I’m tired.552Please respect copyright.PENANA6v01RbsPuA
If I’m honest, the days keep dragging by552Please respect copyright.PENANALZm3kcrbi1
and my feet are sliding across the floor instead552Please respect copyright.PENANAWhv6lsLSSl
of lifting with each step because I can’t find the energy552Please respect copyright.PENANAp5rQqINr4g
to pick them up and set them back down.552Please respect copyright.PENANAGvXnnFJgTu
Some people turn and ask me to stop scuffing552Please respect copyright.PENANAEq8dXBZN7b
my feet on the floor, please lift them up and walk552Please respect copyright.PENANAAgPD8SD8bd
like a normal person, thank you.552Please respect copyright.PENANABCjAHvsVbM
I try.552Please respect copyright.PENANAOs9OkGexR5
I try everyday to lift myself up and keep walking552Please respect copyright.PENANAU6TWAznizF
but like my feet, I am scuffing across the ground552Please respect copyright.PENANAcVssHk02AJ
just barely making it from one place to another552Please respect copyright.PENANAbHZcDh6K6o
without damage.
I’m tired.552Please respect copyright.PENANAn0gxM5l3fW
Just this Wednesday I was driving home552Please respect copyright.PENANAxpU0oaDRoR
on the highway, 480 West from Brookpark Road552Please respect copyright.PENANAlg954LG4kw
where the RTA takes me to Cleveland for classes, and552Please respect copyright.PENANA3WdNEzVFmX
during the drive, I couldn’t focus on the road before me552Please respect copyright.PENANAYe57qyt0is
because the news that Trump had won left me shaken552Please respect copyright.PENANAM3W0CtZvSU
for those I’m not sure how to help552Please respect copyright.PENANASCLzDeEcpI
when I’ve been given a privilege I didn’t ask for.552Please respect copyright.PENANAE2EijBzMnL
And while I was driving down the highway552Please respect copyright.PENANAsqjDY5g1sH
I contemplated the notion of jerking the wheel552Please respect copyright.PENANAODILyaWq4h
to the left and letting my car hit the divide between the552Please respect copyright.PENANAiD3SJTnrEz
highway East and the highway West; allow myself to552Please respect copyright.PENANA1JYB4q1cld
collide with the wall, break through and destroy552Please respect copyright.PENANAMmX1Uknc3x
the other side.552Please respect copyright.PENANA9mn0WA2Db0
Then, I contemplated jerking the wheel to the right552Please respect copyright.PENANA8tS4hnsPpH
into the ditch along the grass so I wouldn’t552Please respect copyright.PENANAzvIw5HSDch
harm anyone else in the process. But I552Please respect copyright.PENANAgWpCmrpC94
didn’t do either, even though I552Please respect copyright.PENANARVM8Xty79u
got so scared for a minute552Please respect copyright.PENANApU7YGhpuGP
that I would.
I’m tired.552Please respect copyright.PENANAg9w302NV1o
Last year on August 22nd, my birthday, I had a similar552Please respect copyright.PENANAQoMIBKosIb
reaction to suicidal thoughts. I had a rough552Please respect copyright.PENANAJjgRKXUfdU
birthday; I worked, I was lonely, I felt552Please respect copyright.PENANAyecC0JQs9h
pathetic, worthless, uncared for and forgotten552Please respect copyright.PENANACZcrH8Il4Q
so I took the sharpest and largest kitchen knife552Please respect copyright.PENANANvJlOSrdd3
and I pressed the tip of it to my chest, above my heart552Please respect copyright.PENANAsvrCFNc0i8
and sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore.552Please respect copyright.PENANABuUmN0sfxK
I did not press the sharp edge deep enough to552Please respect copyright.PENANAADtvzgy6gu
draw blood, but it was the first time552Please respect copyright.PENANABU9fYx5plr
I had allowed myself to552Please respect copyright.PENANA5jCVkRqTMW
get so close to the temptation.
I’m tired.552Please respect copyright.PENANALmh7N8MYAP
I say that I want to die a lot, even though I never552Please respect copyright.PENANAvoaV3VbS9M
actually reach out and go through with it552Please respect copyright.PENANA2oCoDB89vh
I think because I’m afraid of not existing552Please respect copyright.PENANAlgXErAWn1V
just as I’m afraid of existing. And lately I552Please respect copyright.PENANA6OAejQkxXP
have people who reach out to me when I’m not sure552Please respect copyright.PENANA5ArOimG0ik
how to reach out to them, and it’s sweet to have people552Please respect copyright.PENANAKfD3MrfWWW
support me, but I go right back to wanting to isolate myself552Please respect copyright.PENANAqS2Z6io7D9
and give up. I have thought about dying every day552Please respect copyright.PENANAPWSKAUBEPI
for the last few weeks and I wish I could just552Please respect copyright.PENANAgviVSxHpAm
go through with it.
I’m tired.552Please respect copyright.PENANA9Qp3kvESbJ
I’m so tired of being forgotten, of arguing552Please respect copyright.PENANAw62BdliWyQ
for people to care about me when they should552Please respect copyright.PENANAYw6imLtJYU
care about me on their own. I often think that552Please respect copyright.PENANAberbDBws2w
I should just stop putting in such an effort for those that552Please respect copyright.PENANAnipjlgYEyi
do not consider me, but I can’t seem to stop caring.552Please respect copyright.PENANAXEPIA9w1Zq
She often hurts me more than she improves my life552Please respect copyright.PENANAkqU4fmYf2m
but I’m too afraid to say anything because552Please respect copyright.PENANAjIqT9G0T9z
I need her. I need her to exist552Please respect copyright.PENANAIwJsez7h42
in my existence, and I need her to552Please respect copyright.PENANAJx7f1lBCV3
be by my side.552Please respect copyright.PENANAwNFO9Ln0y1
But I’m tired.
I’m tired552Please respect copyright.PENANAJXBibxxBQC
of being tired552Please respect copyright.PENANAPkpYpjIGtL
in this tiring life.