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之前說過,因康雯的「催促」(部份原因),我參加了青見。我的青見個案經理,是梁姑娘。81Please respect copyright.PENANAdzTmnYedeu
81Please respect copyright.PENANA5SdFz0Ag8M
我就打電話給梁姑娘,訴說這些事:不如為何大埔4K工那3個「朋友」這樣一夜間消失,很擔心父母離世......說到途中,居然又忍不著哭......81Please respect copyright.PENANAqHDWWBzr7E
81Please respect copyright.PENANAHOUoBUL6xf
我很想找快點找到新工作,以讓自己有點寄託,減少胡思亂想。81Please respect copyright.PENANAjB9Tk2eUSn
81Please respect copyright.PENANAYXmOWMFcm6
梁姑娘說,一些社福機構也有類似的半年4K工,著我到某些網站尋找。又說她工作的青少年中心,也有這些空缺,著我可申請。81Please respect copyright.PENANA1fGmk2xkT7
81Please respect copyright.PENANAq9T0UbpFj1
郵寄了不下十多封這些半年4K工的求職信,有間甚至是近在我家樓下的青少年中心,結果就和當年向 YES!徵友欄索取女孩地址一樣,幾乎全部石沉大海。81Please respect copyright.PENANAvNAUjdTUqE
81Please respect copyright.PENANAeKgzazSigM
唯一有回音的,是梁姑娘工作的青少年中心。很明顯,是梁姑娘背後動作,識人好過識字。81Please respect copyright.PENANA3EuUW5u90S
81Please respect copyright.PENANAwlHWFPU1mo
不意外地,2004年4月,成為了梁姑娘工作的青少年中心的員工,又一個半年4K(參考:阿源的TVB初次訪問出街後,有社工跟進他,也是帶了他進青少年中心做這些臨時工)。81Please respect copyright.PENANAxH7MBf9tzL
81Please respect copyright.PENANAStorg4eBaN
起初,我情緒仍然低落,但一直告訴自己,這是嶄新的一頁,不要再情緒低落了。當然,這裡也有其他4K人,我盡力融入,希望結織朋友。81Please respect copyright.PENANAWhRkqF8EWj
81Please respect copyright.PENANAj8PcXJqFGR
沒料到,這裡的,是比卓絲更仆街的仆街,更瘋狂的針對、孤立、邊緣化。81Please respect copyright.PENANAhJVIUaBSne
81Please respect copyright.PENANAKUOvZpeEjv
之前大埔那裡,還有個小圈子加入。青少年中心這裡,我完全被孤立完全被邊緣化。81Please respect copyright.PENANA2DLjQd7PBW
81Please respect copyright.PENANAphQVkIWTJq
沒事可做,揭一揭報紙,也被批評。不是批評一次,而是幾乎隔天便借故重提嘮叨。直到我遞辭職信,又被挽留,才沒再提。81Please respect copyright.PENANAStOBqObwRR
81Please respect copyright.PENANAlSVkuXnSif
聽到有人對梁姑娘說:「總之我聽埋聽埋,我對佢印象就係唔好!佢喺呢度都攪成咁,將來出到去,我唔知佢點算....」,梁姑娘沒作聲,只有一臉無奈。這個「佢」,準是我,一定係。81Please respect copyright.PENANAKlbFIYoHxh
81Please respect copyright.PENANA5C2ZHRF41W
連梁姑娘,也身受其害。相信因為我,她一定聽不少「你做乜帶隻咁既野入黎」之類說話。81Please respect copyright.PENANA6YY9ltCCrN
81Please respect copyright.PENANAQloaOaHb4R
後期,甚至去到連眼尾看見同事填文件,也被照肺:「你唔係人地上司,你冇權睇人地做乜!你咁睇人地填文件,係質疑同事工作,仲質疑埋同事既上司,雙重質疑,破壞呢度既融洽和諧......」81Please respect copyright.PENANAXEBIIZJIaF
81Please respect copyright.PENANA5Jc62cSkIH
某4K人生日,全4K人高調吹雞去唱K,唯獨留下我一個。81Please respect copyright.PENANAHj3rBQAJmT
81Please respect copyright.PENANAgqej5ejYJI
全4K人吹雞去台灣玩,當然又是.......81Please respect copyright.PENANAWhbBY6zBWd
81Please respect copyright.PENANAIO0o5gQnI4
2004年10月,又到半年約滿期了。臨別秋波,梁姑娘也很無奈,也說不出我到底做錯了甚麼、得罪了那些「人」甚麼。唯有推介我看<人性的弱點>,說是探討人際關係,對結識朋友、改善人緣有幫助。81Please respect copyright.PENANAaqmYMCFCsn
81Please respect copyright.PENANAvtPcUtUMlq
離開這裡後,本為期一年的青見服務,也超額結束,梁姑娘也沒再找我。81Please respect copyright.PENANA4fZ3CZBJTX
81Please respect copyright.PENANAennjFakkxt
我找了<人性的弱點>這本書看,一邊看,一邊認真反思檢討。只覺得,這本書寫的,若完全做足,簡直是完全失去自我,確沒可能。但我以往,七八成怎也有做,又怎樣?只是一次又一次的「你對人好,唔好望人對返你好」。81Please respect copyright.PENANA9f0FKyhBNQ
81Please respect copyright.PENANAEklFG5Se5i
這本書,看了約七成,便棄了。81Please respect copyright.PENANAUGvUtd3tyu
81Please respect copyright.PENANAIhYlAfiYdM
數年後,認識了某人,她的脾氣性格,完全是這本書的反面教材:極自我中心、嚴人寬己,但朋友、桃花,還是一蘿蘿飛來蜢。81Please respect copyright.PENANAYctbvmYVqY
81Please respect copyright.PENANANLHRsNZm8s
此時已是2004年末,如前述,2003年那短期課程結識的傻男和康雯,也在這時反面(康雯,「輪班」喎、「工時長」喎,「很忙」喎、「時間難夾」喎),朋友僅餘肥妹。81Please respect copyright.PENANAPQYqkWIy3S
81Please respect copyright.PENANAKoZyTu5vCt
那短期課程的康雯。81Please respect copyright.PENANA12IDZcCXHF
81Please respect copyright.PENANA9YkmOX4DoR
大埔4K工的卓絲、小圈子的3個「朋友」:一輝、地下情侶。81Please respect copyright.PENANAxVIWDfO0BW
81Please respect copyright.PENANAYvtdL0LSTo
青少年中心的4K同事。81Please respect copyright.PENANAlP2UHL6SSD
81Please respect copyright.PENANApfepenVLSW
全都是我真心想交的朋友,一個又一個,全部.........81Please respect copyright.PENANAiJiEbNrYqe
81Please respect copyright.PENANAoLgx0STxRj
冥冥之中、天意、宿命,全部係冥冥之中、天意、宿命。81Please respect copyright.PENANAVqVqo4DTA4
81Please respect copyright.PENANAjJzhJbqd1K
2003年在那短期課程得到的少許自信,已消滅殆盡。
ns 172.69.58.54da2 81Please respect copyright.PENANA5SdFz0Ag8M
我就打電話給梁姑娘,訴說這些事:不如為何大埔4K工那3個「朋友」這樣一夜間消失,很擔心父母離世......說到途中,居然又忍不著哭......81Please respect copyright.PENANAqHDWWBzr7E
81Please respect copyright.PENANAHOUoBUL6xf
我很想找快點找到新工作,以讓自己有點寄託,減少胡思亂想。81Please respect copyright.PENANAjB9Tk2eUSn
81Please respect copyright.PENANAYXmOWMFcm6
梁姑娘說,一些社福機構也有類似的半年4K工,著我到某些網站尋找。又說她工作的青少年中心,也有這些空缺,著我可申請。81Please respect copyright.PENANA1fGmk2xkT7
81Please respect copyright.PENANAq9T0UbpFj1
郵寄了不下十多封這些半年4K工的求職信,有間甚至是近在我家樓下的青少年中心,結果就和當年向 YES!徵友欄索取女孩地址一樣,幾乎全部石沉大海。81Please respect copyright.PENANAvNAUjdTUqE
81Please respect copyright.PENANAeKgzazSigM
唯一有回音的,是梁姑娘工作的青少年中心。很明顯,是梁姑娘背後動作,識人好過識字。81Please respect copyright.PENANA3EuUW5u90S
81Please respect copyright.PENANAwlHWFPU1mo
不意外地,2004年4月,成為了梁姑娘工作的青少年中心的員工,又一個半年4K(參考:阿源的TVB初次訪問出街後,有社工跟進他,也是帶了他進青少年中心做這些臨時工)。81Please respect copyright.PENANAxH7MBf9tzL
81Please respect copyright.PENANAStorg4eBaN
起初,我情緒仍然低落,但一直告訴自己,這是嶄新的一頁,不要再情緒低落了。當然,這裡也有其他4K人,我盡力融入,希望結織朋友。81Please respect copyright.PENANAWhRkqF8EWj
81Please respect copyright.PENANAj8PcXJqFGR
沒料到,這裡的,是比卓絲更仆街的仆街,更瘋狂的針對、孤立、邊緣化。81Please respect copyright.PENANAhJVIUaBSne
81Please respect copyright.PENANAKUOvZpeEjv
之前大埔那裡,還有個小圈子加入。青少年中心這裡,我完全被孤立完全被邊緣化。81Please respect copyright.PENANA2DLjQd7PBW
81Please respect copyright.PENANAphQVkIWTJq
沒事可做,揭一揭報紙,也被批評。不是批評一次,而是幾乎隔天便借故重提嘮叨。直到我遞辭職信,又被挽留,才沒再提。81Please respect copyright.PENANAStOBqObwRR
81Please respect copyright.PENANAlSVkuXnSif
聽到有人對梁姑娘說:「總之我聽埋聽埋,我對佢印象就係唔好!佢喺呢度都攪成咁,將來出到去,我唔知佢點算....」,梁姑娘沒作聲,只有一臉無奈。這個「佢」,準是我,一定係。81Please respect copyright.PENANAKlbFIYoHxh
81Please respect copyright.PENANA5C2ZHRF41W
連梁姑娘,也身受其害。相信因為我,她一定聽不少「你做乜帶隻咁既野入黎」之類說話。81Please respect copyright.PENANA6YY9ltCCrN
81Please respect copyright.PENANAQloaOaHb4R
後期,甚至去到連眼尾看見同事填文件,也被照肺:「你唔係人地上司,你冇權睇人地做乜!你咁睇人地填文件,係質疑同事工作,仲質疑埋同事既上司,雙重質疑,破壞呢度既融洽和諧......」81Please respect copyright.PENANAXEBIIZJIaF
81Please respect copyright.PENANA5Jc62cSkIH
某4K人生日,全4K人高調吹雞去唱K,唯獨留下我一個。81Please respect copyright.PENANAHj3rBQAJmT
81Please respect copyright.PENANAgqej5ejYJI
全4K人吹雞去台灣玩,當然又是.......81Please respect copyright.PENANAWhbBY6zBWd
81Please respect copyright.PENANAIO0o5gQnI4
2004年10月,又到半年約滿期了。臨別秋波,梁姑娘也很無奈,也說不出我到底做錯了甚麼、得罪了那些「人」甚麼。唯有推介我看<人性的弱點>,說是探討人際關係,對結識朋友、改善人緣有幫助。81Please respect copyright.PENANAaqmYMCFCsn
81Please respect copyright.PENANAvtPcUtUMlq
離開這裡後,本為期一年的青見服務,也超額結束,梁姑娘也沒再找我。81Please respect copyright.PENANA4fZ3CZBJTX
81Please respect copyright.PENANAennjFakkxt
我找了<人性的弱點>這本書看,一邊看,一邊認真反思檢討。只覺得,這本書寫的,若完全做足,簡直是完全失去自我,確沒可能。但我以往,七八成怎也有做,又怎樣?只是一次又一次的「你對人好,唔好望人對返你好」。81Please respect copyright.PENANA9f0FKyhBNQ
81Please respect copyright.PENANAEklFG5Se5i
這本書,看了約七成,便棄了。81Please respect copyright.PENANAUGvUtd3tyu
81Please respect copyright.PENANAIhYlAfiYdM
數年後,認識了某人,她的脾氣性格,完全是這本書的反面教材:極自我中心、嚴人寬己,但朋友、桃花,還是一蘿蘿飛來蜢。81Please respect copyright.PENANAYctbvmYVqY
81Please respect copyright.PENANANLHRsNZm8s
此時已是2004年末,如前述,2003年那短期課程結識的傻男和康雯,也在這時反面(康雯,「輪班」喎、「工時長」喎,「很忙」喎、「時間難夾」喎),朋友僅餘肥妹。81Please respect copyright.PENANAPQYqkWIy3S
81Please respect copyright.PENANAKoZyTu5vCt
那短期課程的康雯。81Please respect copyright.PENANA12IDZcCXHF
81Please respect copyright.PENANA9YkmOX4DoR
大埔4K工的卓絲、小圈子的3個「朋友」:一輝、地下情侶。81Please respect copyright.PENANAxVIWDfO0BW
81Please respect copyright.PENANAYvtdL0LSTo
青少年中心的4K同事。81Please respect copyright.PENANAlP2UHL6SSD
81Please respect copyright.PENANApfepenVLSW
全都是我真心想交的朋友,一個又一個,全部.........81Please respect copyright.PENANAiJiEbNrYqe
81Please respect copyright.PENANAoLgx0STxRj
冥冥之中、天意、宿命,全部係冥冥之中、天意、宿命。81Please respect copyright.PENANAVqVqo4DTA4
81Please respect copyright.PENANAjJzhJbqd1K
2003年在那短期課程得到的少許自信,已消滅殆盡。