"In a moment, I will take my own life, so this will be my final video. My entire life has been under the command of hatred. To me, life was nothing but a vast emptiness. I met loneliness in the spring of my youth. Having people around me never made me feel close to them. My obsessive belief that people would weaken me eventually drove me to consider becoming a murderer. But now, looking back, my nights are filled with irrevocable regrets. He died because of me, and now I’m stuck in a damned swamp. I know I can never be who I once was, so I won’t try to buy back the lives I’ve ruined with cheap words. I was born and raised in hate, and I will die in hate. Even if I can’t forgive myself, at least I’ll heed my final wish and die at my peak, in front of hearts full of hate. You’re watching this because I no longer want to be alone. I won’t destroy anything I’ve written or drawn. Maybe from time to time, you’ll look at them and remember what a worthless, unlamented person I was. It’s midnight now, and my time is running out. They’re coming for me. In a moment, I’ll hang myself and escape this cursed prison they call life. If God truly exists, He must be waiting for me there."

The art of driving oneself insane,The dark side of emotions,A heart poisoned with hatred and ego,A misanthropist’s suicide journal.