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Mai uses her plié to come into relevé, her toes in grande pointe. She feels the sheen of sweat on her neck, even as she holds it high, trying to embody the grace of a swan.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtz1RLcBp08
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Her execution is perfect, her expression is perfect. She shows no outward signs of her toes screaming in pain, even as she feels the telltale wet warmth in her shoes.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEJlEwIQWbm
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Her face remains serene.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4BrsIOqAyr
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A memory comes to her mind—Megumi-chan as a baby curled in Dad’s arms. She was born too early. She was sick. Her heart wasn’t strong enough. She wasn’t expected to live past a couple of years, even with all the 23rd century medical technology.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDlz3BFbig
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Mai feels her expression falter and quickly snaps it back into place, coming into the present and leaving behind a past she can’t change. When she dances, she has utter control over every part of her body. It’s the only time her life feels like it’s truly her own.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf8E42PqEsZ
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The audience is packed. Flashes burst from the auditorium before her life dramatically dying stars. Fourteen years and five auditions. All the sacrifices she’s made, and all the hours she’s put in. Mai didn’t go to prom or Homecoming or any other normal high school event. And it was all in preparation for today.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs7lMsEywnw
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This should have been her beginning.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDtVFbACYHP
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Megumi realizes she’s wrinkling the program between her fingers and quickly tries to smooth it out, running her finger along Mai’s name.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt6MOTkCXYJ
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She tries not to fidget, even though her mind wandered off at least an hour ago. She’s in Hawaii, hiking up the side of a volcano, the blackened lava rocks warm beneath her sneakers. The air is choked with steam and the odor of sulfur.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuNXEoRFMgG
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From there, she makes her way down a white beach sand. The soft, wed sand sinks under her feet. Warm and gentle waves lap across her skin, leaving behind patterns of salt and sand. She can feel the warmth of the sea breeze that makes the palm trees dance, and she can taste the tang of the air.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw4H1t4IBSI
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Her guidebooks are at home, filled with annotations of everything she can’t leave Hawaii without seeing. Megumi wishes she brought one of them along, but immediately feels guilty. She should be watching Mai right now. Mai’s dream is ending because of Megumi.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT1VKehhaJ8
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A sharp ache in her chest makes her flinch. She rubs at it surreptitiously at her chest. When she’s certain her parents are focused completely on Mai, she pulls a pill out of her pocket—hiding it in her palm—and slides it into her mouth.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaDS8EzG5Zk
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Mom’s gaze snaps to her immediately. She starts leaning in toward Megumi.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfX9JVbGNh8
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“I’m fine,” Megumi says, a little too sharply. She softens her voice. “Let’s just watch Mai, okay?”969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZKwSLRtIf
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Her mom takes her hand but turns forward to watch the performance again.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKaoadRNn7U
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Megumi watches too, keeping her eyes on her sister rather than on the other dancers. Although Megumi can’t even do the same hike twice, Mai is the type who can do the same step one thousand times over until she knows it perfectly, even if that means breaking her toes in the process.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVJGEvwBkcU
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Megumi knows the heart is just an organ, and she knows living heart donations are common in this century, but Megumi can’t help but wonder. She wonders if the piece of heart she’s being gifted will change her in any way or if she’ll still be one hundred percent Megumi.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkhGoYgIL5
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After the performance, Mai sits on a bench in the dressing room, staring at the ballet slippers encasing her feet. She can’t bring herself to take them off just yet. She wants to wait at least until the other dancers are gone.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPw0nSAHpr0
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Once the last of the voices fades away, she begins to unlace her slippers slowly and ceremoniously, letting them fall off her feet—her feet that are so calloused and bruised and broken that it’s a wonder they’re each still in one piece. She cleans the blood off carefully, loving her mangled feet for persevering through the torture she’s subjected them to. They are her pride and her prize, proof of the work she’s done.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8yHhN8jtDt
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Her heart aches, the pain so real she wonders for a second if something might be wrong with her heart too. But, no. Her heart just knows it’s about to be broken—split in half and taken from her.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2M8RXUATSI
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Mai isn’t upset about that. How can she be? Megumi-chan’s life is far more important than anything else.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡatj0IVR848
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Still, she selfishly wishes a miracle would happen—Megumi-chan’s heart would magically heal or an even better donor match would drop out of the sky. But Mai knows she’s the best option. Their parents are too old. It can only be a sibling, and Mai and Megumi-chan match almost perfectly.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZfpUxWqzTL
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She wonders what it might have been like to live in a time when living heart donations weren’t possible.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8W5BMfc20d
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“There you are,” Laurel says, sitting on the bench beside her. “That was fantastic, Mai. I could really only see room for improvement in a couple of places.”969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOQ1dDs7437
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Laurel goes on, and Mai lets her, barely hearing her words. Mai wants to say something about Laurel being the best dance coach ever, but thinks Laurel would find it weirdly sentimental. Mai hasn’t told anyone she won’t be able to dance anymore because she can’t let go of the selfish hope that something will save her and release her from this obligation.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMVLQI8wR4c
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And then she feels guilty for thinking of Megumi-chan as an obligation.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIVmEmw21ws
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When Laurel leaves, Mai pulls her knees to her chest until she feels turned inside out.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn65m4QuGY7
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Her life until now has been a dream, and she’s being woken up.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ76SqXIaBu0
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“Are you scared?” Megumi asks Mai.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnLQ94Nccfm
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“No,” Mai says from the other bed. “Are you?”969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGBHZgrf6FV
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“Of course not,” Megumi lies.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHkIbxNmMJ3
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She hears the steady beat of Mai’s heart monitor. Megumi’s own monitor beeps a little erratically as her weak heat tries to find a steady rhythm. She wonders what Mai is thinking right now—what she must be feeling.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNveAenMarG
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“Half a heart isn’t enough to support an athletic lifestyle,” Dr. Aguerra said seriously when he proposed the surgery to the family. “Mai, no one can coerce or pressure you into making this decision. If you agree to do it, you’ll undergo a psych evaluation to make sure this is your choice and your choice alone.”969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuVMxtVvGvD
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Megumi was so tired at the time she could barely keep her eyes open. She let them fall shut because she didn’t want to see Mai’s expression as Mai said yes.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAxw9KIU78p
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“I’ll do it,” Mai said. “I don’t need to think about it.”969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡywU9p2lPWz
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When they were kids, the two of them would go on adventures. It’s something Mai outgrew quickly, but Megumi still hasn’t. They found a treehouse in the woods behind their house once. Seeing it was abandoned, they decided it was theirs. Megumi would go there and wait for Mai to come home from dance practice.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHpkqmfNEMG
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She was there one day, waiting for Mai, when the rotting wood collapsed beneath her, pitching her out of the treehouse. Mai arrived just in time to catch Megumi, breaking her arm in the process. She didn’t complain about it once, even when it meant she couldn’t dance for three weeks.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKN0NtZpI3r
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Megumi swallows the guilt and the fear that she’s being selfish.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwl0aQ3zGVb
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Her weak heart manages to catch up to Mai’s heart—the one they’ll soon be sharing.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnNk8qh1h27
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Mai has a moment of panic before the anesthesia is administered. She doesn’t think she can’t do this. It’s a nightmare, spilling into her lungs and suffocating her. She can’t stop dancing. She doesn’t know how to be a full person if she isn’t a dancer.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCOj7sUrXGf
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But then she looks at the black hair spilling over the side of the bed beside her. Megumi-chan is already under, maybe dream of everything she’ll do when she wakes up with a new heart. After all, half a functioning heart is better than a full non-functioning heart.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZwACOqvMpQ
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Mai tries to take her sister’s hand, but she can’t reach it.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6pIaP4RdU
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She closes her eyes and opens them a moment later. At least it feels like a moment later. The soreness in her chest says otherwise. She feels in pieces. Her mind is still foggy from the anesthesia but the mental capacity that is still working tries to make sense of the changes she has to make to her life now.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS1UwLHN583
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Mai feels incomplete already, like she needs to undergo some sort of mental rehab to teach her to be a normal person without being a dancer. She is empty and devoid of purpose, wondering how people adapt to situations that turn their lives around completely.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1pQgPumwN
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She supposes they do it out of necessity. Mai has made this choice, and although she doesn’t doubt it’s the right one, she has no idea how to come to terms with it.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhqBNqpAIbK
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The light is too bright when Megumi wakes up. Her eyes mist over, and she has to blink out the tears and let them adjust before taking stock of her surroundings. Oxygen is being fed to her through a mask. Needles thread her arms so she can barely move without tugging at one or another. She lifts her hand to her chest, feeling the uneven skin under her hospital gown. She hears the beep of a heart rate monitor—but just one.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj4b35L6uUG
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Turning her head as much as she can, Megumi sees Mom right outside the open door. Mom’s face is buried in her hands, shoulders shaking.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnl1cufQJTj
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Megumi is a bit more alert, her blood going cold. Did something go wrong with Mai?969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO14WuMB4cj
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But she turns her head to the other side, and her sister is on her bed—at Megumi’s side as always. Mai is flipping through magazine sand eating chocolate pudding, but she exclaims when she sees Megumi awake.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiJt1NCnZBW
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“Are you okay? How do you feel?”969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx3eY5nrxia
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Megumi motions tiredly to the oxygen mask on her face. She feels lightheaded and tired, but her new heart feels strong. Even having just half of it feels so much better than her old heart.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsFrqDkqAcG
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That’s when she realizes there are two heart monitors after all. It’s just that both of them are beeping perfectly in sync.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCNcu4hHcit
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Dr. Aguerra comes in and checks on Megumi, finally taking off the oxygen mask.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg5KtEiO9UZ
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“We just need to run a few tests,” he says. “We’ll take Mai out first. You just wait here and relax until we come and get you.”969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6UZzqaX6rq
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He turns on the TV and hands her the remote after helping her sit up. Megumi thought she just wanted to sleep, but once she’s seated, she feels more awake.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrxKnaGYN7b
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As they wheel Mai out, Megumi catches sight of her backpack on a chair in the corner of the room. The lace from Mai’s favorite ballet shoes hangs outside the zipper. Swallowing the ache, Megumi turns her gaze back to the TV. She isn’t really paying attention, though. She’s enjoying the feel of her new heart and thinking about everything she loves…and admittedly everything she hates too. To her relief, her new heart responds as it should. She’d still the same person.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJDjFHQns0
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But then she stops on a channel showing a dance competition. Megumi, who couldn’t even watch her sister’s biggest performance without fidgeting, finds herself riveted by the strangers dancing onscreen. Her pulse quickens, and she lets the remote rest on her lap.969Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5eRLITMqoJ
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For some reason she doesn’t quite understand, a tear squeezes out of her eye.8964 copyright protection965ＰＥＮＡＮＡGETZHeg29M 維尼

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