I feel like loneliness will never let me go.88Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA0Sj0HBUHx
I should adapt to it, but still—it bothers me deeply.
I ask myself: What does a girl really want?88Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi4vMHopL1V
Maybe I just need a person who will love me completely—not a princess on a white horse...
I want people who will prefer me over others,88Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡssxKbzY9u8
people I can turn to—any time—88Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvouSeVw8LT
whether I’m happy or sad.
I want someone who won’t sell me for their own benefits,88Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEbPL80vwNY
someone who likes me the way I like him.
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someone who chooses them,88Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYmPS5pm0h4
but not me—as always.
When I was a child, during every fight with my parents, I was alone.88Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuYC77ZHkZW
I don’t have siblings,88Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQMDqn2VBO
so I was always the one asking for forgiveness.88Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvPOto5yArp
I didn’t want to be alone.
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but I wasn’t their bestie.
It’s been like this ever since.88Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp8PkiBys7A
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but loneliness still lingers.
I was in a relationship for 2 years and 7 months,88Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwl7cloYBOC
and he still preferred his friends.
Now I’m in a new relationship—88Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiJ4xmhW4XC
but maybe it’s worse.88Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzmJoeE3knW
Maybe I mean nothing to him.
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I can’t.88Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj6d7tn8VVj
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I really won’t have anyone.
Sometimes I wish I had siblings—like a big brother.88Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXpf9gMuzql
I would support him, and he would support me.88Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYaos6ep5At
But I don’t.
In the old days, I was a stone for my cousins to rely on.88Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnQErXDDdJS
I tried so hard to keep them strong through difficult paths.
But when it came to me—88Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg3rmWfeYV2
when it was my turn to enter adult life—88Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ZWqp09RWA
I was alone.
