I wish I could understand why I feel this way241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡslXo8THLQp
Why flying doesn't feel the same 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8SQXu9Zbmv
And the lows don't seem to fade241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91Pyp5FJ0P
They just linger and remain
I find myself trapped with no incentive to fix it, to rewrite the narrative 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Tk8Pnp7yF
Instead my mind picks it apart, going straight for the heart241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSDi22X7Kn7
I gotta give it to them, they play it pretty smart
I wish I could tell you everything that makes me hurt 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfrpZKDEZ7g
I wish I could convert it into something better, avert from the inevitable 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyo2FuljkTh
I'll convert this pain into something that works 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMpYYIfoiTa
Something that works to be charitable to my health, make my pain more revocable and severable 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcqvMX6DApL
Because after several years of being rendered inseparable from this feeling 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjidrfi3Lh8
I finally feel like I'm worth freeing 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlBcsbb4Zbp
That this pain made me bleed, but it can't keep me241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO1HaLYZxRG
I'm finally fleeing
But my superficial confidence is fleeting as my heart slows its beating 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLewoMwPyO
The breathing turns to drowning 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGgu1n4Znf2
The seconds I'm counting, turns to shouting 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GbXqZ37GK
I'm pounding on the walls, sounding my alarms241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRON4vpe2h6
But no one welcomes me with open arms241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9sDDA8FCm0
Their love is fictitious 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR6nQGWKmW5
So thus, restarts the vicious cycle241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7YfEEzl5nz
I try to focus on my survival, but I never see its arrival 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyoHUTuv5fJ
So I lay here, my body limp and my heart slowing 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJ4W0rq0Rt
The deprival of blood, of color, of feeling 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIXFjtAsjfU
My life is fleeting, like the confidcence I once had 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeGFR0kVioB
I never meet my revival
But no one understands, no one offers a hand 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vqRVqKjil
I try to stand, my lungs expand, only to to be stuck in secondhand smoke241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ6jolLSfFr
My voice broke as the smoke filled my lungs and covered my eyes like some sort of cloak 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrPQD9oYDHW
I tried to yell, to call out for help, but all I did was choke
Falling on my knees, right back to the ground, I look around 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGmSek2qmu8
Listening to the elaborate planning of everything demanding a change 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA5oXPUhkRS
They get their way, nothing remains the same241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLdXsgthaV6
All I feel is shame as I call out every name, hoping for someone to see everything slipping away 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsad9Uub6Ql
But no one comes my way, I'm disregarded and pushed away 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkaSAYpqhze
I guess no one wanted me around anyway
I give in to the deadly game, as if I was ever given a choice 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDgn3khJRDK
But maybe my only claim to fame would be that I'm pretty damn good at playing this game 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgOTx3n3J4
Even if it feels like I'm locked in a cage241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFYv2TfDDiY
The game of push and pull with the demons in my mind241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrIzV5Fqpld
Darkness covering my eyes, I'm blind 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcl0de0Sija
But full of myself and always on time 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe2J5qCGgyL
I admit that the crime is mine 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZ1suL1xIV
Now I'll serve my time
I thought, maybe if I quit it241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ61VCScqy0f
The devil will lose his incentive 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyBiECDf47O
The weak little girl, poisoned 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡchwVJCi0l5
Too bad for his game of tainting the good
But even then he just pulled down my walls 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZQICyHg2g
Brick by brick 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeXtp7fw0Y9
And now I'm back in this smoky pit, the light drained from it 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡREYehmMxp5
Smoke filling my lungs and ripping the sight from my eyes 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwRiTnqKnuJ
Once again, I'm blind
Even when I believe it's over241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTAQoR1Piia
That the thunder has passed me by, the storm subsiding 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8khOPyqZbK
It's still right there 241Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNEBWu4CBkB
The devil on my shoulder
