White sheets stained red in a hotel bed304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ85YZpm6Mye
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwKXEgaP1V6
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAEZPASk7Ee
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXUZI0elvzI
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfNKmIMVb8J
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6aj4OjJwLL
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfzEcwdfByv
Vivid visions invading my rest 304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0wlJerPNcX
I can't sleep because all I see is death304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡET7Mi2RS0o
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbX9IEClYlC
Thinking about death at such an early age304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Rk51pNSkI
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAPpehjK7n7
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0eKMz9wQNY
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxeCyRcyI9S
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtWG0rcsucV
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz9WwaBOPAC
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo4KlqGKQug
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Ir49NeGjX
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb19FQ6L1RC
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrPfnb8zoYO
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJvTunKCQg
Nobody actually cares until you're dead304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcgj04Ez8wO
Until you're another headline in the news304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRSWSoRLPQJ
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZNZ8crYgDA
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGsqe3p1IXP
"I miss you today" 304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfas7mUWT7
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTKAnfl7LPc
But they care now, 304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFQ5JahcD0V
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCJuiyavImO
Mixed signals is all they send304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEk7ejHcbOq
One day I matter to them 304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbcSHGGhNsD
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFWIVP2YN8V
A few months ago, I felt like flying 304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiwjWpjS3wO
A few months ago, I truly felt alive304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0zuefGhII
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡysRpc4kbsY
It's hard to explain with words,304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhw4OLTz381
How the silence kills 304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZfGWPnZ1xr
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ17qmxD4fZ4
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡswi9kuYvmt
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpTUCWwjbHz
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC52uH4lUCe
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg94sLCtlX2
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdNYhX7RvzN
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzUqASGhtfO
The little voice in my head, it screams it304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU9drhkp7yK
"This was their choice"304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmNtbrCH04t
And to be lonely all the time is mine304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnL8Aftnv7Z
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBhVmD1ihc
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiyGfJ54gNS
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdCAvC9RxYH
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0v7sIHMDp
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVKcgGCDKvj
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcuY197gjJ0
I wish somebody would call304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqIhntHG15i
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPIscIMLPJH
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd08KUQHoiw
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCsEC1iQA2Z
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP2VGMhojfj
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5gEWpCQgOK
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 304Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw4GghF4fnp
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
