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    The next day, Jessy doesn't show up to school all day, nor the next day. I'm worried to death for him. Also at the end of class, I will question Amy in order to obtain his address. She gives a little smile which immediately makes me think that she is going to rush to find Chad and tell him but, honestly, I don't care. At this moment, I don't care about my reputation, all that matters is this boy who has already indelibly marked my life and for whom I worry so much. I have to struggle for a little while and make up a crazy story, but in the end, I leave the school with the coordinates in my pocket. Immediately, I went to his house. He lives in an old two story house which has retained its incredible charm, despite the renovation work it has undergone. The paint, a light yellow, was redone recently. It’s just the kind of well kept house my dad likes. This thought makes me smile. A covered terrace, where a bench and two armchairs have been installed, shelters the entrance to the house. I climb the three steps and ring the bell. I don't have to wait long before the door opens for Jessy.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0o6gxHsN4E
    — I’m not in the mood to worry, he told me point blank.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWbR3qrdDNL
    He looks tired, preoccupied. Despite his obvious bad mood, I'm happy to see him. These last two days without seeing him seemed like an eternity. His mother comes up behind him. I can only glimpse it briefly.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQ4vemfPty
    — It’s for me, mom, he tells her.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFjQRreKnlp
    Understanding that he doesn't want to talk to me in front of her, I decide to play on it and, leaning towards him, I whisper to him : 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWhnfIc7mCo
    — I'll stay until we've talked, and it's too bad if your mother asks me what I want.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkgDFEt8xA
     His green eyes stare at me, trying to see if I'm bluffing or not, finally, he gives in.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfE0kFmrDTQ
    — Very well, I’m coming.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFmoqCgAOb3
     He grabs a denim jacket before following me down the street.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3YOcGNKnJ5
    We walk aimlessly, following the roads that pass before us in complete silence. I don't know how to start the discussion, I'm afraid of offending him, or of upsetting him if I question him too much.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjEVjKNW2hG
    — So ? You wanted to talk to me, go ahead ! He says in a bad mood, as we arrive near an abandoned factory.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUsKfXZgAq
    Intimidated, as always by his presence at my side, I take it upon myself to get started : 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhtHEqlWVTK
    — You haven't come to school for the last two days...460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡESFvgRloBS
    — Oh yes, you noticed, well done ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwzg7yHno4
    — Don’t be sarcastic, please. But you let me down for the presentation ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZ3DtjKT7M
    — Oh, and you probably want an apology ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKZBI9lQckL
    — No, I don't care about this duty.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPImehwjwXe
    I use a calm tone so as not to annoy him further.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ82W3ycQA39
    — Why did you come to see me ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsHADuUaCu2
    He stops walking.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdOT4oEwX8
    — I was worried about you.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMGF2dkbMcN
    — Well then ! Instead, admit that you want details so you can tell your friends everything afterwards ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPWJ4cIb4PD
    — I don't plan to tell anyone about it.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡezlzPB6Lcr
    He examines me for a long moment, seeming to search deep in my eyes if he can trust me.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCCooqkaps
    — How long have you been HIV positive ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYBftqdUeOk
    — It's been about a year now.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkaEtTdyGJx
    — And how did you catch it ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8PwbveHdz
    — One evening at a friend’s party, I met a girl…460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4QzvXFjNz
    — And you slept together ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWDJDgeFQBY
    — No, we watched cartoons ! He said, really angry.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy9LWzVhs87
    — She didn’t tell you she was HIV positive ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeJe7uHroJb
    — She didn't know at the time... A doctor called my mother a few weeks later, Haley had taken a test which came back positive. She had informed the doctor that I was one of her partners. I had to go get tested myself and that’s how I learned that she infected me.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhikkgpQBId
    — Just for one night you spent together.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡho05dZ2Sce
    I whisper this sentence as if to myself.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyCBXCZuczU
    — Not one night, just a short moment and a lack of condom and this is the result. A word of advice Meg : When you decide to do it with Chad, don't forget the condom otherwise you'll end up like me, a walking corpse ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MYEohr3ui
    — Jessy, stop saying that ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYqRaF0tncF
    — For what ? It's the truth ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiqN1ZNhiuA
    — No, you are in good health, it doesn't even look like you have this virus so you have to be optimistic.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp2eXLBRIw6
    — As if that could cure me ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQrUR5nsDlQ
    — Yes, it can help you hold on until the doctors find a cure.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWdo2fLjg5h
    I spoke more firmly than I wanted. Jessy looks at me, surprised.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡncVGOX2OnW
    — You're right, you have to be positive and enjoy life, right ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ056afVbB8z
    Suddenly his gaze changes, it becomes darker. He approaches me and takes me by the waist, holding me tightly against his body. I pull away from him immediately, not out of fear of illness, but as I would with any boy who did it this way.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGvrZRiLD1c
    — Hey, weird ! You don't want to kiss me anymore ! This surprises me greatly ! Go find your fantastic and healthy boyfriend and leave me alone ! he shouts as he walks away.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLDVuWAzdB
    — Jessy, you’re wrong, that’s not it ! Come back ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKIV7ts5zhB
    My words are lost in the silence.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkPoDqWbSH
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    The next morning before classes, which start later today, and where Jessy will certainly still be conspicuous by his absence, I am sitting in a corner of the snack bar. It’s a café where all the young people from high school like to meet for a drink, listen to music and chat. The room is quite large, with its light green imitation leather benches, its silver metal tables and its fifties decoration all in pink and blue. I found Chad there, who is having fun around a pinball machine with his friends a little further away, while I read Jessy's book. In fact, this is the third time I've devoured it since he lent it to me. The story of this man who fights alone against everyone to obtain his freedom after having been condemned in advance by public opinion now takes on a whole new meaning for me. Between these lines, it is Jessy’s life that I see. I can't stop thinking about him, and it drives me crazy. I'm dating Chad, I like Chad. So why do I only think about Jessy's lips on mine ? Why am I so worried about him ? How come I miss him so much ? I have already gone several days without seeing Chad, when he went on vacation with his parents, without ever feeling this emptiness in the pit of my heart. Yet I am in love with him.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe6J91MckxM
    Do I like Chad ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNDxqRxpPXp
    Ah, I'm going to go crazy if this continues ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBE8BMeRzF8
    I raise my head and look at him, he looks at me and gives me a smile that I have trouble responding to, before he turns his attention back to his friends.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO8Tzuk9LPN
    Why don't I feel anything when I look at it ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWgnDFRRf5b
    Putting my thoughts aside, I carefully dive back into my reading when Amy approaches me. That day, more than ever, I had no desire to talk to him. As I expected, she reported my comments to Chad and, as always, I had to justify myself. Luckily we have this talk to give, it gave me the perfect excuse.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmlfcMv8lUZ
    Amy lifts the cover of my book and whispers : 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp6hmHMPZFK
    — Put down that book ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7BzjWuzY5y
    — It’s a great book ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwOKPuC6ntU
    — I will never understand how you could want to read outside of class, there are so many things460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQq2iDjbrR
    much more exciting to do…460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvwAYCuxfM4
    — Excuse me…460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwiDI7aE8o
    I get up quickly after seeing Jessy passing in the street.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDM4FvHU4S9
    Hurriedly, I leave the café.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6mqea9NzAE
    — Jessy ! Wait for me ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPRSw2Rwb9
    As usual, he hears me, but continues on his way.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmS9kS4pX4w
    — I have your book ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQrSQsERD8
    This time, I manage to catch his attention, he stops on the sidewalk.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB2SqfsDve0
    — What do you want from me ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ67p8tUlTsi
    — I just wanted to give that back to you.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuqrWPRoQ2A
    I hand him his paperback, staring at him, my heart rate increasing.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbM5buZxwf3
    — And then, I wanted us to talk.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2n25JHT79b
    — I think we said everything. You should go back to your boyfriend.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡziyt99jrwi
    — I don’t want to talk with Chad, but with you.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp47Sr20mRI
    — Thank you, that’s a pleasure, says a familiar voice behind me, making me jump.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeSv3nehMLa
    I quickly turn around to see my boyfriend.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpwAsvpbeTm
    — It's not what you think. But I need to talk to Jessy.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpyVCHnks6x
    — We have nothing to say to each other, he repeats.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVP3yedNEzV
    — Glad to hear you say that ! Stop hovering over my girlfriend ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ46MieUO8Gx
    — Hey, I’m here, Chad ! You don't have to speak on my behalf and even less tell me who I can talk to or not ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvImWNZfqqY
    — There, I agree with you, replies Jessy.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdyEi74qUCW
    — We didn't ask you anything ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQr2zDCSk7
    — Leave him alone ! It’s me who wants to talk to him ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9TOZTxyiUV
    — Are we having a threesome now ? Chad angrily grabs my arm.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHNDGuNRSdw
    He squeezes it tightly and takes me with him towards the snack bar.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEgA4mUnAEv
    — Let me go, I demand, trying to get out of his grip. You're ridiculous ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJ8LXOxFYp
     Chad tightens his grip further.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0yKOLkdxF0
    — I just want to talk to you.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0KVJobrj2p
    — So let go of me, you’re hurting me ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ86VXl5V39c
    — Let her go ! Jessy demands, interposing.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsU6GuNH1V9
    — Don't get involved ! My boyfriend shouts, finally releasing my sore arm before pushing Jessy along the wall of the establishment.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3NgouPmXl
    — Don’t hit me, Jessy warned.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbNsySYsR9b
    — Ah, Monsieur gives more orders, says Chad angrily, putting his fist in the young man's stomach.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYFs71iOsHH
    In shock, Jessy doubles over, dropping his book.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡInRRlVFJpn
    — Chad, stop ! I scream in the middle of the street.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6tkCdD5k1f
    Jessy, still hunched over, rushes at Chad and knocks him to the ground. He finds himself straddling him, trying to keep him on the ground while asking him to calm down. But you don't know Chad very well to think that he's going to let himself be controlled so easily. Soon they are rolling on the sidewalk, almost falling onto the road. Chad finds himself on top of Jessy and punches him in the stomach again. Then he stands up, waiting for Jessy to get up. When he gets back to his feet, he spreads his hands in a sign of appeasement, but Chad rushes at him again and hits him in the cheek.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4OW1nhTJSI
    — Chad ! Leave him ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡphqbWkgJ9k
    Jessy picks up his book and walks away, but Chad comes at him again and hits him in the back. Jessy falls to his knees as Chad walks around to face him and grabs him by the collar of his T-shirt.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSjwMdRLHvm
    No matter how much I beg him, Chad doesn't listen to me. I am about to betray my promise when, fortunately, two police officers intervene to separate them, surrounding them.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡluGzXFFyMO
    Jessy immediately regains his calm while Chad continues to struggle in order to continue the fight.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNwlmMSuB6k
    — What is happening here ? Asks the officer holding Jessy.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeh8nkZzs42
    — This guy is hitting on my girlfriend, Chad shouts, still annoyed.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpPbb9qlkpp
    — Anything ! I shout angrily. Jessy is a friend and there’s no way you’re going to forbid me from talking to him ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsER1sMjbcR
    My boyfriend stares at me in astonishment while I think I see recognition in Jessy's eyes. This has the gift of calming Chad who lets his arms fall while blowing.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡouncA1ps20
    — Can we let go of you ? Asks the second police officer.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlguVGHKDi
    Both boys nodded weakly.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy3tWwfr7Ba
    — It’s not over yet, Chad says, staring at Jessy, before heading back to the snack bar.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY6mCOj2atY
    — It'll be OK ? Asks the other agent. He hurt you, do you want to go to the hospital ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkcMFHa90Ua
    Jessy's complexion suddenly turned pale.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT9I3Fbmvh6
    — No, it’s okay.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJAAx7mcJrb
    — I’ll take care of him, I intervene, moving closer to him.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwmCJynA6E
    With a knowing look, the two police officers walk away.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQRClGTFrGh
    — Thank you, Jessy sighs.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0sY169Fel0
    — You seemed panicked at the idea of going to the hospital.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡam0Q0yPXGB
    — Yeah, I'm not a big fan of it. I've already just left my doctor's office, I'm not going to spend the rest of my day on a stretcher.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPKMxCUTe5g
    I pick up his book and give it back to him.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTBzk9qEY0W
    — Do you want to talk now ? I ask.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnKGSd4n3rO
    Jessy purses his lips.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmYUOkk27SZ
    — You never give up ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡatOV6X3zRI
    — It depends on the subject but when it’s something important to me, no, I never give up.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9UhBnV1tD
     Jessy seems touched by my words, he lowers his head and nods, pursing his lips.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIlHVmWAQOx
    Without even asking him if he plans to go to class this morning, we head towards his house.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKgq8PbFjde
    — Did you like the book ? He finally asked after a long silence.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡASVKeZh6Sp
    — I devoured it ! I'll have to buy a copy.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcR3jK6VE7h
     His smile is radiant when he tells me : 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNOp6HwaRCW
     — I'm glad you liked it. You're the first person I've told about this.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKEm3oiSpJp
    I take advantage of this confidence to try to learn more.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBISfnFCSot
    — You told me you went to the doctor, are you okay ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Or9vPx9vm
    — My doctor told me that apart from being HIV positive, I am in great shape. She will do regular blood tests to monitor how the virus is progressing and has also encouraged me to join a support group of people who have the same problem as me, he tells me as he stops walking.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrnkWwrqkD4
     I meditate on his words for a few seconds, I know how important the subject is and I definitely don't want to focus on it.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTiAfVpr78C
    — I think you should try going to one of these meetings. After all, what are you risking ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG3ovEL3L9H
    He raises his face to the sky and observes a cloud which moves slowly, pushed by a light wind.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJH1t6ncKCF
    — Maybe you're right.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbv1fHGa6t1
    Satisfied with his answer, I leave him in front of his house. As I head back home, I'm torn between the pleasure of being closer to Jessy and the anger that overcomes me when I think of Chad. I know this situation has gone on for too long.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4aO7gEWh4c
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    I had barely crossed the threshold of my house when my mother told me that Chad was waiting for me in the garden.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrSrOjnE4xv
    — Neither of you have been to class and Chad looks upset, she said. What's going on, Megan ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzsZFde4vhd
    — I'm sorry, mom. I should have warned you. Chad and Jessy fought before we went to high school. Chad crossed the line, Jessy is hurt, and believe me, he really didn't need this.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlaY1RpfxyD
    My mother examines me carefully. I'm not going to lie, along the way I thought about how events unfolded and the more I think about it, the more my anger grows.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0lfJqermH4
    — And this fight happened because of how you feel about Jessy ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9Gqo75RrB
    I agree, nodding my head.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2RYurp1axQ
    — Now, do you know what you are doing ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTg5KmR9Sr
    — Yes, even if it is painful, I can no longer hide my face.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgI33aGey8C
    My mother gives a little knowing smile.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFrCqS5qOxr
    — GOOD. I don't like it when you skip school, but this time, I'm giving up. You will go to class this afternoon. In the meantime, go and sort this situation out. Good luck.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVpX0PeuZLl
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     Chad is pacing around the yard when I open the back door of the house to join him.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpu9S986QRW
    — Finally you're here ! Were you with him ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxMJMnhiixc
     The tone of his voice is icy. If he thinks I'm going to let him talk to me like that, he's sorely mistaken.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbuivnHANUZ
    — Remind me, when did we get married ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUjttmD7arx
    — Pardon ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmxPj7ooTRb
    — No, because the reason you're acting like an incredible asshole is because we've been married for years and you think I'm your property, right ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUlJILrbGvH
    Chad puts his hand to his forehead and bursts out into mirthless laughter.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6qrCLEh4y
    — I should have known you were going to take his side. Damn, Meg, you don't realize this guy is manipulating you to separate us ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjBmmpsBUgc
    If until now I had managed to keep calm, his words made me lose all control.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgMUZElnLF0
    — But you are completely delusional ! I'm not your thing, I'm free to do what I want ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8AeJe21InK
    — Like sleeping with him ! ? He writes to himself, clenching his fists.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmhAxxL7l5E
    — I'm not going out with him ! I scream. And I'm not going out with you anymore ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpquKe5kird
    In shock, he takes two steps back.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH1IDZeRJ4k
    — What ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1rJ7WPqEWp
    — You understood me very well. It's over Chad.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjkykj9ZI3u
    — He succeeded then ? He wanted to separate us and you become his accomplice.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdvKHzQP6UN
    This time it’s me who’s in shock. Where did he get such an idea ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqPOf2Ldho4
    — No, but do you hear yourself ? I'm talking to you about us, not Jessy. He never even suggested that I break up with you, even after you hit him earlier.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdBTHTobBZo
    — You're not going to make me believe that it's enough for you to realize that you don't love me anymore.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEChiD59hHS
    — Since we have been together, I have asked myself a lot of questions, I admit, going to sit down on a chair in the garden furniture. We have nothing in common. I know that I annoy you when I talk to you about literature and you annoy me when I try to share a moment with you and you are so captivated by a match on TV that you don't care.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJX7uDuwZl
    Chad opens his mouth to respond but remains silent.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY6jMaNShQj
    — You know I’m right, I insist calmly. You and I have known each other since we were kids, we have always been friends and I think we should have stayed that way.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCnv7ju5lt
    He takes a deep breath as his eyes water.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR25BnB903m
    — So you don’t love me anymore ? he whispers.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDlkotx8REM
    — Yes I love you but, contrary to what I thought, I realized that I am not in love with you. I love you as a friend, not as the man of my life.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIKEg7OqVlX
    — And did you realize how you felt, before or after falling in love with Jessy ? He get angry again. It’s not over Meg ! I'm sure this guy is hiding something and trust me I'll find out what it is ! You will come back to me Meg ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJwaa1CKDu
    — Chad ! Chad ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡapYBXl5cwg
    But it's too late, he's already slammed the door behind him.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4ggd83PRU
    I feel relieved to finally have been able to put into words what had bothered me since the beginning of our story, but I am also worried at the thought of Chad discovering Jessy's secret. I hope his threats are out of anger and that after he calms down he will realize their stupidity.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOBDF7ZaXv0
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    In the afternoon, I head back to school and smile as soon as I see Jessy arriving in the main hallway.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrlos5DpMsX
    — You’ve decided to come back, I comment.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnnQl4iq43r
    — Yeah, I don’t want Chad to think he’s got the upper hand on me, he replies as we walk down the hall towards our class.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡilaKAAmEsz
    — Good choice. But I need to talk to you.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6lbcMnLb75
    Without waiting, I pull him by his jacket away from the crowd of students and lead him into a corner near the boys' bathroom. I don't want anyone to hear our exchange.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7iCUbAWjt7
    — What is happening ? He asks me, frowning.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡthVurrE935
    — Chad was at my house when I got home.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ10MpyshHY9
    — Okay, he says slowly.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwPHNPZLyj2
    — I broke up with him, I admit abruptly.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngcv3dcizQ
    His already piercing gaze locks on mine and never lets go. I wish I could drown in it but I only have a short time before the bell rings.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmfmFyIgIIC
    — He is very angry with you. He thinks you made me dump him.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIR9jU1fnPw
    — I have never done that ! He writes to himself, shocked.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4sQlMIxzyw
    — I know that perfectly, but I think he's looking for someone to blame for our breakup, when there's no one to blame. We're not meant for each other, that's all. Anyway, he told me you're hiding something and he's going to find out what it is. So be careful, okay ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0OSyI2G6a6
    — Yeah.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfiSDOTuhTl
    He leans against the wall behind him and whispers, with tears in his eyes : 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJwcRpx9dUU
     — I don't want it to start again like in my old school, I couldn't stand it.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz2vgsWLQGH
    Seeing him abandon his armor in favor of sincerity upsets me beyond words. In these moments of fragility, I meet the real Jessy, not the one who takes a cold attitude to send me away but the sensitive boy who has suffered too much.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw2ajnvMhOo
    — That won’t happen, I reassure him. You are not alone here, I am your friend, I will always be here no matter what happens.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4UgQkaKzqR
    — Thanks Meg. I thought about what you told me earlier, about the support group for HIV— positive people. I called my doctor to ask for the contact details of the center.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz0ww3dVYdZ
    — Great, I smile. It will help you to talk with people who have the same virus as you, you will certainly be able to help each other.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1wAFMigsJ
    — I don’t really believe it, but I’m going to try to go to a meeting, he said, resuming a distant attitude. So maybe you'll let go of me a little ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlIIYbnz3UZ
    The bell which announces the resumption of classes interrupts our discussion.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG2KUQilD0o
    — Here, I said, handing him my notes. That way you'll be up to date on math.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvHEK9OFZH
    — Thanks Megan. Sometimes it’s good to have you in my life ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8oPfHULngA
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    The last bell announcing the end of the day has barely sounded before a rumor invades the establishment. I'm putting my things in my locker when I hear whispers about Jessy. I turn to him who is standing a little further away in front of his locker. He lowers his head, shoulders hunched and lips pursed.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3foPapSqIh
    Around us, the students murmur among themselves, stunned. At the time, AIDS was still a little— known disease; we were only in the early stages of medical research. There are lots of rumors about how and why this disease spreads, but the truth is that people still know very little about it. The only things we know for sure are that AIDS is scary and deadly. All eyes are fixed on Jessy, those who pass behind him move aside to make sure not to touch him.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5YAhR5rBjv
    A student I vaguely know passes in front of me, I intercept him to ask him what this new rumor is.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVB7NgYFTAs
    — You are not aware ? Jessy Sutter, the new student, he has AIDS and what's more, he's homosexual ! He announces to me proudly. Above all, don't go near him, you never know.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4IbRIZ4TJ
    I don't have time to send him away, he's already moved away.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOHGvfd0Nyj
    I look at Jessy again. He raises his head, fixes me with a burning look of anger before leaving the school as quickly as possible.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJanImNvb1X
    I do not understand anything. How can everyone know ? One thing is certain, given Jessy's fury, he thinks I betrayed him.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHImtKGVz1i
    I rush after him but when I get outside, he has already disappeared.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ460O2FWVKZ
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    After looking for Jessy all over town for what seemed like hours, imagining him alone, depressed, I gathered up my courage and went to his house. The door opens to reveal his mother.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYKfCeri86
    — Hello, she greets me kindly.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XpW2V0zvH
    From the first glance, I feel that she is an understanding woman. Her long blond hair and green eyes identical to those of her son reflect the gentleness that I also detect in Jessy.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBAVOxUHMDl
    — Good morning. Is Jessy there ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZcwRjlOVz7
    — No. You're Megan, right ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuyZXjbakN3
    I nod in agreement.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2vT2UaxyqN
    — Jessy told me about you.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdgjLUpY5Y
    — I've been looking for him everywhere since school ended, hasn't he come back ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK534dYOSCE
    — No, I have not seen it. He must be walking somewhere now that everyone knows Jessy is infected.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7X56mrPaqm
    I look at her, surprised that she was able to guess, she continues : 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr8K1gRabXl
    — I received a call from the school. Apparently, parents of students learned of the rumor and immediately reported it to the school administration. I am called this evening to talk about my son's state of health and to see if he can continue his education in this establishment.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg0A3LENPBs
    — My God, this is nonsense ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJzH8oXnyeD
    — Unfortunately that's what happens when people know Jessy has AIDS. Everywhere he goes, he is rejected. This has happened before in Allentown, and it's happening again here. Everyone is afraid of being contaminated by simple contact, even my husband can't stand living under the same roof as him.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxxZ1qcG59l
    Mrs. Sutter shakes her head as if her thoughts could evaporate with that gesture.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3pfNr65oOB
    — It is so unfair. I need to talk to him. Contrary to what he thinks, I did not betray him. I don't know how his secret was revealed. You don't know where he might be ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFx1Oh18DRM
    — He sometimes leaves alone for hours.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9osd3veVUY
    — You are never afraid that he…460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzrTX8kJw0
    Mrs. Sutter looks at me as if to say, “Would that be worse than what awaits him ?”460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZWqasoytR
    I thank her and go home, totally dejected. Not only do all students now have to know about Jessy's condition, but even the administration is threatening not to keep him.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzOTemt0Dnq
    When I walk through the door of my house, night begins to fall. I hear my parents talking.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm957sIHV3J
    — Meg, it’s you ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6hEuYzudP3
    — Yes Dad.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLpa40DDGFq
    — Can you come ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlaUldKb2kR
    I walk down the hallway and into the kitchen, where my parents are sitting around the table.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9urSNZvNK
    — Nina told us what is being said around town about Jessy. Is it true ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0Brc9jT4C
    I nod silently.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6G5NxKDKDx
    — How long have you known that ? Ask my mother.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2OWC43Dzus
    — Since the other evening, when he stayed to eat. He admitted it to me when I took him home.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDW7dPWy11m
    — You could have told us about it ! My father points out.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRaIQp8AcoV
    — I told him I wouldn't tell anyone. I didn't want to break my word...460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwL8AfTPEgD
    — Then how…460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkDdD47DGHI
    — You can believe me mom, I keep asking myself that question. I only see one answer : Chad. This afternoon, he was very upset with Jessy and promised to find his secret. However, I don't know how he found out about it.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX21eLmhLlM
    — Is it true that Chad fought with Jessy because you wanted to talk to him ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq5gmSU2NyN
    I nod.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQE5Zj605p
    — Chad wanted to force me into the snack bar, Jessy intervened to defend me.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkdfubGr8a7
    My response makes my father clench his fists and he says : 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfFHoWLHE7K
     — He loses nothing by knowing what I think of his way of fighting like that and the rest.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡECNWoyz5ku
    — Are you aware that Mrs. Sutter has been summoned to high school ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcTO2fMAmbg
    In front of my parents' questioning looks, I tell them the words of Jessy's mother.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡONhmBb3KTu
    My mother makes a few phone calls and tells us : 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1skWEGbG1l
    — The parents’ council is meeting this evening with the administration. Officially, they can't fire Jessy because he's sick, but they can send a report to the academy who will judge what to do in such a circumstance.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Jp3ecsq5r
    Seeing my dismayed face, my father said to me : 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCkDv3nGV5w
    — Don’t worry, darling. We will go to this meeting and we will support Ms. Sutter. It will be fine.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFEyUcJrlNV
    Less convinced than my father, I go into the garden and sit on the swing. Alone with my thoughts, I realize that I have suddenly aged. Before I met Jessy, I was a carefree kid with few worries, but now I see life differently. And to think that it’s only been ten days since Chad’s party. I wanted to become an adult, I'm served ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgMnsVQmQOv
    Jessie, where are you ? I sigh, mulling over the latest events. I don't hear Nina open the back door.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡik3JbOmGlV
    — I was wondering where you were, she says, making me jump. The parents are out, Chad is there. He wants to see you.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdTw9XXEaxe
    I sigh again. After what happened this afternoon, I still don't want to talk to him. But he doesn't wait to hear my opinion before following my sister who, feeling the storm brewing in the sky as much as with my ex-boyfriend, slips away.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYmiyo0lnwz
    — I came to apologize for my behavior this morning. If I had known Jessy was gay, I wouldn't have been jealous of you talking to him.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9yquqJfswq
    I huff, exasperated. Chad looks at me, I see the incomprehension on his face.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmBlvR43m7l
    — He is not homosexual. It was a girl who infected him ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOhRygarsN4
    — Sorry, but how could I have known ? You don't tell me anything anymore ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcQeeaIMRbe
    — Sorry, but when someone tells me a secret, I do my best to keep it. Were you the one who revealed Jessy's illness to everyone ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9BJbHVCwTW
    His false innocent appearance betrays him even before he confesses. I think I see a little boy having done something stupid with his hands in his pants pockets, squirming for words. Even when we were children, he behaved this way. His attitude makes my anger explode.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzoRuqkSqxP
    — It's about time you grew up, Chad ! You are so immature at times ! Do you realize that now everyone knows about their state of health ? That he might be kicked out of school ? That you're ruining his life ? But no, you don’t care as long as you make him pay for my breakup ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk6i90lztwN
    Annoyed, he lowers his head. This attitude annoys me even more.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUKpu1tSMYh
    — I know, I screwed up. But if you had told me everything...460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwvNPd0OraK
    I give him a murderous look. He's old enough to know how to behave.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6oIUA7qYPn
    — Don’t ever ask me why I broke up with you again ! If you want to have an answer, look at yourself in the mirror... That is, if you can ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFtK4zwgMwA
    — You don't even realize that since he arrived in town, you have completely ignored me ! Chad gets angry in turn.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ2OxlJW7mv
    — It’s nothing to do with it ! I'm the guilty one, the one who understood that we are too different. Jessy had nothing to do with our relationship ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwWt86nN8B
    — I know, he whispers. I heard him say it this afternoon.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ24svtgSQaN
    My eyes must be as round as saucers because Chad continues : 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsfCuZZiLgJ
    — I was behind the bathroom door when you were talking. I heard your conversation, that’s how I knew.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFUoNbxUlVM
    — Oh my God ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEUBKPp1ZOH
    With tears in my eyes, I place my hands over my mouth.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM1cw8pN0Ct
    — I’m sorry Meg. I didn't want things to go this far.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXCdKrjcNGp
    — And you rushed to repeat it to the whole school ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrGG20XNzJs
    — I only told a few friends but it spread quickly. I really blame myself.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpDqgxsWqJB
    My eyes filled with tears, I whisper : 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQh2rF4sFXZ
    — You can.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNkOSzxqhyx
    — You’ll never want me again after this, will you ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8Rd1Ay7kI
    I shake my head.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq17epnOa3G
    — You disappointed me a lot, Chad. You are still my friend but I no longer trust you. I'm sorry.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDgjN7VEijd
    — You don’t have to be, it’s my fault. I went way too far. The role of the jealous boyfriend doesn't work for me, he smiles sadly. Do you want us to remain friends ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO179ktq4Nr
    I nod in agreement. I know that after digesting these events, I will forgive him. I can't not have him in my life, he's been part of it for too long.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡARGndd9lCZ
    Chad is about to enter the house again when, turning around, he says to me : 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB1htefpiUT
    — By the way, if you're looking for Jessy, it seems he hangs out near the bridge over the highway.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtQWtBvR7st
    As soon as Chad leaves, I put on my black parka and head in the direction he told me. Night has now fallen, the air is heavy, the storm threatens to break out at any moment. I hurry the three kilometers, running half the way. I arrive on the bridge, out of breath, but happy to see Jessy there. It is a narrow bridge, reserved for pedestrians, it allows us to reach a corner of the forest which encircles the city. Jessy paces along the steel guardrail, watching the cars and trucks speeding by on the dual carriageway just below. His face is half lit by the streetlights placed all along the highway. He turns to me as I approach.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa4Lm3dWzPl
    — What are you doing here ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7qcSOA0cQ
    His tone is dry.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYIylAiUVmz
    — I've been looking for you for hours.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIaEBZeW1SX
    — Well, you found me. You see, I'm still alive, you can go back now.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNe6poNQkhA
    — I'm sorry for what happened. I discussed it with Chad, he was the one who spread the rumor.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL003Z4IZO8
    — So you came so that I could forgive him ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnPnmstIYox
    I look at him, incredulous; However, I have to admit that he is not entirely wrong. I wish we could all be friends, but I know that is a utopian vision of our friendship. However, even if she is often embarrassing for his interlocutors, I like Jessy's frankness.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvr7mqYo6up
    — I came because I'm afraid for you. It's late, come home with me.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHqWe7yOyrf
    Jessy looks at me with a disillusioned look but doesn't answer. He starts walking along the railing again, moving away from me. He seems hypnotized by the vehicles passing beneath our feet.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2XOobW1MS
    — Ever since I’ve known you, you’ve spent your time moving away. Why are you running away from everyone ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdQ6FIwdagH
    I shout to cover the sound of a heavy truck passing below.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAwRWhhXF49
    Suddenly a lightning bolt tears through the sky. Jessy turns around angrily.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSluk3kcQdI
    — I'm not running away from anyone ! It's the others who never want me ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPIoRsEueRE
    He sits on the railing which is only a few centimeters wide, passes his legs over the air, wraps them around the metal bars. A new flash of lightning illuminates the sky. Despite the heaviness of the night, I tremble and move closer to him to hold him by the back of his jacket.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzgIaASsbS
    — Jessy, please. Come back ! You're scaring me ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0h66YmFHuB
    — I'm a danger to others, Meg ! I'm just on reprieve from this crap ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUpA43eNby8
    The tone of his voice is no longer charged with anger, but full of despair. It squeezes my heart.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIycH8BSRYv
    — No ! You are not a risk to anyone ! And you are still here, alive and well ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGagR6qcUqf
    Thunder suddenly cracks, startling me. I move closer to him and tighten my grip.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZjoKfsVqTj
    — Do you want to know what brought me here ? He says to me, letting go of the railing with his hands.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSoKqFTATKG
    He opens his arms wide, closes his eyes and falls forward, screaming in rage. Despite my efforts to hold him, his leather jacket slips through my fingers and I let go.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa0XpN09dzu
    — Jessy, no ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwT7NoUDvbH
    I scream as loud as I can as I see him fall into the void.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQimkhnUmk5
    I put my hands to my mouth while closing my eyes, not daring to open them because I am so sure that he has thrown himself under the wheels of the vehicles passing underneath. And then I suddenly realize that I care about him much more than I wanted to admit to myself until now. Yes, he's HIV positive, angry at the whole world and he spends a lot of time telling me off and yet, without knowing why yet, I can't help but think about him every minute. Suddenly, I hear him scream again at the same time as thunder cracks near us. I slowly open my eyes to see him hanging by his legs above the void. With a quick movement, he manages to stand up, then sit down again on the railing before coming back to my side. I admire his flexibility as I breathe with relief. He rushes straight towards me angrily.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvYw8oRr1vA
    — I'm going to die, Meg, my life expectancy is so low that it's not worth living ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF8cwvr3zNo
    His voice is thick with anger and despair.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5GPypA6snl
    — No, I said, crying. You're not sick and you may never be sick, but you have to keep breathing, keep fighting this shit ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqGeAlOQGCP
    — To do what ? What awaits me in this cursed life ? Everyone will start turning their backs on me again, whispering in my way, being afraid of me.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOehQPNOGyk
    Do you think that’s what it’s like to live ? 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGJW6GDq69
    He points to the highway.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNq17q7J7xU
    — AIDS has already made me fall into a void, vehicles have already crushed me. And none of your prayers or hopes can save me ! he shouts.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwK4CSzl8B
    My tears increase in the face of my helplessness. Jessy is going to die, it's just a matter of time and, in this second, I am fully aware of it.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMlfFaB3eGM
    — This virus is circulating inside me and nothing anyone says or does to me will make it go away ! I will have to live the little time I have left carrying this burden alone ! I can't, I can't take this anymore. Reliving what I experienced in Allentown is beyond my strength ! 460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuZEMZ4JBlr
    He lowers his arms, weariness written on each of his features. Cries that he has had to repress many times flood his face. I go to snuggle up against him, immediately his arms embrace me.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM92FLV3j2T
    — I’m here, you’re no longer alone. I'm here Jessy, I repeat to him several times, hoping that my words penetrate his bruised heart.460Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLlTp6Qd0gu
    Above us the storm calms down as the rain unleashes, mixing our tears with those of the sky.8964 copyright protection456ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgoiTCBVZl 維尼

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