I’m tired.538Please respect copyright.PENANA2x4QvXwD3k
If I’m honest, the days keep dragging by538Please respect copyright.PENANA1y7U54yEzg
and my feet are sliding across the floor instead538Please respect copyright.PENANAmLwwEI8nJK
of lifting with each step because I can’t find the energy538Please respect copyright.PENANA5aF7qi8PHL
to pick them up and set them back down.538Please respect copyright.PENANA3hfddsjA0a
Some people turn and ask me to stop scuffing538Please respect copyright.PENANA33p9wTGXEc
my feet on the floor, please lift them up and walk538Please respect copyright.PENANANK66kxwoBS
like a normal person, thank you.538Please respect copyright.PENANA1CgAWcPo9M
I try.538Please respect copyright.PENANA4Evjucap7b
I try everyday to lift myself up and keep walking538Please respect copyright.PENANAkwkfP9XifR
but like my feet, I am scuffing across the ground538Please respect copyright.PENANAglBFMmpAxB
just barely making it from one place to another538Please respect copyright.PENANA5YRgMCXkOp
without damage.
I’m tired.538Please respect copyright.PENANAIKge6SL6RB
Just this Wednesday I was driving home538Please respect copyright.PENANAPxhv1jlbab
on the highway, 480 West from Brookpark Road538Please respect copyright.PENANAYIvx5LwRSj
where the RTA takes me to Cleveland for classes, and538Please respect copyright.PENANA3VEhZx8uwc
during the drive, I couldn’t focus on the road before me538Please respect copyright.PENANAvIUJ43Eygd
because the news that Trump had won left me shaken538Please respect copyright.PENANAUjdB3ZAGvc
for those I’m not sure how to help538Please respect copyright.PENANAlY2CmFGAXz
when I’ve been given a privilege I didn’t ask for.538Please respect copyright.PENANA5YuKfmvi85
And while I was driving down the highway538Please respect copyright.PENANAmESFUfkBVk
I contemplated the notion of jerking the wheel538Please respect copyright.PENANA3Mks14qMr4
to the left and letting my car hit the divide between the538Please respect copyright.PENANAG0YN08Db2D
highway East and the highway West; allow myself to538Please respect copyright.PENANA54WhsoR5tr
collide with the wall, break through and destroy538Please respect copyright.PENANAIewxJIzAb0
the other side.538Please respect copyright.PENANAa5eJDCaJM5
Then, I contemplated jerking the wheel to the right538Please respect copyright.PENANAA5kVaK3w77
into the ditch along the grass so I wouldn’t538Please respect copyright.PENANAk8YwdytMw9
harm anyone else in the process. But I538Please respect copyright.PENANAXPr3Io9yxC
didn’t do either, even though I538Please respect copyright.PENANAn2ZZVIJHa2
got so scared for a minute538Please respect copyright.PENANAFkg1Gvauy4
that I would.
I’m tired.538Please respect copyright.PENANAuGwAJvT3SH
Last year on August 22nd, my birthday, I had a similar538Please respect copyright.PENANAqbJY283D2s
reaction to suicidal thoughts. I had a rough538Please respect copyright.PENANAVCRAMtWXC7
birthday; I worked, I was lonely, I felt538Please respect copyright.PENANAyBMBHHbnMg
pathetic, worthless, uncared for and forgotten538Please respect copyright.PENANAVTfxvVt6Bd
so I took the sharpest and largest kitchen knife538Please respect copyright.PENANAp8qUQGtnWO
and I pressed the tip of it to my chest, above my heart538Please respect copyright.PENANAFMXrDJN8n1
and sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore.538Please respect copyright.PENANADhpXEHiMMJ
I did not press the sharp edge deep enough to538Please respect copyright.PENANARdsm2AwA1n
draw blood, but it was the first time538Please respect copyright.PENANAJERumss2k0
I had allowed myself to538Please respect copyright.PENANA0K3kbECtX9
get so close to the temptation.
I’m tired.538Please respect copyright.PENANAKwGFMAMJpL
I say that I want to die a lot, even though I never538Please respect copyright.PENANAqexxOUPqDr
actually reach out and go through with it538Please respect copyright.PENANApgTnD8FuDf
I think because I’m afraid of not existing538Please respect copyright.PENANAwNnEguo9xH
just as I’m afraid of existing. And lately I538Please respect copyright.PENANAS1yZYQaJ00
have people who reach out to me when I’m not sure538Please respect copyright.PENANA7YJVgFKGFC
how to reach out to them, and it’s sweet to have people538Please respect copyright.PENANAxcbbZeMuzt
support me, but I go right back to wanting to isolate myself538Please respect copyright.PENANABZZ3mK4ZNc
and give up. I have thought about dying every day538Please respect copyright.PENANANqUEk32Lvc
for the last few weeks and I wish I could just538Please respect copyright.PENANA0JlgyLncZD
go through with it.
I’m tired.538Please respect copyright.PENANAzbkZMKulPi
I’m so tired of being forgotten, of arguing538Please respect copyright.PENANAMyo6WqdDWp
for people to care about me when they should538Please respect copyright.PENANA18EhuerkcS
care about me on their own. I often think that538Please respect copyright.PENANAAfSfwe55dd
I should just stop putting in such an effort for those that538Please respect copyright.PENANAXz4sHrggL4
do not consider me, but I can’t seem to stop caring.538Please respect copyright.PENANAhTlP1DBNk7
She often hurts me more than she improves my life538Please respect copyright.PENANATLnfv3zp2q
but I’m too afraid to say anything because538Please respect copyright.PENANADMyKBjt4Kh
I need her. I need her to exist538Please respect copyright.PENANAiFrChjLphF
in my existence, and I need her to538Please respect copyright.PENANA2IMVETiF7W
be by my side.538Please respect copyright.PENANAgxzH0Sgy6k
But I’m tired.
I’m tired538Please respect copyright.PENANANYhcuUuTq0
of being tired538Please respect copyright.PENANAo360voCl73
in this tiring life.