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「需要你直白的愛意來確認我的存在。」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXYlN8WUfRU
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我跟夏油傑打小認識。夏油一家都是非常好的人，在我們搬過去之後相當照顧我們。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqAXviBpOw5
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爸爸媽媽一直以來都忙於工作，我已經很習慣自己一個人待在家裡了。好在夏油傑跟我是同一所學校的，至少回家的路上還能有個照應。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNFA2vChp0L
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他一直很受歡迎。有禮貌的優等生，外表俊秀，談吐與同齡人相比還要成熟大方，這樣的孩子很難不受人喜愛。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGBGL2eI1dR
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我很喜歡他。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡriSXpzxOJ5
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但他終究是飛鳥。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB72Fudz42G
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……他好像跟一般人有些不一樣。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQy72oYGaq
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舉個例子，我曾經撞見他對著空氣揮拳，揮完之後不知道吞下了什麼，臉上的痛苦不似作偽。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXT9vtQfcUC
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如果是為了演戲的話，這演技穩妥妥可以去報名角逐奧斯卡了。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3QTUQETW3g
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「……你都看見了？」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgscyV6Jp2F
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他看見我一言不發地站在那，錯愕地問，似乎有種被戳破秘密的羞恥感。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkcEmE5NYu
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我說對，然後從口袋拿出一根棒棒糖給他。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBJnYoIYr6
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「葡萄口味的。」我說。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUH66gz4OAc
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他說謝謝，然後當著我的面拆開包裝塞進嘴裡。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNVfrEDk3d
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走回去的路上難得很安靜。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy7mmA0MAw2
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「……你不問我什麼嗎？」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4atb9J0d6K
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「怕你尷尬。」我誠實地說。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPCV2LwPqxz
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他無奈地笑了，像是在說「敗給你了」。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8jnsyFmPS1
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仲夏的風帶著些微的潮意吹過，在陽光下舒展的枝椏沙沙地掉下幾片綠葉，日光在臉上落下斑駁光影。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS14EyjvSWh
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敗給你了。他說。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKDOJr9ZtxB
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我好像墜入愛河，於是也跟著笑了起來。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfybe865y4
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「我看得見一些……一般人看不見的東西。」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4RTWDCZx9F
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「鬼？」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXibmVJPYC
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「比鬼還可怕吧……完全看不出是什麼樣子的。」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6CpD4yrL40
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「史萊姆？」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpjFzejaJgr
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「唔，倒是有看過一個很像的。」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjTCLfXOFp5
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我們有一搭沒一搭地聊，直到夏油傑停下腳步。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmCKxMoWzfW
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他看向我的眼神突然變得很鄭重，就像是下定什麼決心似的。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Bjz9LYN8v
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他說，我可以吸收這些東西，然後讓他們為我所用。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZcKYz6zqW
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我想起夏油傑吞嚥的動作。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ08MzxXbr2y
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仰頭吞下的時候整張臉會皺在一起，喉結上下滾動，抑制即將嘔吐的衝動，睜開眼的時候眼眶已經微微泛紅。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96ALBmDqkV
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明明很痛苦吧。我說。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKzuOtdXWkO
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「一定要吃掉那些東西嗎？」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0mvvQ2u1nP
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「一定要。」他說，「說實話，味道就跟沾了嘔吐物的抹布，很難吃。」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5tQcxu7chi
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聽起來真糟糕。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnaEIwGeCVQ
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「但是一想到只要熬過幾秒鐘，就能幫助到更多人的話──那麼，這短暫的痛苦，似乎也就沒什麼了。」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNSU8tPWxI6
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我後來意識到墜入愛河也許並不只是因為那個笑容，而是他提起「理想」的時候，閃閃發光的模樣。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvYfgHkUoHQ
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我愛他，愛他的抱負。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUeSTgpbEfa
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所以在他的咒靈殺死我的時候，我始終都認為，那是我喜歡的少年。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWqYQ139bC2
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八歲，十四歲，殺死我的那年他十六歲。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6mjGOHLULV
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他從來沒有變過。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHhacCrMNIQ
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夏油傑離開之後，一切都變成飛鳥了，我也是。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLxZD7EqhYX
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夏油傑畢業後就加入高專了。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSxfcdQJvgQ
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少了一個人在身邊，放學的路上又開始變得很安靜。我不太習慣，但也不打算找新朋友陪我。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfj4dKmPK5V
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總覺得會有種替代掉「夏油傑」的感覺，而我不想要這樣。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSxGEmhSoRf
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「你怎麼低著頭在走路？」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ZHl75mkkq
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這聲音是夏油傑。我詫異地抬頭向身後一看，那個高了我一大截的少年正笑眯眯地看我。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL34ivqfuCP
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「你怎麼在這？」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAMBrnWfxb9
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還穿得像個不良少年似的，我說。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCd9mesbbTA
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他臉上的笑意瞬間僵住，大概是有些好氣又好笑。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLxu36xd9VZ
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「來陪你放學。」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX89TYwJBKr
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──結果你是這樣說我的？他的眼神赤裸裸地傳達出這則訊息。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7o4b9wug1w
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我驚訝於他的回答，頓時有些心虛，心裡卻又覺得還挺高興的，只能吐吐舌假裝沒事矇混過去。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4HepbDKIeZ
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夏油傑不會因為這種玩笑同我置氣。他無奈地伸手拍拍我的腦袋，將我背在身上的書包給拿走，動作流暢自然地就像是做過數百次一樣。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJKXnKUy1GR
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陽光將他的影子拉得冗長，我低下頭幼稚地踩，偶爾踩在落葉上，發出嘎吱嘎吱的聲響。夏油傑已經很習慣我時不時無聊的小舉動，無所謂地任由我的鞋子在他的「頭」上放肆。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTL6KmM6XOS
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「沒想到你還有空來接我。」我說。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmyKIoGoYQz
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氣流經過喉嚨，聲帶顫動，他發出「嗯──」的聲音，臉上的表情似笑非笑。「怕你覺得寂寞，暗地裡偷偷哭。」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAON7Mt7E6B
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才不會。我反駁道。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGnZqJgqLDo
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欸？是嗎？可是媽媽傳訊息給我，說自從我去高專上學之後，鄰居太太的女兒晚上都會在被窩裡偷偷哭。鄰居太太的女兒是誰啊──夏油傑瞇起眼睛笑的時候像隻壞心眼的狐狸。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZIzJaJ4ZtI
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我不敢置信地瞪大眼睛。媽媽這個叛徒！462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZX0FtoWPrC
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無話可說，我索性攤牌承認是我，我確實會暗地裡想他。我說沒辦法，你走以後我好不習慣。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe4mDYQBB4E
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「你叫我起床，幫我拿書包，跟我一起上學、一起放學……傑，那麼多年的習慣不是可以隨便割捨的。」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZMwxVKAMsi
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我不想找別人跟我一起放學，因為沒有人能代替夏油傑陪我走這條路。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOOvTjagdWG
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他終究是不一樣的。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM9VbWRn3tD
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黑髮少年綁著我熟悉的丸子頭，他看著我，突然沒了聲音。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMLjKCDDds
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那我以後陪你一起下課好嗎？最後他妥協似地問，眼神卻很溫柔。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCjxHSTivkz
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「還要常常講電話。」我堅持。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPnPuJmKNo9
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「不是每天都在傳訊息了嗎？」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl91sFMPCr1
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「但我想聽你說話呀。」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJbPtPeoS7
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「好。」462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVRKmQt6LbV
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都聽你的。他說。462Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1eQ6Vdp3Ye
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