I’m tired.719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOlCTjaX2e0
If I’m honest, the days keep dragging by719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbq4rDRorcz
and my feet are sliding across the floor instead719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnjzoAnXdfS
of lifting with each step because I can’t find the energy719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf8Gp35zgx7
to pick them up and set them back down.719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemhe3KVyHz
Some people turn and ask me to stop scuffing719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡojR24YDZM3
my feet on the floor, please lift them up and walk719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ27QKxXrS8u
like a normal person, thank you.719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjhlC1EsFCc
I try.719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDidV8E0xoS
I try everyday to lift myself up and keep walking719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIw3u295Iwp
but like my feet, I am scuffing across the ground719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5mPfBC0nKY
just barely making it from one place to another719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNhTQvNUhRn
without damage.
I’m tired.719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdXgeg20GzE
Just this Wednesday I was driving home719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ArP8uldVq
on the highway, 480 West from Brookpark Road719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFoVyvez3WV
where the RTA takes me to Cleveland for classes, and719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjoAGYV1FiX
during the drive, I couldn’t focus on the road before me719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfmURFOpdoZ
because the news that Trump had won left me shaken719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4yxSXPHt58
for those I’m not sure how to help719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyvrgSlB9Vs
when I’ve been given a privilege I didn’t ask for.719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpToK7abegK
And while I was driving down the highway719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgqlxOMMh0M
I contemplated the notion of jerking the wheel719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWfMkZ94CvT
to the left and letting my car hit the divide between the719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhDDyccfYjM
highway East and the highway West; allow myself to719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNag5XWSZl
collide with the wall, break through and destroy719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu2WFd1i1eT
the other side.719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1q8bSyhbvL
Then, I contemplated jerking the wheel to the right719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoWza2UHMbD
into the ditch along the grass so I wouldn’t719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXuEw1DzK4X
harm anyone else in the process. But I719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBSkUIq6p98
didn’t do either, even though I719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡraZwRIV66T
got so scared for a minute719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDXiQQcLBYy
that I would.
I’m tired.719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmabCYju54t
Last year on August 22nd, my birthday, I had a similar719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzmS6LFXel7
reaction to suicidal thoughts. I had a rough719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6XHMq9aEHo
birthday; I worked, I was lonely, I felt719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnqEQwguL3S
pathetic, worthless, uncared for and forgotten719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3i6S31Z9rt
so I took the sharpest and largest kitchen knife719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNTqe4qWTR6
and I pressed the tip of it to my chest, above my heart719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzaS1bTRCmh
and sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore.719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVacoKuGmzd
I did not press the sharp edge deep enough to719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe93O9UT31Q
draw blood, but it was the first time719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO7PhTWaA05
I had allowed myself to719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKyPBbD6OwM
get so close to the temptation.
I’m tired.719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJlDc4jqRNJ
I say that I want to die a lot, even though I never719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vGVV7Zxka
actually reach out and go through with it719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdi8GCwtPal
I think because I’m afraid of not existing719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh8id3oENAP
just as I’m afraid of existing. And lately I719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjdOyMgZras
have people who reach out to me when I’m not sure719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlyWcx30EBs
how to reach out to them, and it’s sweet to have people719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQugOwNA4s
support me, but I go right back to wanting to isolate myself719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2WVhFhl1OL
and give up. I have thought about dying every day719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBv5oRtuD8
for the last few weeks and I wish I could just719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJmO1Egwqa
go through with it.
I’m tired.719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9U0FICd88U
I’m so tired of being forgotten, of arguing719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaX4IdxI4UO
for people to care about me when they should719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXmH01XniEZ
care about me on their own. I often think that719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9uMJmHeA4n
I should just stop putting in such an effort for those that719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9fewsdnrpF
do not consider me, but I can’t seem to stop caring.719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFRYXCI2uyg
She often hurts me more than she improves my life719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsmTpZbmOsf
but I’m too afraid to say anything because719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv4yrZz4BeB
I need her. I need her to exist719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnxUeyFD5Fy
in my existence, and I need her to719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3TF7fteq26
be by my side.719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFt4OiZB6m4
But I’m tired.
I’m tired719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNy4dfrEWhg
of being tired719Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTBoAtqcrZm
in this tiring life.
