I wish I could understand why I feel this way354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9OpHrJMAjO
Why flying doesn't feel the same 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs7FyJj2f0y
And the lows don't seem to fade354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4KkTHy14E6
They just linger and remain
I find myself trapped with no incentive to fix it, to rewrite the narrative 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfoADqR7gMc
Instead my mind picks it apart, going straight for the heart354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp1ymRB3Ob6
I gotta give it to them, they play it pretty smart
I wish I could tell you everything that makes me hurt 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9dK2gBKVmZ
I wish I could convert it into something better, avert from the inevitable 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsFtYSPQJ6X
I'll convert this pain into something that works 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLIvQxo91bn
Something that works to be charitable to my health, make my pain more revocable and severable 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPqcHqLtIEg
Because after several years of being rendered inseparable from this feeling 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ve2prGHDT
I finally feel like I'm worth freeing 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGfKkStAYBS
That this pain made me bleed, but it can't keep me354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡykUQx4sC52
I'm finally fleeing
But my superficial confidence is fleeting as my heart slows its beating 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLA3IfQ9a2u
The breathing turns to drowning 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgpRvCQOrdj
The seconds I'm counting, turns to shouting 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfq9Pinsj7N
I'm pounding on the walls, sounding my alarms354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBPzQNwb1oN
But no one welcomes me with open arms354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3uGhJ85B8f
Their love is fictitious 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuhyKl6IvLl
So thus, restarts the vicious cycle354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkEuevhiPng
I try to focus on my survival, but I never see its arrival 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQjTQWlfpcO
So I lay here, my body limp and my heart slowing 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUnemKqGEBQ
The deprival of blood, of color, of feeling 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj4QDxms6uE
My life is fleeting, like the confidcence I once had 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡROYRAw1iyJ
I never meet my revival
But no one understands, no one offers a hand 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMOXe8XGi1y
I try to stand, my lungs expand, only to to be stuck in secondhand smoke354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3iayRnSmSb
My voice broke as the smoke filled my lungs and covered my eyes like some sort of cloak 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqqICkqf17S
I tried to yell, to call out for help, but all I did was choke
Falling on my knees, right back to the ground, I look around 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt4TOhc4IOG
Listening to the elaborate planning of everything demanding a change 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe3zMT54LWG
They get their way, nothing remains the same354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhVsDDkhZxS
All I feel is shame as I call out every name, hoping for someone to see everything slipping away 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVaXuqefbwF
But no one comes my way, I'm disregarded and pushed away 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ92E4EkNNQ7
I guess no one wanted me around anyway
I give in to the deadly game, as if I was ever given a choice 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOWTvCvbUy
But maybe my only claim to fame would be that I'm pretty damn good at playing this game 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWaTAuMmku3
Even if it feels like I'm locked in a cage354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqT4Uf7Tvd6
The game of push and pull with the demons in my mind354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWGC3Ktzpi
Darkness covering my eyes, I'm blind 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKMO9fs70VG
But full of myself and always on time 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZpkFkd7xNy
I admit that the crime is mine 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU2kjwZQmk0
Now I'll serve my time
I thought, maybe if I quit it354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFSuCRpANHd
The devil will lose his incentive 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuMK4YuHnsC
The weak little girl, poisoned 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JgB7aUm0N
Too bad for his game of tainting the good
But even then he just pulled down my walls 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPnxaqbfzKE
Brick by brick 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP6Y57XqMVV
And now I'm back in this smoky pit, the light drained from it 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ0ZAJtR1M3
Smoke filling my lungs and ripping the sight from my eyes 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFKf37peKc7
Once again, I'm blind
Even when I believe it's over354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb0Ok80ZXHh
That the thunder has passed me by, the storm subsiding 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkd5PMWLJzX
It's still right there 354Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9dCoxn7p1
The devil on my shoulder
