近來回到小學，看見越來越多舊人，踏足在矮小的樓梯，都使她不斷想起過去。畢業後沒有再行過這種高度的樓梯，成年人而言頗為矮小的她可以一步踩兩級。320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzrsiSiIFaJ
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCg5OTpaKO0
所有事都湧現，直至她感到自己的頭腦已經滿溢，無法再裝載。320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeh1oo3mnTs
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJGOr7i3aaF
與第一次在學留守功課輔導班的拘緊不同——同學們的拘束，他們已見慣見熟林蓁，開始不守規矩——她倒是不介意他們有點不守規矩，畢竟，已上了全日學的學生，注意力有限，何況他們都在兒童期，「守規矩」如此需要後天約束的事，本就不易做到。320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJv5YqHO8CF
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBNI5y5MKIJ
她只是會悠悠地請學生們：就算聊天，手也不要停止寫作。320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3KtgMDwxt
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnBspj8Fz1S
初時，他們如果遇到不懂的功課題目，只會坐在座位上發呆，或是問附近的同學；現在，他們會舉手，大聲叫喚：「Miss！」無論簡單或艱澀，通通發問。這也許代表她已不會令人感到陌生了。320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMe6Y3HKguk
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaeXGfmKVD9
漸漸，學生之間的聊天聲音越來越大，連她也可以加入對話。320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiyIl8Mu7vE
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY5jHDpCOEp
一個半小時過去，順利結束。320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt1SlsU20Dh
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTOAWPMTJ8s
林蓁回家，便將洗手間的燈膽換上——320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBZbUw3szI
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx3yGhVy1UX
那是前天父親著她「明天去換」的燈膽，可是昨夜她在周立沖處留宿。320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSBDOEMK7FA
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlaBXge1aA0
應是是錯覺，換了新燈泡，便覺得家裡明亮了許多，比起以前用舊燈泡時更甚。因此，牆身的壁癌便被光襯得更清晰，霉霉綠綠，硬誇上些美感便說那是如雲如霧。也許是抽氣扇不夠強勁的緣故，所以無法及時將濕氣抽走，然後形成了一股無法散去的霉氣。然後，如影如形，一直存在牆壁上，成為家裡最大皮膚的一份子，班駁得很。320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnTRXQJW2Bx
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB2gzjBbctp
父親罵罵咧咧：「做咩琴晚唔返嚟？」320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbUfCS469ic
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSpVGOIevUn
她不應。320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6RZMjTBFXv
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwRi2Fr8yPU
「明明叫咗你琴日就買嚟換，而家先做！廁所無燈好危險㗎，你知唔知？」320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKw4fwRP7UM
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmHtbHDT96x
她不應。320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSzmmnS4NRq
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBmZoPxS0WC
「喂！又唔出聲，叫你做少少嘢都唔得咩？」320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz8yRMXeXl7
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XVaCy1xjU
她不應。320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqj0Gf0HETh
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuRHgt1fO4r
「我係你老竇嚟！關心吓你琴日唔返嚟咋嘛！你唔高興咩？」320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9w7cZMR22
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrtCdzPgskH
她終於應：「我成日都唔返嚟㗎啦。」320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9D1c1w48FF
他沉默。320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8CwCh68GCF
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6pGOnj5Q8m
家裡常常沉默，沉默確實也是林蓁心中家的常態。只是近年，父親說多了好多話，他會說話開口發問、要求、索取，然後，要求他人回應，如果不應他，便會說說說直至她覺得煩。要是以前，他只管一次過說好多話，完全不求他人應，反正他不介意別人怎看。近年是介意了，或是希望有人和他說話聊天交流了，不願再自說自話，才會不停說些問題或內容，直到人家回應。320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0ab5YjLtY
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQFbICdm6rV
林蓁通常是為了讓他不要再說，才開口回應。320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg4ez5eJ1dr
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt8URNwH3gx
父親說：「咁所以我而家咪一次過關心你囉，唔使原因㗎嘛。」320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWaSthAkMLQ
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡicmDZylr82
「唔使原因，但你有，因為想我幫你換燈膽。」320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJsCyr1jaIB
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpsnGZt36nq
她語氣平靜。320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0cUtaeYts0
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFrHCEfocni
她太熟知這一套，很多想要向她傾訴心事的人，都會首先煞有介事地問她近況，然後再進入自身故事的正題，完成流暢的轉折。她不會拆穿，反而覺得這是一種禮貌，至少讓她好受一點——他們有考慮到她的感受呢，也怕突兀。320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwScN0K2wMo
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX5mCvbMcpG
「衰女包！我生你養你，你咁樣諗我？」320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgPu3CXGYw
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS3A9sipons
她不應。320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡocxKpAz4aP
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkDSuWBJ1vF
「又成日唔返屋企，係咪拍拖啦？唔使理老竇啦？」320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDyzyxjtqzi
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIwMc7I7zpQ
她不應。320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8W3rfEim5p
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpxvE0C0dU7
「都唔知係咪喺出面識埋哂啲飛仔，教到你咁忤逆。」320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEaM4QR28zS
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2PObOUR1OY
她不應。320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzkewLS6PJw
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡASUdKQ2Dk3
「出面啲男人邊度會真心鍾意你吖！你咪亂咁信人。」320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMMXkxbKA0
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzzlXRifvBh
她不應。320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡisXvsgVoSP
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTHZZDWpGjF
「而家有毛有翼識飛啦？出咗身又唔見你畀家用！」320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRHO9CvYV9r
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMHCOd8LW8p
她終於應：「我仲未畢業。」320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHdhXl8YhWl
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyzEgfa8PO4
語氣始終平靜。320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvRPrlVtjh8
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXj3YOvM4pZ
林蓁時時自省，到底從什麼時候開始，這個家就剩下她和父親呢？母親找其他男人了，家姐和細佬相繼出國讀書，遺棄她一個。是不是她做錯了什麼，才落得今日呢。320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4shFBYPEBn
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHi1G4dWlV5
自從家姐離開，她便毫無預兆地代替了被打父親的角色。320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Y1uFqaP2L
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Zj6BFDRi5
林蓁不解，她又不像家姐，已不會頂嘴，平日有溫順臉容，斟茶遞水家務樣樣做齊，會替母親搥背，會照料弟弟的功課；作為一個二女兒，她已做得很多，那年，她才十三歲。320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEoK2g0vJQd
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc60WOK5I1b
「啫係就嚟畢業啦，覺得自己好大個啦嘛！」父親又說。320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNzoFWacMr
320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0UiCzljPyz
她始終不應。320Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyKb8Z90Xyh
