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昨晚都豁出去了，加上程華笑得那般燦爛篤定，季慈如壯士斷腕般唱了流行歌曲的副歌：「我只是難過不能陪你一起老～」他每唱一個音都一邊觀察程華的臉色。第一個音方落，程華的笑容有點破裂，隨著第二第三個音到最後一個字，程華的臉色已經全僵了。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUq7RNBIj8P
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季慈閉上嘴，面無表情地與程華對望。半晌後他率先撇開視線，有點難為情的按著自己的頸側，對眼下的沉默感到愧疚與不自在。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf0jykiQ1Ts
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心底暗罵自己幹嘛真的要唱，嚇到人了。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8nr9bpf293
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「……對不起，真的很難聽。」117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0oj0pDSuom
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程華乾咳幾聲，繞到季慈面前，也是一副欲言又止的模樣。「我不該勉強你，這算我的不是，只是……」117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrDkkcTwX3O
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「只是？」季慈好奇他的後話，轉頭看他。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS29X8Vg9gI
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「下次你喝醉再唱一次吧，我相信以我的酒量可以撐到你喝醉唱歌，並且錄起來放給你聽。」117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCFOmspE19
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程華如此保證。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRUWXSteocs
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季慈見程華注視他的目光又恢復到最初的樣子，他拍胸脯爽朗的笑著，他便順著心意笑應聲好。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡewAjY875Q5
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至此，程華開始找各種名目和季慈約會。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1vfN4sMpgg
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那天他送季慈回家，藉著交換手機號碼以及稍早的隨口邀約，順利討到季慈這一個月的班表，清楚季慈上班值勤的時間不能帶手機後，程華配合的用訊息邀約。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDnyiiZD8eC
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例如。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY2QZFpXK8k
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「親愛的電梯先生，可否賞臉下次休假一起去看個電影？」117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpnfAVkBp5I
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過了幾個小時：「好。」117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnirz5T8yQk
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又例如。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP28iiF0nYY
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「下周國家音樂廳有鋼琴獨奏會，一起去？」117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ScxOGqU1A
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季慈也會說好。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBcFvEPqzCM
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季慈很好邀約，抓到季慈喜好的程華自得意滿的想。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnBJNM6LL78
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程華自詡為一個愛好藝術的變態，喜愛看展、看電影、鋼琴表演與舞蹈皆能拿出手，可之前的對象多數都喜歡購物逛街，好不容易讓他遇到一個也喜歡悠閒逛展欣賞藝術的對象，程華覺得季慈的出現十分難能可貴。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJb6M5HLsY
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每一次約會程華都感到自己越來越貼近季慈，卻在摸不透的狀況下，有時如墜入五里雲霧中，生出一頭霧水。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnBITzy44Gz
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那天他們逛的是歷史攝影展，牆上一幀幀巨幅照片，黑白的畫面裡訴說著當時充滿煙硝的歷史。黑白灰階與強烈光影構成簡單又深邃的世界，輕巧的帶過當年的沉重，只見少女立在窗前，穿透玻璃的陽光在她臉上拖曳出大片深色，她的目光越過玻璃，好像正對著下方仰望拍攝她的鏡頭，頰邊凝著一滴淚。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeUgvYzZlAw
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程華以往看展都非常認真，跟季慈時卻不同，他的注意力無法長時間凝聚在展覽上，他目光不停的分散到季慈身上，看著他的臉或者第一眼吸引他的長腿跟翹臀。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPD382Km7jG
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不覺間他們停在這張照片前很久，季慈仰望照片動也不動，甚至久久才眨一次眼，程華意外窺見他眼底的一絲落寞，似乎透過這張照片見著了什麼般目光飄遠。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡejLKyCqXSX
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「喜歡這張？」程華打斷了季慈的出神，季慈偏頭看向他，表情苦澀的讓程華想好好地抱著安慰一番，縱使他什麼也不知道。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeQyuxR6pQU
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「……嗯，很有感觸。」季慈笑了笑，言詞間歛去了苦澀，程華有那麼一瞬想開口問問他的故事，但是季慈推了他一把，他們雙雙移動到旁邊的展覽品。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CKVEnuxyd
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展覽的尾端是近代的黑白攝影作品，欣欣向榮的夜景，燈泡的亮度在照片的黑裡變成點點繁星。他們離開最後一個作品前，逛進了紀念品區。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdQa1rv2uw2
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「程華，我買一下東西。」季慈拉住程華，低頭令一手在架上翻看紀念小物。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyxbGjbugUP
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某次展覽結束，程華按照往常僅只簡單瀏覽一圈紀念品區的商品便打算離開，當時他不知道季慈有個小習慣，若是今天的展覽季慈很喜歡，他就會在這裡買一個他認為能夠代表這場展覽的小物。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77d9LV6PTl
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不過看展覽的喜好本來就人各有異，但季慈挑選代表物的方式常常受他看展覽的情緒影響，就像現在——117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmEqwJogG60
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季慈原本抓住他的手正拿著剛才讓他停駐許久的照片製成的小鑰匙圈，另一隻手則是拿著同宣傳海報圖案的小吊飾。程華可以明顯感受到季慈面無表情之下的苦惱，他之前曾推他：如果苦惱的話兩個都買。但季慈很堅持只要一個，幾次下來程華就習慣在這時候站在一旁，欣賞季慈發愁的表情。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQEVOuhnHg
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最後季慈選擇了海報圖案的小吊飾，離開後他們撐著傘並肩信步在雨中，程華疑惑的問：「怎麼不是另一個？」117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyZkglMwNMg
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「那張照片讓我想起不好的回憶。」季慈低聲說道。程華首次在季慈臉上看見近似不屑的神情。他應該不是在為了上一段感情傷神。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZSWAFApTm
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「那就別想。」程華將雨傘給季慈。「幫我拿著一下。」117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMp3vjabbmo
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季慈看著程華從口袋掏出錢包，抽出了兩張繪有花樣圖案的票券。「一張給你。等下次天氣好去個不一樣的地方。」117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL6KbbGFyE6
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那是兩張遊樂園入場券。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu003K2VAW2
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「這……」季慈睜大眼對著手中的票券愣了愣，旋即笑了起來：「你還真是童心未泯。」117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCp3syje8J
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看見季慈的笑容，程華也笑了，這票果然就該這時候拿出來。「陪我去吧？這輩子還沒去過遊樂園。」117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm1kUyzZwcb
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「這輩子？」季慈滿臉訝異的愣在當下。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ06CJnBp9AG
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「是，就是這輩子。」程華聳聳肩，「以前家教嚴，那時候很羨慕別人可以去玩。跟我去吧？」117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSLcUJR8PsZ
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程華怕季慈不答應，耍了些小技倆用小時候的事情打算動之以情，沒料到季慈仍維持一貫的乾脆，直接了當的說：「好。」讓程華完全搞不懂是小聰明發揮作用，還是季慈本來就沒打算拒絕他。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr4nQykzLu9
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結果這場雨連下了一個月，程華就乾巴巴的等了一個月。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO4reUzEcSJ
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等候的日子裡，程華多發現了一個季慈的規矩。季慈看似輕鬆隨和，但實際上是個個性非常正經，還有特多規矩的人，新發現就是——他不喜歡接受臨時邀約。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWvvqopDP5L
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前陣子程華打電話與季慈夜聊——這閒聊完全是誤打誤撞撿到的機會。季慈喜歡在睡前看書，恰好那天他撞到季慈想要與人討論劇情，兩人就這樣你一言我一語的討論起來，漸漸地睡前閒聊變成一個習慣——當他知道季慈隔天休假，已經連續兩周忙得沒空約季慈出遊，程華立刻提出邀約，卻沒想到那是他第一次被拒絕。從此之後，就記下了這個小習慣。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwtDvvYHWYZ
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不過，隨和如季慈，正經也如季慈，看見刺激的遊樂設施，還是忍不住露出猶疑的臉色。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsjZc6KtRYj
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「一定要先從這麼刺激的開始嗎？」季慈仰望高處，飛車鐵軌近乎九十度，向下俯衝的剎那有好多道尖叫聲，順著車體劃過的軌跡，綿延到另一端。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKCdt9RTcQ
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「那我們先從海盜船開始？」程華比向遠一點的海盜船，海盜船旁邊有更溫馴的旋轉木馬正撥放兒歌。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWDwcUmVbWM
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季慈動手將程華的食指改比在旋轉木馬上。「可以從這個開始嗎？」117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDXUIzWqtq
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程華瞄了眼幾乎就快要貼在自己身上的季慈，內心瞬間開出朵朵小花，瞬間排除了他腦裡的不良念頭。這種變相示弱，讓季慈顯得很迷人。「好啊。」117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtHSST1uOui
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他們從三歲小朋友愛玩的旋轉木馬一路玩起，花了一個上午的時間，等季慈的膽子養肥了點，才坐上海盜船。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡra3gBCt0aH
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剛坐上的時候季慈很正常，還能跟他聊過陣子文創區有什麼特展，說想要去看。可設施開始搖擺，季慈突然噤聲，雙手緊握身前欄杆，再等到擺幅更大時，季慈不抓欄杆了，他騰出一隻手，緊緊抓住程華的。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡczqdS6Tgk0
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程華毫不客氣的將抓改為握，在盪到最高點的時候，貼到季慈耳邊說：「喊出來、喊出來，喊出來就不怕了！」117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj2EvNE44t0
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然後程華如願看見季慈強忍恐懼依賴著他的表情，還伴隨著悅耳的尖叫。117Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9oEYkw6Vam
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內心的小花霎時開得如花海般絢爛。
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