第一回傳送門403Please respect copyright.PENANAsjjDGaQ5cL
他在床上徐徐張眼。403Please respect copyright.PENANA0CeR9Y4tpr
403Please respect copyright.PENANAKhDO2g9yGc
床褥太軟,腰骨微痛。這不是家裡的床。403Please respect copyright.PENANAUwghgmNwkV
403Please respect copyright.PENANAkxTnNvX6zL
暈眩冉退,目光聚焦。看見多張整齊排列的病床和面無血色的老者,他瞬間得出以下結論——醫院。403Please respect copyright.PENANA3K4GPMqJCm
403Please respect copyright.PENANANe0dUYkgU8
嗯。醫院。403Please respect copyright.PENANAgpXkNEjtdO
403Please respect copyright.PENANALfjKuWjzGa
接受醫生的檢查,證實無恙後,獲告知可以隨時出院。護士根據過往紀錄,已通知兒子和媳婦,只待他們前來接送。403Please respect copyright.PENANADK28CoiY9T
403Please respect copyright.PENANAzOmNtlClQm
醫生離開後,護士也去忙別的。403Please respect copyright.PENANAho4LKFvKLY
403Please respect copyright.PENANAJ4PdD2muCc
他呆坐床上,默默看著醫護人員在多張病床之間來來回回,感覺實在又虛幻——活到這個年紀,總得要到醫院走幾趟,實屬平常不過的事情,對吧?403Please respect copyright.PENANABqqMj3tf1E
403Please respect copyright.PENANAZMiT0Vfroy
如他所料,兒子在晚上八時許現身。一臉倦容。403Please respect copyright.PENANAjYD66GM3N1
403Please respect copyright.PENANAk2KDVobUqE
「醫生說我沒大礙。可能是公園太熱,熱昏了。」403Please respect copyright.PENANA7mOkdhBGOU
403Please respect copyright.PENANAGDayFCw821
「那就多待在家裡避暑,不要外出四處走動。」403Please respect copyright.PENANAqpVuFDrKeS
403Please respect copyright.PENANAfDbLSuLjO7
「知道。」403Please respect copyright.PENANAcnHIhy8X5K
403Please respect copyright.PENANACs85nB3wva
兒子攙扶他走出醫院,在街邊截下的士,直驅住所。403Please respect copyright.PENANAcROcxMAU7b
403Please respect copyright.PENANA9j9bnDXxl2
車廂裡,二人不發一言,各自對著窗外景物發愣。403Please respect copyright.PENANArLfs9crau0
403Please respect copyright.PENANAvtyrQupa7S
沒有怨氣或鬱結,只有緩解不了的疲憊。身心俱疲。403Please respect copyright.PENANAVFFYrdzKT5
403Please respect copyright.PENANAv4dIYPxkfu
黃色街燈在夜幕下迅速往後退。一盞、兩盞、三盞……不盡,無窮。403Please respect copyright.PENANA2MSX0pPh3y
403Please respect copyright.PENANAqVoJrqH1ZV
兒子倏忽開口,神色惘然。403Please respect copyright.PENANAlB6O1NwXcy
403Please respect copyright.PENANApavjBmNIMZ
「我有末期肝癌,剩半年壽命。」403Please respect copyright.PENANAhLeTShpcGj
403Please respect copyright.PENANASb9RxbXerH
「她知道了沒?」403Please respect copyright.PENANAF879mgwvtP
403Please respect copyright.PENANAJ95tBduZEW
「不打算告訴她。」403Please respect copyright.PENANAZn6ROLfPiA
403Please respect copyright.PENANABqhKqbxBI1
「你如何在她不知情的情況下抽時間接受治療?」403Please respect copyright.PENANA3kkJMtBuV9
403Please respect copyright.PENANAHrarspLzL0
兒子笑而不語。403Please respect copyright.PENANA41r9JxQ8On
403Please respect copyright.PENANA9erZfdjc4j
他愣住片刻,良久才道:「明白。」403Please respect copyright.PENANA9oWAgBqFed
403Please respect copyright.PENANAR7rnuv2kMB
兒子輕拍他的肩膊,以示感謝。403Please respect copyright.PENANA2v28uCTJel
403Please respect copyright.PENANA9mL0tnWOkc
抵家。兒子依舊朝妻兒溫柔地微笑。他沒作聲,逕自到浴室洗澡去。403Please respect copyright.PENANAGvYtWFoOnc
403Please respect copyright.PENANA7fOhxWFnkz
蒸氣瀰漫,看得見,抓不著。甚麼也抓不著。抓不著開始,也抓不著終結。403Please respect copyright.PENANAgDlUyTHq2R
403Please respect copyright.PENANAxRLrANYpGi
沒選擇的情況下被生產下來,沒能選擇長大與否,沒選擇的情況下經歷病痛,沒選擇的情況下死去。生老病死,全是沒能選擇的。403Please respect copyright.PENANA46sobauWYw
403Please respect copyright.PENANAVYIkBfGMdU
翌日,兒子和媳婦如常上班,孫兒如常上學,家裡只餘他一人。百無聊賴。403Please respect copyright.PENANAgHcMNDzWjI
403Please respect copyright.PENANALBqjEkwjEg
他決定到公園走走。403Please respect copyright.PENANAwp53bfzxa2
403Please respect copyright.PENANACYqLjqjc6s
樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。403Please respect copyright.PENANAAACQO4QyP7
403Please respect copyright.PENANAxeKMvpqmAM
此樹是否去年那樹?此鳥是否去年那鳥?此蟲是否去年那蟲?要緊,不要緊。在意,沒能在意。403Please respect copyright.PENANAL2bGGkmqMl
403Please respect copyright.PENANA3ghOxQKO2j
幽幽踏步,皆因內心焦躁。403Please respect copyright.PENANAKEhfv2b8uQ
403Please respect copyright.PENANAKuo2V3lUgJ
來到涼亭,棋友們向他問好。他笑說自己比年輕人更健康。棋友們以為再也看不見他,感到難過。他認為無論難過與否,該死的時候總得要死。403Please respect copyright.PENANA62bNEWfgqc
403Please respect copyright.PENANAtjkgkMQqna
全場一片默然。403Please respect copyright.PENANArUaKCgi9QO
403Please respect copyright.PENANA79WKEhagyD
聊聊笑笑罷。下棋耍樂罷。403Please respect copyright.PENANAYhDxqojOBq
403Please respect copyright.PENANAPjpxtUEVlr
不要問為何。不要問感受。403Please respect copyright.PENANAOReI5bHfJA
403Please respect copyright.PENANAVUjrbZeP5p
有如那樹那鳥那蟲。沒能在意。403Please respect copyright.PENANAIKe3oNehzK
403Please respect copyright.PENANAXyMWGTAgH3
正午,他前去學校接送孫兒。孫兒說吃過同學送的怪味糖果後身體輕微不適。他不以為然。下午,孫兒痾嘔不止。聯絡不上兒子和媳婦,他只好獨個兒帶孫兒到醫院去。輪候期間,一張發白的熟悉臉孔癱軟在擔架床上,被匆匆推送入急症室深處。403Please respect copyright.PENANAejIZQgCnZB
403Please respect copyright.PENANA9lr7Ks4hQg
那是今早與他談笑風生的其中一位棋友。403Please respect copyright.PENANANTNf7yb8ey
403Please respect copyright.PENANATN7cOSDwSB
數個身穿便服的男女先後抵達護士站,然後按指示守在急症室外。沒多久,醫生步出急症室,宣告棋友的死訊。男男女女隨即哭作一團。403Please respect copyright.PENANAiDI5Rj6FM1
403Please respect copyright.PENANAM0mwM2dCIZ
他默默將孫兒擁入懷裡。403Please respect copyright.PENANAFu2dP0iTC1
403Please respect copyright.PENANALJEz1Kdb9j
心慌的極致原來是平靜和淡然,皆因透徹體悟到自身的無能無力無奈。403Please respect copyright.PENANAv3uTmzoblZ
403Please respect copyright.PENANAbhe9lAvkCI
「爺爺,很熱啊!」不知袖裡的孫兒輕輕推開他。403Please respect copyright.PENANAMwi13huybf
403Please respect copyright.PENANA0juhjxQAHX
「嗯。」對於眼前一切,他花盡全身力氣發出渺小的一聲。403Please respect copyright.PENANAgCuHUxQKAu
403Please respect copyright.PENANANbhvn1lqUX
晚餐後,兒子在露台抽菸,媳婦在廚房洗碗。孫兒是個好動的孩子,五分鐘前肚痾得雙腿發軟,此刻已然在梳化上跳個不停。403Please respect copyright.PENANALqBukGmsjo
403Please respect copyright.PENANA7H8BjVQGRb
跳跳跳,有節奏地跳個不停,像心臟。403Please respect copyright.PENANAVmYZfeR0m2
403Please respect copyright.PENANAojjyBSEucm
心臟停止跳動當刻,棋友有何感受?掛念未完的棋局?掛念急症室外的男女親友?403Please respect copyright.PENANAivacqyR22N
403Please respect copyright.PENANAyjybmpGkuv
他的目光不期然落瞄向露台,看著兒子呼出個個煙圈,圈圈復圈圈,冉升消散不復見。403Please respect copyright.PENANAoufn6PrjOl
403Please respect copyright.PENANA3WRhNo61gI
不復見。403Please respect copyright.PENANAl2iaHwaGqf
403Please respect copyright.PENANAF69q59Fmee
他莫名的被深深憾動。403Please respect copyright.PENANAoRCiKSoXtF
403Please respect copyright.PENANAkBWTovJ8F4
走到兒子身邊,告知棋友的死訊。403Please respect copyright.PENANAPBWfWNekNm
403Please respect copyright.PENANAJdMadxfobw
毋須明言,兒子已猜測到他的用意。403Please respect copyright.PENANAJZD5WSb0mN
403Please respect copyright.PENANAkhajv8OAlS
「我不怕死。」403Please respect copyright.PENANAhEPzvmwvRc
403Please respect copyright.PENANA8GNKB0qCud
「我也不怕死——死亡並不可怕,只怕沒能完成想要完成的事。」403Please respect copyright.PENANAydM9ad2iY7
403Please respect copyright.PENANAqCv2UnOMD0
「你有沒有想要完成的事?」403Please respect copyright.PENANAgPdSCD3fCx
403Please respect copyright.PENANA3zooAhfphx
「每年夏天買『菠蘿油』給你媽。」403Please respect copyright.PENANAjhrFgnyEy4
403Please respect copyright.PENANAJ4mh2BG0dA
「她的叮囑?」403Please respect copyright.PENANAcwdZWNF0yc
403Please respect copyright.PENANAFRFSVyEo6k
「不。她離開得太突然,我沒機會問她,只得按照她生前喜好去估計她的心思。」403Please respect copyright.PENANAncFQPSYPig
403Please respect copyright.PENANAgeWWXI6bjg
「別傻!她不願看見你耿耿於懷!」403Please respect copyright.PENANAF9A60RkvGf
403Please respect copyright.PENANANiBEsoaTCt
「她沒這麼說。」403Please respect copyright.PENANAGNtuiw8SGK
403Please respect copyright.PENANA2qcTdmDfAJ
兒子苦笑,笑他彆扭。403Please respect copyright.PENANAhyDY1rZry2
403Please respect copyright.PENANA6KhrBDvHnT
再次不了了之?他以為是,直至夜半聞得媳婦哭聲不絕。403Please respect copyright.PENANAlCoRgZVTil
403Please respect copyright.PENANAYmjKQR5Eps
無論大家怎樣勸說,兒子依然不願接受治療,堅持要盡量留下金錢予家人。403Please respect copyright.PENANA0D7vTvBMf7
403Please respect copyright.PENANAHrtSCgCJUf
半年後,兒子沒死去。一年後,兒子仍活著。三年半後,兒子依然沒斷氣。403Please respect copyright.PENANAT5ADubIxVJ
403Please respect copyright.PENANATGWmL9BVHR
問何解。醫生說原因不明,但癌細胞消失了。兒子說只想盡力工作賺錢養活家人。403Please respect copyright.PENANACeElrkwIo2
403Please respect copyright.PENANAeTcFq9CXdR
離開醫院、歸家路上,兒子和他拐到公園散步去。403Please respect copyright.PENANAsmuHKcXVqZ
403Please respect copyright.PENANAb199OD7Y6q
樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。403Please respect copyright.PENANAEo0zJUmRlD
403Please respect copyright.PENANAMP4Jp35f1r
「你多活了三年半。」403Please respect copyright.PENANAHQ7emo47XY
403Please respect copyright.PENANAzqKky8sDvw
「我多吃了三個『菠蘿油』。」403Please respect copyright.PENANACWueEvPJCR
403Please respect copyright.PENANAU3yOd9GznG
「想繼續吃?」403Please respect copyright.PENANAf2OTP4U1JQ
403Please respect copyright.PENANAErn4Aykufs
「是。期待下一個夏天。」403Please respect copyright.PENANAkMLYGqA57K
403Please respect copyright.PENANA4PwaiWU7Uo
兒子認為這次大病是上天的提醒,希望他往後好好珍惜時間。打算辭職休養一段日子,在接下來的暑假與大家出國旅遊後,才重回職場繼續拼搏。403Please respect copyright.PENANApfjojJyvpr
403Please respect copyright.PENANAOPnwcVBUjn
他為兒子衷心高興著,亦感謝上蒼的好生之德,沒有帶走……403Please respect copyright.PENANA0dzgAxOrej
403Please respect copyright.PENANAXvM9unoAZs
兒子呢?403Please respect copyright.PENANAYIAc9XsBSf
403Please respect copyright.PENANAMXq0Mnoj0f
悉才尚在身邊的兒子不見蹤影。403Please respect copyright.PENANAgTRxfdLe7j
403Please respect copyright.PENANAnbPFMypPQR
啊!記起來了。403Please respect copyright.PENANAjJwQLerRJ5
403Please respect copyright.PENANATAZfr1g7tt
兒子去年在暑假前遇上意外,下半身癱瘓。沒能出國旅遊,沒能重回職場,沒能享受期待已久的夏日。403Please respect copyright.PENANAUi6WiQcO83
403Please respect copyright.PENANApjDuxjX6TU
果然。403Please respect copyright.PENANAiUDR4aLtos
403Please respect copyright.PENANA0R28V0RhkJ
不努力走下去,就不會知道下一個夏天是甚麼光景。403Please respect copyright.PENANAj0glUv6TRu
403Please respect copyright.PENANAATQeMBtNA3
婆娑樹影之下、鳥叫蟲鳴之中,他繼續走。403Please respect copyright.PENANAfFrS2fWp7q
403Please respect copyright.PENANAMrajwLhnPV
幽幽踏步慢慢走。403Please respect copyright.PENANA96WENx3uP0