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他在床上徐徐張眼。395Please respect copyright.PENANAj6blwT2wKT
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床褥太軟,腰骨微痛。這不是家裡的床。395Please respect copyright.PENANANkL75LVWSE
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暈眩冉退,目光聚焦。看見多張整齊排列的病床和面無血色的老者,他瞬間得出以下結論——醫院。395Please respect copyright.PENANAqlsVGrF0th
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嗯。醫院。395Please respect copyright.PENANANH9YWZMQfk
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接受醫生的檢查,證實無恙後,獲告知可以隨時出院。護士根據過往紀錄,已通知兒子和媳婦,只待他們前來接送。395Please respect copyright.PENANAdw8a4xXCUS
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醫生離開後,護士也去忙別的。395Please respect copyright.PENANATXppU9FRYq
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他呆坐床上,默默看著醫護人員在多張病床之間來來回回,感覺實在又虛幻——活到這個年紀,總得要到醫院走幾趟,實屬平常不過的事情,對吧?395Please respect copyright.PENANAS8e2g4Yozf
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如他所料,兒子在晚上八時許現身。一臉倦容。395Please respect copyright.PENANAvL8rYu3LK7
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「醫生說我沒大礙。可能是公園太熱,熱昏了。」395Please respect copyright.PENANAJngvGiUn0P
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「那就多待在家裡避暑,不要外出四處走動。」395Please respect copyright.PENANAZuEOM7XRhN
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「知道。」395Please respect copyright.PENANAj16OyuLgYw
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兒子攙扶他走出醫院,在街邊截下的士,直驅住所。395Please respect copyright.PENANAlFU0oc1GqO
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車廂裡,二人不發一言,各自對著窗外景物發愣。395Please respect copyright.PENANAALaMPkIeY6
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沒有怨氣或鬱結,只有緩解不了的疲憊。身心俱疲。395Please respect copyright.PENANAZkCalW4E2G
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黃色街燈在夜幕下迅速往後退。一盞、兩盞、三盞……不盡,無窮。395Please respect copyright.PENANAXD3Ji3yfLD
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兒子倏忽開口,神色惘然。395Please respect copyright.PENANAnVxUzFIWoQ
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「我有末期肝癌,剩半年壽命。」395Please respect copyright.PENANAnBytFpSBct
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「她知道了沒?」395Please respect copyright.PENANACHhouGSp3k
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「不打算告訴她。」395Please respect copyright.PENANAJCTQMWWSNf
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「你如何在她不知情的情況下抽時間接受治療?」395Please respect copyright.PENANAr2JVJKf2ej
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兒子笑而不語。395Please respect copyright.PENANAJihXvL3ut0
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他愣住片刻,良久才道:「明白。」395Please respect copyright.PENANAufT23LBwcQ
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兒子輕拍他的肩膊,以示感謝。395Please respect copyright.PENANAnP25yl5LG6
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抵家。兒子依舊朝妻兒溫柔地微笑。他沒作聲,逕自到浴室洗澡去。395Please respect copyright.PENANAn5DIjk9i0A
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蒸氣瀰漫,看得見,抓不著。甚麼也抓不著。抓不著開始,也抓不著終結。395Please respect copyright.PENANAyGIhclDP0A
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沒選擇的情況下被生產下來,沒能選擇長大與否,沒選擇的情況下經歷病痛,沒選擇的情況下死去。生老病死,全是沒能選擇的。395Please respect copyright.PENANAONGGuvAOVC
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翌日,兒子和媳婦如常上班,孫兒如常上學,家裡只餘他一人。百無聊賴。395Please respect copyright.PENANA20jTTXejpc
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他決定到公園走走。395Please respect copyright.PENANAzGv7fJGeT7
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樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。395Please respect copyright.PENANAoo4eExh6Bb
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此樹是否去年那樹?此鳥是否去年那鳥?此蟲是否去年那蟲?要緊,不要緊。在意,沒能在意。395Please respect copyright.PENANAbxn8qyMsdF
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幽幽踏步,皆因內心焦躁。395Please respect copyright.PENANAB3IwsqhmJQ
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來到涼亭,棋友們向他問好。他笑說自己比年輕人更健康。棋友們以為再也看不見他,感到難過。他認為無論難過與否,該死的時候總得要死。395Please respect copyright.PENANAsimMDqbeUb
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全場一片默然。395Please respect copyright.PENANA6GueQC7iOx
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聊聊笑笑罷。下棋耍樂罷。395Please respect copyright.PENANA7hJMuygKwE
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不要問為何。不要問感受。395Please respect copyright.PENANAgbTv2Gz6Pj
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有如那樹那鳥那蟲。沒能在意。395Please respect copyright.PENANAep5vVe7O1j
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正午,他前去學校接送孫兒。孫兒說吃過同學送的怪味糖果後身體輕微不適。他不以為然。下午,孫兒痾嘔不止。聯絡不上兒子和媳婦,他只好獨個兒帶孫兒到醫院去。輪候期間,一張發白的熟悉臉孔癱軟在擔架床上,被匆匆推送入急症室深處。395Please respect copyright.PENANAGTWdkLD9P3
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那是今早與他談笑風生的其中一位棋友。395Please respect copyright.PENANAggYPWgFJCQ
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數個身穿便服的男女先後抵達護士站,然後按指示守在急症室外。沒多久,醫生步出急症室,宣告棋友的死訊。男男女女隨即哭作一團。395Please respect copyright.PENANAgO85SIiIVX
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他默默將孫兒擁入懷裡。395Please respect copyright.PENANAKrc2WbN1BW
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心慌的極致原來是平靜和淡然,皆因透徹體悟到自身的無能無力無奈。395Please respect copyright.PENANAtHoUDIecVz
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「爺爺,很熱啊!」不知袖裡的孫兒輕輕推開他。395Please respect copyright.PENANAqlFPxDbFae
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「嗯。」對於眼前一切,他花盡全身力氣發出渺小的一聲。395Please respect copyright.PENANA8ofwuEnoN3
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晚餐後,兒子在露台抽菸,媳婦在廚房洗碗。孫兒是個好動的孩子,五分鐘前肚痾得雙腿發軟,此刻已然在梳化上跳個不停。395Please respect copyright.PENANA026v3mlkCZ
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跳跳跳,有節奏地跳個不停,像心臟。395Please respect copyright.PENANAqQyK8Zo5M2
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心臟停止跳動當刻,棋友有何感受?掛念未完的棋局?掛念急症室外的男女親友?395Please respect copyright.PENANAn8cOB4fhKH
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他的目光不期然落瞄向露台,看著兒子呼出個個煙圈,圈圈復圈圈,冉升消散不復見。395Please respect copyright.PENANABWKSFzgfnG
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不復見。395Please respect copyright.PENANANXAvdUPHfw
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他莫名的被深深憾動。395Please respect copyright.PENANAfEsvJ8vTr1
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走到兒子身邊,告知棋友的死訊。395Please respect copyright.PENANADLgCkPL1KO
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毋須明言,兒子已猜測到他的用意。395Please respect copyright.PENANAwrgto18TVX
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「我不怕死。」395Please respect copyright.PENANAkUVM6rRCyA
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「我也不怕死——死亡並不可怕,只怕沒能完成想要完成的事。」395Please respect copyright.PENANANrJPocEFUW
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「你有沒有想要完成的事?」395Please respect copyright.PENANANuVCYBCiUO
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「每年夏天買『菠蘿油』給你媽。」395Please respect copyright.PENANAO8k5moIyWv
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「她的叮囑?」395Please respect copyright.PENANAMiSzyhbrDq
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「不。她離開得太突然,我沒機會問她,只得按照她生前喜好去估計她的心思。」395Please respect copyright.PENANAjnT7nm4PX4
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「別傻!她不願看見你耿耿於懷!」395Please respect copyright.PENANAhcPgVwCrYs
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「她沒這麼說。」395Please respect copyright.PENANADnojAc5x0a
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兒子苦笑,笑他彆扭。395Please respect copyright.PENANA769QYxsE4b
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再次不了了之?他以為是,直至夜半聞得媳婦哭聲不絕。395Please respect copyright.PENANADvNtZV5SYI
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無論大家怎樣勸說,兒子依然不願接受治療,堅持要盡量留下金錢予家人。395Please respect copyright.PENANAwes7QI2Zph
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半年後,兒子沒死去。一年後,兒子仍活著。三年半後,兒子依然沒斷氣。395Please respect copyright.PENANAAUMN3AAlF2
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問何解。醫生說原因不明,但癌細胞消失了。兒子說只想盡力工作賺錢養活家人。395Please respect copyright.PENANAN4LwdBbOnb
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離開醫院、歸家路上,兒子和他拐到公園散步去。395Please respect copyright.PENANAPvq58Jrglc
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樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。395Please respect copyright.PENANAJ5utbO4I7m
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「你多活了三年半。」395Please respect copyright.PENANAWO6pGoYy3w
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「我多吃了三個『菠蘿油』。」395Please respect copyright.PENANAsVueY4AHnI
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「想繼續吃?」395Please respect copyright.PENANARhpqMJiFPw
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「是。期待下一個夏天。」395Please respect copyright.PENANApJfrvKY2jN
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兒子認為這次大病是上天的提醒,希望他往後好好珍惜時間。打算辭職休養一段日子,在接下來的暑假與大家出國旅遊後,才重回職場繼續拼搏。395Please respect copyright.PENANAQN8Y1DnBhj
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他為兒子衷心高興著,亦感謝上蒼的好生之德,沒有帶走……395Please respect copyright.PENANA22NQI9VWB1
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兒子呢?395Please respect copyright.PENANAf3qW1fGIzt
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悉才尚在身邊的兒子不見蹤影。395Please respect copyright.PENANAgwbejBdnXQ
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啊!記起來了。395Please respect copyright.PENANAgPTK5NQrYm
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兒子去年在暑假前遇上意外,下半身癱瘓。沒能出國旅遊,沒能重回職場,沒能享受期待已久的夏日。395Please respect copyright.PENANAKPUHwAdiaL
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果然。395Please respect copyright.PENANAAKK8BerD7F
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不努力走下去,就不會知道下一個夏天是甚麼光景。395Please respect copyright.PENANA86MKFdw2ba
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婆娑樹影之下、鳥叫蟲鳴之中,他繼續走。395Please respect copyright.PENANA0qu7e0r8sr
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幽幽踏步慢慢走。395Please respect copyright.PENANA1lJsKsTYsu