「你今個星期日有沒有時間來我家?」張雅己在訊息裡說。149Please respect copyright.PENANAVapx7EXyjB
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「為什麼?」我吃驚地問。149Please respect copyright.PENANAfw78aRA3vK
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「不是你說我們要在學校保持距離嗎?我想跟你繼續討論,你不願意的話,要不我到你家去。」149Please respect copyright.PENANAVFZZfhPxwu
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「不,不,還是我到你家吧。」我手忙腳亂,不知所措。149Please respect copyright.PENANAMi5meYddnC
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「可以帶薛丁格一起嗎?我想看看牠。」149Please respect copyright.PENANA93RswKZCRy
2008年12月7日星期日,149Please respect copyright.PENANAYEUNovqfev
我背著裝住薛丁格的貓背囊,來到張雅己的家門前。149Please respect copyright.PENANAaq9mqntF79
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緊張的按下門鐘,出來應門的是張雅己的母親,她很有禮貌地向我打招呼。149Please respect copyright.PENANAY8o83eeV3i
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「雅己很少帶朋友回家的,特別是男孩子。」她笑咪咪,邀請我進屋,後面傳來張雅己的聲音。149Please respect copyright.PENANAM9f5SO87b4
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「你到了,快些進來吧。」張雅己催促我進去她房間。149Please respect copyright.PENANAITaT0qMfGK
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「要不要喝果汁?要不要吃零食?雪櫃裡有蛋糕。」149Please respect copyright.PENANAYKLGQLrpQH
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她媽媽繼續在我們身後說著客氣話,直至張雅己用力關上房門。149Please respect copyright.PENANATCIDNSc2bq
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她房間裡比我想像還要整潔,而且香。149Please respect copyright.PENANAht7UH61yxY
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最重要是我第一次看見張雅己穿便服的樣子。149Please respect copyright.PENANAr3QFLO0gce
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我從背囊捧出薛丁格,牠不太熟悉周圍環境,在地板上縮成一團,張雅己抱起牠。149Please respect copyright.PENANA2biLUcLzZS
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「為什麼你主人會改你叫薛丁格這種古怪名字,他到底在想什麼。」149Please respect copyright.PENANA49LIxXTMTa
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她用比平時更可愛,像小朋友的說話方式,對著牠說。149Please respect copyright.PENANACdO2hYwTUy
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「牠好像比我第一次見牠時健康了。」149Please respect copyright.PENANAiDCxpLn2pl
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「還胖了很多,我父母每天也買貴價貓糧給牠,快要寵壞牠。」149Please respect copyright.PENANACRlBX5AE90
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「真好,我很羨慕你有幸福的家庭。」她說。149Please respect copyright.PENANA4LkzOFuYAN
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我腦裡閃過在警署時,她母親那哀傷的神情。149Please respect copyright.PENANANDtZ59YiS4
薛丁格掙扎著從她手中逃開了。149Please respect copyright.PENANAuZTdeNWvWl
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她不知哪裡找來一個貓玩具,高大的她趴在地上,一直逗著薛丁格玩。149Please respect copyright.PENANADHZYYXH156
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「我把之前說的那套電影帶了過來,或者有參考的地方,你有dvd播放器嗎?」我問。149Please respect copyright.PENANAZsDj7I0O1c
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「可以用電腦。」149Please respect copyright.PENANAcLvfh5l5rK
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我們坐在地板上,靠著她的床,電腦螢幕很細,我們必須擠在一起看,肩碰肩。149Please respect copyright.PENANA9QDR5JPZYC
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若撇除了我坐在這裡的原因,是為調查她是誰的幻想,還有她是個自殺了5次還死不去的女生,我們現在這個模樣,不過是兩個平常少年少女坐在一起看電影然而。149Please respect copyright.PENANAPT47C720C5
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薛丁格走過來鑽進她膀胳,她溫柔的抱牠入懷,在牠脖子的毛皮上親吻。149Please respect copyright.PENANAV16gfByQCh
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我想她的吻該是甜蜜又溫暖。149Please respect copyright.PENANASePJu2X8ps
「沒有人希望自己死去,不幸地我們都難逃一劫。」149Please respect copyright.PENANAscGOH4DoLt
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「終有一天,你會死。可能在銀行心臟病發、可能被薄荷珠嗆死、或者在你度假時罹患不治之症。你會死,你必定會死,即使你逃避了這次,也有其他原因導致你的死亡,而且我可以保證不會像她寫的那樣有詩意和充滿意義。」149Please respect copyright.PENANA2LaB3k6DPg
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戲中其中一個角色對男主角說。149Please respect copyright.PENANAHq5aUzGoDC
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我偷望身邊的她,她看得入神,我看到她眼紅紅鼻子也紅紅,一顆眼淚隨她眼睛輕眨,滑落到她的面頰。149Please respect copyright.PENANAPpmyB9sZWj
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我不敢哼出半點聲音,不自覺減輕呼吸,假裝沒有發現她在哭。149Please respect copyright.PENANABkGLCzeU1n
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電影完結,她立刻站起來背著我,我知道她正用手擦拭眼淚。149Please respect copyright.PENANAGtLdrPooue
「電影很好看。」張雅己咽哽著。149Please respect copyright.PENANA7R8YDakCt2
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「嗯,但好像沒有什麼值得參考的地方。」149Please respect copyright.PENANANss11Q0AZ8
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我看著她的背影,終於按奈不住,鼓起勇氣問我一直想知道的問題。149Please respect copyright.PENANAHb0RqZ8eSx
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「你可以告訴我你自殺的理由嗎?」149Please respect copyright.PENANA0QiDLUR3CC
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她沒有回答,依然站在原地背向著我,我聽到她因為哭過,急促的氣喘聲。149Please respect copyright.PENANAiWyQTPf5NE
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「我不想說。」149Please respect copyright.PENANAfEDtO4wZyC
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「可能是其中一個線索⋯⋯」149Please respect copyright.PENANAu5AfGC7IJo
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「我不想說。」149Please respect copyright.PENANAwGMCmkaEt4
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「可能對事情會有幫肋⋯⋯」149Please respect copyright.PENANAeyb4y7Gu7s
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「我說了我不想說!」149Please respect copyright.PENANAt0oQk7N3Jc
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我第一次聽到張雅己這麼大聲說話,房間裡像迴盪住她的聲音。149Please respect copyright.PENANApDFiiDnpB6
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薛丁格嚇壞了,躲在我腳邊,我抱起牠,把牠放進貓背囊。149Please respect copyright.PENANAzSdQhAp0MK
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「對不起,我想我該離開了。」149Please respect copyright.PENANAII9fkrubCv
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我轉身開門離去,張雅己也沒有回頭,我看到她的背影在微微顫抖。149Please respect copyright.PENANA1NEzGhZhG7
張雅己的媽媽在門外聽到她大聲說話,以為我們吵架。149Please respect copyright.PENANAtEDt0PSKeQ
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「對不起。」她不知為何,跟我道歉起上來。149Please respect copyright.PENANAbiSB93vuAQ
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「不,是我不好。」149Please respect copyright.PENANALtruN3mniy
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「她小時候,是一個很乖很親切的小孩。自從她爸爸過世後,我就不太懂她在想什麼。」149Please respect copyright.PENANAKVXOXxuIQh
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她看著客廳牆上的照片說。149Please respect copyright.PENANAmVbZydDFuP
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「如果她爸爸還在這裡就好。」149Please respect copyright.PENANAwjfiBbqtA4
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我走近,想看看張雅己的爸爸。149Please respect copyright.PENANAfOqwrFQF8L
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那是一張家庭合照,她媽媽年輕時更像張雅己。她抱住還是嬰兒的張雅己,坐在沙發上,旁邊站了一個高大的男人,應是她爸爸。149Please respect copyright.PENANAz7ROnyTmbF
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「不好意思,我可以問張雅己的爸爸是何時過生嗎?」149Please respect copyright.PENANAnzJZECe4af
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「嗯,是張雅己4歲的時候。」149Please respect copyright.PENANAQdmMJgkBP7
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家庭合照的右上方,貼了另一張照片,大概是她爸爸年輕時跟朋友登山的合照。照片中有4人,前排是兩個女生跪在地上,高大的張雅己爸爸則站在後面,親蜜地用手搭著身邊另一個男人的肩膀。149Please respect copyright.PENANA7v3hB9ZKhU
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「這張照片是?」149Please respect copyright.PENANAfMJBNWMbsj
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「那是她爸爸大學時期參加登山社拍的,我們當時還未認識對方。」149Please respect copyright.PENANA0ndvQASl7Q
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我總覺得她爸爸身邊的那個男人很眼熟,好像在哪裡見過他。149Please respect copyright.PENANA2uaoMRg3Tz
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這時候,廚房的水壺響起來。149Please respect copyright.PENANAnJfQHVuS5R
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我趁著張雅己媽媽跑到廚房關火,趕快用手機拍下家庭合照和那張登山照,然後匆匆離開了。149Please respect copyright.PENANAKsuhlY8hvC
「對不起,我不應該發脾氣⋯⋯」她訊息裡說。149Please respect copyright.PENANA5at3WLFvJR
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「不,是我不對,我明白你不想說,我不應該追問。」149Please respect copyright.PENANAj9WME70CvZ
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