White sheets stained red in a hotel bed69Please respect copyright.PENANAj2OlwaTVPh
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone69Please respect copyright.PENANAePBdsUPjLc
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing69Please respect copyright.PENANATLrXUg0SbC
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping69Please respect copyright.PENANASzgc8BNJ9F
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 69Please respect copyright.PENANAyMtT2dOj6N
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 69Please respect copyright.PENANA2Vz1W47Zz0
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head69Please respect copyright.PENANAYtgEuEVKoU
Vivid visions invading my rest 69Please respect copyright.PENANAjVGgiPbX2c
I can't sleep because all I see is death69Please respect copyright.PENANAyrN5bWwzCH
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 69Please respect copyright.PENANAefZUrvhdsm
Thinking about death at such an early age69Please respect copyright.PENANAtexDreH6Cv
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 69Please respect copyright.PENANAEWcZzt8EpP
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest69Please respect copyright.PENANAPg00qGgMJS
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 69Please respect copyright.PENANA6jUs1Glw71
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end69Please respect copyright.PENANAdQVPtng2E8
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again69Please respect copyright.PENANALkFMOBsrv3
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying69Please respect copyright.PENANABOEwjwmmZX
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries69Please respect copyright.PENANANdPqBkhF40
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"69Please respect copyright.PENANAe581CaaFfO
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 69Please respect copyright.PENANAfjSQs6GKGw
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends69Please respect copyright.PENANA40lXCaXuJp
Nobody actually cares until you're dead69Please respect copyright.PENANAKsno95wWMu
Until you're another headline in the news69Please respect copyright.PENANAyNJQghh9RC
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 69Please respect copyright.PENANAOvayLYFSE5
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 69Please respect copyright.PENANAEtk5HcwkKl
"I miss you today" 69Please respect copyright.PENANARi4xZsRtbL
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around69Please respect copyright.PENANAX9EMzcg1PS
But they care now, 69Please respect copyright.PENANAV9E9vcNqL3
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 69Please respect copyright.PENANA3V1jWbZY2z
Mixed signals is all they send69Please respect copyright.PENANAWzkAcGrciI
One day I matter to them 69Please respect copyright.PENANA9bNCiyQQMF
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine69Please respect copyright.PENANAsn8mQM8Ty4
A few months ago, I felt like flying 69Please respect copyright.PENANAu2gIlRGMNf
A few months ago, I truly felt alive69Please respect copyright.PENANAvr5kFutQOb
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 69Please respect copyright.PENANAj0HQoXw7a0
It's hard to explain with words,69Please respect copyright.PENANAACeaSzX6uy
How the silence kills 69Please respect copyright.PENANA7YyQFpMwcE
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 69Please respect copyright.PENANAByHWbzHL02
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 69Please respect copyright.PENANAnPdz81Zqtk
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 69Please respect copyright.PENANAOfnOGZJwXI
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow69Please respect copyright.PENANAwUM8btT5m4
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 69Please respect copyright.PENANAEfNbtfcIcn
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 69Please respect copyright.PENANAXqIbsRDCkx
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it69Please respect copyright.PENANALxTYlZLXPC
The little voice in my head, it screams it69Please respect copyright.PENANALRcy5O97zT
"This was their choice"69Please respect copyright.PENANAgq7ng1Nqz6
And to be lonely all the time is mine69Please respect copyright.PENANAj9SBvEiJKD
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly69Please respect copyright.PENANASLRzaye2Xx
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains69Please respect copyright.PENANAfF08BBIYdu
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned69Please respect copyright.PENANAMdT7Wrrbla
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 69Please respect copyright.PENANAOqLgFapOGo
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 69Please respect copyright.PENANAvjGxQQr3nu
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying69Please respect copyright.PENANA6FE6pCxmdI
I wish somebody would call69Please respect copyright.PENANAUcvKSClImO
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 69Please respect copyright.PENANAkzqa2zDbqh
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 69Please respect copyright.PENANAGQxBMbBnkB
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden69Please respect copyright.PENANATsmNH8U2ab
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 69Please respect copyright.PENANAMmU0kAAD7U
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 69Please respect copyright.PENANAf6jhN2LPBO
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 69Please respect copyright.PENANAXFh59DRLzF
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried