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Rain poured down heavily, hitting against the window and my eyes flew open. For a split second, I had forgotten that I was still in the hospital, than a group of nurses and a doctor hurried down the hallway. It was odd, there was never anything interesting happening on that particular floor and it made me wonder if someone died. It seemed that death had become something that constantly came to mind.385Please respect copyright.PENANAAMmimWEp7X
The room was dark and although Ms Laney saw to it that it was heated enough -chilliness still resided.385Please respect copyright.PENANAmKW5GxkWqB
I darted my eyes around frantically, I could hear someone breathing and a grunt caused me to sit up eyes fixated on the corner couch.385Please respect copyright.PENANAdnhHOO7pQk
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"Are you in love with him?"385Please respect copyright.PENANAZV85DTpoz7
I reached for the bed lamp, tugging at the string and light invaded the room.385Please respect copyright.PENANAbBehRW0RvT
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"Graeme, what are you doing, sitting in the dark? How did you get pass reception?" 385Please respect copyright.PENANAQ6PHkP3iwk
Graeme stood up and only than did I see the intravenous therapy bags hanging on a pole. I traced the syringes and my eyes rested on the needle inside of Graeme's arm. 385Please respect copyright.PENANACxyLqCw2ID
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"What is going on?" My heart pounded and I could feel my tears surfacing.385Please respect copyright.PENANADA3ED9Eec0
Graeme stood up groaning and I flew from my bed to assist him. 385Please respect copyright.PENANAfF04KGuQMo
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"You shouldn't be here, where is your room?" I gently placed my shoulder on his back.385Please respect copyright.PENANAKCdcyQYGGw
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"I needed to see you." He said breathless and his free hand flew to his stomach allowing another groan to escape from his mouth. 385Please respect copyright.PENANAdDKmDcO6IO
We reached the small distance to my bed as I helped him get up.385Please respect copyright.PENANAREJu3OHjzB
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"Graeme, what is going on?" I asked once more and this time, I couldn't suppress the knot in my throat anymore.385Please respect copyright.PENANA9bvt0UsqDn
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"Baby don't cry," His voice gentle and sympathetic -something that didn't help at all. "I'll be fine." 385Please respect copyright.PENANAukzg242pqB
I walked to the other side, whithout contemplating -I got in next to him. Shikana's blanket laid on the ground and had been replaced by a grey and white fury one. Graeme opened his arm and I took the invitation, laying my head on his blue checked chest. I didn't care what it would look like if anyone was to enter my room as the halls outside was silent, every now and than, a cleaner or nurse passed by -never once stopping to peek to peek inside.385Please respect copyright.PENANAW87olScbEa
"I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner about this, it's just -I thought it wouldn't get to this point." He confessed, rubbing my shoulder.385Please respect copyright.PENANA4NBbRtfMIz
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"I'm so confused Graeme. Promise me you're not going to die, right."385Please respect copyright.PENANA6yTPZiS9Rg
I didn't mean to -it slipped yet, it didn't mean that I didn't want to hear him say it himself. I waited nervously but Graeme never answered.385Please respect copyright.PENANAPRyRcD3nal
"You're not, right Graeme?" I cried softly, his pajamas wetting underneath my face.385Please respect copyright.PENANArdQh1Wb6qa
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"I can't promise you, Kaye but I know what I want."385Please respect copyright.PENANAMVqo9VzIPt
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To die? My mind feared.385Please respect copyright.PENANAouVuI0zA0M
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"I couldn't stand seeing you with Jae -at school, in his arms, all those rumours about you guys -it drives me crazy."385Please respect copyright.PENANAd9Qr1Vm6ZX
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"You're the one who didn't want anyone knowing about us, Graeme. Nothing happened between Jae and I, the rumours, well they seem to be coincidental every time."385Please respect copyright.PENANAM0bbjuJXMP
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"I lied." He hissed, again grabbing his stomach. "I lied about people ruining something good. I couldn't care less what they think of me but I knew if something like this was to happen -you'd be the girl who's boyfriend died. Do you know what Bloomfield Gym could do to your last two years of highschool -it would be miserable."385Please respect copyright.PENANAjuHOlZ94eV
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"Graeme, I've seen my childhood bestfriend hang from a tree, I've had a man touch me in ways a twelve year old shouldn't have been, two men pinned... My reputation is the least thing I'm worried about. I want you and I don't care what people say and please, stop talking like this. You're not going to die."385Please respect copyright.PENANA6xLHJ65cuv
"I might...it's bad this time. My kidneys are giving in -gallstones they say."385Please respect copyright.PENANAagUsoZ6rKU
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"You can have it taken out and you'll be fine." I suggested.385Please respect copyright.PENANAsrBg0eBovk
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"I did but it came back and now they can't do another surgery. There's nothing left to do for me, Kaye." 385Please respect copyright.PENANAMvUpyITld2
The room fell silent and it felt odd how quickly I became familiar with Graeme. Than, remembering the card he'd given me during Valentine's week -If you knew me, you'd know I'm incapable of not breaking your heart. Was this what he meant?385Please respect copyright.PENANASFGeTT67UB
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His scent was different -no English Blazer, no cannabis cologne only something I've smelled before. Than, Graeme picked up the sailboat next to my bed and held it out, examining it. My stomach tossed, I felt bad having thought romantically about Jae just earlier but it was hard to deny those feelings when it surfaced so often, so deeply.385Please respect copyright.PENANA2d822hSafp
"He's in love with you."385Please respect copyright.PENANAD3hIvy9eQS
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"Graeme, don't." I buried my face into his neck.385Please respect copyright.PENANAjhss3Rsbus
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"It's true Kaye and I wouldn't want to be in the middle of that if..." He heaved a sigh.385Please respect copyright.PENANA2SL0ugCh8q
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" -but you're not."385Please respect copyright.PENANATx9CeFt9Sy
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"He's not sick, Kaye."385Please respect copyright.PENANAFO8FfoERZf
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"I don't care. What I feel for you is entirely different than what I do for Jae. He knows about us and he respects it. I told him that I choose you."385Please respect copyright.PENANAqSgGGS8VNn
Graeme Yorkley kissed my forehead and a pain shot through my heart. 385Please respect copyright.PENANAnJC2VsqjgZ
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Whatever had I done to deserve all the misfortune in my life? Why me? -the question I had found myself ask a thousand of times. I was drowning and no sailboat could save me. 385Please respect copyright.PENANAeMs074PO9F
"I was twelve years old when our gymnast's doctor started to sexually abuse us." I could feel Graeme's heart throb in his chest, he caught his breath and slowly exhaled -I suppose in order to make me feel less uncomfortable.385Please respect copyright.PENANAW1mT3i8YJQ
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"Marigold Prep is one of the best gymnastics school and they only hired the best. Every dreadful checkup went unsupervised because he was honored at Marigold -his father had been the gymnast's doctor before him. All the parents trusted him but little did they know what he was doing to us on Thursdays." I didn't cry but I was nervous to finally come clean to Graeme. Finally talking about it in person.385Please respect copyright.PENANA5ScgKjMaDm
"Did you tell anyone?"385Please respect copyright.PENANAYKYIqsIya2
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"He told us how we were going to bring shame disgrace upon our families. He said no one would believe us and if we talk he'd do much more. We were so scared...never eating, hardly sleeping -our parents thought it was out of focus. One night, the James' had a fund raiser for the Marigold Charity Fund and I begged my parents not to go since Barry would be there too. I couldn't bare to tell them my protest was because of him, so we ended up going.385Please respect copyright.PENANAMLKIbpcifg
It was so cold out that night and already dark when we arrived at the fundraiser. I remember his eyes -dark, cold and empty just like the night." I shivered and Graeme pulled me closer.385Please respect copyright.PENANASy54VPs51B
"Kaye, I'm so sorry...you don't have to."385Please respect copyright.PENANAkkJuAKBl3y
I looked up at him, "I need to...I haven't." He kissed my forehead again, and allowed his lips to remain for a few more seconds.385Please respect copyright.PENANAEEaKmGFMQh
"It doesn't change how I feel about you." He said and I snuggled deeper into his neck.385Please respect copyright.PENANAWzr1iREZU7
"I knew he got to Oakley because it was the look he always had afterwards. When I went to look for her, she was nowhere to be found so I went to into the woods where I knew she always hid or went to play her guitar. I was so scared -I could feel something wasn't right. When I reached the big oak tree, I only saw her puffy blue dress. The worst thing about it was that I didn't run to tell anyone. I thought about him doing all those horrible things to us. When I finally came to my clear conscious state I ran to tell Mrs James but I never told on Barry. Oakley wasn't the first who killed herself and I didn't know she wanted to either. I wish I'd known."385Please respect copyright.PENANA0rVArJe09b
A pain made Graeme cry out loud and the door flew open.385Please respect copyright.PENANAMEOVD4RL4g
We're caught, was all that I could think and when I stared to really examine the silhouette I knew. Speaking of the devil -he came to pay me a visit that night and Graeme Yorkley sat confused and incapable of protecting me at that very moment.385Please respect copyright.PENANAVpNqaary1a
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To be continued...385Please respect copyright.PENANAWXuLjjwUVC
"What do you want?" I said as every emotion surfaced.385Please respect copyright.PENANAdR98XMekaO
It was too dark to make out his face but I would recognise him any day. It was impossible not to, seeing he'd stolen the youth and purity of a little girl forever.385Please respect copyright.PENANAyPnphQFoEC
"Hey creep, you're just going to stand there and say nothing? Want do you want?" Graeme said after a while.385Please respect copyright.PENANAlUUAS3v0rp
"Wrong room." I could feel my hair raise as his unwanted familiar voice spoke those words -and the room suddenly felt cold again once he closed the door behind him.385Please respect copyright.PENANAPnfrbViKoX
I shrugged back into the covers, my heart racing faster and faster -I swear I could hear it beating in my ears. Than, Graeme laid back again and an indistinct groan made me realise he was still sick and it was unfair how I was weighting him with all my baggage. 385Please respect copyright.PENANA7xY80tPCsZ
"There's that look again. What's on your mind, Kaye?" He gently said again.385Please respect copyright.PENANAJrp3yDQTOZ
"Nothing..." I gradually replied and cleared my throat, "it's just...I was wondering how long for would you be here?"385Please respect copyright.PENANAXW5rc5H8WG
"I don't know yet, hopefully not long." He said awkwardly.385Please respect copyright.PENANAuSt1Dc50iD
"Well, tomorrow everything changes at Bloomfield Gym, at least for me. Maybe, well...I thought that maybe the day after tomorrow -if you're capable we could give Quiet Kath a little surprise."385Please respect copyright.PENANAERyoS8PWl2
"You mean like...go to school together?"385Please respect copyright.PENANAQhldzxSyUb
My heart jumped at the sound of him outing those words, "Only if you want to."385Please respect copyright.PENANAz29A5pVOgh
"I'm sick, Kaye. Are you sure you want all of this on you? It will make me happy but I'm also thinking about you."385Please respect copyright.PENANAcYDkcnS7s8
"I'm positive that I want this." I said almost immediately. "I want to feel what it's like to be happy...for once not have my entire existence defined by my past, you know."385Please respect copyright.PENANAaoLVmPD8Pq
"I know." He said softly, than pulled me closer to him. Graeme's heart beat unrhythmic, I couldn't quite tell whether he was scared or nervous about the outcome.385Please respect copyright.PENANABbBCuZFsaq
"I suppose she'll have something else to talk about too. You'll have to drive, seeing you don't have a car it'll have to be mine."385Please respect copyright.PENANAzi527H90Jr
"Your pickup?"385Please respect copyright.PENANAGO0HzLR1Di
"My granddad's Land Rover."385Please respect copyright.PENANAMTZ5fFw9eh
My eyes grew big and I shot up, staring straight into Graeme's arms. "That's...no Graeme...I really don't think I..."385Please respect copyright.PENANAuwVDKgDT3e
"I want you to, just so people can actually see that this is serious."385Please respect copyright.PENANAClc61uBegt
"Did you do that with Alexa?" Jealousy suddenly took over.385Please respect copyright.PENANA4RY4JLAjLu
"No." He said almost instantly. "You and Alexa are two entirely different people, Kaye." He frowned and slowly sat up leaning against the headrest. "I don't want you ever comparing the two of you. What Alexa and I had was friendship before romance, everything was great but we were also fourteen years old, too immature for love.385Please respect copyright.PENANArmAytvWMxd
Things between us are different, we had chemistry before words and this connection it doesn't need work. Look, I was smitten by Alexa, yes but God knows I'm madly in love with you."385Please respect copyright.PENANA9NDwu7U2RO
Hearing him say those words made me want him in ways my body was ashamed to react on. Lust had ruined my life and now, I couldn't bare to allow it to kiss Graeme like the moment insisted. I laid my head on his chest and scooped my arm around his waist. He gently put his arm around my back, gliding his hand respectfully up and down my back. 385Please respect copyright.PENANA8LSQZFcX5y
I couldn't think about anything really, I only enjoyed the warmth and comfort from Graeme than, Barry Wiggins who came by just seconds before.385Please respect copyright.PENANAClDF8AGm7f
"The man that did all those things to us...he's back." I mindlessly found myself say.385Please respect copyright.PENANAveZE4WYmMw
"What!? Where?"385Please respect copyright.PENANAnZSk7P4YER
"Here at Bloomfield Gymnasium..."385Please respect copyright.PENANACfGanPVZZR
"-we have to tell principal Johnson or I'll kill him myself. Why haven't you told me this before?"385Please respect copyright.PENANAHwckpLQXQz
"I was scared because there's so much more to all of this. Remember that day I was talking to Kath and you found me on the side of the road?"385Please respect copyright.PENANAmlBgCjR0KO
"Yeah, the same day Alexa ruined our time together." He rolled his eyes dramatically.385Please respect copyright.PENANA7uFa2QZ8Zo
"She was struggling to carry all her things and it fell so I offered to help pick them up. One specifically was a picture of her family. Do you know them?"385Please respect copyright.PENANAbNzI7kR03d
"Yeah...we've had a couple of parties there. Her parents are surprisingly pretty cool."385Please respect copyright.PENANATVSSzM87uB
"Her stepfather, the doctor."385Please respect copyright.PENANATy0W0EDwFZ
Graeme caught his breath and I could see his hand transform to a fist.385Please respect copyright.PENANAMTORlzGFQ4
"There's nothing principal could probably do now. He asked me before if I knew Barry but I told him I couldn't remember."385Please respect copyright.PENANAF3B2KqNqxD
"Why?"385Please respect copyright.PENANA5pQE9cQqUI
"Wiley was right there. He doesn't even know."385Please respect copyright.PENANAWCZ3NTXh5C
"Baby...you have to tell him."385Please respect copyright.PENANAb3MvIeYjnS
"I can't. I don't trust him right now and I'd appreciate it if you don't tell him either. He'll find out what happened with the rest of Bloomfield Gym."385Please respect copyright.PENANAHUPlu5tX0B
"What do you mean?"385Please respect copyright.PENANAPGMbzm4qJi
"Ms Donahue gave me the If They Knew Me article and seeing I hadn't even participated I did a little something different with it. 385Please respect copyright.PENANAIH8p5sdFEq
After the story of Oakley made its rounds and people suddenly decided that's why I'm a 'Stone Diva', I saw Ms Donahue's gesture as an opportunity to come clean about this. All of it, so the only question now is are you ready for all of it? Are you sure you want to show up with me on your arm?"385Please respect copyright.PENANA2S5EMCwAe1
Graeme looked down at me and kissed my head, "nothing in this world would make me more happier."385Please respect copyright.PENANAOtHkCCyagM
I smiled and allowed the comfortable silence to seize the dark room I was sharing with Graeme Yorkley. My mind however, was incapable of going to rest. The second night I spend with Graeme Yorkley, I wasn't stoned. I lay awake until the wee hours of the morning, thinking of everything and everyone while listening to Graeme snore. 385Please respect copyright.PENANA7gTE0pP7ND
Although I couldn't sleep -it was still perfect.
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