I’m tired.531Please respect copyright.PENANAw3esaNdXCD
If I’m honest, the days keep dragging by531Please respect copyright.PENANA7msloNg5m7
and my feet are sliding across the floor instead531Please respect copyright.PENANAu4uLI2KGVY
of lifting with each step because I can’t find the energy531Please respect copyright.PENANAuOjZ9ft5NV
to pick them up and set them back down.531Please respect copyright.PENANAwNZYqhCSt9
Some people turn and ask me to stop scuffing531Please respect copyright.PENANA3a5uVjnUPa
my feet on the floor, please lift them up and walk531Please respect copyright.PENANArQR5RdLCTy
like a normal person, thank you.531Please respect copyright.PENANAN0cXh7mS4M
I try.531Please respect copyright.PENANALX4DRIeCmH
I try everyday to lift myself up and keep walking531Please respect copyright.PENANAVsnjID3Eq2
but like my feet, I am scuffing across the ground531Please respect copyright.PENANAVpOVeONmNP
just barely making it from one place to another531Please respect copyright.PENANAU1gnAsZiFg
without damage.
I’m tired.531Please respect copyright.PENANA28ODS2D8Ft
Just this Wednesday I was driving home531Please respect copyright.PENANA7j3FTdk0W8
on the highway, 480 West from Brookpark Road531Please respect copyright.PENANAULjyO97aib
where the RTA takes me to Cleveland for classes, and531Please respect copyright.PENANAlFVhGvg4f2
during the drive, I couldn’t focus on the road before me531Please respect copyright.PENANARWmn1uarr9
because the news that Trump had won left me shaken531Please respect copyright.PENANAq57xKQkE3S
for those I’m not sure how to help531Please respect copyright.PENANAGuSNmbBSYP
when I’ve been given a privilege I didn’t ask for.531Please respect copyright.PENANAj2bcn1ZBhL
And while I was driving down the highway531Please respect copyright.PENANAoPC7TE5rmx
I contemplated the notion of jerking the wheel531Please respect copyright.PENANAvP23ImF8h6
to the left and letting my car hit the divide between the531Please respect copyright.PENANAdakXdcUnR4
highway East and the highway West; allow myself to531Please respect copyright.PENANAN7Slkd2X7q
collide with the wall, break through and destroy531Please respect copyright.PENANAR8CAXoR44G
the other side.531Please respect copyright.PENANA8qtFGibn4j
Then, I contemplated jerking the wheel to the right531Please respect copyright.PENANABFZK1UYN95
into the ditch along the grass so I wouldn’t531Please respect copyright.PENANAP3Fw2okj8o
harm anyone else in the process. But I531Please respect copyright.PENANA1mVu3d5AY6
didn’t do either, even though I531Please respect copyright.PENANALHaJohroTq
got so scared for a minute531Please respect copyright.PENANA81ceJwazzA
that I would.
I’m tired.531Please respect copyright.PENANAl8wnKlGJ67
Last year on August 22nd, my birthday, I had a similar531Please respect copyright.PENANAyQZUfw98h6
reaction to suicidal thoughts. I had a rough531Please respect copyright.PENANAyPw5uUT9Hw
birthday; I worked, I was lonely, I felt531Please respect copyright.PENANAgC4AbiwWJ0
pathetic, worthless, uncared for and forgotten531Please respect copyright.PENANAhQswbXx8DZ
so I took the sharpest and largest kitchen knife531Please respect copyright.PENANAJPmOsJNylO
and I pressed the tip of it to my chest, above my heart531Please respect copyright.PENANAHFRoVvTCQm
and sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore.531Please respect copyright.PENANALBr18oCDI8
I did not press the sharp edge deep enough to531Please respect copyright.PENANAm9BvOGwd8V
draw blood, but it was the first time531Please respect copyright.PENANAnjXfO048li
I had allowed myself to531Please respect copyright.PENANAioKqaWhmb9
get so close to the temptation.
I’m tired.531Please respect copyright.PENANAuIL8XSI3xv
I say that I want to die a lot, even though I never531Please respect copyright.PENANACBqOCoxze1
actually reach out and go through with it531Please respect copyright.PENANAOk4eDa2RoF
I think because I’m afraid of not existing531Please respect copyright.PENANAGPpy53G8vN
just as I’m afraid of existing. And lately I531Please respect copyright.PENANA3xCPZUoAya
have people who reach out to me when I’m not sure531Please respect copyright.PENANA6g46cmiIL2
how to reach out to them, and it’s sweet to have people531Please respect copyright.PENANA3GUxqqjnK0
support me, but I go right back to wanting to isolate myself531Please respect copyright.PENANA6vz4sYbpml
and give up. I have thought about dying every day531Please respect copyright.PENANAsu737o7oyT
for the last few weeks and I wish I could just531Please respect copyright.PENANAzsMBV8FKvx
go through with it.
I’m tired.531Please respect copyright.PENANAsHaqj8YRwC
I’m so tired of being forgotten, of arguing531Please respect copyright.PENANAUw0V7hjdtq
for people to care about me when they should531Please respect copyright.PENANAa9i5968C2A
care about me on their own. I often think that531Please respect copyright.PENANAFgLg9qzEIm
I should just stop putting in such an effort for those that531Please respect copyright.PENANAyA6iQHOefP
do not consider me, but I can’t seem to stop caring.531Please respect copyright.PENANAY5WVvsoDaZ
She often hurts me more than she improves my life531Please respect copyright.PENANAieUtI4mN0s
but I’m too afraid to say anything because531Please respect copyright.PENANAJb3eF0s0b6
I need her. I need her to exist531Please respect copyright.PENANAfWLPuTpnQW
in my existence, and I need her to531Please respect copyright.PENANAUZxzSA4OWX
be by my side.531Please respect copyright.PENANAM5G31fvWBX
But I’m tired.
I’m tired531Please respect copyright.PENANAvoyILnddir
of being tired531Please respect copyright.PENANAqJgw2o6z9u
in this tiring life.