I feel like loneliness will never let me go.360Please respect copyright.PENANAOI8N1ImNvE
I should adapt to it, but still—it bothers me deeply.
I ask myself: What does a girl really want?360Please respect copyright.PENANAm2L9WYiwCA
Maybe I just need a person who will love me completely—not a princess on a white horse...
I want people who will prefer me over others,360Please respect copyright.PENANAq4dTo9kSRP
people I can turn to—any time—360Please respect copyright.PENANASajAz1oV8T
whether I’m happy or sad.
I want someone who won’t sell me for their own benefits,360Please respect copyright.PENANAcJ0Luu0UKe
someone who likes me the way I like him.
You know, everyone around me has someone they trust,360Please respect copyright.PENANAEUhQhOlbL9
someone who chooses them,360Please respect copyright.PENANAudOUOsmjFK
but not me—as always.
When I was a child, during every fight with my parents, I was alone.360Please respect copyright.PENANAVPr6OS0cjM
I don’t have siblings,360Please respect copyright.PENANAROvtQO95oU
so I was always the one asking for forgiveness.360Please respect copyright.PENANA2SgGW3yixa
I didn’t want to be alone.
In elementary school, they were my besties,360Please respect copyright.PENANAWhnQnbWONx
but I wasn’t their bestie.
It’s been like this ever since.360Please respect copyright.PENANAs7SizsOU6L
Now, I’m not afraid of being alone,360Please respect copyright.PENANAZYO8Dw8d7H
but loneliness still lingers.
I was in a relationship for 2 years and 7 months,360Please respect copyright.PENANAdbSYOcazjs
and he still preferred his friends.
Now I’m in a new relationship—360Please respect copyright.PENANA8BMFNlgixE
but maybe it’s worse.360Please respect copyright.PENANA9f9lDE77oH
Maybe I mean nothing to him.
But every time I try to leave,360Please respect copyright.PENANAzWhtxIfXzW
I can’t.360Please respect copyright.PENANA4yzpDEKsip
Because if I go,360Please respect copyright.PENANAS6K4FYTLzi
I really won’t have anyone.
Sometimes I wish I had siblings—like a big brother.360Please respect copyright.PENANADuVpahL7af
I would support him, and he would support me.360Please respect copyright.PENANAdtNz914l06
But I don’t.
In the old days, I was a stone for my cousins to rely on.360Please respect copyright.PENANADxcgw5Fmut
I tried so hard to keep them strong through difficult paths.
But when it came to me—360Please respect copyright.PENANA0ikUFXiAil
when it was my turn to enter adult life—360Please respect copyright.PENANAQStNnwGGUv
I was alone.