White sheets stained red in a hotel bed63Please respect copyright.PENANA8zw6azBiin
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone63Please respect copyright.PENANAtV81xMvxjY
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing63Please respect copyright.PENANAU1aLTjVv5R
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping63Please respect copyright.PENANAMYHlSC28CC
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 63Please respect copyright.PENANAegmaDwfftw
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 63Please respect copyright.PENANA99klLD4jRm
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head63Please respect copyright.PENANA8zHnl8X0HB
Vivid visions invading my rest 63Please respect copyright.PENANAZEWN4twFdT
I can't sleep because all I see is death63Please respect copyright.PENANA0AROEmMMqX
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 63Please respect copyright.PENANAQUcXQw9Isp
Thinking about death at such an early age63Please respect copyright.PENANAJrHOP3gFoS
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 63Please respect copyright.PENANAx72UJViAXi
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest63Please respect copyright.PENANAZ3dGoU3A80
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 63Please respect copyright.PENANAf7LaqVbhTv
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end63Please respect copyright.PENANARk71dTUPnp
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again63Please respect copyright.PENANAWyG2nwnuI0
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying63Please respect copyright.PENANA7Gg9d67KT5
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries63Please respect copyright.PENANA7Yz5rRbYJS
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"63Please respect copyright.PENANA05fIB38z6W
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 63Please respect copyright.PENANAOCco1MNpDG
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends63Please respect copyright.PENANA1PAf726jbY
Nobody actually cares until you're dead63Please respect copyright.PENANAdQX8AKdMmj
Until you're another headline in the news63Please respect copyright.PENANA3rBOxPseKj
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 63Please respect copyright.PENANA6mA5uHrAy2
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 63Please respect copyright.PENANAAwK746Ur7f
"I miss you today" 63Please respect copyright.PENANAm03DoTzRQg
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around63Please respect copyright.PENANAK0qxCaiD37
But they care now, 63Please respect copyright.PENANAzhnDVzmyLt
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 63Please respect copyright.PENANALRS7Dvh3q6
Mixed signals is all they send63Please respect copyright.PENANAKaU5wEK7U9
One day I matter to them 63Please respect copyright.PENANA9VMQHMsRii
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine63Please respect copyright.PENANAGAajkpJA8B
A few months ago, I felt like flying 63Please respect copyright.PENANAt6sTkH2MmU
A few months ago, I truly felt alive63Please respect copyright.PENANA9Uxt4q6th2
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 63Please respect copyright.PENANAu1sG0XxwbE
It's hard to explain with words,63Please respect copyright.PENANApHolFx2ysu
How the silence kills 63Please respect copyright.PENANAmAk8M8z7zt
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 63Please respect copyright.PENANArHt9jkrzCb
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 63Please respect copyright.PENANAAGzYvyxlhz
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 63Please respect copyright.PENANAz6tErKobGI
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow63Please respect copyright.PENANA7oi7OiH5Ps
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 63Please respect copyright.PENANAcQG33WnD6d
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 63Please respect copyright.PENANAwovcpm0Jyp
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it63Please respect copyright.PENANAYlWzuV8eed
The little voice in my head, it screams it63Please respect copyright.PENANAjy3Ne4h8Uk
"This was their choice"63Please respect copyright.PENANAWhAogLVu6f
And to be lonely all the time is mine63Please respect copyright.PENANAGE7T7eYnMK
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly63Please respect copyright.PENANAU5n7n3HzZT
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains63Please respect copyright.PENANAzXmxw6b3nJ
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned63Please respect copyright.PENANA2FcWU5Bstu
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 63Please respect copyright.PENANAi9SvZfux2y
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 63Please respect copyright.PENANAn9O51O4ypG
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying63Please respect copyright.PENANA4HHfFD5TES
I wish somebody would call63Please respect copyright.PENANAxWpJtOjaf0
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 63Please respect copyright.PENANAkdKw1bUTfp
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 63Please respect copyright.PENANAAZz2bEfTG9
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden63Please respect copyright.PENANA4Z3eRkmQLE
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 63Please respect copyright.PENANAPPDDusOa5g
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 63Please respect copyright.PENANAM7KvHOjb0S
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 63Please respect copyright.PENANACgnALVSXJr
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried