他並非生氣,只是某種有如一頭困獸般的疲乏。204Please respect copyright.PENANALfXAZq0nzT
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不是受挫,也不是心理防線崩潰,只是壓抑著不算高漲的情緒。204Please respect copyright.PENANAmnMPeY0M4e
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那份異常似乎不針對誰。或許是煩躁,或許只是剛好心情糟糕。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAOGzZKCDEGP
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向菱垂下眸子,轉開視線。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAMJNMjDAhA0
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她覺得,祁澈實在是一個很矛盾的人。204Please respect copyright.PENANAazeDdesJRJ
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——對他來說,世界上的人似乎只分為兩種。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAJDmYhCzLPE
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在乎的人,以及無關的人。 204Please respect copyright.PENANA9MZXEZEoP3
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他脾氣極壞,但那些脾氣是可控的,並且似乎只針對不在意的人發作。204Please respect copyright.PENANA1GTjhphvYx
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對於不在乎的人們,他甚至可以直接把那些人按著揍,而他並不會對任何受害者感到抱歉。204Please respect copyright.PENANAvO2U6lzybI
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但是,祁澈真正在乎的那些少數人,別人休想動他們一下。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAmoADmoIjAt
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因為一旦被盯上了,就會立刻被反咬、報復。204Please respect copyright.PENANA8BpQLmsGIM
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他可能,就是這樣的人。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAMoolYSyD6b
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……204Please respect copyright.PENANANjboUbL1oe
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夜色籠罩下的男生宿舍裡。204Please respect copyright.PENANAxNPChPGFmQ
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短暫沉默後,少女清脆的說話聲忽然響起。204Please respect copyright.PENANANr8enHBBzS
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「我問你,如果把世界切成兩半,」她慢慢說道,「一邊站的是你在乎的人,其他人站到另一邊去。」204Please respect copyright.PENANAV0YJ3bCPcO
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「嗯?」204Please respect copyright.PENANAs4xn37JLsB
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「那你會把自己放在哪裡?」她輕聲說完,用力嚥了下口水。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAsRqXsDpmvC
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「不在乎的那一邊。」204Please respect copyright.PENANAdvGAplpozR
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今夜漫長,月色黯然,月球悄然無聲被雲彩遮住大半。204Please respect copyright.PENANAms7bIfV8bY
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那一晚,她離開後,少年做了個詭異的夢。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAShvoxh3tCC
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四周一片漆黑,壓力環伺,恍若被什麼可懼的東西盯上。204Please respect copyright.PENANA7RQLFnC4CD
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——野獸的目光。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAQTN0fXmNw6
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看不見,耳裡聽到的聲音既混亂又雜亂無章,毫無規律可言。204Please respect copyright.PENANAeMh7hgqbCu
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出口的話成了碾碎的片段,光怪陸離的閃光浮現又一閃而逝。204Please respect copyright.PENANAAAISfHisrG
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世界在傾倒,同時也在下墜。204Please respect copyright.PENANAHid1uHZL0Q
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傷疤被毫不留情地揭開,猙獰的傷口完全暴露在空氣中,凝血彷彿失常,暗紅血液汩汩流淌。 204Please respect copyright.PENANA59bV2VsPrp
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麻木似的,做夢沒有痛覺。204Please respect copyright.PENANApIAdxTC2gz
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持續墜落的踩空感覺在夢境中分外真實。204Please respect copyright.PENANAuYsiQ9c1yx
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突然腳跟像是觸碰到什麼冰涼的東西,冰冷的觸感從末梢神經擴散到全身,緊接著是近乎窒息的冷意。204Please respect copyright.PENANAI4LlRFqRcR
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——落海。204Please respect copyright.PENANABojISFSKwv
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如她所說的那樣,也如同實際遭遇過的那樣。204Please respect copyright.PENANAzkVV986RuC
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清晰的知道自己在噩夢裡,卻醒不來。祁澈感覺得到海水又冷又鹹,分不清是回憶倒放還是夢境。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAnc30SuR2vl
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完全沒有預警,無所謂,反正他從來就不在乎任何。204Please respect copyright.PENANAVxs5lXBkYz
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如果自己消失的話,那些人會過上更舒服的日子吧。204Please respect copyright.PENANAM2Wob7hQZN
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類似的嘲諷念頭劃過腦海。 204Please respect copyright.PENANA9UOUBwWRl2
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這大概是從什麼八點檔裡抄來的惱人劇情——念頭冒出來的時候,他諷刺自己一句。204Please respect copyright.PENANAVorUjzjEQo
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事發的時候,究竟是多少年前,別人大概記得比他自己更清楚。204Please respect copyright.PENANAOUaBQLY5Rk
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明明好像也沒過多久。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAjxcMbAWGyq
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那夜的南雨鎮,也在下雨。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAPc5zw9jGYg
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狂風暴雨的架式,像是要把人捲進大海裡。毫無預兆的那種,彷彿有人給你一個驚喜。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAmCtyLprxzG
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時間宛如倒流,夢境的場景回到不知多久以前,那夜除夕的海岸邊。204Please respect copyright.PENANAZkpNANOSi8
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浪忽地驟強,海嘯警報從鎮上的廣播喇叭喇傾瀉而出。器材老舊,音質顯得沙啞。204Please respect copyright.PENANAxkTT04BtLs
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潮水一波波湧上,浪潮漸高,伴隨著強烈海嘯,小鎮似乎被黑夜及狂雨籠罩。204Please respect copyright.PENANAVHyL5WEz5O
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少年獨自站在海邊崖上,自虐式的,就只是怔怔的乾站著。 204Please respect copyright.PENANADNEGWs9fBA
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——其實他從來就沒想過跳下去,也從來沒有那種打算。204Please respect copyright.PENANAsQQ5pngFj1
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海浪挾帶著一種把人捲下去的氣勢。 204Please respect copyright.PENANActGbKyT1jf
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浪太大,他站得太近,一切事件的發生連貫得理所當然。204Please respect copyright.PENANAeDJexXhA9N
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不過,當浪真的把自己席捲下去時,他腦子裡閃過的念頭有些過於隨便——好像,也無所謂。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAvGRGtZfsod
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那一夜很冷。除此之外,相關的記憶幾乎等於零。204Please respect copyright.PENANAcMOAl01Y3w
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破碎的廣播音,短暫的失神。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAbF0hZLxl6N
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雨幕是殺死夜的嫌疑犯,雨停了,天也跟著濛濛亮了。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAMbT4I62QCl
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海水並不會因為朝陽升起就乾涸。 204Please respect copyright.PENANALRHJkCooE7
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沒人發現落海的孩子,他獨自掙扎著浮起來呼吸,他命大,那塊海岸的水又深,沒摔出什麼大傷。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAUsVdZt8qUP
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意識仍然恍恍惚惚,一絲模糊的念頭從精神的縫隙竄了出來。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAHeomkkkXJR
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完了,昨晚沒給祁小波留晚飯。204Please respect copyright.PENANAYKX0pLonNf
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後來,他是自己攀著石頭回岸邊的,然後一個人拖著腳步走掉。 204Please respect copyright.PENANALeWcpu4vwT
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身上都是攀著礁石擦出來的傷,渾身濕透又難受,刺痛到令人煩躁。204Please respect copyright.PENANA5HJlxOy4RP
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回去的路上,他特意抄進常年無人經過的窄巷子。可沈中奕卻突然冒出來,逼問他前一夜消失不歸的緣由。 204Please respect copyright.PENANABwPP5cKdUf
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「掉海裡?」沈中奕的眼睛瞬間瞪大。 204Please respect copyright.PENANA4gD0Wl33ES
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「所以你那是什麼,自殺?」 204Please respect copyright.PENANA0yAfdkKD76
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不可置信的眼神。204Please respect copyright.PENANALQxoOzdplM
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沈中奕是典型「話多反應大」的性格,他看到祁澈滿身狼狽的樣子,又聯想到那段時間他生活有多困難,於是,直覺認定對方是去尋死了。204Please respect copyright.PENANAzpqcopg0S3
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「……你他媽是在找死嗎?搞什麼,這樣你妹妹要怎麼辦?」 204Please respect copyright.PENANA1Ocfb11tGE
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祁澈沒怎麼認真聽他說話,又根本沒聽進對方那一長串的譴責,便直接把那些話給敷衍了過去。204Please respect copyright.PENANAm7g6aNjWdN
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那天,是大年初一。204Please respect copyright.PENANAkKQaTEaN8K
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沈中奕大概把他的反應當成了默認,還真的以為這是一場自我了斷。204Please respect copyright.PENANAkKsaulXkci
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於是,沈中奕每年春節都打電話過來。明面上是恭喜新年,實際上他的用意太明顯,祁澈早就看透,只是沒有說而已。204Please respect copyright.PENANA9eaJBQSj9n
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——他甚至沒有辯解,其實是那天南雨的風浪太大,其實他只是單純的失足落水罷了。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAGg8jrejYzG
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再後來,沒什麼好說的。他斷斷續續高燒了幾天,只覺得愈加煩躁,眼前陷入一片漆黑。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAyWZdKkxGVg
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之後的事太無趣,所以夢境就在這裡停了。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAjxGzZG5YR0
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有時候,睡夢和回憶只有一線之隔。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAtt9Y9iFDe5
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剎那,夢醒。204Please respect copyright.PENANAAFsW96rXo2
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稱不上是回憶的往事影像跟著消失,空蕩的房間由模糊變得清晰。204Please respect copyright.PENANAVw2ws6WrQz
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祁澈幾乎是埋在書桌的桌面上睡著的。天還沒亮,手機的螢幕亮起,顯示出從剛才到現在,只過去了三個半小時。204Please respect copyright.PENANANh2gghrSeq
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有時候時間的確過得很快,但大部分時候,它走得很慢很慢。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAlDVihZB3hP
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祁小波在雙層床的上鋪呼呼大睡,大概要再六、七個鐘頭才能叫她起來。204Please respect copyright.PENANA4JpvrjkjKo
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腦海被毫無意義的斷簡殘篇充斥著,混亂又聒噪。 204Please respect copyright.PENANA327BDskhBM
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少年慢吞吞闔眼,埋回自己彎起的肘間。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAur7cQziC5b
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想法很亂,意識卻清醒得過分。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAIFap5A9ImE
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不久之前,他推估也就三、四個小時前,房裡氣氛僵硬,少女自顧自扒完那碗關東煮,然後就提出要離開。204Please respect copyright.PENANAhGtvjUM781
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他沒有阻攔。204Please respect copyright.PENANAi6PQGb5g1v
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她離開的時候,甚至順手把那袋關東煮的垃圾留在門邊。204Please respect copyright.PENANAcX6GNgLeDO
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夜色闌珊,窗外山頭一片漆黑,沒開燈的宿舍房間映出深沉。204Please respect copyright.PENANADmmtgYSCEU
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——那為什麼她不跟那袋垃圾一起留下啊。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAdAf9sdPtnY
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荒謬,他也沒挽留那袋垃圾啊。204Please respect copyright.PENANAb4TlzEVCx8
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……204Please respect copyright.PENANARt4d5VUlmH
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少年自嘲似的無聲笑了一下。204Please respect copyright.PENANAUJPUnURodY
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他覺得,自己可能腦子有病。204Please respect copyright.PENANAautAv0aVxG
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寒假那段期間,宿舍裡只有兩個人,其餘室友都不在。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAS5daYnlnOG
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還是同一個日子,仍然是同一個夜裡。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAOCQkUXARl0
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夜色很暗,男生宿舍,雙層床的上鋪裡,祁小波悄悄睜開了眼睛。 204Please respect copyright.PENANASLqSUOKT0Q
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——六、七歲孩子的年紀雖小,但她其實很敏銳。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAZx5i7wpKvJ
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祁小波有時候半夜醒來,會發現哥哥根本沒有在睡覺。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAz1EXVd140Z
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她睜開眼睛,房間裡很安靜,哥哥就坐在書桌前,眼神很空,不知道在想什麼。204Please respect copyright.PENANAlzABZYX6Y1
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祁小波不太理解「空洞」這個詞的意思,也還沒學會使用這種詞彙。204Please respect copyright.PENANAHzuzQCUfgW
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但她就是能察覺到,哥哥看起來好像沒什麼精神,眼底沒有光亮,有時候,甚至像是在看一個不存在的地方。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAwHU15hBAs6
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如果換作是平常,他的眼神必定是清醒的,帶有一種屬於少年的銳氣。204Please respect copyright.PENANAP3FQj4uaVC
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可是,在那種時候不一樣。 204Please respect copyright.PENANA46j5iDzMmH
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祁小波看不透她哥哥在想什麼。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAXs9pdRxWS7
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然後隔天早晨醒來之後,她會問一句:「哥哥,你昨天沒有睡覺嗎?」 204Please respect copyright.PENANAuq6QfvbkXD
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他會回答:「……睡了。」 204Please respect copyright.PENANAXLw23t7rmR
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——但是她知道,哥哥那時候一定是在說謊。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAhJS8hDqNDF
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祁小波的想法很單純,別人都以為她哥哥兇,但她知道並非那樣。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAjBqW5RKHOP
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她哥哥才不是真的兇呢,明明自己都沒錢,還是會偷偷給她買好吃的。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAxOTf9zhPtM
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他總是讓祁小波別亂跑、別吵鬧,但其實她一撒嬌,哥哥就會帶她去買糖吃。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAHfD2XrPxVB
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祁小波心裡的祁澈,或許是世界上最厲害最溫柔的一個人。204Please respect copyright.PENANAwKf70RicU0
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但是她覺得,有些時候,哥哥看起來很累。204Please respect copyright.PENANAJpXm8NJBic
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他的眼神會變得很淡、很靜,甚至有點「空」。 204Please respect copyright.PENANALtzJeA3efv
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祁小波有點害怕他這樣。204Please respect copyright.PENANAeeRgmYisj4
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那種時候,他會笑一下,但那只是一種「安撫小孩用的笑」,眼睛裡卻沒有真的笑意。 204Please respect copyright.PENANA4D4oL4SeTf
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這樣的笑,和平常完全不一樣,祁小波看得出來。204Please respect copyright.PENANAqFihIh89bC
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她不一定能理解「累」這個字的全部含義,但她能察覺到哥哥不對勁,然後用自己的方式去理解。204Please respect copyright.PENANAdEfP607VmN
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——哥哥每天都很累,但又不說。 204Please respect copyright.PENANAglW99Lcwa9
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祁小波不是笨蛋,她能看出來。204Please respect copyright.PENANAejL3XinYzh