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「需要你直白的愛意來確認我的存在。」242Please respect copyright.PENANAAJxdqbkm4y
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我跟夏油傑打小認識。夏油一家都是非常好的人,在我們搬過去之後相當照顧我們。242Please respect copyright.PENANAL0lIDPmy27
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爸爸媽媽一直以來都忙於工作,我已經很習慣自己一個人待在家裡了。好在夏油傑跟我是同一所學校的,至少回家的路上還能有個照應。242Please respect copyright.PENANAymf6df9Fp1
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他一直很受歡迎。有禮貌的優等生,外表俊秀,談吐與同齡人相比還要成熟大方,這樣的孩子很難不受人喜愛。242Please respect copyright.PENANAZpbjvGKp83
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我很喜歡他。242Please respect copyright.PENANAXIEOMfU7BY
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但他終究是飛鳥。242Please respect copyright.PENANADBLn0wiDK0
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……他好像跟一般人有些不一樣。242Please respect copyright.PENANAmcrErFxJhW
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舉個例子,我曾經撞見他對著空氣揮拳,揮完之後不知道吞下了什麼,臉上的痛苦不似作偽。242Please respect copyright.PENANAFOx6e6KejU
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如果是為了演戲的話,這演技穩妥妥可以去報名角逐奧斯卡了。242Please respect copyright.PENANALQZHbudvxi
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「……你都看見了?」242Please respect copyright.PENANAosONpzJCCh
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他看見我一言不發地站在那,錯愕地問,似乎有種被戳破秘密的羞恥感。242Please respect copyright.PENANAZ8hluQrO3k
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我說對,然後從口袋拿出一根棒棒糖給他。242Please respect copyright.PENANAUnvDf2hDYr
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「葡萄口味的。」我說。242Please respect copyright.PENANApnN0p1xxxw
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他說謝謝,然後當著我的面拆開包裝塞進嘴裡。242Please respect copyright.PENANAyBZwzX3EVY
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走回去的路上難得很安靜。242Please respect copyright.PENANAt7OZbbijZs
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「……你不問我什麼嗎?」242Please respect copyright.PENANAdiLrkX2nCn
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「怕你尷尬。」我誠實地說。242Please respect copyright.PENANABT1kRARp8c
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他無奈地笑了,像是在說「敗給你了」。242Please respect copyright.PENANAR5yJnnK56K
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仲夏的風帶著些微的潮意吹過,在陽光下舒展的枝椏沙沙地掉下幾片綠葉,日光在臉上落下斑駁光影。242Please respect copyright.PENANA3GMmzClFKT
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敗給你了。他說。242Please respect copyright.PENANAnMu38wZftp
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我好像墜入愛河,於是也跟著笑了起來。242Please respect copyright.PENANAGiVm7bK9fW
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「我看得見一些……一般人看不見的東西。」242Please respect copyright.PENANAbi0DlQ4AH8
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「鬼?」242Please respect copyright.PENANAm4qW7UIZL5
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「比鬼還可怕吧……完全看不出是什麼樣子的。」242Please respect copyright.PENANA2wIgCmCgjf
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「史萊姆?」242Please respect copyright.PENANAVzjVaPjcKk
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「唔,倒是有看過一個很像的。」242Please respect copyright.PENANAdwbDSjcJnH
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我們有一搭沒一搭地聊,直到夏油傑停下腳步。242Please respect copyright.PENANA6Djti3Ib4i
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他看向我的眼神突然變得很鄭重,就像是下定什麼決心似的。242Please respect copyright.PENANAXFzRMEA99J
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他說,我可以吸收這些東西,然後讓他們為我所用。242Please respect copyright.PENANAzSTQBhorHf
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我想起夏油傑吞嚥的動作。242Please respect copyright.PENANA4gP25B3CcP
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仰頭吞下的時候整張臉會皺在一起,喉結上下滾動,抑制即將嘔吐的衝動,睜開眼的時候眼眶已經微微泛紅。242Please respect copyright.PENANAYlfxdLWbBE
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明明很痛苦吧。我說。242Please respect copyright.PENANAcezantODGw
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「一定要吃掉那些東西嗎?」242Please respect copyright.PENANAk3RJzMd5xm
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「一定要。」他說,「說實話,味道就跟沾了嘔吐物的抹布,很難吃。」242Please respect copyright.PENANAj8zOGCN9dg
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聽起來真糟糕。242Please respect copyright.PENANAR9pIgpH1OC
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「但是一想到只要熬過幾秒鐘,就能幫助到更多人的話──那麼,這短暫的痛苦,似乎也就沒什麼了。」242Please respect copyright.PENANAZZ75RorMpP
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我後來意識到墜入愛河也許並不只是因為那個笑容,而是他提起「理想」的時候,閃閃發光的模樣。242Please respect copyright.PENANASrTqtRcNfv
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我愛他,愛他的抱負。242Please respect copyright.PENANAXXW0tjuYOf
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所以在他的咒靈殺死我的時候,我始終都認為,那是我喜歡的少年。242Please respect copyright.PENANAsLOLEHUXJY
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八歲,十四歲,殺死我的那年他十六歲。242Please respect copyright.PENANAsOSMreAdKH
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他從來沒有變過。242Please respect copyright.PENANAw9kSOA2HAK
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夏油傑離開之後,一切都變成飛鳥了,我也是。242Please respect copyright.PENANA1otc6yxFst
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夏油傑畢業後就加入高專了。242Please respect copyright.PENANAluC1Xy0enu
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少了一個人在身邊,放學的路上又開始變得很安靜。我不太習慣,但也不打算找新朋友陪我。242Please respect copyright.PENANAFFLiqYvGQh
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總覺得會有種替代掉「夏油傑」的感覺,而我不想要這樣。242Please respect copyright.PENANAeQfO2RvzoO
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「你怎麼低著頭在走路?」242Please respect copyright.PENANAp82GExSXn7
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這聲音是夏油傑。我詫異地抬頭向身後一看,那個高了我一大截的少年正笑眯眯地看我。242Please respect copyright.PENANABbwT1RbEIf
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「你怎麼在這?」242Please respect copyright.PENANArt49IXyiax
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還穿得像個不良少年似的,我說。242Please respect copyright.PENANAUtoaoT7ifE
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他臉上的笑意瞬間僵住,大概是有些好氣又好笑。242Please respect copyright.PENANA9nZuKLwsUa
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「來陪你放學。」242Please respect copyright.PENANA98vJiGq0LQ
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──結果你是這樣說我的?他的眼神赤裸裸地傳達出這則訊息。242Please respect copyright.PENANA63DjpbgIsA
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我驚訝於他的回答,頓時有些心虛,心裡卻又覺得還挺高興的,只能吐吐舌假裝沒事矇混過去。242Please respect copyright.PENANAdgllsxWSlZ
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夏油傑不會因為這種玩笑同我置氣。他無奈地伸手拍拍我的腦袋,將我背在身上的書包給拿走,動作流暢自然地就像是做過數百次一樣。242Please respect copyright.PENANAGkLanb6vxe
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陽光將他的影子拉得冗長,我低下頭幼稚地踩,偶爾踩在落葉上,發出嘎吱嘎吱的聲響。夏油傑已經很習慣我時不時無聊的小舉動,無所謂地任由我的鞋子在他的「頭」上放肆。242Please respect copyright.PENANAJojlyO5d4s
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「沒想到你還有空來接我。」我說。242Please respect copyright.PENANAyKpO52bzZq
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氣流經過喉嚨,聲帶顫動,他發出「嗯──」的聲音,臉上的表情似笑非笑。「怕你覺得寂寞,暗地裡偷偷哭。」242Please respect copyright.PENANAtOYCogqguh
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才不會。我反駁道。242Please respect copyright.PENANAh28NkeXxRJ
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欸?是嗎?可是媽媽傳訊息給我,說自從我去高專上學之後,鄰居太太的女兒晚上都會在被窩裡偷偷哭。鄰居太太的女兒是誰啊──夏油傑瞇起眼睛笑的時候像隻壞心眼的狐狸。242Please respect copyright.PENANANLolaFRT4c
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我不敢置信地瞪大眼睛。媽媽這個叛徒!242Please respect copyright.PENANANa1RCxYdLp
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無話可說,我索性攤牌承認是我,我確實會暗地裡想他。我說沒辦法,你走以後我好不習慣。242Please respect copyright.PENANAChlLTjUnaX
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「你叫我起床,幫我拿書包,跟我一起上學、一起放學……傑,那麼多年的習慣不是可以隨便割捨的。」242Please respect copyright.PENANAQDRmMd8SFU
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我不想找別人跟我一起放學,因為沒有人能代替夏油傑陪我走這條路。242Please respect copyright.PENANAw2TgaPbW3J
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他終究是不一樣的。242Please respect copyright.PENANAPPQbSKPkuj
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黑髮少年綁著我熟悉的丸子頭,他看著我,突然沒了聲音。242Please respect copyright.PENANAnLlpTc1jf9
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那我以後陪你一起下課好嗎?最後他妥協似地問,眼神卻很溫柔。242Please respect copyright.PENANAaGpvYh3W9K
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「還要常常講電話。」我堅持。242Please respect copyright.PENANAPYqWXhuVuD
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「不是每天都在傳訊息了嗎?」242Please respect copyright.PENANAcVmtGj6NKQ
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「但我想聽你說話呀。」242Please respect copyright.PENANAQ2Rha4MPVj
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「好。」242Please respect copyright.PENANAFHLAvDJTsb
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都聽你的。他說。242Please respect copyright.PENANAsdj4IXWucM