I wish I could understand why I feel this way294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhKgJyWm3pm
Why flying doesn't feel the same 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1PVfLno5UF
And the lows don't seem to fade294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡREMKWV2Vtp
They just linger and remain
I find myself trapped with no incentive to fix it, to rewrite the narrative 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ82jrDwJUeR
Instead my mind picks it apart, going straight for the heart294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKpv8HEsxjq
I gotta give it to them, they play it pretty smart
I wish I could tell you everything that makes me hurt 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZH1omOm21r
I wish I could convert it into something better, avert from the inevitable 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSbsbuaV9O
I'll convert this pain into something that works 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhuPpyLnyi2
Something that works to be charitable to my health, make my pain more revocable and severable 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHpf14whUo3
Because after several years of being rendered inseparable from this feeling 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrIzl9QAy9p
I finally feel like I'm worth freeing 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBwi74Y4v7k
That this pain made me bleed, but it can't keep me294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6l9Yer36QF
I'm finally fleeing
But my superficial confidence is fleeting as my heart slows its beating 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGsQGczcTgJ
The breathing turns to drowning 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIKkhqMxez6
The seconds I'm counting, turns to shouting 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa4HQ8KU4lz
I'm pounding on the walls, sounding my alarms294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQFlbFaKrlZ
But no one welcomes me with open arms294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm1R5A3lwHP
Their love is fictitious 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ93CgOVwyRK
So thus, restarts the vicious cycle294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQSns8EW1c
I try to focus on my survival, but I never see its arrival 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqsP7KqafXo
So I lay here, my body limp and my heart slowing 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZHexJF1MT
The deprival of blood, of color, of feeling 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkF9Wgfl93P
My life is fleeting, like the confidcence I once had 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPYkiJtEps1
I never meet my revival
But no one understands, no one offers a hand 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7bKPgQPaqE
I try to stand, my lungs expand, only to to be stuck in secondhand smoke294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlk9PO1Xf7y
My voice broke as the smoke filled my lungs and covered my eyes like some sort of cloak 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2kSnUUVl7s
I tried to yell, to call out for help, but all I did was choke
Falling on my knees, right back to the ground, I look around 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJPHU8I6wu
Listening to the elaborate planning of everything demanding a change 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgTjjDhytRs
They get their way, nothing remains the same294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOhyxIPKcR
All I feel is shame as I call out every name, hoping for someone to see everything slipping away 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBwsA8GpUji
But no one comes my way, I'm disregarded and pushed away 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQs7dFicaIM
I guess no one wanted me around anyway
I give in to the deadly game, as if I was ever given a choice 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9uJcUJVMOR
But maybe my only claim to fame would be that I'm pretty damn good at playing this game 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4khezfvUSI
Even if it feels like I'm locked in a cage294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8635KhlUDY
The game of push and pull with the demons in my mind294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQmF7Jhznto
Darkness covering my eyes, I'm blind 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYtpvLZJRD
But full of myself and always on time 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Sk2iwQ11m
I admit that the crime is mine 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡouSEKF6U9I
Now I'll serve my time
I thought, maybe if I quit it294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc7gesXKG3b
The devil will lose his incentive 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7NzFynEd7v
The weak little girl, poisoned 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡytfkgJWxet
Too bad for his game of tainting the good
But even then he just pulled down my walls 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv4eHacdgc5
Brick by brick 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ElWJo5jVo
And now I'm back in this smoky pit, the light drained from it 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvAdQ2rGZBa
Smoke filling my lungs and ripping the sight from my eyes 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA7QYRVecOA
Once again, I'm blind
Even when I believe it's over294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmedwDQkus
That the thunder has passed me by, the storm subsiding 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlWFaDL9rAA
It's still right there 294Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc60ydULILs
The devil on my shoulder
