Pandemonium - Wie Ben Ik

was 10 in the morning, the day seemed gloomy as it was continuously raining for a week tho this was a boon for those staying in their strong houses but a curse for the poor, you could see many slums in Brussels were destroyed you could see the whole Crupet frustrated due to the rains but there was one dilapidated hut in the corner which seemed nonchalant of the uncomfortable situation

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKaBWlhAPsg

In that hut lived a young man, broke yet aware of the world quite good with the newly introduced industries and business, he was witty and helpful the only problem he had was he is broke, all you could hear from that hut was sounds of hissing and shaky breaths etc.

Derek pov,

"Aaah..aah ouch it hurts". " it hurts so badly, but at least I could do it, finally I'm successful hah.." I am finally successful to reach towards death I am slowly going out-breath and I could feel my strength going down but still I wanted to write for the first time I felt expressing my emotions, for the first time in my 25 years I felt like opening-up

with whatever strength I had both mentally and physically I started to find my journal, water splashing everywhere and stinging my newly cut legs and tear-stained cheeks and I started writing...

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtXXTb48MD6

What am I

Oh, how suffocating do I feel by being trapped inside this soulless body?

How pathetic is this to see other people being happy in their bodies whereas look at me

How lonely and how embarrassing is it to even stay here.

How frustrating is it to see it, hear it, feel it, yet stay quiet about it?

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnlW6GMAHqu

Sometimes I become numb about it and ignore it

I treat it like some curse

This eats me up

knowing that this is not a curse yet treating it as a curse irks me

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7QJzLB8cTN

Yes I hate being you

I hate being you

I hate staying here

Please

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhzoHcUcFfb

Please, someone, help me

please, someone, explain to me

Oh please please, please

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSrhedIqmaM

Take me out

I can't bear this pain any longer

This pain is now becoming deadly

It's suffocating me

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLR4xxPGG0l

I am helpless

I am losing my senses

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9EeMGtup4x

What am I

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIqug7zNZqZ

Seeing you getting hurt just worsens my pain

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0uWnPpqeWp

So just forget it

Why did I have to be the one

blessed with this curse

Why me

Wasn't my already existing trauma and poverty not enough for you?

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFGqUruQxJu

Oh lord

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0bjVRXP8Nc

Why me

Why did I have to stand out in this crowd

Why did I have to be different like those freaks

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq0rQxw4NGU

Why is my way of loving people different

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQyR9JWoBTD

I know this is not a curse yet everyone treats it as a curse

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡufxMlcIA45

I can't tolerate this pain anymore

I am supposed to feel good while getting rid of the curse

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnUyfe5VfNp

Yet all I feel is this excruciating pain and numbness

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuel2lRy3qS

I feel disgusted every day but I think lord himself hates me which is why I am still alive

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrxoTKfvGA0

I fail to understand what did I do wrong

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcuQgfqtcUw

Is it wrong to love someone

who is just like me

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJ6oNVzvQo

How wrong is it

How difficult is it to even accept it

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfhAvrNpnN

Why can't you sympathize with me for once

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡob2hAFufyH

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGCyRq6BUSO

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8TQ46MgcB

nd help me get out of the pain

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDzXbu8KqNA

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwyQkF7CwQz

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡczhmO8mvqg

Isn't love the same

Isn't love about loving someone and expressing it freely

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRgt5CZ1ocY

Then why am I restricted

What is my issue

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWjjvj1Z45Y

I also love someone

I also want to be with him

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe14n8CE1Pe

Is loving him a crime

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT3SRIijeRI

Is confessing to him a sin

Is expressing my love towards him a crime

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu6WxPVSBXo

Oh how heinous a crime did I commit that I have to bear this pain

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWFgXqIoUAq

My sole existence seems like a curse to everyone

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbDFksCwJJe

I fail to understand my fault, I think it must be something embarrassing

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12XuOAH0nA

Therefore you don't tell me about it

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYSg2VOh5qc

f you ever find about it then tell me

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtDvTow1xlO

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhbRdnhgC09

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwgk3csY6EB

Cause I can't bear it

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6NDA0teUUO

I have given up now

Convey my regards to him

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmUE7JRNXOp

Let him know that he is beautiful, he is strong and most importantly not a coward like me and I've always loved him and always will

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7u6KOqTqfV

I am not afraid of showing my love to him not anymore I still yearn for him, I still want to hug him

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU463Ys1376

I love him... I love you Robert I love you

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgiSSDOET5T

But I am leaving him as

I am a curse and even he hates me hah... Robert

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHrXLRkMEsC

I cannot find the answer to this question

I am confused

Please tell me

Explain me

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdN9GSW9cvH

What am I

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhdB7D20vge

With this, I finished my letter

I don't have any energy left now and with that

I jumped inside the river

but this time I didn't struggle

I let the water take me away...

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEIiyUFiacr

I know that I am a coward

I am weak

I have given up now

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuzODj7SljQ

nd now you shall not see this disgrace

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvrmGNVP8wv

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK7EbsnO4hQ

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmqsf5Ierwl

I am now completely dead with no hope left

and if you see me

I'll be floating somewhere far with a wry grin on my face...

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSLouCX93SJ

And with that, I come to a conclusion

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHkhRv7mW3h

I don't know who I am and what my fault is...

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP9mUa47mUq

***** ***** ******

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCxOZzMyrq

Although this poem is not good or doesn't address the issue I want to dedicate this to those who lost their lives, identities due our society's homophobia...

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPnAvrXfT2v

People treating homosexuality as a disease is a sin itself, and due to this many cultures think that they can treat it through unfair means, and can cure it, which is just ridiculous. The idea of love is gendered now because being het is normal but being a fag is not a? What is love then? loving the opposite sex is that what love is?

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuWOkkRibGN

Please stop treating it as a curse

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2BZGU2lMYl

314Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ix6fe5U83

ns216.73.216.176da2

Wie Ben Ik

註冊

登入

介面語言:

故事語言: