I’m tired.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1wOFYRzjQ
If I’m honest, the days keep dragging by717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyrmyQVRsFC
and my feet are sliding across the floor instead717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRUrTbNOH1
of lifting with each step because I can’t find the energy717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX5HPuLaSZC
to pick them up and set them back down.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3L1dkopqPH
Some people turn and ask me to stop scuffing717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡafara3PH0m
my feet on the floor, please lift them up and walk717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnN2yLxE7X
like a normal person, thank you.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSS3A1JTIUv
I try.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6iOQoHZANm
I try everyday to lift myself up and keep walking717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS53XXnAZxA
but like my feet, I am scuffing across the ground717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCaTAlpXTTS
just barely making it from one place to another717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPD43HyfgZ5
without damage.
I’m tired.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXSxfMEsJD9
Just this Wednesday I was driving home717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ1oTmX4Hf0
on the highway, 480 West from Brookpark Road717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡISfVvnCVam
where the RTA takes me to Cleveland for classes, and717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3Dc5ASmbe
during the drive, I couldn’t focus on the road before me717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgLWGZsswmH
because the news that Trump had won left me shaken717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWCrL3njs2n
for those I’m not sure how to help717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGKZLPRaaXU
when I’ve been given a privilege I didn’t ask for.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4YLudlgI7a
And while I was driving down the highway717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgXHx6oQn03
I contemplated the notion of jerking the wheel717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYrv2BESvYM
to the left and letting my car hit the divide between the717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfLHuDVMZJ
highway East and the highway West; allow myself to717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1jui3JMY2
collide with the wall, break through and destroy717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJnaMHx1qvJ
the other side.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7zFXPGGtr1
Then, I contemplated jerking the wheel to the right717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiCf1Z2qaBr
into the ditch along the grass so I wouldn’t717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1hOtgHMNeF
harm anyone else in the process. But I717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtv3ydDunel
didn’t do either, even though I717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8GaEPRSeWv
got so scared for a minute717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGi6amaSwhs
that I would.
I’m tired.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ32M0B2ZUp9
Last year on August 22nd, my birthday, I had a similar717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡygzwj2CPyD
reaction to suicidal thoughts. I had a rough717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhzB80QhJ52
birthday; I worked, I was lonely, I felt717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe6HMgBHEvL
pathetic, worthless, uncared for and forgotten717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0DRkroTGRQ
so I took the sharpest and largest kitchen knife717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4U1qvFr8pF
and I pressed the tip of it to my chest, above my heart717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcjxACCkTpe
and sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsAVGqelza7
I did not press the sharp edge deep enough to717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh4SghayprB
draw blood, but it was the first time717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7H0xwFO7a8
I had allowed myself to717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs8oHo6oXBH
get so close to the temptation.
I’m tired.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoW22oWM8kv
I say that I want to die a lot, even though I never717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcQ3SHoRHOQ
actually reach out and go through with it717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvJh74wyBVM
I think because I’m afraid of not existing717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGxeGW2SYkE
just as I’m afraid of existing. And lately I717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrLcHxG7Y1D
have people who reach out to me when I’m not sure717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbzkpANebe
how to reach out to them, and it’s sweet to have people717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdQ4BWJ7MPi
support me, but I go right back to wanting to isolate myself717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3yhAqxbvIZ
and give up. I have thought about dying every day717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnhJ5Sn0QG1
for the last few weeks and I wish I could just717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7WDJNqOUOK
go through with it.
I’m tired.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwH4O4c0kVw
I’m so tired of being forgotten, of arguing717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUFVRrMe7lD
for people to care about me when they should717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7LHeVgevUb
care about me on their own. I often think that717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2FBtRB9nVm
I should just stop putting in such an effort for those that717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRUTHLn9yQ2
do not consider me, but I can’t seem to stop caring.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRr7SLWsDlA
She often hurts me more than she improves my life717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpudgqUI4QU
but I’m too afraid to say anything because717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZZDYPYbOC
I need her. I need her to exist717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdO0Et3bkJ6
in my existence, and I need her to717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEJRBzT1enX
be by my side.717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX3OnVVpftS
But I’m tired.
I’m tired717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXcpocpc6hb
of being tired717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzaPQr4uNdq
in this tiring life.
