向菱出教室,來到走廊上,突然就覺得南雨鎮的三月不存在春天。209Please respect copyright.PENANAMLrteVaGwc
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據說祁小波感冒了,所以向菱那天沒有陪她出去玩。209Please respect copyright.PENANAW7TGWFsyUX
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這事是祁澈先和她提的,那時他像是隨口一提,她點點頭,表示回應。 209Please respect copyright.PENANA1AGu6Kv8vN
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她原本和祁小波約好要一同去公園溜滑梯的,但因為此事,也只好之後再說了。209Please respect copyright.PENANAU5waNFFAxW
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海邊小鎮的春季多雨,多雲又帶點悶熱,海浪拍打得更加兇狠,雨下得更為頻繁。209Please respect copyright.PENANAfgdji9irxd
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用一個字來總結就是——躁。209Please respect copyright.PENANAZpE9q8s1NG
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高二下學期的春天,學生們到了適合思考自己生涯的年紀。 209Please respect copyright.PENANAJZ5AWmRy8h
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台上的教師總會在講課時有意無意地提起,同儕間偶爾也有討論,引起不少人開始規劃。209Please respect copyright.PENANAqpNzv1JeRE
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楊宛和向菱聊到這個話題時,楊宛提起了她的志向。 209Please respect copyright.PENANAT9BL8UnBFZ
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「我故鄉那所大學的服裝設計系!」 209Please respect copyright.PENANAUxTMHpR9N6
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幾個同班同學也跟著提出了各自的目標,似乎已經充滿鬥志。209Please respect copyright.PENANAfH5SfseROY
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某個女同學說道:「我想去北渝市!」209Please respect copyright.PENANAtMsIIM6NaS
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另一個男同學順著她的話建議,「我也是,要不我們結伴吧?」209Please respect copyright.PENANA3gzNyYpGqD
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「哈哈哈哈你們倆還真是般配——」209Please respect copyright.PENANAwy3EhtLlcD
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眾人笑鬧成一團,那對男女被同學們說得臉紅了。209Please respect copyright.PENANAQe9kSemPRY
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十七、八歲的年紀,本就應該意氣風發,昂首挺胸,耀眼熱烈。 209Please respect copyright.PENANADPdjLRTHXM
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向菱卻是在此時變得心不在焉,默默退出了討論。 209Please respect copyright.PENANAD6wVDPVFSS
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她一直以來,都有些迷惘。 209Please respect copyright.PENANANvFBzKeBYH
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少女悄然離開剛才嬉鬧著的人群,沒有目標的閒晃,直到她莫名其妙地抵達了教室外稍遠偏僻的走廊。209Please respect copyright.PENANA6f3SOxVctt
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那裡是安靜而沒有人煙的地方。 楊宛問了她不少關於將來的問題,她卻經常回答不上來。 209Please respect copyright.PENANA3UpXsNDZSJ
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「北渝市不錯啊,而且你已經是文學界的大人物了,感覺很有前途嘛。」209Please respect copyright.PENANAty1163wXHZ
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向菱不知道怎麼回應這種話。 209Please respect copyright.PENANAL1dO7fht0e
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因為她當初會步入文學,只是為了躲避身後的經濟、心理壓力,她只是想遠離。209Please respect copyright.PENANA21RJXauczz
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那時候,鄭娟因為向里的過世而開始出現異常行為,經濟困頓,她沒有專長又未達可以打工的年紀,於是只好拿出自己的興趣。209Please respect copyright.PENANArFrDnP3ysD
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結果最後越走越遠,她已經看不見家庭了。209Please respect copyright.PENANAAGEthYDfxl
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自那以後,她逐漸把寫故事當成了工作,而不是原先最純粹的興趣。 209Please respect copyright.PENANAiLJ9kTkK3s
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思考大綱成為習慣,那麼提筆寫作就是例行公事。209Please respect copyright.PENANAKbT87o456Z
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她仍然喜歡文字,仍會從故事裡得到快樂,不過她好像成為了一個工作狂,也對這樣的現況感到迷惑。 209Please respect copyright.PENANAAr2iImsoJm
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向菱覺得自己還挺矛盾的,遲遲想不通。 209Please respect copyright.PENANAoa7xdqjWPw
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她想起前陣子,室友王曉認真問過她的話。 209Please respect copyright.PENANAgpzHWn3nPN
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「你有想過未來嗎?」209Please respect copyright.PENANAFg0UZoh8VQ
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——怎麼想?209Please respect copyright.PENANAP4o2xRjla3
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要怎麼想,才是正確的? 209Please respect copyright.PENANABSUIrWvgms
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她那時候沒有回應,只是勉強扯了扯唇角,以示附和。 209Please respect copyright.PENANAq2XeWM6eiQ
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大家都具有計畫,擁有目標,唯有她卻像是迷路的小孩子似的,不知所措的站在交叉路口。209Please respect copyright.PENANASCVxQaYV5Z
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向菱不知道有沒有人可以來拉她一把。 209Please respect copyright.PENANAWTYypcP7vY
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後來,大概又過了一段時間,文壇裡的朋友言恬,她說的話迫使少女開始直接面對另一件事。 209Please respect copyright.PENANA0uukMDIP0Q
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——她似乎喜歡上一個人了。209Please respect copyright.PENANAHD2oIvkcME
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原來不知不覺間,她也抵達了,會因為學業和愛戀煩惱的年紀。209Please respect copyright.PENANAF9XVyBicnv
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那些事讓她愈來愈困惑,無法立即下決定但又無法乾脆割捨,陷入一種無止境的內耗裡。 209Please respect copyright.PENANAeK6b7qEQvM
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這很不像向菱以往的風格,不乾脆,而且拖泥帶水。 209Please respect copyright.PENANAcsGRhy93Yx
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她覺得越來越看不懂自己了。 209Please respect copyright.PENANAvGyKi4RoK5
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這麼稱呼似乎有點矯情,只不過她喜歡的人……算了,還是稱呼全名吧,祁澈。209Please respect copyright.PENANAxD99X4LDLA
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——她喜歡的人,祁澈,從中午那節午休之後就消失了、再也沒回教室了。 209Please respect copyright.PENANA4vd7kgiYSs
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這種事不是第一次發生了,下午時向菱問過沈中奕,對方一臉莫名的丟給她一句——你第一天認識祁澈嗎?209Please respect copyright.PENANAdSwZMLhOhj
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…… 話雖如此,向菱還是有一點想找他說話。209Please respect copyright.PENANARdpQUsngaA
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放學後,她打開手機,讓螢幕畫面在對話框裡停滯,一邊思忖著她應該說些什麼。 209Please respect copyright.PENANA1FCbZW2oft
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「祁澈。」 209Please respect copyright.PENANABiDJgSC6OZ
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無意識的輸入了這個名字。 209Please respect copyright.PENANAlnIgkRJVmc
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彷彿肢體比她先記住,這個人的身影。209Please respect copyright.PENANADEOEemDxFK
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奇怪了,她又不是失戀,只是和他說話的機會減少而已,自己在發什麼神經。209Please respect copyright.PENANAzTjfY4G0TA
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半個下午都過得魂不守舍,難道這個人是她過活必須的能量嗎?209Please respect copyright.PENANA39VEET6ifc
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她腹誹了一會,手動刪掉輸入框的文字,重新輸入。 209Please respect copyright.PENANAJChcbkWBOI
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——「在嗎?」不對。209Please respect copyright.PENANAKf0QhhX5ux
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意圖太明顯了。209Please respect copyright.PENANAPRygBzTKUA
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——「你在幹麼?」也不對,這樣未免太故意了點。209Please respect copyright.PENANAf6pqQUGc6l
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她猶豫著要發什麼訊息,最終還是沒發,盯著那個對話框框發怔。209Please respect copyright.PENANAYUwepwZ9Jt
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幾分鐘後,向菱挪動指尖,點按幾下手機,忽然突發奇想決定給他取個名稱備註。209Please respect copyright.PENANAaTKC7Zlfd2
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指尖在空白的名稱框裡停頓了下。 209Please respect copyright.PENANA3fFPzmSFXx
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然後,她沒什麼猶豫的從手機鍵盤裡戳出一個「?」,想表示神秘又行蹤不明的意味。209Please respect copyright.PENANA4EkyBiQo5a
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三秒鐘後又迅速刪掉,默默改成了別的內容。 209Please respect copyright.PENANAFC3URdy1Fk
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她怔了幾秒才按下確定按鈕,看著新備註,她突然覺得心裡樂得不行,唯一美中不足的是她有些羞恥。 209Please respect copyright.PENANAxl33dFnzta
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新備註:「我才不喜歡他」。 209Please respect copyright.PENANA7o4KBWUn04
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看著新取的備註,少女的唇角壓抑不住地往上翹。 209Please respect copyright.PENANAluEAtkFc5n
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她還在傻笑,一則新訊息突然從底部彈出,對方的訊息竟然主動來了。 209Please respect copyright.PENANAhEGKy5tzoc
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祁澈極少主動找她,所以向菱有點驚訝又有點愉悅,她點擊訊息閱讀。209Please respect copyright.PENANAcQT3vRk3vR
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那封簡訊,簡單直接而且很有他的風格,只有一句「在嗎」,甚至沒有附上標點符號。 209Please respect copyright.PENANAkZWjVwYGly
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向菱本來打算秒回,但突然想起言恬的話,於是便退出聊天框,刻意延遲了幾分鐘才回覆。209Please respect copyright.PENANAsYUynCCnVk
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……意義不明的舉動,大概只有這麼傻的人才幹得出來。209Please respect copyright.PENANAbMK0kpipkF
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向菱:「在。」209Please respect copyright.PENANAVQYscUagiH
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突然有些好奇對方給她取什麼備註。 209Please respect copyright.PENANAP1l7YmDFAH
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對面的訊息停頓了幾秒,像是在斟酌怎麼開始,然後才發送過來:「你在男生宿舍嗎。」209Please respect copyright.PENANAuiSpLpKJPH
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教室換座位之後,向菱還是經常找祁小波玩耍,熟悉之後變得像姊妹一般親暱。209Please respect copyright.PENANAzMICxtOhcP
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——只是,她很少在宿舍碰到祁澈。209Please respect copyright.PENANAC9MfSuZCuh
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想想也對,他似乎極為頻繁的打工。記得某天她路過魚市,碰見他在那裡幫忙一個老人將新鮮的魚隻裝進大袋子。209Please respect copyright.PENANASQUTdwKjxS
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她知道他每天固定蹺掉的那節午休,都是去給祁小波帶飯的,但這不為其他人知道。209Please respect copyright.PENANAkTwS6PcnE5
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向菱回覆:「祁小波感冒了啊,你早上說的,所以我今天沒過去。」209Please respect copyright.PENANAsJ4fX7xC2a
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「怎麼了嗎?」她敲下這行,然後送出。 209Please respect copyright.PENANAxiYUcWVcqE
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訊息傳送到網路彼端,很快已讀,接著對方的文字沒幾秒又傳過來,「明天也別去那裡。」209Please respect copyright.PENANAzWxdtculMt
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——向菱不懂他的意思。 209Please respect copyright.PENANAnR5NqJNRXR
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她用一隻手指戳出單個符號:「?」209Please respect copyright.PENANARzvrZPCWaX
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這一次,祁澈的訊息許久沒有傳來回覆,久到她差點以為他網路掉線了。209Please respect copyright.PENANAYWpjaPN3a4
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從以前到現在,還是第一次出現這種情況。209Please respect copyright.PENANAiamh78xh8O
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她常和祁小波玩,他沒阻止過。她經常去男生宿舍遛達,和小女孩一起亂翻他的東西,他也沒拒絕過。209Please respect copyright.PENANAqOSi0Va7tr
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向菱有點錯愕,心想這人的態度轉換得有些過快。 209Please respect copyright.PENANAfoqadh93ja
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她故作玩笑的發送,「你是被盜號了?」 209Please respect copyright.PENANApeBWECFYRj
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「沒。」否認得倒還挺快。 209Please respect copyright.PENANAhm3hgN0S5U
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「那是怎麼了?我和小波約好明天要去公園盪鞦韆的。」 209Please respect copyright.PENANA7JJek11Btu
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「抱歉。」 209Please respect copyright.PENANAenxx4Lxo11
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少女打字的手驀地僵住了。209Please respect copyright.PENANAiiuF06EU1n
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其實她的第一反應是——這傢伙居然會道歉啊?真稀奇。209Please respect copyright.PENANAnAAOf8II4I
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緊接著她的思緒是這樣運轉的:等一下,他真的在道歉嗎?靠,好像是認真的,不對,他幹麼道歉?209Please respect copyright.PENANAgKEhQ2Xa8t
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為什麼要和她說抱歉?209Please respect copyright.PENANAJXLfbuq8yO
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一瞬間,她的腦子像是過載了,運轉不過來,甚至倏地空白。 209Please respect copyright.PENANA8ujMYhEWdt
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這算什麼,變相拒絕還是撇清關係? 209Please respect copyright.PENANASaelSeBpDj
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她首先聯想到的是電視上的八點檔連續劇。209Please respect copyright.PENANAXHgrqP5BXm
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對不起我們不要再打擾彼此了、就這樣結束吧、再這樣下去也不會有結果……為什麼她滿腦子都是這種沒梗的俗濫台詞。209Please respect copyright.PENANAaXULfBfN7E
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突然就慌亂了起來。209Please respect copyright.PENANA3aDqqqihUw
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但是喜歡一個人的心思,本來就是很敏感的,她知道自己反應不應該這麼大,因為一句抱歉。 209Please respect copyright.PENANAZ7H2mXRWnj
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又或者因為失去了一種可能「巧遇」他的機會。209Please respect copyright.PENANA9A06d9Ap0s
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少女開始胡思亂想,腦袋一團暴亂。 209Please respect copyright.PENANAXD4N5dtqQE
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難道他已經意識到她的喜歡,於是決定開始疏遠她了嗎? 209Please respect copyright.PENANAljb2JjlW3I
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她陷入一種莫名的恐慌裡,像是憑空懸浮於半空中,踩不到地板,像是失重。 209Please respect copyright.PENANAmPd415VYno
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這種感覺,一點都不踏實。 209Please respect copyright.PENANAdLAmymqPWr
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窗外陰雨綿綿,烏雲潛伏在暗色裡,連消失都悄然無聲。209Please respect copyright.PENANAxM0U3AVoQh
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隔天是周休,但向菱絲毫開心不起來。209Please respect copyright.PENANAk7PlaTjP2W
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她一旦變得鬱悶,就經常直接倒頭就睡,因為現實讓她覺得很累,睡眠做夢反倒是最好的去處。209Please respect copyright.PENANAZSEUwF1p0g
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室友們見慣了她假日睡長覺的習慣,都見怪不怪,放輕了動靜,不驚擾到少女。209Please respect copyright.PENANAwlQiQpOUrs
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她睡得比平時更晚了一點。209Please respect copyright.PENANA1IAvw6HOaA
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下午起床時,她覺得胃臟空得發慌,腳步沉重虛浮,囫圇拆了幾包糖果餅乾了事。 209Please respect copyright.PENANApnhTw6FN65
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過了一小段時間,向菱才打起精神訂外賣。209Please respect copyright.PENANAdjWlGP6vGy
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