「你今個星期日有沒有時間來我家？」張雅己在訊息裡說。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVapx7EXyjB
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「為什麼？」我吃驚地問。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfw78aRA3vK
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「不是你說我們要在學校保持距離嗎？我想跟你繼續討論，你不願意的話，要不我到你家去。」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVFZZfhPxwu
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「不，不，還是我到你家吧。」我手忙腳亂，不知所措。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMi5meYddnC
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「可以帶薛丁格一起嗎？我想看看牠。」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ93RswKZCRy
2008年12月7日星期日，149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYEUNovqfev
我背著裝住薛丁格的貓背囊，來到張雅己的家門前。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaq9mqntF79
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緊張的按下門鐘，出來應門的是張雅己的母親，她很有禮貌地向我打招呼。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY8o83eeV3i
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「雅己很少帶朋友回家的，特別是男孩子。」她笑咪咪，邀請我進屋，後面傳來張雅己的聲音。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM9f5SO87b4
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「你到了，快些進來吧。」張雅己催促我進去她房間。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡITaT0qMfGK
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「要不要喝果汁？要不要吃零食？雪櫃裡有蛋糕。」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYKLGQLrpQH
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她媽媽繼續在我們身後說著客氣話，直至張雅己用力關上房門。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCIDNSc2bq
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她房間裡比我想像還要整潔，而且香。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡht7UH61yxY
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最重要是我第一次看見張雅己穿便服的樣子。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr3QFLO0gce
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我從背囊捧出薛丁格，牠不太熟悉周圍環境，在地板上縮成一團，張雅己抱起牠。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2biLUcLzZS
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「為什麼你主人會改你叫薛丁格這種古怪名字，他到底在想什麼。」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ49LIxXTMTa
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她用比平時更可愛，像小朋友的說話方式，對著牠說。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCdO2hYwTUy
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「牠好像比我第一次見牠時健康了。」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDCxpLn2pl
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「還胖了很多，我父母每天也買貴價貓糧給牠，快要寵壞牠。」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRlBX5AE90
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「真好，我很羨慕你有幸福的家庭。」她說。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4LkzOFuYAN
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我腦裡閃過在警署時，她母親那哀傷的神情。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNDtZ59YiS4
薛丁格掙扎著從她手中逃開了。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuZTdeNWvWl
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她不知哪裡找來一個貓玩具，高大的她趴在地上，一直逗著薛丁格玩。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDHZYYXH156
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「我把之前說的那套電影帶了過來，或者有參考的地方，你有dvd播放器嗎？」我問。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZsDj7I0O1c
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「可以用電腦。」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLvfh5l5rK
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我們坐在地板上，靠著她的床，電腦螢幕很細，我們必須擠在一起看，肩碰肩。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9QDR5JPZYC
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若撇除了我坐在這裡的原因，是為調查她是誰的幻想，還有她是個自殺了5次還死不去的女生，我們現在這個模樣，不過是兩個平常少年少女坐在一起看電影然而。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPT47C720C5
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薛丁格走過來鑽進她膀胳，她溫柔的抱牠入懷，在牠脖子的毛皮上親吻。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV16gfByQCh
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我想她的吻該是甜蜜又溫暖。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSePJu2X8ps
「沒有人希望自己死去，不幸地我們都難逃一劫。」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡscGOH4DoLt
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「終有一天，你會死。可能在銀行心臟病發、可能被薄荷珠嗆死、或者在你度假時罹患不治之症。你會死，你必定會死，即使你逃避了這次，也有其他原因導致你的死亡，而且我可以保證不會像她寫的那樣有詩意和充滿意義。」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2LaB3k6DPg
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戲中其中一個角色對男主角說。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHq5aUzGoDC
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我偷望身邊的她，她看得入神，我看到她眼紅紅鼻子也紅紅，一顆眼淚隨她眼睛輕眨，滑落到她的面頰。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPpmyB9sZWj
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我不敢哼出半點聲音，不自覺減輕呼吸，假裝沒有發現她在哭。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkGLCzeU1n
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電影完結，她立刻站起來背著我，我知道她正用手擦拭眼淚。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGtLdrPooue
「電影很好看。」張雅己咽哽著。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7R8YDakCt2
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「嗯，但好像沒有什麼值得參考的地方。」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNss11Q0AZ8
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我看著她的背影，終於按奈不住，鼓起勇氣問我一直想知道的問題。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHb0RqZ8eSx
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「你可以告訴我你自殺的理由嗎？」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0QiDLUR3CC
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她沒有回答，依然站在原地背向著我，我聽到她因為哭過，急促的氣喘聲。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiWyQTPf5NE
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「我不想說。」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfEDtO4wZyC
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「可能是其中一個線索⋯⋯」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu5AfGC7IJo
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「我不想說。」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwGMCmkaEt4
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「可能對事情會有幫肋⋯⋯」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeyb4y7Gu7s
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「我說了我不想說！」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt0oQk7N3Jc
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我第一次聽到張雅己這麼大聲說話，房間裡像迴盪住她的聲音。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpDFiiDnpB6
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薛丁格嚇壞了，躲在我腳邊，我抱起牠，把牠放進貓背囊。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzSdQhAp0MK
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「對不起，我想我該離開了。」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡII9fkrubCv
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我轉身開門離去，張雅己也沒有回頭，我看到她的背影在微微顫抖。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1NEzGhZhG7
張雅己的媽媽在門外聽到她大聲說話，以為我們吵架。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtEDt0PSKeQ
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「對不起。」她不知為何，跟我道歉起上來。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbiSB93vuAQ
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「不，是我不好。」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLtruN3mniy
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「她小時候，是一個很乖很親切的小孩。自從她爸爸過世後，我就不太懂她在想什麼。」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKVXOXxuIQh
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她看著客廳牆上的照片說。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmVbZydDFuP
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「如果她爸爸還在這裡就好。」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwjfiBbqtA4
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我走近，想看看張雅己的爸爸。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfOqwrFQF8L
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那是一張家庭合照，她媽媽年輕時更像張雅己。她抱住還是嬰兒的張雅己，坐在沙發上，旁邊站了一個高大的男人，應是她爸爸。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz7ROnyTmbF
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「不好意思，我可以問張雅己的爸爸是何時過生嗎？」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnzJZECe4af
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「嗯，是張雅己4歲的時候。」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQdmMJgkBP7
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家庭合照的右上方，貼了另一張照片，大概是她爸爸年輕時跟朋友登山的合照。照片中有4人，前排是兩個女生跪在地上，高大的張雅己爸爸則站在後面，親蜜地用手搭著身邊另一個男人的肩膀。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7v3hB9ZKhU
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「這張照片是？」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfMJBNWMbsj
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「那是她爸爸大學時期參加登山社拍的，我們當時還未認識對方。」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ndvQASl7Q
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我總覺得她爸爸身邊的那個男人很眼熟，好像在哪裡見過他。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2uaoMRg3Tz
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這時候，廚房的水壺響起來。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJfQHVuS5R
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我趁著張雅己媽媽跑到廚房關火，趕快用手機拍下家庭合照和那張登山照，然後匆匆離開了。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKsuhlY8hvC
「對不起，我不應該發脾氣⋯⋯」她訊息裡說。149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5at3WLFvJR
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「不，是我不對，我明白你不想說，我不應該追問。」149Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9WME70CvZ
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