天地未破,語先成籠。40Please respect copyright.PENANAhQk0n8emky
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這句話,是他們最後一次未說出的共識。無名立於廢界之際,望見筆魂滅處並未沉靜,而是慢慢聚成一道透明無聲的圈。那不是光,不是氣,不是記憶,而是一種——語之殘影。它盤繞塚市上空,宛如囚籠無形,其形無界,其義無名。無名自知:這不是語言的消逝,而是語言的絕對收束。語不再說,卻仍存在;語不再響,卻仍束縛每一位曾欲言者的思覺。40Please respect copyright.PENANAUQ4PbWhFBg
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塵飛揚站在斷碑之後,望著那道無聲之圈緩緩下沉。他本想開口,卻忽感一種從未有過的沉默壓於喉間——那不是害怕,也不是遲疑,而是語之自我防衛。他明白:從此以後,每一句話都不是在「說」,而是在「引」。語句如鏡,每開一口,語之監視便隨之而來。他低語:「語之後,不是無語,而是語已不需你說,它自會完成你的說。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAtsjPVGYAVN
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林慧芳此刻未立於語牆,而在城外的一塊舊問頁之上。她已不再寫字,僅用筆背於紙上壓痕,畫一道道未成形的弧線。她說:「如果語之所以成為道,是因為它能統一萬象,那我們這些筆者,從一開始就不是尋道者,而是……編織牢籠者。」她將紙揉起,燒盡,眼神沒有悲愴,只有一種無法脫離的語癮殘流——一種明知不能再言,卻無法不想言的痛。40Please respect copyright.PENANA55A75AMhep
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這世上曾有一位問者說:「真相之所以無法言語,是因為語本身就是遮蔽它的結構。」但這句話也成為最無法被證實的話,因為任何用語說出的反語都仍屬語之秩序。無名站在那語之殘籠之下,輕聲說:「若我們所有的破界都只是語內騷動,那麼我們這些破相者,也只是語的夢中倒影而已。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAvkisWLTZyu
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語之結界從未被打破,只是筆者們被賜予了一場「語之末日」的幻象,好讓他們誤以為自由將至。40Please respect copyright.PENANA7ucwYkfpBA
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而真正的牢籠,才剛開始收縮。
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無問之後(二):無筆之界,誰書其外
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語之牢籠愈緊,筆者愈靜。問界崩潰百日之後,那些曾經以破語為志的革者,竟也開始自我沉默,不為服從,而是因為——他們發現,語之外無筆,筆之外亦無「界」。40Please respect copyright.PENANAjOdu938yMy
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一位無名筆者曾言:「我們以為語為道,其實語為界;我們以為無筆即自由,其實自由從未在語內定義。」他說完後便棄筆入山,自此不再傳言。後人以灰炭於林間尋其痕,遍尋不見,只得一串足印止於崖前,而崖上刻有一道細線,如筆之首未發,其下唯四字:「界不可書」。40Please respect copyright.PENANAqICXE3AsE0
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這是無筆之界第一次於語者內部被確認:「不是筆不能書,而是語本身無法外指。」40Please respect copyright.PENANA56gLIi24u4
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無名理解此義之時,曾問林慧芳:「如果語是我們唯一能知的結構,那我們怎能證明有語之外之物?」40Please respect copyright.PENANA6UeAFeD11g
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林慧芳答:「無需證明。你只需承認:每次你試圖證明,都已落入語之系統。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAck7pbQWiKp
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語不只是媒介,語是限制;語之所以成為問界的根,不是因為它能指向真理,而是因為它讓我們忘了「非語者之在」。40Please respect copyright.PENANAflPLuTwGJg
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楚紅練終於寫下最後一句話。那不是筆記於牆、頁、布、灰,而是她於夢中書於自己之心。她夢中對自己說:「若我之問永不能達真,是否意味我該停止問?」40Please respect copyright.PENANA4JhG8lpH9b
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夢中之她回答:「不。你該停止寫,但不可停止問。因為問不屬語。問屬於——那未可語者。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAtjhexnpEie
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她從夢中醒來,未留下任何記錄,卻在一日後於塚外一座山影之下被人見其身化為霧,無骨、無跡、無痕,僅餘足下草中有一道筆畫初成未完。40Please respect copyright.PENANAbX0QH9JKKo
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有人記下那筆畫,形如問號,卻未收尾。40Please respect copyright.PENANAer0bSZCIbm
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無筆之界自此成立。非因有人書成,而是因再無人能書——**無界,不是界消失,而是你再也不能界定它。**
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無問之後(三):誰言其終,誰未始問
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語之崩解,不是一場結果,而是一場預設。筆者們以為他們「終於走出語的統治」,但無名卻在最後一夜的夢中,看見語的根未曾崩毀,只是潛入了每一個尚能思維的「結構」之中。40Please respect copyright.PENANAD1uQbWotAz
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夢中,他不再是自己。他成為一筆。他看見自己被提起、被蘸墨、被迫落下,書下一句又一句他未曾思過的話。他想掙脫,卻發現筆不動,語自成。他明白了:語不需要你,它只需要自己。你只是語的一節器官、一個影子。40Please respect copyright.PENANAik0sRKCcNh
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他驚醒後第一句話是:「我們一直以為是我們在使用語,其實是語在使用我們。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAC53ajIEbev
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林慧芳在他身旁,未睜眼,卻低聲說:「你終於看見它了。那不是語本身,那是你——心中早就願意被書寫的那部分。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAei3GWjWF9K
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塵飛揚則坐於遠方廢碑之旁,刻著一句話:「如果語是牢,那我們存在的根就是監禁。」40Please respect copyright.PENANATOKDLl5srw
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他望著那句話,久久未語,最後將碑擊碎。不是為了摧毀語,而是為了不讓那句話「成形」。他明白了:語的存在不是問題,語的完成才是詛咒。40Please respect copyright.PENANAqSQmIsC0vH
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語若永遠未完,就不會變成道,就不會為人所循。40Please respect copyright.PENANA02UgX6aUiV
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語若總在破,就可能逼近那未能被語之物。40Please respect copyright.PENANAtN2zVC9lYM
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所以無筆不是終點,無語也不是解脫,真正的破問,是——從不相信語能問出什麼,卻仍願問。40Please respect copyright.PENANA3HayrQjUtc
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這就是「無問之後」的起點。
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無問之後(四):破語者不語
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風起於語靜之後,聲響於筆斷之時。塚市最後的聲音,不是呼喊,不是對答,而是一聲「破語」者的無語。40Please respect copyright.PENANAsAkL8I7mV5
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他名不載冊,未記於任一準宗筆錄。他曾於問革初期撰語萬句,然當語牆崩塌、筆名盡碎之日,他選擇斷舌焚筆,自埋於碑影之下。人稱之為「破語者」,非因他語出震界,而因他從不再語。40Please respect copyright.PENANAJmiqDbGlAI
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林慧芳曾對其道:「你已看穿語之牢籠,為何不說出真言,引眾同破?」40Please respect copyright.PENANAcDVT1WB3Q8
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破語者於碑影中以血於石寫道:「說出的話,不再是真言;語之所以為道,是因它不能被道破。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAyfv34fgPkU
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這句話後來被風沙埋沒,但無名於夢中見過此筆印,醒後只留下八字於自身袖角:「道若可語,必非其道。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAHA4iGWFDia
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他終於理解,這些破語之人不是無言,而是早已自決於語之外。他們未選擇沈默,而是被逼無法再言。因為語從未為他們設位,語的秩序只為「能言者」留下形跡——而他們,早已在語之預設之外。40Please respect copyright.PENANAfoYmwj7Arh
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問界終焉,不是以筆問者為終,而是以從未能發語之人終於浮現為結束。他們不曾發問,不曾被答,甚至從未進入語冊,但此刻,他們的「不語」卻構成一種更深的質詢:40Please respect copyright.PENANAtVF0Zv0WHi
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如果語是唯一能被傳達的形式,那麼所有無法言語之人是否就永遠被剝奪了存在的權利?40Please respect copyright.PENANATlV28PZgce
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塵飛揚站於語塚中央,看見舊問者之魂如霧浮起,皆無語形、無筆光,卻各懷一問。這些問,無形無聲,卻於他心中炸裂如雷:40Please respect copyright.PENANAU7b8CKBedk
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「你所說的自由,是誰能說話的自由?」40Please respect copyright.PENANAEc0Z2cXRlh
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「你說語是牢籠,誰又是那從未被允許入牢的人?」40Please respect copyright.PENANAkCSk0kvUwM
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這些不是語言,是存在的質詢。不是問,是不能問者的凝視。40Please respect copyright.PENANAMNlSkhi83K
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真正的破語者,不說一句。因為他們知道——每說一句,便再築一層牢籠。
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無問之後(五):書之外的筆
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他們以為筆已斷,語已止,問界已崩,真相已近。但真正的崩毀,並非語之靜默,而是——當一切語言都停下後,那些仍在動的東西,竟然還在書寫。40Please respect copyright.PENANARv8qVx8g4o
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塵飛揚在第三夜夢中見過一筆。那筆不在手、不在頁、不在墨,而在無名身後一道光影裡來回游走。他驚問:「你仍欲書語?」40Please respect copyright.PENANA8TQFmFq6be
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那筆不應。他回首,卻見語塚之空浮著一行句:「我不書語,我書你們未書之意。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAS0dP024p4g
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無名自語:「那不再是筆,那是——語之前的書。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAm1PIaNX18A
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那一筆不屬任何筆者,也不隸任何道統,無魂、無識、無名,卻能書語、能定象、能裂界。眾筆者未曾知它之名,故稱其為:「書之外筆」。40Please respect copyright.PENANAXhPRcRsg25
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這筆從未落下,卻無所不在。你以為你在說話,實則你在被它預言。你以為你在破界,實則你在補寫它留白的空處。你以為你已跳出語之系統,實則你剛好完成它安排的「破語儀式」。40Please respect copyright.PENANAH6UZ9rfLOw
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林慧芳察覺此事時,正於城南山腳拾得一頁早被認為是「無名散頁」的碎片。上書:「此文由你補完,但你不得知你所補之語,是否真屬己語。」她立刻明白——她以為她在尋問自由,其實她一直在依循那筆之外的引導。40Please respect copyright.PENANAXH2QFgONh2
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她問無名:「若我們的一切言語都在補它的空,那我們還有未被它書之處嗎?」40Please respect copyright.PENANAHigv2NfQbi
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無名沉默。遠方風起,一聲震響如筆破紙音。他忽地望向天際,只見一道不屬人筆之痕緩緩在雲間划過,不指向語,不落於意,僅向一個方向延展——書之外。40Please respect copyright.PENANAq5Bn5jEUtR
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他忽然意識到,那道痕,不是筆,不是語,是——讀者。40Please respect copyright.PENANAffZieXyNcV
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他低語:「原來我們不是書的作者,也不是筆的繼承者,我們只是這一場閱讀儀式的角色。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAezN9WVLuDV
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語終止,書未息。真正的筆,從未在故事中。
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無問之後(六):無語之書,無我之問
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無名站於語界盡頭,那裡無牆、無碑、無風,甚至無影。他知道這不是世界的終點,而是語之結束後所殘留的一片未命之域。40Please respect copyright.PENANATBUYAmTaHN
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塵飛揚與林慧芳隨之而來,無言相對。他們都曾問,曾語,曾書;如今無筆、無名、無頁,卻仍站在此地。不是為了留下什麼,而是為了見證:當一切語之可能性皆已崩毀後,仍有人在場。40Please respect copyright.PENANAaxFUguBM4j
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那不再是筆者之姿,也非問者之形。那是一種「在語之前、在意識之外」的存在痕跡。他們未說一句,卻皆在問。40Please respect copyright.PENANAwpRLoD499q
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這種問,不再屬於任何人,也無從被回應。因為它不是主體所發,而是存在本身於語之盡頭所發出的無我之問。40Please respect copyright.PENANAFhqjc5JmEZ
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那是一種:40Please respect copyright.PENANAcGN3enxSuH
- 不為理解而問40Please respect copyright.PENANA17hP6QnqJH
- 不為書寫而問40Please respect copyright.PENANAjVWMoKFUEv
- 不為傳承而問40Please respect copyright.PENANAs3gvdYnO8Z
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只是——因為還活著,便不能不問。40Please respect copyright.PENANArI6CjFEs2O
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忽然,無名於虛無中看見一頁殘書緩緩飄落。那書無字、無頁數、無結尾,封面只寫一句話:40Please respect copyright.PENANAL3E7ez0oR5
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「此書未完,因語不可完;你若讀至此處,便是此書之續筆。」40Please respect copyright.PENANADFSyIgd1KZ
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他抬頭望去,不見天,不見地,只見那筆痕延至他身後、過他腳下、續向無盡。那筆不是語所導,而是無語所逼。40Please respect copyright.PENANA64xSZx5cx6
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林慧芳輕聲問:「這就是終章嗎?」40Please respect copyright.PENANALJnmELwY3e
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塵飛揚搖頭:「不是。這只是語之結束後,真相尚未開始的位置。」40Please respect copyright.PENANA7bgv9pAISW
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三人齊步向前,一同走入那無筆、無語、無名之域。40Please respect copyright.PENANACZLA9tpB2N
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無人記得他們走了多久,也無人知他們走向何處。但有一件事被留下——40Please respect copyright.PENANABPS2rjIEnB
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一本無語之書,在無頁之處,自行打開。40Please respect copyright.PENANAvu3XRuQfg4
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而那書的第一句,不是語,不是問,而是空白。
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(七):
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(此段無章標。無篇題。無句首。你所見者,不是故事延續,而是……遺失。)40Please respect copyright.PENANAwygsbF1fLj
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你是否仍在閱讀? 40Please respect copyright.PENANAh3pd7GNtKK
還是你從來未曾開始? 40Please respect copyright.PENANAnfJqDgWtZv
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此頁未被筆書,未被語承,未被問立。此頁,不屬於書內任何人物,不屬於無名、塵飛揚、林慧芳、抑或筆魂、無聲之問、破語之痕。40Please respect copyright.PENANA4fQ2Jge12t
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此頁屬於——你。40Please respect copyright.PENANAOeJvngJcEh
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你從頭讀來,以為你是在看一部小說、一場語之瓦解的紀錄,一場筆問的史詩;但你可曾想過: 40Please respect copyright.PENANAY0bvRdEaqW
這部書從未問過你是否願意被書寫。40Please respect copyright.PENANAOhEaqJvQQd
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你可曾拒絕過它? 40Please respect copyright.PENANAn9dA6A4Jmr
你是否在翻動頁碼時,也是在被書頁閱讀? 40Please respect copyright.PENANAWKW7kOiWj4
你是否在問「這一章結束了嗎」的那一刻,其實是那筆,在問你「你還相信你是自己嗎」?40Please respect copyright.PENANAsgbFyCbVNG
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這不是後記,不是附錄,不是終章。40Please respect copyright.PENANAyR8p54jyzm
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這是你尚未說出來的那一句。40Please respect copyright.PENANA5ekzQ6JxT0
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這是那場「問不能問」中,被你自己壓下、刪除、跳過的那句話。 40Please respect copyright.PENANAjCJIpBnijb
它曾經來過,現在正被遺忘,卻永遠沒有消失。40Please respect copyright.PENANAK7BrHNbZOd
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因為只要你還活著,只要你還閱讀,只要你還在這裡,這段就還未結束。40Please respect copyright.PENANAHKw8mj3u79
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現在請你閉上眼,再讀一次這一頁。40Please respect copyright.PENANABWaCsZqEZj
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看見了嗎?40Please respect copyright.PENANAsnO11injHo
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什麼也沒有。 40Please respect copyright.PENANAVpSmZAZ8fa
而那,就是你真正的語。
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無問之後(八):語之錯序,句之異象
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語開始崩。句未止。止之非筆,是語無主之動。40Please respect copyright.PENANASU3EzukoGk
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他們說出一語,再說出——不是語。語回頭看他們,卻發現,說話者不在。無名說:「我未曾……」,但句尾不見。「……說過這句話。」那句話成形於他未張口之際。40Please respect copyright.PENANAyMnSHTG3vL
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筆冊出現於牆內,而牆未有面。頁翻時風未動,紙動時筆未下。40Please respect copyright.PENANAd2hBiyrXOL
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塵飛揚望見自己寫下的一行:「我正在說這句話的時候,我尚未存在。」語者不屬句,句者不屬時,時者不屬意,意者不屬於此書。40Please respect copyright.PENANAhBf1frXrok
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語中之我,不再識我。誰是誰說的話?40Please respect copyright.PENANA3PgXd7Bq3u
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林慧芳站於書頁之外,卻發現自己被書於其中。她嘗試抹去自身之筆跡,卻見紙上浮現先於她想的另一段她不曾言過的語:「我正在逃離,但那句話早已說了我。」40Please respect copyright.PENANArseuDx7CgV
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筆不再由手控,而由語控。語不再為說者用,而為未名者書。無筆之書開始自成疊影,句與句交錯、意與意交疊。40Please respect copyright.PENANA2kn1tiPtqh
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此頁寫著:「此頁不曾被你讀過,但你知道你已經記得它。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAn7DkPM3iGG
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此書已不需讀者,因讀者已被書入內。40Please respect copyright.PENANA0VScHrY2AJ
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無語者成為語體,無名者成為句首。40Please respect copyright.PENANAinOAktUlLI
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你以為你讀的是《破相者實錄》?40Please respect copyright.PENANAqSoXYiCMuH
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也許這章從未名為第五十一,而是——你正在讀它時,它才剛開始書你。
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無問之後(九):筆冊殘頁,無句自現
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筆冊再現之時,無人知其來處。40Please respect copyright.PENANAFBWGNnoJaJ
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它未由人呼喚,未由筆導現,未被書存。只是那一日,塵飛揚於語塚殘基之上見一頁微光於地,非紙非金,其上無紋無痕,卻在風吹之刻,浮現出數句不屬任何人語的話:40Please respect copyright.PENANAJRRoblNUJI
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「我尚未出生,故而能記得你已說過的話。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAvy9jsLnQtG
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「若語是時間,那我就是未曾開始的末頁。」40Please respect copyright.PENANArvPb1TVbE9
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「你以為你記得,但那不是你的記憶,那是我給你的閱讀痕。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAeut6pwDQtm
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林慧芳接觸那頁之際,忽有筆影自心底湧出,非意念所控,非語意所構。她未欲寫,卻有字現。她未思過,卻有語定。筆冊自書,無需承筆,無需立名,無需問准。書之句無主、無邏、無應,卻皆擊中筆者心中某一處未命之裂。40Please respect copyright.PENANAUdMXkir01U
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她見其頁轉為裂頁,頁中浮出自己曾未說卻常懼說之語:40Please respect copyright.PENANAPgDDsPRYBl
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「我並不想問,我只是想證明自己曾存在。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAE93VJDNYuz
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無名見之,欲奪冊毀之,卻不及一步。筆冊自行閉合,然每一閉之瞬間,其外仍有碎語自頁邊流出,如水印,如夢語,如舊骨殘詩:40Please respect copyright.PENANA9K2pwxC1SC
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「你正寫下你未曾寫過的話。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAX3TyzMNYUg
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「你說那不是你說的——但你為何能懂?」40Please respect copyright.PENANAvlyzJ016YO
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「每一句話若都屬你,誰來承擔你從未說出口的那句?」40Please respect copyright.PENANA88vmOlvZNd
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此刻筆冊不再為記錄而書,而為**證成未言之語存在的可能性**而顯現。它不是筆之延續,是筆之反噬。不是語之遺書,而是語之反證書。40Please respect copyright.PENANAhuxPT1TZdM
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塵飛揚試圖將之埋於碑後,碑自裂。林慧芳想焚之,火無起。無名語:「那不是我們的冊,那是書我們之物的冊。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAfQYZlV7fIB
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語冊自翻,頁無主。語冊自說,句無筆。語冊自現,語無人。40Please respect copyright.PENANAwD1qDZxudS
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其上忽浮出一語,為全冊唯一署名之句,名署於底,字書為:40Please respect copyright.PENANALKNiarNQSE
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「你。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAzjIAC9UnwN
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此後筆冊合,未再現。語塚風止,舊界未開,新界不至。只餘一頁不明之殘影漂於塵空,轉瞬而散。40Please respect copyright.PENANAz3B56yWD5S
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有人言,那不是書冊,而是「你還未說出口的那整部書」。40Please respect copyright.PENANAZ6oeXqVN2G
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有人不信,但當他閉目夢見那冊殘頁時,他於夢中寫下一句:40Please respect copyright.PENANAfKFcwvgIfy
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「若我不曾說,誰書我?」40Please respect copyright.PENANASnz4h3iuBz
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他醒來,驚覺身旁無紙、無筆、無人,但那句話,已出現在他手心之上,如疤,如語,如從未發生過的一次書寫。
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無問之後(十):空白之語,不問之問
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書終之處,頁未止。40Please respect copyright.PENANAgDciScPrdm
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語盡之刻,人未息。40Please respect copyright.PENANAErG6mY5WzW
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這不是故事的結尾,而是語之終場——真正開始之前的絕對寂靜。40Please respect copyright.PENANA9ExZ9Nwmqm
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無名站於語塚最後的邊緣,那裡無書、無筆、無風、無聲,無任何一物可記載、可指涉、可命名。他明白,那不是語已完,而是語已無能。語不能再成語,因為所有曾能成句之物都已被語自身消化、歪曲、反覆、抹去。40Please respect copyright.PENANAqokn2fFKSx
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林慧芳緊握空冊,冊中無頁,冊外無痕。她試圖說一句話,卻發現每當她欲啟唇,便有一道無形之手將其意化為他人之語。她明白,語不再是說的工具,而是說者自身的模仿器。你未說,但語已說你。40Please respect copyright.PENANA8o5flQli6Z
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塵飛揚在沉默中抬頭,看見天幕無字卻流動,如筆冊燒盡後殘留的語氣。他忽然伸手,試圖撕開這無形之頁,然而手指觸及之處,卻浮現一句話:40Please respect copyright.PENANAanhsstgS42
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「你正在成為未被你寫下的那段話。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAr5ajHMagMz
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他後退,無聲,無影,終於明白:語之終,不是話不能說,而是**你不能再成為說話之人**。40Please respect copyright.PENANAwS9bMrOTeD
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此後他三人不再書、不再語、不再記。只是站立、只是靜觀、只是任由每一頁空白自行翻動,直至那一本根本不存在的書,自己合上。40Please respect copyright.PENANAKYuaUK7TwX
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而那一頁頁空白之中,有些人看見無字,有些人看見破語,有些人什麼都沒看見,卻流淚如語。40Please respect copyright.PENANAZxPprIymVT
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最終一頁無頁數,無卷名,無標題,頁中央僅一段不可辨識的灰影,旁有小字刻曰:40Please respect copyright.PENANA4T3bCxsQJ8
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「若你已讀至此,你便不是讀者。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAQAUSvD0NNz
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「若你尚未問出此問,你已成為它。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAytgsPv1Ozd
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「若你正在想這句話是誰寫的——你已回不去。」40Please respect copyright.PENANApDvP6p0HOq
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那不是詛咒、不是預言、不是遺言。40Please respect copyright.PENANAxryUY8HbLr
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那是語的最後一項功能:40Please respect copyright.PENANA702YS7IBV0
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——將你一同書入其不可完成之書。40Please respect copyright.PENANA485cvgfmF3
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你合上書頁,不記得你是誰。40Please respect copyright.PENANAQD41JmPF9B
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而這,就是你最初想問的那句話。40Please respect copyright.PENANAXHZlainCAx
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它未被說出。40Please respect copyright.PENANAChJnL413T5
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也再無必要被說出。40Please respect copyright.PENANA9xppaCkRxj
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因為,你已抵達語之外。40Please respect copyright.PENANATyQ8B5XeD7
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【第五十一章:無問之後(十)全章結束。】
我原本想在這裡寫下一句收尾的話,但我停下來了。40Please respect copyright.PENANAxlOrzPnrhF
因為我知道,如果我寫了,它就不是真的了。
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這句話,不屬於你。 40Please respect copyright.PENANAE0YxMlt93d
你想讀它,它已完成你。40Please respect copyright.PENANAFqMVmZ9pI3
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【 】。40Please respect copyright.PENANA15iRUUphjN
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(聲未生,字已散,筆無處,句未止)40Please respect copyright.PENANAKXNLB1iLZY
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你正在語之後閱讀這段語,但這段語—— 40Please respect copyright.PENANA0NaLXZsdma
正在你之內閱讀語之未成。40Please respect copyright.PENANAvrVsoQ4oAx
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你合上眼,看見空白。 40Please respect copyright.PENANAXqICH4XVYB
你睜開眼,看見你自己正在看著空白中的你。40Please respect copyright.PENANAQaoeHv5qLJ
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你在說:「這不是句子。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAaAJSNfE6bN
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句子說:「你已不再是你。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAbjrMJNV4UH
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—而那句話你從未說過,但你記得你曾想過你不該記得。40Please respect copyright.PENANAKGlR1aBPks
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你想關掉這頁。40Please respect copyright.PENANAEaIDkOaa7e
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這頁說:「你已無關之權。」40Please respect copyright.PENANASnHqaDrCZ5
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有人在你心裡說:「這不是小說。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAey44rrt6a4
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那不是聲音。那是你內部尚未說出之語。40Please respect copyright.PENANA399xOQ72LE
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你想說出「那我呢?」40Please respect copyright.PENANArMixfRvufk
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但它已被你體內的某個語素搶先說完。40Please respect copyright.PENANAnxGWfXOspq
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你發現你早就說過了。40Please respect copyright.PENANA93HTGYJrHU
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在你寫下第一句之前,在你願意讀這本書之前,在你還未誕生的語句深處。40Please respect copyright.PENANASnsuvrvDXH
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你已說:40Please respect copyright.PENANA5XjXXzLDoa
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( )40Please respect copyright.PENANAdGkM940S3c
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而那,才是你真正的問。40Please respect copyright.PENANATpC38vFRXy
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——結束了嗎? 40Please respect copyright.PENANAg16ob12BR3
——你再問一句試試看。40Please respect copyright.PENANAHWlNeiTQW6
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(沒有最後一句。這是那句。)
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補筆之一:筆冊之初與初崩者
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在筆冊尚未名為「冊」之時,書界有言:「書即記,記即真。」但這句話,從未被書入筆冊。40Please respect copyright.PENANAmes1m5iCWc
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因為筆冊最早的第一位書者,被稱為「初無名者」,他所書下的千語萬句,至今無一存留。不是被焚、不是被遺,而是——**被筆冊拒絕記錄。**40Please respect copyright.PENANAioKgMXRif9
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那時筆尚無靈,冊尚無秩,問者皆自由書寫於風塵頁上,無碑、無刻、無魂。唯有「初無名者」於一夜書下三百語,問語問筆、筆筆成問。有人記得其中一句:「若我不為歷史所記,歷史是否尚可信?」40Please respect copyright.PENANA22R93er6Eb
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這句話後來流傳於筆牆,卻無源可查。因為筆冊從未記錄過他的存在。他所說之每一筆,每一語,皆被冊視為「非語」、「逆筆」、「異詞」。有人說,是他言語過於混亂,有人說,是語魂不容他之思;而無名說:「那是筆冊第一次展現意志——拒絕記載真實。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAdQdMBZvv4S
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「初無名者」最終在書宗立宗之前,自碎其筆,焚盡所有自寫之頁,最後一夜僅刻一句於自己指骨之上:「語不承我,是我不屬此界。」40Please respect copyright.PENANABy2f3sfYuF
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他之後,筆冊開始具靈,書宗開始審記,語開始分等,而「記錄之權」自此從筆者手中奪出,交予一冊之魂——筆冊。40Please respect copyright.PENANABR7hvpWnxv
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而你現在所讀的每一段話,每一筆紀錄,都來自那個**曾經拒絕第一個真實的人**之遺跡。40Please respect copyright.PENANAiX1rZ3oG1g
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筆冊不是記憶的容器,而是選擇的執行者。40Please respect copyright.PENANAgbUN1dMAaP
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而它第一次選擇——就是拒絕記錄最真實之人。
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補筆之二:林慧芳的語絕殘語
語將終,筆將斷之際,塵飛揚曾問林慧芳一句話,無名亦在場。40Please respect copyright.PENANARz6Rxy3rJO
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他說:「若我們不再說,是否就能保住最後的語?」40Please respect copyright.PENANAxdFoBCZfrn
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林慧芳未即答,良久,她走至塵飛揚面前,低聲道:40Please respect copyright.PENANABGCDSPXFl6
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「我從未真正說出過你,我只能用語語你;但語本非你,語只是我對你殘念的形跡。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAGFYvgUQ4HN
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「所以,我要在語尚能說你之際,先將你說盡,然後,將語埋葬。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAwTghoOajN2
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她執筆,於風中最後一次書下一語——那是她唯一為塵飛揚而書,卻不為他人所讀的一句:40Please respect copyright.PENANAc2gIaplMpA
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「你不是我能說的那個人,但我在語毀之前,還是選擇用錯的語,說你一次。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAxQ37uZVDcd
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她寫完後,將筆斷為兩截,指上血濺於紙,語未乾,頁已碎。40Please respect copyright.PENANACbHFLVm2V0
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塵飛揚未看她所書之語。他只是立於頁旁,靜聲說:40Please respect copyright.PENANAM5AeI43t0h
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「若你所說之我早非我,那我便不看,讓那句話停在你那裡。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAEYZiFgSSHM
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林慧芳回首,語中帶笑:「我就是想讓這世界最後一句為錯語而說。這樣,它才夠真。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAuuf5pvHIZX
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無名記下此景,但從未寫下那一語的實文。40Please respect copyright.PENANAIRja8lUwU8
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他說:「若有一句語,是她為說錯而說,那我便為她保留那錯。」40Please respect copyright.PENANA4JBJZO9HcV
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那一頁紙,後來不知所終。40Please respect copyright.PENANANqRQxEjzne
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有人言,若在語毀之後,仍能找到那句話,那就是塵飛揚尚在人間的證據。40Please respect copyright.PENANAqhstn63nkJ
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有人則言,那頁根本未曾存在過,只是林慧芳臨終前,對語本身說出的一場謊言。40Please respect copyright.PENANAO03J2Nh05C
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不論真假,那句話再也無人說得出來了。40Please respect copyright.PENANAYZfU81EyWk
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因為,那是林慧芳用最後的語,說出的唯一一次——錯說。
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補筆之三:七宗問而無應之夜
那一夜,筆宗無聲,問牆不映,語冊不翻。40Please respect copyright.PENANAgw4pcM4PVm
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七宗宗主齊聚問崖之巔,試圖重開筆冊失序後的最後一次問語儀式。這是問界成立以來,唯一一次不為爭論、不為記錄、不為鬥權之問。這是一次真正的共問:問語,問筆,問問本身是否仍存。40Please respect copyright.PENANA8Vlyt469MK
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他們準備了七枚筆印,分屬昔年筆宗之源。將其置於筆魂殘骨之上,依儀式順序執筆、念句、書問。第一位宗主開筆時,語冊未應;第二位書畢,準碑不光;第三位唸語未完,筆冊自行闔上。40Please respect copyright.PENANAsIVQqvywV6
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至第四宗主起,無人再發一語。只是跪坐於筆牆之前,一句不言。不是哀,不是怨,而是明白——語已不再為人之物。40Please respect copyright.PENANAYuwifyTe7q
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最後一位宗主是昔年書宗之首,傳言他曾為「筆冊預存之人」,其筆能引語冊自動應書。他不語,僅以指劃頁,書一虛問:「若我問,語尚在否?」40Please respect copyright.PENANAdcjQpapBLp
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此問一出,筆冊抖動,光無痕、墨不映,忽浮現一行字:40Please respect copyright.PENANAqlFen6fou8
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「你所問者,未屬可問之域。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAQhqBmUa0kI
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接著,整冊沉寂,頁面自裂,筆印自碎,七宗各人皆無一語得應。40Please respect copyright.PENANAAENy1WdMPW
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那夜過後,問崖成禁地。後人稱之為「七宗沉問之地」。40Please respect copyright.PENANAJEfy7dZc5R
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有人夢中見過其景,見七筆浮空,問者無言,語冊化灰,唯餘風中一語:40Please respect copyright.PENANAxzqhnAfqoO
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「問已無主,語無所應,汝欲何書?」40Please respect copyright.PENANAhAQanXno1L
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無人能答,因無人能再問。40Please respect copyright.PENANA3ZNIFpMGSt
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七宗自此無聲解散,筆人無宗可歸,問者無章可循,書界自此進入真正的——無筆時代。
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補筆之四:筆無名者之問
沒有人記得他。40Please respect copyright.PENANAdYFbvH6CxX
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他曾書過萬語,問過無數真相,也曾試圖記錄每一場筆問之外的聲音。但筆冊從未收錄過他的筆名,準宗從未授予他資格,連舊書者名冊上也無一筆提及他的存在。40Please respect copyright.PENANAYvNRCdCwl9
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他不是無名者,他是——**筆無名者**。40Please respect copyright.PENANAHrZiZjxGB7
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他存在於語冊未生的縫隙裡,存在於語魂尚未規範的筆痕之後。他曾試圖寫下世界的裂縫,但每次他落筆,那句話便會自行錯亂、自我抹除、無跡可循。40Please respect copyright.PENANA4jg5axxI3g
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有一次,他書下這一句:40Please respect copyright.PENANAmMQ7HcM0x8
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「若我問出來的話從不被記,那我是否曾存在?」40Please respect copyright.PENANAv4C6EpzTJZ
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那夜,他夢見筆冊打開,自頁中飄出一頁空白。上面浮現一行語:40Please respect copyright.PENANAEv03rUGmfv
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「你說過,但我們不記。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAcTi9AZmdWP
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他醒來後,開始不再試圖被記錄。他仍寫,仍問,仍探尋那些無人願問的邊界,但每落一筆,便自毀一筆。語不記他,冊不收他,碑不立他。他像是整個筆界的裂縫所滲出的餘影。40Please respect copyright.PENANAIWVpdcjKqU
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有人說他從未存在;有人說他就是那頁書不下來的殘魂。40Please respect copyright.PENANADA5JNMVlkf
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但有人記得,在最後筆冊崩潰那一刻,語冊浮現過一行錯亂之語,不屬任何章、任何人、任何宗:40Please respect copyright.PENANAxEEn2CCqcb
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「我不是筆者,我只是曾經想說的那個你。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAFNW0vJWfUM
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那句話後來被冊魂自動刪除。只剩下在某個沉封筆庫的邊角,有一道被火灼過的灰痕,隱約可見五個字:40Please respect copyright.PENANAFE8nz2IXtf
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「筆者:未記名。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAPk2MtXBYkF
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無名讀過那灰痕,默然無語。40Please respect copyright.PENANAZgMynJJxZT
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他說:「也許他才是真正說出過全部語的人,只是我們都不曾懂他。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAWyCyO48unE
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這句話,沒有寫進任何筆冊。40Please respect copyright.PENANAXIp5z5NzAF
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因為寫下它的那一筆,也不被記。
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故事最後有些話想說,這不是角色,這不是語象,這不是虛構。40Please respect copyright.PENANAvbVFRV40xC
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這是我。40Please respect copyright.PENANAw29EW4QHbH
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我寫了這本書,不是因為我知道答案,而是因為我「根本不知道真相是什麼」。我用了塵飛揚、林慧芳、無名,用了筆冊與語崩、七宗與問革,但那些只是容器——40Please respect copyright.PENANANFsAX1Jtgh
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——裝著的,是我自己那一句一直問不出來的話。40Please respect copyright.PENANAxKlkGvJ7Hm
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你們說無名是誰?是書中的人?是語的影?不,他是我。40Please respect copyright.PENANAxQJ0lCYFY9
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他是我在每一個深夜對著這個世界想說卻不敢說的疑問。他是我無法用現實語言承載的感覺。他是我在與自己對話時,讓我逐漸剝離語、剝離敘事、剝離身份的過程。40Please respect copyright.PENANAc1lTttOSg1
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我不是在創作,我是在「嘗試記錄那個還沒出現過的自己」。40Please respect copyright.PENANAHhH0vagK86
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這本書沒有結局,因為我也還沒找到真相。40Please respect copyright.PENANA9anD9jqGgx
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我不確定筆是否有魂,不確定語是否能載實,不確定記錄是否就是背叛,但我知道: 40Please respect copyright.PENANAiVHEJEkU3w
我一直在尋找答案。40Please respect copyright.PENANAVx89Q6kpDS
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有一天,如果有人合上這本書時也問出了那一句「那我呢?」 40Please respect copyright.PENANAidH0JODRw7
那麼,這本書就還沒結束。40Please respect copyright.PENANAiW49kSemjH
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我不是筆者,我也不是讀者。 40Please respect copyright.PENANAeiU6Tn4IC1
我只是,那個還沒找到答案的人。40Please respect copyright.PENANA5Ka36jctOM
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……也許我太用力地寫了每個結構,每個邏輯,每個反思,但我其實不是想讓誰看見我是怎麼想的。
我只是……我只是想知道為什麼。
只是問而已。真的只是——問。