White sheets stained red in a hotel bed237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8tAAZmMJiu
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqzBq34AKqL
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuURsyuFsjX
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ri7ooTrC9
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvsjdA3bSWR
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJamSyVZgvo
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvdyMiY7IYE
Vivid visions invading my rest 237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCXi1vFD0kW
I can't sleep because all I see is death237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMxxHGi6jSp
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE0Py0HS8gr
Thinking about death at such an early age237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8lPeJN4wMq
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa38KgrFY6I
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTc9jA3JETH
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNb25LkVPvy
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw7TWFqGCAc
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ilrPMOH21
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPpNcX291rs
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMOdCCB1Ch
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJPwv4vL5G
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdNLdtmecXM
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcPeMS4mUgH
Nobody actually cares until you're dead237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQEcI7lRRcU
Until you're another headline in the news237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbcygc4EOf
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCDQ4dsGK6i
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKtLzwGF3OO
"I miss you today" 237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhUkl5GmjjS
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsiaIfV5wKK
But they care now, 237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAlIiJ6u5bw
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPVjQg1SHSC
Mixed signals is all they send237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZosUSFk23
One day I matter to them 237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuVczQge9g6
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjnjHhmPJ2J
A few months ago, I felt like flying 237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDkHV3LTr4a
A few months ago, I truly felt alive237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkH8tgSUyGf
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKSMosKuU0h
It's hard to explain with words,237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnmvaShYl45
How the silence kills 237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSF0y3JcOCD
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5OT52wst5M
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZMLFbJM2aC
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyptDg78j1L
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLQCf5x1l7g
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6jLt1Q6En
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQShwegS4MP
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡExh9Ndxzzo
The little voice in my head, it screams it237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeSznWDqpDM
"This was their choice"237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4KKABDzjah
And to be lonely all the time is mine237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhTL0sKJxM
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzEpLp0hcQA
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwT4D5Vtm5
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKxYQOdocbI
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡITYGcKSUdE
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTPHsCeMjN8
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ7zlUM1pjI
I wish somebody would call237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡguVwZj0oRz
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYnPcqjHFrX
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdBeKMVvVcB
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTX0f8WaRU5
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUwPAQbpodf
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw9n071Wjey
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 237Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPnbzDYMlMh
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
