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之前說過,因康雯的「催促」(部份原因),我參加了青見。我的青見個案經理,是梁姑娘。82Please respect copyright.PENANAFRyOo1ZCdr
82Please respect copyright.PENANACcrEZTEp1D
我就打電話給梁姑娘,訴說這些事:不如為何大埔4K工那3個「朋友」這樣一夜間消失,很擔心父母離世......說到途中,居然又忍不著哭......82Please respect copyright.PENANAhX1BRbtQcS
82Please respect copyright.PENANAZpeU1W4d3q
我很想找快點找到新工作,以讓自己有點寄託,減少胡思亂想。82Please respect copyright.PENANACDVi7Tx1Pn
82Please respect copyright.PENANALDtD7KyFFf
梁姑娘說,一些社福機構也有類似的半年4K工,著我到某些網站尋找。又說她工作的青少年中心,也有這些空缺,著我可申請。82Please respect copyright.PENANAYWKYAtzquU
82Please respect copyright.PENANAvOWqHqR0v2
郵寄了不下十多封這些半年4K工的求職信,有間甚至是近在我家樓下的青少年中心,結果就和當年向 YES!徵友欄索取女孩地址一樣,幾乎全部石沉大海。82Please respect copyright.PENANAeWqlHJjS9h
82Please respect copyright.PENANAEmbtBifbkm
唯一有回音的,是梁姑娘工作的青少年中心。很明顯,是梁姑娘背後動作,識人好過識字。82Please respect copyright.PENANAAS5pweNEJd
82Please respect copyright.PENANAa0Q9yvhybX
不意外地,2004年4月,成為了梁姑娘工作的青少年中心的員工,又一個半年4K(參考:阿源的TVB初次訪問出街後,有社工跟進他,也是帶了他進青少年中心做這些臨時工)。82Please respect copyright.PENANAeN29tpVzj7
82Please respect copyright.PENANAVT4gXnkx2a
起初,我情緒仍然低落,但一直告訴自己,這是嶄新的一頁,不要再情緒低落了。當然,這裡也有其他4K人,我盡力融入,希望結織朋友。82Please respect copyright.PENANAzZny8DK3go
82Please respect copyright.PENANAYqpbP3Jg44
沒料到,這裡的,是比卓絲更仆街的仆街,更瘋狂的針對、孤立、邊緣化。82Please respect copyright.PENANAPBF6mPI3GB
82Please respect copyright.PENANAbBxW2VMe2q
之前大埔那裡,還有個小圈子加入。青少年中心這裡,我完全被孤立完全被邊緣化。82Please respect copyright.PENANAO3Tr3oOafJ
82Please respect copyright.PENANA4Kn1XX81Qx
沒事可做,揭一揭報紙,也被批評。不是批評一次,而是幾乎隔天便借故重提嘮叨。直到我遞辭職信,又被挽留,才沒再提。82Please respect copyright.PENANAQVdUQEN2mn
82Please respect copyright.PENANAXPHLiSKJk8
聽到有人對梁姑娘說:「總之我聽埋聽埋,我對佢印象就係唔好!佢喺呢度都攪成咁,將來出到去,我唔知佢點算....」,梁姑娘沒作聲,只有一臉無奈。這個「佢」,準是我,一定係。82Please respect copyright.PENANAtpYONYOgpt
82Please respect copyright.PENANAO7n7n31JQ7
連梁姑娘,也身受其害。相信因為我,她一定聽不少「你做乜帶隻咁既野入黎」之類說話。82Please respect copyright.PENANA74WUCWaEwk
82Please respect copyright.PENANAuuoXZAo6hT
後期,甚至去到連眼尾看見同事填文件,也被照肺:「你唔係人地上司,你冇權睇人地做乜!你咁睇人地填文件,係質疑同事工作,仲質疑埋同事既上司,雙重質疑,破壞呢度既融洽和諧......」82Please respect copyright.PENANARihG5IIlIH
82Please respect copyright.PENANAqowrVc1lHB
某4K人生日,全4K人高調吹雞去唱K,唯獨留下我一個。82Please respect copyright.PENANAEl0W4jZLmk
82Please respect copyright.PENANAK7QjLf7rib
全4K人吹雞去台灣玩,當然又是.......82Please respect copyright.PENANAl0tA7NyV5Z
82Please respect copyright.PENANAGMmhTIjuBA
2004年10月,又到半年約滿期了。臨別秋波,梁姑娘也很無奈,也說不出我到底做錯了甚麼、得罪了那些「人」甚麼。唯有推介我看<人性的弱點>,說是探討人際關係,對結識朋友、改善人緣有幫助。82Please respect copyright.PENANATZB2iYnujg
82Please respect copyright.PENANAP1OGI4TuAl
離開這裡後,本為期一年的青見服務,也超額結束,梁姑娘也沒再找我。82Please respect copyright.PENANAz7tDQwxlPg
82Please respect copyright.PENANATW05s0ngY1
我找了<人性的弱點>這本書看,一邊看,一邊認真反思檢討。只覺得,這本書寫的,若完全做足,簡直是完全失去自我,確沒可能。但我以往,七八成怎也有做,又怎樣?只是一次又一次的「你對人好,唔好望人對返你好」。82Please respect copyright.PENANAvjlKoDk5qO
82Please respect copyright.PENANAs5voijwSGm
這本書,看了約七成,便棄了。82Please respect copyright.PENANAHIqmfpVZe4
82Please respect copyright.PENANA3tzX78CPKQ
數年後,認識了某人,她的脾氣性格,完全是這本書的反面教材:極自我中心、嚴人寬己,但朋友、桃花,還是一蘿蘿飛來蜢。82Please respect copyright.PENANARQTuf96vv6
82Please respect copyright.PENANAg61MEHPfHf
此時已是2004年末,如前述,2003年那短期課程結識的傻男和康雯,也在這時反面(康雯,「輪班」喎、「工時長」喎,「很忙」喎、「時間難夾」喎),朋友僅餘肥妹。82Please respect copyright.PENANA2VryMMVZI5
82Please respect copyright.PENANAE0cLHdzlqc
那短期課程的康雯。82Please respect copyright.PENANA106fztrIpn
82Please respect copyright.PENANAK5qFHyMEbz
大埔4K工的卓絲、小圈子的3個「朋友」:一輝、地下情侶。82Please respect copyright.PENANAcZpz6OSLCh
82Please respect copyright.PENANA0ejZhKvDYD
青少年中心的4K同事。82Please respect copyright.PENANAACZBs2rQiU
82Please respect copyright.PENANAqTgenWlrhQ
全都是我真心想交的朋友,一個又一個,全部.........82Please respect copyright.PENANAl0FBT9qHwM
82Please respect copyright.PENANAZC9iRJPuhg
冥冥之中、天意、宿命,全部係冥冥之中、天意、宿命。82Please respect copyright.PENANAcwU1USVGUd
82Please respect copyright.PENANAkkaiADrlM9
2003年在那短期課程得到的少許自信,已消滅殆盡。
ns 172.69.6.15da2 82Please respect copyright.PENANACcrEZTEp1D
我就打電話給梁姑娘,訴說這些事:不如為何大埔4K工那3個「朋友」這樣一夜間消失,很擔心父母離世......說到途中,居然又忍不著哭......82Please respect copyright.PENANAhX1BRbtQcS
82Please respect copyright.PENANAZpeU1W4d3q
我很想找快點找到新工作,以讓自己有點寄託,減少胡思亂想。82Please respect copyright.PENANACDVi7Tx1Pn
82Please respect copyright.PENANALDtD7KyFFf
梁姑娘說,一些社福機構也有類似的半年4K工,著我到某些網站尋找。又說她工作的青少年中心,也有這些空缺,著我可申請。82Please respect copyright.PENANAYWKYAtzquU
82Please respect copyright.PENANAvOWqHqR0v2
郵寄了不下十多封這些半年4K工的求職信,有間甚至是近在我家樓下的青少年中心,結果就和當年向 YES!徵友欄索取女孩地址一樣,幾乎全部石沉大海。82Please respect copyright.PENANAeWqlHJjS9h
82Please respect copyright.PENANAEmbtBifbkm
唯一有回音的,是梁姑娘工作的青少年中心。很明顯,是梁姑娘背後動作,識人好過識字。82Please respect copyright.PENANAAS5pweNEJd
82Please respect copyright.PENANAa0Q9yvhybX
不意外地,2004年4月,成為了梁姑娘工作的青少年中心的員工,又一個半年4K(參考:阿源的TVB初次訪問出街後,有社工跟進他,也是帶了他進青少年中心做這些臨時工)。82Please respect copyright.PENANAeN29tpVzj7
82Please respect copyright.PENANAVT4gXnkx2a
起初,我情緒仍然低落,但一直告訴自己,這是嶄新的一頁,不要再情緒低落了。當然,這裡也有其他4K人,我盡力融入,希望結織朋友。82Please respect copyright.PENANAzZny8DK3go
82Please respect copyright.PENANAYqpbP3Jg44
沒料到,這裡的,是比卓絲更仆街的仆街,更瘋狂的針對、孤立、邊緣化。82Please respect copyright.PENANAPBF6mPI3GB
82Please respect copyright.PENANAbBxW2VMe2q
之前大埔那裡,還有個小圈子加入。青少年中心這裡,我完全被孤立完全被邊緣化。82Please respect copyright.PENANAO3Tr3oOafJ
82Please respect copyright.PENANA4Kn1XX81Qx
沒事可做,揭一揭報紙,也被批評。不是批評一次,而是幾乎隔天便借故重提嘮叨。直到我遞辭職信,又被挽留,才沒再提。82Please respect copyright.PENANAQVdUQEN2mn
82Please respect copyright.PENANAXPHLiSKJk8
聽到有人對梁姑娘說:「總之我聽埋聽埋,我對佢印象就係唔好!佢喺呢度都攪成咁,將來出到去,我唔知佢點算....」,梁姑娘沒作聲,只有一臉無奈。這個「佢」,準是我,一定係。82Please respect copyright.PENANAtpYONYOgpt
82Please respect copyright.PENANAO7n7n31JQ7
連梁姑娘,也身受其害。相信因為我,她一定聽不少「你做乜帶隻咁既野入黎」之類說話。82Please respect copyright.PENANA74WUCWaEwk
82Please respect copyright.PENANAuuoXZAo6hT
後期,甚至去到連眼尾看見同事填文件,也被照肺:「你唔係人地上司,你冇權睇人地做乜!你咁睇人地填文件,係質疑同事工作,仲質疑埋同事既上司,雙重質疑,破壞呢度既融洽和諧......」82Please respect copyright.PENANARihG5IIlIH
82Please respect copyright.PENANAqowrVc1lHB
某4K人生日,全4K人高調吹雞去唱K,唯獨留下我一個。82Please respect copyright.PENANAEl0W4jZLmk
82Please respect copyright.PENANAK7QjLf7rib
全4K人吹雞去台灣玩,當然又是.......82Please respect copyright.PENANAl0tA7NyV5Z
82Please respect copyright.PENANAGMmhTIjuBA
2004年10月,又到半年約滿期了。臨別秋波,梁姑娘也很無奈,也說不出我到底做錯了甚麼、得罪了那些「人」甚麼。唯有推介我看<人性的弱點>,說是探討人際關係,對結識朋友、改善人緣有幫助。82Please respect copyright.PENANATZB2iYnujg
82Please respect copyright.PENANAP1OGI4TuAl
離開這裡後,本為期一年的青見服務,也超額結束,梁姑娘也沒再找我。82Please respect copyright.PENANAz7tDQwxlPg
82Please respect copyright.PENANATW05s0ngY1
我找了<人性的弱點>這本書看,一邊看,一邊認真反思檢討。只覺得,這本書寫的,若完全做足,簡直是完全失去自我,確沒可能。但我以往,七八成怎也有做,又怎樣?只是一次又一次的「你對人好,唔好望人對返你好」。82Please respect copyright.PENANAvjlKoDk5qO
82Please respect copyright.PENANAs5voijwSGm
這本書,看了約七成,便棄了。82Please respect copyright.PENANAHIqmfpVZe4
82Please respect copyright.PENANA3tzX78CPKQ
數年後,認識了某人,她的脾氣性格,完全是這本書的反面教材:極自我中心、嚴人寬己,但朋友、桃花,還是一蘿蘿飛來蜢。82Please respect copyright.PENANARQTuf96vv6
82Please respect copyright.PENANAg61MEHPfHf
此時已是2004年末,如前述,2003年那短期課程結識的傻男和康雯,也在這時反面(康雯,「輪班」喎、「工時長」喎,「很忙」喎、「時間難夾」喎),朋友僅餘肥妹。82Please respect copyright.PENANA2VryMMVZI5
82Please respect copyright.PENANAE0cLHdzlqc
那短期課程的康雯。82Please respect copyright.PENANA106fztrIpn
82Please respect copyright.PENANAK5qFHyMEbz
大埔4K工的卓絲、小圈子的3個「朋友」:一輝、地下情侶。82Please respect copyright.PENANAcZpz6OSLCh
82Please respect copyright.PENANA0ejZhKvDYD
青少年中心的4K同事。82Please respect copyright.PENANAACZBs2rQiU
82Please respect copyright.PENANAqTgenWlrhQ
全都是我真心想交的朋友,一個又一個,全部.........82Please respect copyright.PENANAl0FBT9qHwM
82Please respect copyright.PENANAZC9iRJPuhg
冥冥之中、天意、宿命,全部係冥冥之中、天意、宿命。82Please respect copyright.PENANAcwU1USVGUd
82Please respect copyright.PENANAkkaiADrlM9
2003年在那短期課程得到的少許自信,已消滅殆盡。