round belly (which wobbles when I laugh like a bowl full of jelly)855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLlmu0CFgCo
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Wide hips( well what more can I say)855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaNJMSVmdqF
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Fat ass(God don't get me started on that!)855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSJoOBGJcQ
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Positives about me hmmmm855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4M9RzUUnS
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Nice eyes855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZA37ErkNqN
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Nice hair855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZMIz5FeYz5
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Hmmmm not many then, shit this is what it all boils down too, I got f%&c all going for me and he's got everything going for him, I actually felt worse than what I did before I came in here, I started hyper ventilating, who the hell was I trying to kid he's right he's had quite a few girlfriends.855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTLOduoP6UG
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I can remember a few, Tara Jackson, eve porter, Lisa carter, these girls are what I call barbie dolls, perfect in every way not a hair out of place washboard tummies the perfect handfulls everywhere, with me he would need both hands to grab one boob that's no lie, oooo er misses. 855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2rBeaSh1qB
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I ain't saying that it ain't a nice thought, but hey this was some serious shit and hell yeah I was jealous.855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH8XhyUEUj8
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Right, that's it, I slam the diary shut and shove it in my bag, f%&k you I can't be doing with writing in you anymore your making me feel more depressed, tears roll down my cheek.855Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9PhQCQ6Jvj
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The bell goes and I walk out of the toilet heading for maths, let's just try get through this one lesson then I can be alone again and maybe come up with some plan as to what the hell am I going to do at lunchtime.
