I wish I could understand why I feel this way75Please respect copyright.PENANAvBbhgpbuv1
Why flying doesn't feel the same 75Please respect copyright.PENANA8fNQNQzXmK
And the lows don't seem to fade75Please respect copyright.PENANA2U8Vcd36Hv
They just linger and remain
I find myself trapped with no incentive to fix it, to rewrite the narrative 75Please respect copyright.PENANAvel5bqXXb2
Instead my mind picks it apart, going straight for the heart75Please respect copyright.PENANACy78glPAQx
I gotta give it to them, they play it pretty smart
I wish I could tell you everything that makes me hurt 75Please respect copyright.PENANA7GwouxBlzu
I wish I could convert it into something better, avert from the inevitable 75Please respect copyright.PENANAxm1kA4bQ8n
I'll convert this pain into something that works 75Please respect copyright.PENANAgHYRq6TBs9
Something that works to be charitable to my health, make my pain more revocable and severable 75Please respect copyright.PENANAB8QeRZsGn0
Because after several years of being rendered inseparable from this feeling 75Please respect copyright.PENANAHPo0aX6Va9
I finally feel like I'm worth freeing 75Please respect copyright.PENANArc4x9ecwoI
That this pain made me bleed, but it can't keep me75Please respect copyright.PENANAMyDkQbgB6y
I'm finally fleeing
But my superficial confidence is fleeting as my heart slows its beating 75Please respect copyright.PENANAgAUDmAMKSs
The breathing turns to drowning 75Please respect copyright.PENANAQ2bOTNsloa
The seconds I'm counting, turns to shouting 75Please respect copyright.PENANAIinX8A864P
I'm pounding on the walls, sounding my alarms75Please respect copyright.PENANAHqlYqNZO8O
But no one welcomes me with open arms75Please respect copyright.PENANASuRG4gEUCs
Their love is fictitious 75Please respect copyright.PENANAnjKeya9szd
So thus, restarts the vicious cycle75Please respect copyright.PENANAWOQG44TsT5
I try to focus on my survival, but I never see its arrival 75Please respect copyright.PENANA7wwK5DAZze
So I lay here, my body limp and my heart slowing 75Please respect copyright.PENANAXVMTmOQBX9
The deprival of blood, of color, of feeling 75Please respect copyright.PENANAL4zJ27YyRI
My life is fleeting, like the confidcence I once had 75Please respect copyright.PENANAxpnn1cO5xA
I never meet my revival
But no one understands, no one offers a hand 75Please respect copyright.PENANANv3xkeogfe
I try to stand, my lungs expand, only to to be stuck in secondhand smoke75Please respect copyright.PENANA4hUgkdni1d
My voice broke as the smoke filled my lungs and covered my eyes like some sort of cloak 75Please respect copyright.PENANACf5FpZfmWP
I tried to yell, to call out for help, but all I did was choke
Falling on my knees, right back to the ground, I look around 75Please respect copyright.PENANAapZkZBmkN9
Listening to the elaborate planning of everything demanding a change 75Please respect copyright.PENANAEjQGp9lz88
They get their way, nothing remains the same75Please respect copyright.PENANAVDfNwxO5o6
All I feel is shame as I call out every name, hoping for someone to see everything slipping away 75Please respect copyright.PENANACbNyMwkq8H
But no one comes my way, I'm disregarded and pushed away 75Please respect copyright.PENANAvn5HNjFIcn
I guess no one wanted me around anyway
I give in to the deadly game, as if I was ever given a choice 75Please respect copyright.PENANATxDr7xfDjk
But maybe my only claim to fame would be that I'm pretty damn good at playing this game 75Please respect copyright.PENANASm51XNcYZ6
Even if it feels like I'm locked in a cage75Please respect copyright.PENANAgjThWW3TRw
The game of push and pull with the demons in my mind75Please respect copyright.PENANAaLSrXyYZy6
Darkness covering my eyes, I'm blind 75Please respect copyright.PENANAVesAml0NBC
But full of myself and always on time 75Please respect copyright.PENANA8IhZKl9s76
I admit that the crime is mine 75Please respect copyright.PENANAhARd8CbO2z
Now I'll serve my time
I thought, maybe if I quit it75Please respect copyright.PENANAp02LVINKnC
The devil will lose his incentive 75Please respect copyright.PENANAzcDEmeUm5m
The weak little girl, poisoned 75Please respect copyright.PENANAM8bQxvecXx
Too bad for his game of tainting the good
But even then he just pulled down my walls 75Please respect copyright.PENANAuMs2lTaQYr
Brick by brick 75Please respect copyright.PENANA0Y5jgSbCD7
And now I'm back in this smoky pit, the light drained from it 75Please respect copyright.PENANAZ3Bq3NKtrM
Smoke filling my lungs and ripping the sight from my eyes 75Please respect copyright.PENANAvANaHVQNzP
Once again, I'm blind
Even when I believe it's over75Please respect copyright.PENANA24LaBmQn4l
That the thunder has passed me by, the storm subsiding 75Please respect copyright.PENANA4jtnl5NQ1y
It's still right there 75Please respect copyright.PENANAgcEWWLK0dA
The devil on my shoulder