White sheets stained red in a hotel bed239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcU9WT6PfNP
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQhoqTh9kAD
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTuMLmmKevU
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCjKguFkMgx
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01Oxa8tMyA
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN1yYsbUFBJ
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XSTer4rwB
Vivid visions invading my rest 239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9vapG11yJY
I can't sleep because all I see is death239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRaWtKKPJVn
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDGRN6FAj13
Thinking about death at such an early age239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKSmwPLUG0D
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡamCLl8aUIq
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWsOgbdtNt7
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyr7BwC19Ze
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFTcRq6RGa
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCbtqM5Y5yA
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgLdPGoUGRn
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcRLZ3qQKqS
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9TOgRELCBh
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHRkZ0IXQ9
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyGkTU5kp1G
Nobody actually cares until you're dead239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjpmLccpdA5
Until you're another headline in the news239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6LhMvbysUr
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1p9B8OKyv
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWxk1oFB2eR
"I miss you today" 239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtAjDCHosMV
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2gcmmWq3SN
But they care now, 239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7KHiJicFy3
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTexrU4dQr
Mixed signals is all they send239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ67Q4vS0LSW
One day I matter to them 239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6avDOfj49C
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBmg3NnrMx
A few months ago, I felt like flying 239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDE58GzZBWK
A few months ago, I truly felt alive239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡELAC15ZSmn
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ueH1qLY1H
It's hard to explain with words,239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWS520461Sj
How the silence kills 239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHllacVQuXu
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQaT1jkaAW3
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJKvaZLr1GK
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfVv9bgBRR8
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYe24kvR2OA
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPYECIIMqoJ
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNryOf2RQn
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDr4PAoT3Bd
The little voice in my head, it screams it239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg0Bo6ZPyBZ
"This was their choice"239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwuv6942Srb
And to be lonely all the time is mine239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4eX3inRpo2
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRxgQeXeFd
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLNY24MyCBQ
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuFA1F1wCHA
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDYfr0IAFLD
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL9zBxuQU3y
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2pZyKCQwB
I wish somebody would call239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwWcYcgdSl8
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjhYBziJvQn
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn6yE19RuyU
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡml0EI7EscM
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDnIWtdBhmk
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrsgPEuSsT
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7PsRgvFkRa
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
