White sheets stained red in a hotel bed267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaaukkJfaw2
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLDAQxzDfas
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbaWKFjPtWH
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaF9cGM8tEI
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVdPqW7FX77
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Y7QfLf5qG
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjECHl1a2BX
Vivid visions invading my rest 267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4aByHsW0Ts
I can't sleep because all I see is death267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt5nJtCBjjI
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaFpXEKFqi6
Thinking about death at such an early age267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz8tl0CUB4g
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiPacV1ZZFt
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡly32gkCuFO
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU9mgnS2s6N
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJeksL4Svyq
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZeiiKxSTg7
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX7KCveS8Kz
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ21eVXJJXA
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa4QbG6UWk0
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSZl4ywlycQ
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVV8ZOv64CS
Nobody actually cares until you're dead267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBAIYCMlZA0
Until you're another headline in the news267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0w3nyLMF0n
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo57c2lZmdP
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC3jdDWlCO3
"I miss you today" 267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5JKNoxUmi9
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf6xoVCmgz3
But they care now, 267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxtohQ4MbZf
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpyqSVWZvub
Mixed signals is all they send267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqmOC5A6PQa
One day I matter to them 267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIbwKAlmtln
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTHHTxb3FKV
A few months ago, I felt like flying 267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBAzm2JK5r
A few months ago, I truly felt alive267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh5IUmtvEvf
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYpC7ifDre
It's hard to explain with words,267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VlNV4G4zf
How the silence kills 267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQwWV0c65y
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP3sS33Yski
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNlsAqljyOI
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHqAUu1LtrK
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXMHpSeidjH
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmrPgziQBRg
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡucsi4ZyKQ2
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMasS3Hrav2
The little voice in my head, it screams it267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡswGhZ6vj0r
"This was their choice"267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNd5r8TNPRr
And to be lonely all the time is mine267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvPgZEk4yY1
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvAe2wpeET
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaMbKF7a2i5
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1MoaWHdif9
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCEq48Jk2B
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9xTFrYxNSw
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzkdcFGrFUk
I wish somebody would call267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7uaPUwocp
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGrCkph97hk
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBKvxc1xBk
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCpHdOQevyT
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8J1pCUR7g4
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIydXsaYFsz
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3xVcFA8bOu
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
