White sheets stained red in a hotel bed280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf1QL8f2WIK
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAvM94c99D
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhNnDGOPdcX
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdXqlnc3frT
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54dndXj2Vn
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0hLKRLAIxt
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBWfR4I8Wr
Vivid visions invading my rest 280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTzKg2rJPH
I can't sleep because all I see is death280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs4hox1hgf5
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCtum3gSf6
Thinking about death at such an early age280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG6GIfEpHvy
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8GgZn2eP9Z
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHUmQfGU6Hl
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7J0sDSqQV5
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVdZ8D1bObh
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVN4BgsJMRe
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVvAi8dI1rh
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmoqEsXGusR
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbNpW9P63AC
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQHf1uKCE2s
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyil6lhpXZG
Nobody actually cares until you're dead280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG5buziih6m
Until you're another headline in the news280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRXnvWEcfR
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYtW23ImyIZ
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrsLXHjkaXj
"I miss you today" 280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlfA7UTfwSp
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGQz7yhXo11
But they care now, 280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8xbqDLMuLT
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAcgYBTvax6
Mixed signals is all they send280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQA8ou8C5fJ
One day I matter to them 280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVqCN47dEfy
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ftpbb569G
A few months ago, I felt like flying 280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhsElaEwoSo
A few months ago, I truly felt alive280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡubWUXKHdZK
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡucStRg535Y
It's hard to explain with words,280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVI7PIMn1vZ
How the silence kills 280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9VImwcy3Qt
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9bdWbwDh8L
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuH60vZxQU1
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvpwsW6vyT
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIpC58tdpRe
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCTwni2wqWX
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ujcbNiFsx
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpRKlkJhPZ0
The little voice in my head, it screams it280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4rgyjxdm0
"This was their choice"280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTKgUWtFEqO
And to be lonely all the time is mine280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxg0znStzqu
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZQNbT9aU7f
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd3wTACzpqt
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2fUvPxuykn
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnvtevyQNRT
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSKfJs3j8Fv
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPuokFa0fg1
I wish somebody would call280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr67JHJSRy8
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaD5O2Nuj5V
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEeGoZhxsr8
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9GnhxSrrT
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCeOLzymcSn
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnNExMDSkBj
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 280Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn2ecdAtZzb
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
