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這不可能是真的。40Please respect copyright.PENANAUEST6P6mBe
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要快點醒來,站起來,趁現在快點離開。40Please respect copyright.PENANAuY4iF1M0qg
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言曇岫的理性在腦海中急切地說著,四肢卻不聽使喚,這誘人的溫暖,要他如何不貪婪?40Please respect copyright.PENANAcISNemrO86
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跪在地上抱緊他的黎絳洵輕聲說:「沒事了,別怕。」獨屬黎絳洵的吐息主宰了言曇岫的全部。40Please respect copyright.PENANAzxWwCnXj2q
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這不對。40Please respect copyright.PENANAw83O7CMlNy
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這不會發生。40Please respect copyright.PENANAk7IUStaS5z
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黎絳洵不可能──40Please respect copyright.PENANADxMtrPOtoW
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言曇岫的思緒被黎絳洵的吻完全阻斷。40Please respect copyright.PENANA7d514SwDuC
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彷彿要將他揉進骨血的渴求壓迫著他的嘴唇與胸腔。40Please respect copyright.PENANANmgtmSWhDe
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過於美好的幸福,過於美好的夢。40Please respect copyright.PENANAbky4nGDZZu
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不可能發生在他身上。40Please respect copyright.PENANA6V33hnWKXW
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「綉綉,沒事了,我會找到你的。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAbuwJ6bFe0T
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心跳,好像停了。40Please respect copyright.PENANAfTkUClJsFC
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那天晚上,言曇岫沒能走成,肇事逃逸的貓早就不在屋裡,言曇岫能聽見的,剩下彼此的呼吸聲,許久後,言曇岫艱難地拿出腰間的香囊,按在黎絳洵鼻尖,直到他睡去。40Please respect copyright.PENANAkIqVRVsC2D
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言曇岫抱起黎絳洵,將他放在床上,蓋好被子後,輕手輕腳地離開,並在自己房中,枯坐到天明。40Please respect copyright.PENANAJjesgGHx6c
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只有生母會喊他岫岫。40Please respect copyright.PENANA6V1qeKoWJL
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他從來沒有跟黎絳洵說過這件事。40Please respect copyright.PENANAkDgNoIwvpO
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那是和自己名字相同的他人。40Please respect copyright.PENANAXFb1MHOzHS
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黎絳洵真正在意的人。40Please respect copyright.PENANA9q4iWn0s9y
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也恐怕是,黎絳洵當初幫他脫離言府的真正原因。40Please respect copyright.PENANAgWUe77miWO
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即便是這樣,心底還是鬆了一口氣,他還能……再多看黎絳洵一下子的,對嗎?40Please respect copyright.PENANAAwGaGvgSqb
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他只是無法下定決心,去問出真相而已。40Please respect copyright.PENANABuquHt4QY5
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「曇岫?」40Please respect copyright.PENANApdKUy7692l
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黎絳洵偏著頭看他,雙手撐在他面前的桌子上。40Please respect copyright.PENANAE6HaQ1E2hT
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──你到底、在找誰呢?40Please respect copyright.PENANAdu02mWsKDR
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「你怎麼啦?」40Please respect copyright.PENANANvfZ4Kekx8
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──你到底、在看著誰呢?40Please respect copyright.PENANAfm9bSeKsNu
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言曇岫垂眸,視線落在自己與黎絳洵指尖之間的空白。40Please respect copyright.PENANArgAlbINvQc
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「你要是睏了,就先去睡吧?」40Please respect copyright.PENANAUB8Ys7sijX
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──你什麼都不知道啊。40Please respect copyright.PENANAESxZ4o3JiF
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突然滑過眼尾的是黎絳洵的拇指,言曇岫一頓,整理好情緒後,才抬眼。40Please respect copyright.PENANAKUwWZDssM6
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「我看你眼眶有點紅。」黎絳洵望著拇指指尖。40Please respect copyright.PENANAmSaefpTYq5
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「我沒有……睡得好。」40Please respect copyright.PENANACdJpjYWiKO
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他想著這段時間的夜晚,雖然不願多談,因應熬夜而生的眼下淡淡一層黑色,卻無法說謊。40Please respect copyright.PENANAUCeoKjFJrU
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「是身體不舒服?還是有心事?」40Please respect copyright.PENANAHSHbKTaqon
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言曇岫按在手臂上的手指微曲,袖子蓋住的肌膚,留有黎絳洵喝醉之後,用力抓握而留下的瘀青。40Please respect copyright.PENANAboMwUeBw2z
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「你喝太多酒了。」40Please respect copyright.PENANA0ae3I7dzF1
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「嗯,最近忙著退婚的事情,言府開了很多條件。」黎絳洵聳肩。40Please respect copyright.PENANAJ0L9QCWtjM
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黎絳洵變得常常喝酒,因為酒精而升高的體溫,夜裡總是,從容納言曇岫的懷抱裡傳過來。40Please respect copyright.PENANAkOcDfHWdQb
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「你有聽見嗎?」40Please respect copyright.PENANAQNaKOt3ZRb
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言曇岫盯著黎絳洵的眼睛,沒有眨眼。40Please respect copyright.PENANAzyj4Mng6cv
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黎絳洵微微低頭說:「不是你希望我退婚的嗎?怎麼還不開心?」40Please respect copyright.PENANAymDzD264YA
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言曇岫閉眼,花了幾秒鐘,才按著桌面起身,「抱歉,我先去休息。」40Please respect copyright.PENANA3ZWEv3MpQY
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明明應該要感到開心,因為黎絳洵記得他說過的話;明明應該要開心,因為黎絳洵沒有要和言曇橋成婚……不應該思考,即便不是言曇橋,也會是別人;不應該思考,黎絳洵更可能是因為他心上人而退婚。40Please respect copyright.PENANAduhlXn6g4i
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夏季的午後雷陣雨,來得快、去得也快,不會留下看不到盡頭的黏膩。40Please respect copyright.PENANATBTWOq4iXw
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言曇岫眼裡映著剛才還滿是漣漪的湖水。40Please respect copyright.PENANAPPYjAK4yTX
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婚約原本就會退,畢竟言曇橋與外男珠胎暗結,言府才會巴著黎絳洵不放,不過是想給女兒一個可靠的歸處,給女兒腹中的胎兒找個假的父親,只是消息無論防得再嚴,黎絳洵總有辦法知道。40Please respect copyright.PENANAvJBHpMGDZd
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他睡不好。40Please respect copyright.PENANAfcxp1mw4ul
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黎絳洵喝醉以後,總要抱著他親很久,才肯去睡。40Please respect copyright.PENANAcJqBSbyMky
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白天看見黎絳洵還是老樣子,對誰都很溫柔的樣子。40Please respect copyright.PENANA7Y4l49sMyr
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他睡不好。40Please respect copyright.PENANAErAqV43ta3
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夜裡被黎絳洵抱得太緊,只要一鬆開,言曇岫便會感到徹骨的冷。40Please respect copyright.PENANAo8R9BUOh1z
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他假扮成黎絳洵喜歡的樣子,黎絳洵喜歡的仍舊不是他。40Please respect copyright.PENANA5EZUTRprfp
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他睡不好。40Please respect copyright.PENANAbYeEu5NBjI
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他要得太多。40Please respect copyright.PENANAl0t7QIe3A1
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言曇岫側躺在床上,眼皮擋住的是酸乏,卻緩解不了疲憊。40Please respect copyright.PENANAMSGDRuXPJb
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半夢半醒間,他好像看到黎絳洵坐在床邊,手心按在他額頭上。40Please respect copyright.PENANAqGx4iAZWoP
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只要再次闔上眼,就能在夢境中永遠不醒。40Please respect copyright.PENANAcecYwtPMiv
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言曇岫以為自己會因為被黎絳洵強烈渴求,而希冀他在夜裡飲酒;實際上他希望,太陽不要落下,黎絳洵眼中看見的,就可能還是自己。40Please respect copyright.PENANAJ3F33Kg20E
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哪怕那是在黎絳洵醒著時,不可能有的親暱,也不真的屬於自己。40Please respect copyright.PENANARLC1McweoB
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不知為何想起了,黎家的貓終於願意靠近自己時,黎絳洵突如其來的沉默。40Please respect copyright.PENANAWLwZ62twzy
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那時候,黎絳洵在想什麼呢?40Please respect copyright.PENANACdix0Ad117
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言曇岫想睜眼看清楚黎絳洵的臉,只是莫名使不上力。40Please respect copyright.PENANAa1c2cGaYM9
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黎絳洵的手輕撫著他的臉龐,言曇岫聽見自己的心跳聲壓過了呼吸聲。40Please respect copyright.PENANAGpKAVsSIwo
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確認人已經離開很久以後,言曇岫才鬆了一口氣,能正常呼吸時,淚水也滑落到枕頭上。40Please respect copyright.PENANA6EgymH20Mw
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好像很久沒哭了,他想不起來。40Please respect copyright.PENANAu34wN6c453
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和黎絳洵無關的過去,蒙了塵沙,模糊得看不清原本的顏色。40Please respect copyright.PENANAZ7eWzyGYrw
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後來連著幾天,黎絳洵都沒出門,言曇岫試著和以前一樣和對方搭話,黎絳洵看上去心不在焉的,貓咪在他腳邊叫了很久,他才抱起掙扎的貓,走出門前,他忽然回頭問言曇岫:「你是不是不記得這隻貓的名字?」40Please respect copyright.PENANA3HErKqi5Cd
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「我……我分不出來哪隻貓是府裡的,哪隻是不認識的野貓。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAUhSQjMQ1D0
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黎絳洵不置可否,背影消失在門後。40Please respect copyright.PENANAA38hI1QxOX
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用過晚飯後,黎絳洵放下碗問:「今年的子夜祈願,你要去嗎?」40Please respect copyright.PENANA9boqKqB9Xe
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「原來明天是秋分了,我沒注意到。」言曇岫不曉得黎絳洵為什麼問他,畢竟往年,黎絳洵都會在秋分外出,前一晚總是早早睡下,言曇岫去的幾次子夜祈願,都是黎絳洵的父母帶他去的。40Please respect copyright.PENANAmv2O33nYho
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因為他們這邊的習俗,秋分是休息日,前一晚會有祭典,到子時鐘響,大家會一起祈願,通常都是許願秋收豐盛、來年風調雨順,自然也有尚未婚配的少年、少女祈求姻緣。40Please respect copyright.PENANAtdEwfCvXDG
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黎絳洵雙肘放在桌上,稍微往前傾問:「要一起去嗎?」40Please respect copyright.PENANAY7tnK03PcX
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「你明天不是要出門嗎?」40Please respect copyright.PENANAleAytp0CLi
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「不用啊。」40Please respect copyright.PENANA8pDTTwa7Xp
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言曇岫望著黎絳洵,他們從來沒有一起去過。40Please respect copyright.PENANA6u8zJoAES7
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「我想去,和你一起。」雖然不曉得黎絳洵為什麼今年忽然不出門了,言曇岫拒絕不了黎絳洵。40Please respect copyright.PENANAjDoH6a1PYt
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秋分前日的祭典,是在輪流在附近幾間比較大的寺廟前舉辦的,今年輪到的這間,陪祀的月老很靈,名氣甚至壓過了主神。40Please respect copyright.PENANAJzcYoPFvBU
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由於今年的秋分早於中秋,明年很可能是豐年,大概今天子夜祈願的時候,來許願的人比較少會祈求穀物豐收,改求姻緣吧。40Please respect copyright.PENANAWesWSyFqC8
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好不容易才撥開人潮、追上黎絳洵,言曇岫氣喘吁吁地扶著膝蓋,看向黑夜裡更加醒目的黎絳洵。40Please respect copyright.PENANArCBdQXHzQL
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「幹嘛這麼急?我又不是不會等你。」黎絳洵笑了笑。40Please respect copyright.PENANAnLsJyEF7EK
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「我總不能和以前一樣,拉著你的袖子。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAGc4TT0upKs
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黎絳洵不解:「為什麼不行?」40Please respect copyright.PENANA0fflYAAixV
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「因為我不是小孩子……了吧?」40Please respect copyright.PENANA0TAItEepza
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「你為什麼聽上去那麼不確定啊?」40Please respect copyright.PENANAaD0ArWEaUX
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「因為,我覺得在你眼裡,我永遠是孩子。」40Please respect copyright.PENANALMrxE9d4z6
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言曇岫等了一下子,黎絳洵都沒說話,他才將視線放回黎絳洵的臉。40Please respect copyright.PENANA98f26bLx13
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「那不是小孩了的言公子,覺得要用什麼方法,防止走失?」40Please respect copyright.PENANAV2NiMgmNeB
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言曇岫下意識看向其他人,果然很多都是一對一對的男女,比較矜持的,是用帶子兩端綁在兩人手腕上,比較大膽一點的,是直接牽手。40Please respect copyright.PENANA8XGFVXAKgN
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意思是說,他能在這兩者之間選一個嗎?選哪個都可以實現嗎?40Please respect copyright.PENANAD2Elk9U2o7
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黎絳洵的目光隨著言曇岫伸出的手,最後落在自己手腕上。40Please respect copyright.PENANAMgTfY4ROzH
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言曇岫看不清楚黎絳洵的眼神,手心也漸漸不再乾燥。40Please respect copyright.PENANAeuM562mkNT
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當所有人被最後一次煙火吸引注意力時,黎絳洵反手牽住言曇岫的手。40Please respect copyright.PENANAEcU6vD33JP
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「言公子還說自己不是小孩?」40Please respect copyright.PENANArXp75fRabS
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言曇岫看著對方的嘴唇,他有聽見,只是沒有聽懂,黎絳洵笑了笑,拉著他走向準備祈願的人群之中。40Please respect copyright.PENANAwP9DTLqaoO
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很多人的話,不同的聲線,不同的語速,聽上去都是祈求得遇良人。40Please respect copyright.PENANAA3uNlRiVQs
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黎絳洵的背部很近,比虛無縹緲的神靈,要近得太多,言曇岫希望黎絳洵能聽見,又希望他沒在聽。40Please respect copyright.PENANASSuUbe4oVy
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──請給我、再多一點時間。40Please respect copyright.PENANA6y68UcI1IC
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言曇岫不確定自己有沒有說出聲,他彷彿被煙火爆炸的聲音炸礱了一樣,很長一段時間,都什麼也聽不見。40Please respect copyright.PENANANmCfBXQmxZ
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黎絳洵見他失神,把剛買的紅豆餅貼到言曇岫唇上。40Please respect copyright.PENANAQOpIarY1pZ
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言曇岫有短暫的時間,想著要是能將眼前的人,拉入懷裡就好了。40Please respect copyright.PENANAwNZRQSazyB
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甚至想,要是現在,能接吻的話,黎絳洵是不是可能──40Please respect copyright.PENANAfja4QIGEXR
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言曇岫用力閉了閉眼,正要下定決心拋棄剛才的所有妄念,咬下那個香甜的紅豆餅就揭過去這件事,人卻被推向樹幹,他睜眼後,只看到黎絳洵的臉靠得很近,黎絳洵一手按著他的手腕,另一手阻隔在樹幹與他的腰之間。40Please respect copyright.PENANAl7No7Jughz
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光在黎絳洵背後,言曇岫看不清楚他的表情,直到人聲漸漸杳去,黎絳洵才轉頭看向旁邊,攤販的燈籠照著他的側臉。40Please respect copyright.PENANAAkChcSaPap
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言曇岫想知道他的真實情緒,卻只看見飛蛾在燈籠外胡亂繞行。40Please respect copyright.PENANAF4YyfYnVy3
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黎絳洵終於轉移視線的時候,言曇岫下意識低頭避開,望見的是從燈籠底部落下的著火飛蛾,掉在地上已被踩扁的紅豆餅旁邊,火花很快就熄滅了,比螢火蟲的光還要不醒目。40Please respect copyright.PENANAKdyKpp6pHB
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「抱歉,剛才言小姐在附近。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAuMDGLrRK4H
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黎絳洵的聲音太近了,言曇岫只要再前進一些,就能撞上他的體溫,只是將妄想化為現實的衝動,隨著火光熄滅,也跟著泯滅了。40Please respect copyright.PENANAiBGPacu68G
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言曇岫聽見自己說:「那個紅豆餅,我還沒吃到。」40Please respect copyright.PENANAy0nACQcLyb
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