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#1 千年的眼淚。現在9Please respect copyright.PENANAKSqzYhm9oh
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平常的日子,學校的課堂。9Please respect copyright.PENANAMDlEf9P5Tw
砅玥上課總認真聽講,喜歡專注某件事上,專心便分不了心,再沒多餘的心傷心9Please respect copyright.PENANAgylyvPDrMH
。9Please respect copyright.PENANAyAT5hBPJOQ
鐘聲打響了,下課了,砅玥還是忙。9Please respect copyright.PENANAaF1q0KBBcR
整理著方才上課的筆記,謄寫著教室日記,時而一些雜務,收發作業,取送講義9Please respect copyright.PENANAZM5TLTnRgq
。9Please respect copyright.PENANAMNP5OR0svY
砅玥正趁下課時候在教室日誌上,憶寫上一堂課的教學內容,畫下了最後的句點9Please respect copyright.PENANAGxWkhBxkgu
,放下了筆,呼了口氣,伸了個懶。9Please respect copyright.PENANAzVUUu0iNvp
她小小呵欠,眼角擠出些些濕意,餘光瞥見了易陽的位置,這幾天,都是空位。9Please respect copyright.PENANAp4CrI63kgM
沒說什麼,就隨著他去。即使說了,也沒用,次次只讓她膽顫心驚。9Please respect copyright.PENANA9m46vZRFdt
但不管多少年都是如此了,砅玥仍難以習慣這種情境,總覺得自己時刻如履薄冰9Please respect copyright.PENANAZgiX5XpDxD
,踩行冰上要特別小心,要是用習慣的平常步伐,勢必跌落冰凍徹骨的水下,也成一9Please respect copyright.PENANAoB6cMoUyle
具浮冰。9Please respect copyright.PENANAa81JdByCnm
謊言一樣,以謊圓謊,小心翼翼,若是大意了,一個小小敲擊就將碎裂一整個世9Please respect copyright.PENANAd9iLLhIkAg
界。9Please respect copyright.PENANARqMCsPN6o1
砅玥望著易陽空著的位置,鬱鬱的眼神。9Please respect copyright.PENANAFAljn5Rwd5
她總喜歡陪著易陽笑鬧,他開心,自己也歡喜。但她知道,易陽再笑,也笑不散9Please respect copyright.PENANAVOAN2ssB6Z
他自己心底的悲傷,他笑得愈是燦燦,她看著愈是心傷。卻還是只能陪著,笑,再笑9Please respect copyright.PENANAWpdkcuEVaR
。9Please respect copyright.PENANAAT8WBUcwe7
笑著,有時也讓她暫時忘了一些事,她與他一同融化在那樣一個謊言裡。9Please respect copyright.PENANAiuP9PjBhop
「砅玥,茶。」喬依絲淡淡一句,面望著窗外。9Please respect copyright.PENANAYwg9YgoERI
「嗯,我去弄。等等哦。」9Please respect copyright.PENANAYCszzscee3
砅玥應了聲,起身將喬依絲桌上的茶具收拾好,帶著一起到茶水間去洗滌、泡新9Please respect copyright.PENANAGWGxPkE1sv
茶。9Please respect copyright.PENANAbJ5jpFc6U7
自從某次喬依絲看上了砅玥料理及泡茶的手藝之後,砅玥就此負責了這部份的工9Please respect copyright.PENANAEPDuMVvZfE
作。9Please respect copyright.PENANAC1TOFyvwLS
一切都妥當之後,砅玥端上盛著茶壺與杯盤的餐盤回教室,為喬依絲送上。9Please respect copyright.PENANA9iv9MEH45q
「怎麼樣?好喝嗎?」砅玥瞧著喬依絲喝茶,問了。9Please respect copyright.PENANAPSqXx7UOgW
喬依絲將持著的茶杯放下,心想沒講究過的熱水泡茶葉能多好喝?但也不糟,至9Please respect copyright.PENANA0q8OOZtZ4K
少比起易陽泡的還好上百倍,這其間的差別就在於有沒有心。9Please respect copyright.PENANA0xfCQ8q4Kq
雖然是這麼想的,她仍是輕輕點了點頭,回給砅玥一個微笑。9Please respect copyright.PENANA0J2AFdfRYz
砅玥望著眼前的喬依絲,不管在一起相處多久了,都還是覺得不可思議。9Please respect copyright.PENANAxYAq08S6oZ
「吶……易陽他,沒來學校耶。」砅玥試探著,或許,眼前的喬依絲能是根救命9Please respect copyright.PENANAcoS1LQz4zp
稻草。9Please respect copyright.PENANA5fINtxlybM
喬依絲仍一幅平常模樣,輕啜了口茶,回道:9Please respect copyright.PENANAbo24ibR2d9
「也是,竟沒我的恩准就擅離職守,回來後要好好處罰才行。」9Please respect copyright.PENANAxGXO9hh6Lv
「……好些天了,不曉得……做什麼去了?」9Please respect copyright.PENANAynMG6AtjLg
「妳跟他最親近,也不曉得嗎?」9Please respect copyright.PENANAPGGH3BziHk
「哈哈。」砅玥小羞紅臉,尷尬笑了兩聲,仍繼續說道:9Please respect copyright.PENANAPOTeJyvVym
「每年,總有這麼幾天,過沒幾天就自己跑出來了。呵呵。」9Please respect copyright.PENANA6LCQ2iDsaF
「所以呢?」9Please respect copyright.PENANAEtf5V0n20o
「啊?……沒、沒什麼。……沒事,沒事。呵。」9Please respect copyright.PENANA2IlJZm4MmE
砅玥急忙兩手揮揮笑著說沒事,趕緊轉過身坐正假裝要忙。9Please respect copyright.PENANAhT0H61ZjeV
所以呢?9Please respect copyright.PENANA5cEHoiWl0p
砅玥知道,所以意味著接下來,接下來的一步,是她隱於心且害怕的一步。9Please respect copyright.PENANAtGRzx1NHtU
喬依絲將手上的杯置盤上,轉過了頭向窗外,望著陰雲密佈的天空。9Please respect copyright.PENANAAQBQofwZNu
喬依絲是知道的,儘管不願承認,卻是第一次在這人間,意識到有些事,連自己9Please respect copyright.PENANA2SXoW3nEuY
也做不到。這讓她為自己被抑制的能力感到不甘,這不甘的根源又來自她回也回不去9Please respect copyright.PENANAF9BrIzKszQ
的天上。9Please respect copyright.PENANAK6jOnE0bTx
做不到、回不去,喬依絲也沮喪,但知道自己不能不往前。9Please respect copyright.PENANAEyOiTyxHNm
前方有她意欲達致的盡頭,以及一個心願。9Please respect copyright.PENANAhXgvvQQU0N
要往前,就得先解決自己隊員、易陽的事。9Please respect copyright.PENANAUxJ9uWcis0
只是這易陽精神場域中的一塊禁域,讓喬依絲也束手無策、不明所以。9Please respect copyright.PENANAs0ZZDIhkFs
那塊禁域,以她目前的能力,感應感知已是費盡心力,而勉力獲得的一點點情報9Please respect copyright.PENANAqrBOjGlXTe
之中卻顯示,在那裡,什麼都沒有。沒有,就是無。9Please respect copyright.PENANAjk5lsuw7q4
這讓她更是不明究理,什麼都沒有的世界,如何存在?9Please respect copyright.PENANA9Qk8sha7PW
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放學後,喬依絲先去小學帶上了弱水,再接了砅玥,回馮菈賽堤集會。9Please respect copyright.PENANAb8Qkls6Cho
「那麼,咳咳。」喬依絲神情淡然,如常進行著簡報:9Please respect copyright.PENANAcjPYYahmTI
「首先,在此對易陽擅離職守進行嚴厲的譴責。他將連接馮菈賽堤的通道鎖上了9Please respect copyright.PENANAnjyt8L6Fuu
,而身為天使也有屬於我們的原則。因此,暫時不將其強制拘提,靜待日後他本人出9Please respect copyright.PENANAQjxzOnfGta
來投案,再行處置。」9Please respect copyright.PENANA4Cg3o4kzYt
「雖然易陽不在,但工作不能夠有所延誤。不過,少一名隊員在場,為免日後我9Please respect copyright.PENANAdMjlVBjLHf
必須再次進行解說,所以先請目前在場的隊員們觀讀各位眼前影像上的資料。等易陽9Please respect copyright.PENANANbtsPpqUnz
回來,我再一起講解。以上。」9Please respect copyright.PENANAeQxLkifZWo
喬依絲說完,便走到一旁一張白色的圓木桌前坐下,靜心品茗,閉眼沉思。9Please respect copyright.PENANAIWHjI8MNbv
弱水仍一派天真且認真地依著影像做筆記。9Please respect copyright.PENANA4Iu6zcTf8W
砅玥則凝望著喬依絲發呆,想說什麼,卻又不能夠。9Please respect copyright.PENANAnqE4CDhIbv
「做什麼呢?」喬依絲見砅玥直瞅著自己,便問了。9Please respect copyright.PENANAStQJKfYFA7
砅玥欲言又止,最後還是說了:9Please respect copyright.PENANA3vb3bXV9y8
「沒事、沒事,我先看看資料,有問題再問。呵。」9Please respect copyright.PENANAbgg16vOQ4u
當砅玥看見影像上這次目標對象的資料之時,一時間說不出話來,接著仍不禁出9Please respect copyright.PENANAj4QORGUPYf
聲:9Please respect copyright.PENANA8ZEAf3FRVg
「這是……」9Please respect copyright.PENANAeoemvFc2a1
「關於接下來工作的相關資料,有什麼問題嗎?」9Please respect copyright.PENANAIg7tuCAl8n
這次的目標對象,是一對阿嬤與孫。9Please respect copyright.PENANARsl9mFKTMc
祖孫,相依為命。9Please respect copyright.PENANAcyuYzBV5vp
砅玥睜著大眼,細細閱看著,最後垂下了頭,顫顫了緊握的雙拳,弱聲說了:9Please respect copyright.PENANA5XJb4b51Vl
「過幾天,是忌日。」9Please respect copyright.PENANAH8VPSefvuo
喬依絲聽見砅玥開了口,沒說什麼,只等著再聽。9Please respect copyright.PENANAxPl3g084TA
砅玥卻不語,轉頭望了望弱水,然而弱水不明白,也瞧著玥姐姐直笑。9Please respect copyright.PENANA2dfkeGbOKl
喬依絲明白,於是先哄著弱水送她回家,再回到馮菈賽堤,坐在砅玥身邊。9Please respect copyright.PENANABgfgf3gqoL
馮菈賽堤在喬依絲坐下的瞬間,變幻了景色。9Please respect copyright.PENANAEa2K2v93p8
勤學樓樓頂一張長椅,喬依絲與砅玥並肩而坐,天上是繁星銀河的夜空。9Please respect copyright.PENANACL5KKfM7YW
砅玥凝視天上的星塵,喬依絲默默陪伴,一陣沉靜之後,砅玥才又開了口:9Please respect copyright.PENANAcKF2tgaL9R
「易陽奶奶的忌日。……每年的這幾天,易陽總是一個人關在家裡,誰也不見,9Please respect copyright.PENANAYua0G7Owpx
誰也不理,也沒人知道他在做什麼。……一開始我跟爸媽都擔心,後來看他一次次沒9Please respect copyright.PENANAdYTK6J81LY
事人樣的出現,也就由他去了。」9Please respect copyright.PENANAXIbSH7mAku
砅玥望了喬依絲一眼,喬依絲握上了她的雙手,柔聲說了,我聽著。9Please respect copyright.PENANAS5L0wxDqLS
砅玥抿了抿嘴,繼續說道:9Please respect copyright.PENANAafunZeDpnB
「易陽他……曾經親手殺死了自己的奶奶。」9Please respect copyright.PENANAvbUUxYnOH6
喬依絲輕輕握緊了掌心間的一雙手,砅玥鎖著眉,低下了頭,再說:9Please respect copyright.PENANAgRNb9E1wqM
「我記得也不詳細,畢竟,小時候的事了。……那是在我和易陽小學三年級的時9Please respect copyright.PENANAlFBzUDuv1X
候,有一天晚上,易陽家著了火,是在一樓的和室房間,奶奶的房間。我爸報了火警9Please respect copyright.PENANAJ1iAjSkzRl
,我們一家人就趕過去察看。消防車很快就來了,火勢也一下子就撲滅了。消防員從9Please respect copyright.PENANAuZOyqx5jO5
火場救出了易陽,查無傷勢,我爸媽便將易陽帶在了身邊。只是沒多久,警察也來了9Please respect copyright.PENANAqa9g18734C
,與消防員談了一會兒話,再找易陽去問了幾句。最後,易陽被帶走了,我……我就9Please respect copyright.PENANADv2LPz4IYu
再也沒見過他了。幾年後,我爸整修了易陽的房子,然後接了他回來。……只是,我9Please respect copyright.PENANAWgRtt1n64j
、那……回來的,不是易陽!」9Please respect copyright.PENANAAn04MSLdDB
砅玥緊緊鎖著眉頭,腦袋左右用力地搖晃了幾下,緊著櫻唇,不讓淚出來。9Please respect copyright.PENANA088ZSh6EGP
喬依絲見狀,伸出了右手想將手搭在砅玥肩上暖暖她,砅玥卻似是下意識地一下9Please respect copyright.PENANAHQiYctESqQ
將手擋開,搖著頭直說不要、不行!9Please respect copyright.PENANAhLwupGDpeb
砅玥鎖上的眉間,更深更難解。9Please respect copyright.PENANAvPc8oqHhXZ
喬依絲閉上了雙眼,似是沉思了久久,柔聲對砅玥說了:9Please respect copyright.PENANACgwkJJqmDK
「砅玥,聽我說,我明白妳是怎麼想的,但是呢,有些事不能擱著,擱久了,就9Please respect copyright.PENANASYCHqMORUt
怕再也來不及了。能不能呢?……讓我試試,讓我進入妳的內心,易陽心裡有一些我9Please respect copyright.PENANALxYTbNMLFe
不明白的地方,我想,或許妳身上能有些線索。這跟平常不一樣,我必須花更多的時9Please respect copyright.PENANAvqclLlheM4
間來進行。但是妳放心,不會傷到妳……」9Please respect copyright.PENANAJgtUqWdznf
「有些事,我不想別人知道。」砅玥鬱鬱地說。9Please respect copyright.PENANAmLAGGvIJvz
喬依絲明白,於是溫柔的面容,隨之對砅玥柔聲細道:9Please respect copyright.PENANAdxxeeKEBtT
「類似的時刻,我們天使是這麼問的,有什麼事,是不能讓人知道的?砅玥,不9Please respect copyright.PENANAcAS7ZiYzMh
要害怕,相信自己的勇敢,也相信他人的寬容。相信是美好的,用相信抵御一切的惡9Please respect copyright.PENANAn3f1OynPDn
意。不要害怕,黑暗的惡意剛開始只是一個小點在心裡,因為害怕,隱藏著不讓它出9Please respect copyright.PENANAoRwptLb06F
來,積多,雪球一樣愈滾愈大,人也愈來愈害怕。一旦害怕,惡魔就有機可趁,人心9Please respect copyright.PENANAnMB8EqZZgG
便在惡意之中循環。知道嗎?在天界,天使們的世界,基本上,我們不藏事的。因為9Please respect copyright.PENANAFm9soz3I7v
不藏,所以我們不害怕,因為不藏,所以我們也不花心思計算城府。The9Please respect copyright.PENANAbS4koBRbaW
SOurCEAN,源海,神的恩賜,神的寶庫,所有意識體的一切,都往那裡去,所有意識9Please respect copyright.PENANAG9rCYSLR4m
體要的一切,也都在那裡取得,神是全知的,因為祂是一切,神是寬大的,因為祂不9Please respect copyright.PENANANRjfOTWoLj
藏私,神是包容的,因為祂只原諒,但是,只有願意相信的人,才能真正的看見。所9Please respect copyright.PENANAwYyQvMy2b9
以呢,請相信,相信是美好的,只要相信,總有一天大家都會相信。相信我,也相信9Please respect copyright.PENANA25Y5w5hG0X
妳自己。」9Please respect copyright.PENANAO05jnRMo2F
喬依絲輕輕規律拍拍掌心下砅玥的手背,繼之再說:9Please respect copyright.PENANATNHxvzZCsE
「我呢,能用天使的力量讓妳在短時間就平靜、信任、安心、甚至敞開內心。但9Please respect copyright.PENANAjEFk1Gzfp9
是呢,我沒有這麼做,也不想那麼做,卻反而說了這麼多。自己……也不知道為什麼9Please respect copyright.PENANANKYD3junFM
。……我想,我對妳說這些話的時候,不是以一個天使的身份,而是……朋友。不是9Please respect copyright.PENANAo4g085Hq3v
因為我是天使,所以妳相信我,而是因為是朋友,我想妳相信我。」9Please respect copyright.PENANAIawvM0WOrO
不因是天使,妳才想相信我。9Please respect copyright.PENANALNUbEi3Rst
因為是朋友,我想妳相信我。9Please respect copyright.PENANAsKx2pYhn3e
砅玥聽了,竟似是再也止不住自己隱忍千年的眼淚,緊緊地,抱著喬依絲痛哭失9Please respect copyright.PENANAtRNuFVxom6
聲,久久,彷彿流盡了一輩子時間的長河,一邊哭泣,一邊訴說:9Please respect copyright.PENANA6Q0qcWIe3u
「我……害怕,真的好害怕,一直,一直都這樣……害怕的東西也不知道是什麼9Please respect copyright.PENANAIxkdrDLYuW
,只是愈來愈多,愈多愈說不清楚。心裡的易陽,跟眼前的易陽連不起來。有時候我9Please respect copyright.PENANAXhINTP2qnN
甚至感覺不到他,明明就在那裡的啊,就在我的面前,我的身邊,但我卻無論如何也9Please respect copyright.PENANAdMH18ZKdFZ
感覺不到。我害怕,想緊緊擁抱他,想就抱著,看看他究竟是存在還是不存在……可9Please respect copyright.PENANAQ61XERO4CH
是我不敢,一直一直都拼命的壓抑,害怕,害怕如果真的那麼做了,有什麼就真的會9Please respect copyright.PENANAAI22zcM7cq
就這樣碎掉,像地上沙塵造的畫,風一吹,就永遠再也拼不起來了。易陽他……我…9Please respect copyright.PENANAzfWmLRUztt
…我喜歡他,也想要他也說喜歡我,但我呢,卻又好恨他。但是易陽呢,什麼都不知9Please respect copyright.PENANATnBW4SHCo1
道一樣,從那時候開始,一切都不一樣了。他後來回來了,也不一樣了,很多事他也9Please respect copyright.PENANA3Ypq6aFMtq
不再記得。心裡的易陽,眼前的易陽,過去的易陽,現在的易陽,通通連不起來。…9Please respect copyright.PENANAZ3XFV5tlAt
…心裡頭,心裡頭就好像有什麼東西一直壞掉,壞掉了又爛掉,爛掉了又丟不掉,一9Please respect copyright.PENANAhbdOBCQPlE
直就這樣在心裡愈積愈多愈積愈多。我害怕,卻沒有任何人來救我,為什麼呢?為什9Please respect copyright.PENANAyIVWGeLmhr
麼沒有人來救我?以前,易陽都會保護我的啊,為什麼現在卻?……我好害怕,因為9Please respect copyright.PENANAC6qLni2nkX
我只有一個人,我只能一直忍耐,一直忍耐、忍耐,連哭都不敢,害怕一哭,就崩潰9Please respect copyright.PENANAzVnLjYsSTR
,害怕一哭,就輸了,害怕一哭,世界……世界,就真的不再是我知道的世界了。易9Please respect copyright.PENANAWyscEvQpLv
陽什麼都不知道,我好恨他,都是他害的,卻又不來救我!」9Please respect copyright.PENANAArDjHPG3U0
人,不是神來著,人不說,別人不會知道。9Please respect copyright.PENANAlNFsFPnJWX
喬依絲取了絲巾輕輕拭去砅玥的淚滴,再將絲巾放在砅玥的手心,說道:9Please respect copyright.PENANARuYRQ3YAU2
「別害怕,妳也得堅強才行,說不定,易陽,也等著誰去救他,就跟妳一樣。」9Please respect copyright.PENANA7BaqBtTBdf
砅玥緩緩地抬起頭,望向正慈愛地對她微笑的喬依絲,二人默默相視了好一陣子9Please respect copyright.PENANA86iGfjot9d
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最後,砅玥持著絲巾,兩手拭去了臉上的淚痕,望著喬依絲點了點頭。9Please respect copyright.PENANA1Q37e9fVmb
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