I’m tired.722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeNKdgF243p
If I’m honest, the days keep dragging by722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj2Vxbz9Jf4
and my feet are sliding across the floor instead722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHYTO3um4w9
of lifting with each step because I can’t find the energy722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsCfkv5gGdX
to pick them up and set them back down.722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwXkijHV0KV
Some people turn and ask me to stop scuffing722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGgaa6YLNN4
my feet on the floor, please lift them up and walk722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7zyffpA2OW
like a normal person, thank you.722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUbaT4XN0Gq
I try.722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5gp6jeXfgf
I try everyday to lift myself up and keep walking722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCFNoVOjlTg
but like my feet, I am scuffing across the ground722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVkBy2Vic2
just barely making it from one place to another722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZUZX2ylBDG
without damage.
I’m tired.722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLsWUk7Nrml
Just this Wednesday I was driving home722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLArGVPENXe
on the highway, 480 West from Brookpark Road722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjczOVVRkmw
where the RTA takes me to Cleveland for classes, and722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdLadYSJW4x
during the drive, I couldn’t focus on the road before me722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWDemFeAg78
because the news that Trump had won left me shaken722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ49ZgRiOqCm
for those I’m not sure how to help722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZzLpm1ULy3
when I’ve been given a privilege I didn’t ask for.722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhATQ4X9nQL
And while I was driving down the highway722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB9Whd40MN2
I contemplated the notion of jerking the wheel722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1TuVHKwNE
to the left and letting my car hit the divide between the722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYfu5NZMO2k
highway East and the highway West; allow myself to722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVT7BzjTDGE
collide with the wall, break through and destroy722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiA10UkC4u6
the other side.722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZwZol8shok
Then, I contemplated jerking the wheel to the right722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfl4VEe77T1
into the ditch along the grass so I wouldn’t722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBEvOdUUDN
harm anyone else in the process. But I722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk5AxArjdB7
didn’t do either, even though I722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCDmQQi98RJ
got so scared for a minute722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgr1wnzz4dc
that I would.
I’m tired.722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp6nj5FUCL6
Last year on August 22nd, my birthday, I had a similar722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhwyg1GggJC
reaction to suicidal thoughts. I had a rough722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP0eB9wrqtd
birthday; I worked, I was lonely, I felt722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkaFgitnULT
pathetic, worthless, uncared for and forgotten722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFb16Zdm6MC
so I took the sharpest and largest kitchen knife722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVs1dOGqRW5
and I pressed the tip of it to my chest, above my heart722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR1ZKWzmtG5
and sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore.722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYaBoZMoRFi
I did not press the sharp edge deep enough to722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVYsinGPXbE
draw blood, but it was the first time722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSlRiejiufj
I had allowed myself to722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTzYrXLFcbV
get so close to the temptation.
I’m tired.722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE3W3nzKdNX
I say that I want to die a lot, even though I never722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGTP1N69Xue
actually reach out and go through with it722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR4Qy2R2nqr
I think because I’m afraid of not existing722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnHeblX0ED6
just as I’m afraid of existing. And lately I722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEjcdLapvFZ
have people who reach out to me when I’m not sure722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3bGidRNc48
how to reach out to them, and it’s sweet to have people722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP66KiKRb07
support me, but I go right back to wanting to isolate myself722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsS5J6Tgr7u
and give up. I have thought about dying every day722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1yuMxhIsgo
for the last few weeks and I wish I could just722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz0piwlZ4en
go through with it.
I’m tired.722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSZWZdhwzlN
I’m so tired of being forgotten, of arguing722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8lAvFF7kQS
for people to care about me when they should722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmi5XFxLKPv
care about me on their own. I often think that722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfDEjP1xq4x
I should just stop putting in such an effort for those that722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIX8QiFmuDm
do not consider me, but I can’t seem to stop caring.722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcO6vHTdkfW
She often hurts me more than she improves my life722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ2Qcggirt6
but I’m too afraid to say anything because722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdRvxg7fGk
I need her. I need her to exist722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01aRQANwjq
in my existence, and I need her to722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMadix51Bx
be by my side.722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLMQq9gTThl
But I’m tired.
I’m tired722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWRJldDmYUj
of being tired722Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZmuprjgvra
in this tiring life.
