White sheets stained red in a hotel bed243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbvyN5ukDJ
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuSMrivtJFK
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0B1SObjn92
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLdbzBPcujq
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWz46vhcIHG
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOah1gMRR2
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBvQkaRYWTK
Vivid visions invading my rest 243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYUXWwtOEyi
I can't sleep because all I see is death243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3jq7c1y07i
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdl4vwfNsWt
Thinking about death at such an early age243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Gs3QjAPpb
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQt5boHXnlZ
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJFKlt3RNo
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGKZOnz5XjS
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvtA5ss5m4
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQdd8xR5WF5
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7MV3mSe00
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNaEKV2KGLR
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFJRN10kXV
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLxCKpsrnwI
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1d6MonSO0
Nobody actually cares until you're dead243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiasfAthFk5
Until you're another headline in the news243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXvRSDZ2hEw
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZymUqu6aQM
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHLsspR4yTC
"I miss you today" 243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB5f22ANaVC
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9kXGv3tH9Q
But they care now, 243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ86r444PPyo
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtA6BpJrhrQ
Mixed signals is all they send243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDBpSyjFl9y
One day I matter to them 243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDG4mnGVOjf
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJeGVHTdfFh
A few months ago, I felt like flying 243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobURKA2ieF
A few months ago, I truly felt alive243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNu4ioPAK2I
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWUimBdhQn
It's hard to explain with words,243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbNWDuYezgt
How the silence kills 243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZxiDhWQIgv
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3qIEl8ZsoL
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvVc4rfbP67
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsK7Wu1DVmq
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4nxlgOJrho
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA97abXfeBD
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4V6r2dF6ls
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq9iaBJVPST
The little voice in my head, it screams it243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf63BnHymVL
"This was their choice"243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCSz0u5vxk
And to be lonely all the time is mine243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZSAYBX5d12
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc4ark10B6O
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuOB9MeyU8m
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYijXjVyPCe
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnVT4M3fOAX
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQfVy8lfX0
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6L8HcLpi39
I wish somebody would call243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYmT1kt0Tgt
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCXWBlOA73h
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvac3SryxzA
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx3dn0nHQqy
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIrF8NCFXav
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhxGq6tZKay
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 243Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOfJDdPIhx
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
