I’m tired.535Please respect copyright.PENANA3mTbn89tiT
If I’m honest, the days keep dragging by535Please respect copyright.PENANA2OeuZHYgCH
and my feet are sliding across the floor instead535Please respect copyright.PENANAOZsNPN22h6
of lifting with each step because I can’t find the energy535Please respect copyright.PENANAmnQ1BORKyt
to pick them up and set them back down.535Please respect copyright.PENANAObJoLimnc5
Some people turn and ask me to stop scuffing535Please respect copyright.PENANAdl37tPiGcr
my feet on the floor, please lift them up and walk535Please respect copyright.PENANA6bJpiBvt23
like a normal person, thank you.535Please respect copyright.PENANA4ly2qAzgb9
I try.535Please respect copyright.PENANA3rQAeDYBhD
I try everyday to lift myself up and keep walking535Please respect copyright.PENANAOPGgwLWEDs
but like my feet, I am scuffing across the ground535Please respect copyright.PENANABjTlvsE9IM
just barely making it from one place to another535Please respect copyright.PENANA3bjXbJkEUh
without damage.
I’m tired.535Please respect copyright.PENANAqVaIwxtgIH
Just this Wednesday I was driving home535Please respect copyright.PENANAvW69b4bXlo
on the highway, 480 West from Brookpark Road535Please respect copyright.PENANANiGegadD9D
where the RTA takes me to Cleveland for classes, and535Please respect copyright.PENANAC17cfGJzRn
during the drive, I couldn’t focus on the road before me535Please respect copyright.PENANAxfay4ONC7C
because the news that Trump had won left me shaken535Please respect copyright.PENANAY9ES6LyfGh
for those I’m not sure how to help535Please respect copyright.PENANAvC9gIVI3wl
when I’ve been given a privilege I didn’t ask for.535Please respect copyright.PENANA1nOu0d17hp
And while I was driving down the highway535Please respect copyright.PENANAgGYjeCdiHT
I contemplated the notion of jerking the wheel535Please respect copyright.PENANATaVHz8NkoF
to the left and letting my car hit the divide between the535Please respect copyright.PENANAn15Evrw7Uv
highway East and the highway West; allow myself to535Please respect copyright.PENANAzOD9aHh9Xh
collide with the wall, break through and destroy535Please respect copyright.PENANAoAzMU4P2ro
the other side.535Please respect copyright.PENANAflaszHSMwC
Then, I contemplated jerking the wheel to the right535Please respect copyright.PENANAasEytOATst
into the ditch along the grass so I wouldn’t535Please respect copyright.PENANAWy9coVtRkE
harm anyone else in the process. But I535Please respect copyright.PENANAB47f9dT01z
didn’t do either, even though I535Please respect copyright.PENANAKYxS4nQTkj
got so scared for a minute535Please respect copyright.PENANAigAXWbAQI5
that I would.
I’m tired.535Please respect copyright.PENANAo2LFlowAdd
Last year on August 22nd, my birthday, I had a similar535Please respect copyright.PENANA8pX3rvANAn
reaction to suicidal thoughts. I had a rough535Please respect copyright.PENANAoeSaQdSt9C
birthday; I worked, I was lonely, I felt535Please respect copyright.PENANAmvJvcztvp1
pathetic, worthless, uncared for and forgotten535Please respect copyright.PENANAuLmzMR3btT
so I took the sharpest and largest kitchen knife535Please respect copyright.PENANAiKG3YP0xFY
and I pressed the tip of it to my chest, above my heart535Please respect copyright.PENANAq7V0AsA3Ly
and sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore.535Please respect copyright.PENANAbXMJEQF4E4
I did not press the sharp edge deep enough to535Please respect copyright.PENANAeNUOaHInpE
draw blood, but it was the first time535Please respect copyright.PENANAiSE4JlXOfV
I had allowed myself to535Please respect copyright.PENANAoAKaWJ5LsJ
get so close to the temptation.
I’m tired.535Please respect copyright.PENANA8TzObC6ywa
I say that I want to die a lot, even though I never535Please respect copyright.PENANAwMZ4uyOqly
actually reach out and go through with it535Please respect copyright.PENANA9AwLLOi71t
I think because I’m afraid of not existing535Please respect copyright.PENANAOdW2tL3qXU
just as I’m afraid of existing. And lately I535Please respect copyright.PENANAGCrrRhgv47
have people who reach out to me when I’m not sure535Please respect copyright.PENANAYr20YuhYq9
how to reach out to them, and it’s sweet to have people535Please respect copyright.PENANADhGQT5YyvO
support me, but I go right back to wanting to isolate myself535Please respect copyright.PENANArYHzUAIjBz
and give up. I have thought about dying every day535Please respect copyright.PENANAUlHGYeIsF5
for the last few weeks and I wish I could just535Please respect copyright.PENANAUhXATkQLng
go through with it.
I’m tired.535Please respect copyright.PENANA5odZobhKRx
I’m so tired of being forgotten, of arguing535Please respect copyright.PENANAWEv6b7Lo2H
for people to care about me when they should535Please respect copyright.PENANAFOwbTKPw3J
care about me on their own. I often think that535Please respect copyright.PENANAq9lZQrRxlq
I should just stop putting in such an effort for those that535Please respect copyright.PENANApmVWu3vxRk
do not consider me, but I can’t seem to stop caring.535Please respect copyright.PENANAwXpl9FDqAN
She often hurts me more than she improves my life535Please respect copyright.PENANAKM2Mf5M712
but I’m too afraid to say anything because535Please respect copyright.PENANAz8aimwoTEB
I need her. I need her to exist535Please respect copyright.PENANAJAuuJdp1no
in my existence, and I need her to535Please respect copyright.PENANAvkNuvzzx2B
be by my side.535Please respect copyright.PENANAXgXElBHPsS
But I’m tired.
I’m tired535Please respect copyright.PENANAd6Tnt4zgpH
of being tired535Please respect copyright.PENANAht58iLkFkY
in this tiring life.