I’m tired.721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX0kWVtAt2u
If I’m honest, the days keep dragging by721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN9e0dhrp0n
and my feet are sliding across the floor instead721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaqHf0lER0X
of lifting with each step because I can’t find the energy721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqGML6E4kS8
to pick them up and set them back down.721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1hHm2iZAB
Some people turn and ask me to stop scuffing721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhYVb8LMGVP
my feet on the floor, please lift them up and walk721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4jBsXhKPz2
like a normal person, thank you.721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4ovvOYr9h
I try.721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtu53vPdz0x
I try everyday to lift myself up and keep walking721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0rN1X7Dlwv
but like my feet, I am scuffing across the ground721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIKI8i2D0gU
just barely making it from one place to another721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdD9jGfRaOr
without damage.
I’m tired.721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXcu8AKgmd
Just this Wednesday I was driving home721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7vJM4BgbGo
on the highway, 480 West from Brookpark Road721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡszMLuWFnvg
where the RTA takes me to Cleveland for classes, and721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP93cq8Akzv
during the drive, I couldn’t focus on the road before me721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu2xcvKqKU3
because the news that Trump had won left me shaken721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjpc1q4FVqc
for those I’m not sure how to help721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mtRibKh4g
when I’ve been given a privilege I didn’t ask for.721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFD7cVLSDA
And while I was driving down the highway721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQ05WIaqWM
I contemplated the notion of jerking the wheel721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCaLpaX653L
to the left and letting my car hit the divide between the721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwRPh36FD7w
highway East and the highway West; allow myself to721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP4HlcXwP6H
collide with the wall, break through and destroy721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLXX3TjSkXG
the other side.721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNVoehTAxZ5
Then, I contemplated jerking the wheel to the right721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBjM67xcnip
into the ditch along the grass so I wouldn’t721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvMwVhTVcR5
harm anyone else in the process. But I721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhE1r39M3KD
didn’t do either, even though I721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNoZp1X70wr
got so scared for a minute721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmBGm2mQje1
that I would.
I’m tired.721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeXU1hAIq2V
Last year on August 22nd, my birthday, I had a similar721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqno8gLAV5m
reaction to suicidal thoughts. I had a rough721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp7tXLfrtDF
birthday; I worked, I was lonely, I felt721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZcaQo7EpJe
pathetic, worthless, uncared for and forgotten721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNirpWF6Ytb
so I took the sharpest and largest kitchen knife721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMfFmSsMQK
and I pressed the tip of it to my chest, above my heart721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡssHBpF4x7W
and sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore.721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKL8GIBqv7S
I did not press the sharp edge deep enough to721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAQTdkKjmNm
draw blood, but it was the first time721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡss5xiq7HIH
I had allowed myself to721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5jgZooZkxl
get so close to the temptation.
I’m tired.721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTFfVqRYduH
I say that I want to die a lot, even though I never721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV02Nw9z9xH
actually reach out and go through with it721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt26arKiSn9
I think because I’m afraid of not existing721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3F6hJzRFuu
just as I’m afraid of existing. And lately I721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC0smEzU4fe
have people who reach out to me when I’m not sure721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsq4ULftvYG
how to reach out to them, and it’s sweet to have people721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8omEqOav4
support me, but I go right back to wanting to isolate myself721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdpPGzcql0M
and give up. I have thought about dying every day721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpazWyvDvTA
for the last few weeks and I wish I could just721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqC0bXcAkg5
go through with it.
I’m tired.721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ283GEnWlIk
I’m so tired of being forgotten, of arguing721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTK0Z0Bivc
for people to care about me when they should721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV9E4XIaZXN
care about me on their own. I often think that721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfIIn7siLq0
I should just stop putting in such an effort for those that721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMOKQOpGTun
do not consider me, but I can’t seem to stop caring.721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡysxtcEJ5Hq
She often hurts me more than she improves my life721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ25rspL5hTd
but I’m too afraid to say anything because721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJ6aDnwVgO
I need her. I need her to exist721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe0SUXAyfv5
in my existence, and I need her to721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAv68ab7F5U
be by my side.721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAhgiXDSNXv
But I’m tired.
I’m tired721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf12pQf8f0i
of being tired721Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ47bLX3kUPB
in this tiring life.
