I let out a deep sigh, my eyes opening to the darkness swallowing every edge of my bedroom.
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I reached for my phone first, reading over my lock screen that displayed new notifications and the time.
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10:37 am.
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Even if I felt embarrassed by last night—embarrassed by her rejection, I still checked my lock screen for her contact.
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Nothing.
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There was nothing else for her.
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I was less surprised than hopeful.
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It seems she's giving me space rather than reaching out again.
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Something I'm unaccustomed to.
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I let out a deep sigh, dropping my phone on the bed as I stared up at the ceiling.
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I'm never going to therapy again.
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There's just no possible way.
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Not after I tried to kiss her and she rejected me.
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Normally, I would try again.
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I wouldn't give up.
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This time is different—my ego is past bruised, and nearly falling the fuck apart.
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Any other woman in Seattle would be easier to chase.
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But I'm realizing Dr. Luccino isn't even meant to be chased.
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Maybe I should've run in the other direction instead.
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Even from the beginning—before she knew I was her patient, she always held the upper hand.
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And in it, she held my ego, every single fucking time.
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She drives me insane to the point that I have to force myself to step back.
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To sit this one out for once.
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Something I've never decided in my entire life.
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I'm a winner.
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I know I'm a winner.
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But this go-around, I'm okay with forfeiting.
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It's better than losing the game itself.
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Or maybe I already lost.
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Maybe her rejection was enough to consider a loss—a fuck up on my end.
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I'm not some girl who begs for someone.
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I've never felt this way or done these things.
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I've never even chased after someone like this.
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Normally, people chase me.
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They want me.
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Why doesn't Dr. Luccino want me?
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It's not because she's my therapist.
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I see how she looks at me sometimes.
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I see how irritated Dr. Kincaid makes her by simply standing next to me.
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Not all therapists would get up in the middle of the night and come pick up their patients after a night gone wrong.
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But Dr. Luccino did.
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She initiated a hug too... sort of
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I mean, I had to lean in, but she still initiated it all.
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Then it's how she talks to me—I can hear the double meanings, and I know she does too.
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She's calculated.
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Every action she takes, the words she speaks, even the fucking air she breathes—it's all calculated.
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She's not dumb, not even close to it.
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She's analytical.
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So why is she being like this?
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Why did she reject me?
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I quickly shook my head, burying my face under the pillow with a groan.
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I hate her for doing this—for making me feel this way.
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But at the same time, I want to know where her head is at.
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Why she's acted the way she has up to this point.
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It's confusing.
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But I think I'm okay with being confused.
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Or maybe... I know I'll have to be.
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Dr. Luccino will probably never reveal what her true thoughts consist of.
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I need to just step back before I genuinely go insane.
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I let out a deep sigh, laying up from my bed to go brush my teeth.
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I also did my skincare, pulling on a pair of sweatpants and a matching sweatshirt to head over to Zion and Sid's.
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I didn't make my bed.
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Maybe it was out of spite or maybe I just didn't want to do anything associated with her.
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Either way, I pushed through the thoughts of her fogging up my brain—finally finding some sort of balance once I made it to Zion and Sid's.
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It made me feel a little better being around them, focusing on other aspects of my life.
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Like the great best friends I have.
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We cooked breakfast together and ate in front of the TV, watching Zion's favorite show at the moment, Bob's Burgers.
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It was a nice morning, and Zion and Sid even agreed to go to the gym with me.
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That alone filled up my day, especially since we grabbed a smoothie after.
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Then we walked downtown for a couple of hours, shopping and browsing the different stores.
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We agreed to have dinner tonight, especially since it was Saturday night and I was staying inside.
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Zion and Sid were making such a big effort to be here for me.
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Even if I kind of wanted to give this whole not drinking thing up.
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But I owed it to myself.
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And I don't know... I just don't think I even need it anymore.
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It's weird.
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Like I still have the urge.
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I want to drink and go out.
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But I also have this louder thought, a deeper feeling, where I'm completely aware that I don't need that to feel better.
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Zion and Sid really help me feel better without realizing it.
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I think I just don't want to be alone, like entirely isolated, and their presence really helps soothe me.
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I even ended up staying the night at their place on Saturday, sleeping on their comfortable couch.
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We didn't end up making breakfast in the morning, instead, opting for Cookie Crisp cereal.
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Then Zion and Sid set up to work on schoolwork and study for the next couple of hours.
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While I could study, I'm also really ahead on all of my assignments—thanks to all my free time last week.
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So I decided to give it a rest, heading back to my apartment so I could climb into my unmade bed.
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But I was quickly halted by the bright sticky note on my front door, my brows immediately furrowing as I read it.
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This was left for you.
-Front Desk Management
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My confusion grew, glancing away from the note, and immediately noticing the bouquet by my feet.
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My heart physically stalled in my chest, bending down to fully analyze the bouquet.
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It wasn't made of flowers.
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But lollipops instead?
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It was wrapped neatly in a blush pink paper, tied together by a silky white ribbon at the base.
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I reached for the card immediately, even if I already knew who it was from.
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I just needed to see it.
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I flipped the card over, my eyes trailing over it.
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"— Dr. Luccino"
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That's it.
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That's all it said.
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Are you fucking kidding me?
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First, she rejects my kiss and now she's sending me a bouquet?
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A very well-thought-out one, might I add.
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She knows what she's doing.
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She fucking has to.
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It's why there's no note and she purposely used her formal name, rather than including her first and last name.
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It's still clinical with her.
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She's basically establishing that she's still my therapist—who sends me fucking bouquets.
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I shook my head to myself, determining that I'm officially over her confusing signals.
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Fuck skipping therapy, maybe I will show up for my session.
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Maybe, I'll return this bouquet right back to her, and tell her just how confusing this is.
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That she can't send me a bouquet after rejecting me two days prior.
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Yeah.
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That's what I'll do.
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And then I won't stay.
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I'll ask for a referral and leave.
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For good.
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I picked up the bouquet, peeling the sticky note off my door as I came to my conclusion.
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Naturally, I began planning the argument in my head, making sure I had every detail planned out for what I would say.
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I didn't want to skip something and then later on think of it and wish I had said it.
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I thought about it all night, tossing and turning as I tried my best to get a decent amount of sleep.
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The next day, I anticipated the evening more—my mind still on what I would say.
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Or what she would say back.
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I was on edge all fucking day.
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Even during class when I desperately tried to focus.
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Luckily, I was tired enough from my lack of sleep the night prior, that I fell asleep right after class, taking a short nap before therapy.
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Then around three o'clock, I began getting ready, determined to look my best when I storm into her office and throw this bouquet at her.
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I pulled on low-rise True Religion jeans and a crop top that emphasized my toned stomach.
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I did a blowout on my hair so it was in effortless waves, spraying hair perfume over my strands and putting on a light amount of makeup.
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I made sure my lip combo looked perfect, walking out of my bathroom to slide on a pair of chunky sneakers and spray myself with perfume.
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Then I exited my room, grabbing my keys and the bouquet as I left my apartment.
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I was fifteen minutes late.
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I didn't care.
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I took my time walking to my car—I didn't even mind the traffic, stopping when the light turned yellow rather than speeding up.
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By the time, I got parked and made my way through the modern lobby, I was already thirty minutes late.
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It made a smile grow prominently on my lips, watching the floors rise as I stood in the quiet elevator with a few other people.
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Soon enough, it dinged on my level, allowing me to step off with the bouquet in my hands.
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"Sienna" I said, for once choosing to ignore how much she had previously irritated me.
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She can fucking have Dr. Luccino.
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Or should I say chase her?
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"I'm here for my appointment," I said as I approached her with a smile.
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"Oh of course," Sienna smiled, glancing down to her computer, "You're a little late so your session might be cut sho—"
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"Got it, thanks girl" I quickly cut her short, turning around before she could say anything else and walking toward the familiar hallway.
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That's when the nerves hit me, especially as I passed the different doors, noticing hers was left open.
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I got this.
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I'm going to say what I want and she'll have to listen.
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I drew in a deep breath, approaching the open door, and walking right through.
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I didn't even bother closing it, wanting to cause somewhat of a scene.
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Dr. Luccino was seated at her desk, her dark hair cascading down to her waist and her bangs framing her face perfectly.
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Her focus was on her laptop—until she immediately glanced up, noticing my presence.
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"River" she said, smoothly standing from her office chair.
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My eyes dipped down, noticing the blush pink blouse she wore with black dress pants and shiny stilettos— her stare no longer on me.
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And rather the bouquet in my hand.
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"Seriously?"
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It was the first thing I could think to say as I walked over to her, holding the bouquet up even if she already noticed it.
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"You're so confusing. On Friday, you rej-"
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I was cut off when she took a calm step toward me, pressing her hand to my mouth in one fluid motion before I could finish.
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I froze at the contact, the warmth of her hand pressed against my lips, her eyes holding mine.
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It made shivers run down my spine.
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But I had to push it away.
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I pushed her away too, pressing my hands against her stomach.
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Somehow touching her only made the feeling inside of me grow worse.
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She didn't budge at my actions.
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Instead, she motioned her head to the door—the one I purposely left open.
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I pushed at her stomach again, leaning back from her hand and causing her to take a respectful step back.
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Then she walked over to the door.
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I hated to admit it, but I watched her.
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I watched every inch of her figure as she walked to that door.
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How her blouse outlined the curve of her waist or her dress pants that emphasized her long legs.
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I had to force myself back into reality, especially once she shut the door.
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"I don't know why you're doing that" I mumbled, harshly throwing the bouquet on her desk, "I'm not staying."
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Dr. Luccino calmly slid her hands into her pant pockets, "I understand, River" she said, walking back toward me, "But I would appreciate discussing this before you leave my office."
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I shrugged, "There's nothing to discuss. You're confusing—and you know you're confusing," I said, taking a few steps toward her, "You know what you're doing, every word, every action."
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"I care about you, River" Dr. Luccino calmly stated, her words irritatingly sending warmth through my body, "Nothing that happened on Friday changes that."
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I shook my head, my brows furrowing, "But what does that mean? What do you even want?" I asked, my face burning up.
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"It means, that the bouquet was sent to establish that, River" Dr. Luccino explained, still not giving me anything to go off of, "That I care about you as my patient, and that's why I needed to keep my role clear on Friday."
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"I still don't understand—you still make zero sense," I said, hating that she was trying to choose her words carefully with me right now, "You're the one who rejected me."
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"It wasn't rejection," Dr. Luccino quickly countered my statement, her brown eyes holding mine, "It was me setting boundaries between us, River"
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I furrowed my brows, blinking a few times, "So you do want me?" I asked in confusion.
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Dr. Luccino remained silent for a moment, her eyes tracing every inch of my face.
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My heart pounded in my ears, anticipating what she might say next.
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I don't even know why I'm listening.
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Why am I willing to hear her out?
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It wasn't supposed to go this way.
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"I'm your therapist, River." Dr. Luccino sighed, her voice so soft and genuine with me.
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But it wasn't what I wanted to hear.
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"Then why do all this—why are you weird about Dr. Kincaid being around me... why do you say certain things that hold a double meaning? I see the way you look at me," I breathed out, my rant weak and unsteady.
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Tears of frustration burned in my eyes, threatening to spill.
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And then, just like that, one tear broke the dam.
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Fuck.
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"Or maybe I'm just delusional—maybe I misread this" I whispered in frustration, messily wiping under my eyes.
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I wasn't even upset—I just felt so frustrated and confused that all I could do was cry.
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It wasn't about getting my way for once.
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It was about getting her to be present in a different way.
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Even if it's just sex, or merely physical between us.
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I don't do relationships anyway so I would honestly prefer that.
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It would work for me.
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"You're not delusional, River." Dr. Luccino said, her brown eyes trailing my face before she let out a measured sigh.
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I watched as she glanced away from me for a moment, almost appearing conflicting.
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A tense silence hung between us, making me feel even more embarrassed for crying right now.
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Then her gaze met mine again, taking a step closer.
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Her arms wrapped around me before I could process it, her hands stiff at my upper back—like she was still deciding if she should be doing this.
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Everything about her screamed hesitation, like she was carefully choosing how to react.
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And then, finally, her arms tightened around me, pulling me in completely.
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This time I did hug her back, wrapping my arms around her waist and pressing my cheek against her chest.
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"I thought you wanted me" I forced out, my voice lowered and inaudible, "I thought... I thought you were playing the game with me too."
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Dr. Luccino remained silent, causing my arms to tighten around her.
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I wondered what she was thinking.
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Where her head was at.
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Then I felt it.
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The softest touch of her fingers in my hair, gently caressing the back of my head as my cheek remained pressed to her chest.
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I could feel her hesitation, how stiff she was against me.
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Until she exhaled, letting herself relax.
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Her fingers continued their gentle motion, soothing me in a way that made my body relax into hers.
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"I've already told you I don't engage in this kind of game, River." Dr. Luccino calmly spoke, "Let's forget that idea. We're done with that."
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"Then what do we do?" I forced out in a whisper, inhaling her familiar sweet scent mixed with the cologne she always wore.
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"I continue helping you. I continue to be here for you" Dr. Luccino said, causing me to immediately shake my head.
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Her words made something sink inside of me.
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"No-no, I..." I trailed off, squeezing my eyes shut in frustration.
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I pulled away from her before I could realize it, breaking away from her warmth as I put distance between us.
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"I don't want you to be my therapist anymore" I said, forcing the words out before I could second-guess them, "I want a referral."
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Dr. Luccino's brow lifted slightly.
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But she didn't speak.
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A long tense moment settled around us.
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Then her lips parted—like she wanted to say something.
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Like she was battling herself on what that something would be.
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Then she softly cleared her throat, nodding almost forcefully at my previous words.
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"If that's what you need, River. I'll arrange it," she said, immediately making a scoff fall from my lips.
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It felt like I had her.
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Like she let me in for a brief moment.
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And now she's gone again.
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Back to being a therapist.
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Just not mine.
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"Okay" I mumbled coldly, walking past her before she could say anything else.
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For once, her brows were subtly furrowed as I walked past her, looking slightly confused.
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She had given me exactly what I just asked for, and still, she failed.
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I didn't care anymore.
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I walked out, rushing down the hallway and past the lobby toward the elevators.
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I didn't look over at Sienna or Reagan one time, even as they told me to have a good evening.
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I just waited for the elevator to ding open, stepping on and pressing the lobby.
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Frustrated tears blurred my vision as I watched the floors decrease on the digital screen.
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As soon as I made it to the lobby, I reached for my phone and quickly unlocked it.
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I scrolled far down my call log, past Zion and Sid's contacts that had been recently dialed.
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Even past Dr. Luccino's missed call from Friday night that made me feel fucking worse.
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I clicked her name on the screen instead, pressing the phone to my ear as I sniffled a few times.
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She answered on the first ring.
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Her voice flooding into my ear.
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"Rivvy?" Kai said, a concern etched into her voice.
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I kept my head down as I walked through the lobby, more tears burning so heavily in my eyes.
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"Hey, Kai" I whispered to the best of my abilities.
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"What's going on? Is everything good?" she asked me, clearly caught off guard by the sudden phone call.
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Even I was too.
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"Yeah-yes, I was just wondering if you wanted to have dinner right now? Maybe talk about everything?" I asked her, hoping to god that she doesn't reject me too.
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"Um..." I heard her trail of in thought, making my chest tighten, "Of course, yeah, tell me where and I'll meet you."
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I glanced around as I exited the building, searching for a restaurant nearby.
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Alto's.
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It was illuminated by a soft pink fluorescent lighting, shining bright under the dull grey rain clouds above.
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"Let's do Alto's," I suddenly said.
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"Okay, I need like an hour to get ready and make it there," Kai told me, and I could hear shuffling on her end.
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I pursed my lips, "Oh well, I'm already nearby-"
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"Just go home. I'll pick you up and drive us," Kai quickly offered.
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I raised a brow at her words, "That's new" I said, wiping some of my tears away.
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"I don't always have to be passenger princess" she joked with me, making me laugh slightly.
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"Okay, Kai, I'll see you in a few," I told her, feeling somewhat relieved by her familiar presence, even if it was over the phone.
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"I'll text you when I'm on the way," Kai said, earning a nod from me.
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"Perfect, love..." I trailed off, realizing what I was about to say out of instinct.
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It made my walking halt, feeling so embarrassed by the slip-up.
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"Love you too, Rivvy" Kai suddenly said, making it just a little easier to breathe.
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"Talk soon" I whispered, earning a hum from her before we hung up-which left me to process what I had just done.
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But this could be good.
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Maybe Kai and I can make progress after a decent talk.
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I do really miss her.
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