近來回到小學，看見越來越多舊人，踏足在矮小的樓梯，都使她不斷想起過去。畢業後沒有再行過這種高度的樓梯，成年人而言頗為矮小的她可以一步踩兩級。319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn8PIbCYemi
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所有事都湧現，直至她感到自己的頭腦已經滿溢，無法再裝載。319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBVO2ilydUn
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與第一次在學留守功課輔導班的拘緊不同——同學們的拘束，他們已見慣見熟林蓁，開始不守規矩——她倒是不介意他們有點不守規矩，畢竟，已上了全日學的學生，注意力有限，何況他們都在兒童期，「守規矩」如此需要後天約束的事，本就不易做到。319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfBsWsQEi6F
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她只是會悠悠地請學生們：就算聊天，手也不要停止寫作。319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6nwoQscOKy
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初時，他們如果遇到不懂的功課題目，只會坐在座位上發呆，或是問附近的同學；現在，他們會舉手，大聲叫喚：「Miss！」無論簡單或艱澀，通通發問。這也許代表她已不會令人感到陌生了。319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8XlRkp0db
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漸漸，學生之間的聊天聲音越來越大，連她也可以加入對話。319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdZ7QAYU3j1
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一個半小時過去，順利結束。319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiVF5q0WZSi
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林蓁回家，便將洗手間的燈膽換上——319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOicVbf1URG
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那是前天父親著她「明天去換」的燈膽，可是昨夜她在周立沖處留宿。319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1jtCjqeAwU
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應是是錯覺，換了新燈泡，便覺得家裡明亮了許多，比起以前用舊燈泡時更甚。因此，牆身的壁癌便被光襯得更清晰，霉霉綠綠，硬誇上些美感便說那是如雲如霧。也許是抽氣扇不夠強勁的緣故，所以無法及時將濕氣抽走，然後形成了一股無法散去的霉氣。然後，如影如形，一直存在牆壁上，成為家裡最大皮膚的一份子，班駁得很。319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlntdZG20N9
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父親罵罵咧咧：「做咩琴晚唔返嚟？」319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxSuvOcaj0m
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她不應。319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbR5LketG9I
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「明明叫咗你琴日就買嚟換，而家先做！廁所無燈好危險㗎，你知唔知？」319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnU7gyhl55o
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她不應。319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz6GzuViQ2D
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「喂！又唔出聲，叫你做少少嘢都唔得咩？」319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4Dsm6SwzH
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她不應。319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3B0cfWAQaC
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「我係你老竇嚟！關心吓你琴日唔返嚟咋嘛！你唔高興咩？」319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTAAnCFb8e
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她終於應：「我成日都唔返嚟㗎啦。」319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTTAUVF7HUz
他沉默。319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG0acuwSplg
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家裡常常沉默，沉默確實也是林蓁心中家的常態。只是近年，父親說多了好多話，他會說話開口發問、要求、索取，然後，要求他人回應，如果不應他，便會說說說直至她覺得煩。要是以前，他只管一次過說好多話，完全不求他人應，反正他不介意別人怎看。近年是介意了，或是希望有人和他說話聊天交流了，不願再自說自話，才會不停說些問題或內容，直到人家回應。319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfUE2PUFuqZ
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林蓁通常是為了讓他不要再說，才開口回應。319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2hRNRqsa2n
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父親說：「咁所以我而家咪一次過關心你囉，唔使原因㗎嘛。」319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYtSOaVzAe9
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「唔使原因，但你有，因為想我幫你換燈膽。」319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlfqPqemQWg
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她語氣平靜。319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vJyauP2Kn
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她太熟知這一套，很多想要向她傾訴心事的人，都會首先煞有介事地問她近況，然後再進入自身故事的正題，完成流暢的轉折。她不會拆穿，反而覺得這是一種禮貌，至少讓她好受一點——他們有考慮到她的感受呢，也怕突兀。319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPcGL0NTMJR
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「衰女包！我生你養你，你咁樣諗我？」319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDD7UCAnZNG
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她不應。319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ8PWBhbbLK
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「又成日唔返屋企，係咪拍拖啦？唔使理老竇啦？」319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7gugsQYgu
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她不應。319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAQgsAybzKm
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「都唔知係咪喺出面識埋哂啲飛仔，教到你咁忤逆。」319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUblteMeET9
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她不應。319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1d913n5AGc
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「出面啲男人邊度會真心鍾意你吖！你咪亂咁信人。」319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjo3d0V7I3b
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她不應。319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKtsZFyPMoV
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「而家有毛有翼識飛啦？出咗身又唔見你畀家用！」319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgje3Lj4jYg
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她終於應：「我仲未畢業。」319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8mNvxYjxfM
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語氣始終平靜。319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYff0UzFS7w
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林蓁時時自省，到底從什麼時候開始，這個家就剩下她和父親呢？母親找其他男人了，家姐和細佬相繼出國讀書，遺棄她一個。是不是她做錯了什麼，才落得今日呢。319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQAyUixE3Se
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自從家姐離開，她便毫無預兆地代替了被打父親的角色。319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk76FnVMlhj
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林蓁不解，她又不像家姐，已不會頂嘴，平日有溫順臉容，斟茶遞水家務樣樣做齊，會替母親搥背，會照料弟弟的功課；作為一個二女兒，她已做得很多，那年，她才十三歲。319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmqVhBx0Fqo
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「啫係就嚟畢業啦，覺得自己好大個啦嘛！」父親又說。319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmTD5Pa17jP
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她始終不應。319Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtdU0L6YfDs
