「你今個星期日有沒有時間來我家?」張雅己在訊息裡說。92Please respect copyright.PENANAOiqqJVaeHR
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「為什麼?」我吃驚地問。92Please respect copyright.PENANAZXmbZJ9Tru
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「不是你說我們要在學校保持距離嗎?我想跟你繼續討論,你不願意的話,要不我到你家去。」92Please respect copyright.PENANA0y34bLtOrg
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「不,不,還是我到你家吧。」我手忙腳亂,不知所措。92Please respect copyright.PENANA6cU6RNzBKY
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「可以帶薛丁格一起嗎?我想看看牠。」92Please respect copyright.PENANAGaHKQTc79j
2008年12月7日星期日,92Please respect copyright.PENANAnI2hPdx5RH
我背著裝住薛丁格的貓背囊,來到張雅己的家門前。92Please respect copyright.PENANA30LgePaZNE
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緊張的按下門鐘,出來應門的是張雅己的母親,她很有禮貌地向我打招呼。92Please respect copyright.PENANAsJxZfWsKdC
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「雅己很少帶朋友回家的,特別是男孩子。」她笑咪咪,邀請我進屋,後面傳來張雅己的聲音。92Please respect copyright.PENANA1BQhky78x7
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「你到了,快些進來吧。」張雅己催促我進去她房間。92Please respect copyright.PENANAgKL3Ks7gxR
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「要不要喝果汁?要不要吃零食?雪櫃裡有蛋糕。」92Please respect copyright.PENANA0xeeSc2fU3
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她媽媽繼續在我們身後說著客氣話,直至張雅己用力關上房門。92Please respect copyright.PENANAGvPptmoGx5
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她房間裡比我想像還要整潔,而且香。92Please respect copyright.PENANA0FF3Ss80d5
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最重要是我第一次看見張雅己穿便服的樣子。92Please respect copyright.PENANAN5tskOWOeY
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我從背囊捧出薛丁格,牠不太熟悉周圍環境,在地板上縮成一團,張雅己抱起牠。92Please respect copyright.PENANALwM561yLDW
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「為什麼你主人會改你叫薛丁格這種古怪名字,他到底在想什麼。」92Please respect copyright.PENANAqMU2UjtG3n
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她用比平時更可愛,像小朋友的說話方式,對著牠說。92Please respect copyright.PENANAAqEyf6Kv8s
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「牠好像比我第一次見牠時健康了。」92Please respect copyright.PENANA1MGgAxTjD5
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「還胖了很多,我父母每天也買貴價貓糧給牠,快要寵壞牠。」92Please respect copyright.PENANA5hs1QD5DKA
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「真好,我很羨慕你有幸福的家庭。」她說。92Please respect copyright.PENANAOvFIEmgPSd
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我腦裡閃過在警署時,她母親那哀傷的神情。92Please respect copyright.PENANAOrHpeUNA4P
薛丁格掙扎著從她手中逃開了。92Please respect copyright.PENANA5uFaARLXDt
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她不知哪裡找來一個貓玩具,高大的她趴在地上,一直逗著薛丁格玩。92Please respect copyright.PENANAk0zeYccnnK
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「我把之前說的那套電影帶了過來,或者有參考的地方,你有dvd播放器嗎?」我問。92Please respect copyright.PENANAefIvShJymy
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「可以用電腦。」92Please respect copyright.PENANA3O3bJClWlD
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我們坐在地板上,靠著她的床,電腦螢幕很細,我們必須擠在一起看,肩碰肩。92Please respect copyright.PENANA5CjqKbvBWQ
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若撇除了我坐在這裡的原因,是為調查她是誰的幻想,還有她是個自殺了5次還死不去的女生,我們現在這個模樣,不過是兩個平常少年少女坐在一起看電影然而。92Please respect copyright.PENANAJovKQdtU4l
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薛丁格走過來鑽進她膀胳,她溫柔的抱牠入懷,在牠脖子的毛皮上親吻。92Please respect copyright.PENANAqJFZxSfxKU
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我想她的吻該是甜蜜又溫暖。92Please respect copyright.PENANAW8EKuF0mJI
「沒有人希望自己死去,不幸地我們都難逃一劫。」92Please respect copyright.PENANA5NiO6zCroh
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「終有一天,你會死。可能在銀行心臟病發、可能被薄荷珠嗆死、或者在你度假時罹患不治之症。你會死,你必定會死,即使你逃避了這次,也有其他原因導致你的死亡,而且我可以保證不會像她寫的那樣有詩意和充滿意義。」92Please respect copyright.PENANA3wimB3H552
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戲中其中一個角色對男主角說。92Please respect copyright.PENANAWowEmoUb2V
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我偷望身邊的她,她看得入神,我看到她眼紅紅鼻子也紅紅,一顆眼淚隨她眼睛輕眨,滑落到她的面頰。92Please respect copyright.PENANAaqC2hc8OES
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我不敢哼出半點聲音,不自覺減輕呼吸,假裝沒有發現她在哭。92Please respect copyright.PENANAGGy72BRqPG
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電影完結,她立刻站起來背著我,我知道她正用手擦拭眼淚。92Please respect copyright.PENANA8PbtxSsyqS
「電影很好看。」張雅己咽哽著。92Please respect copyright.PENANA4UnrKbFmp9
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「嗯,但好像沒有什麼值得參考的地方。」92Please respect copyright.PENANAxeIHCzhyh4
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我看著她的背影,終於按奈不住,鼓起勇氣問我一直想知道的問題。92Please respect copyright.PENANAjXarE39V4p
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「你可以告訴我你自殺的理由嗎?」92Please respect copyright.PENANAphZJSr2ZHp
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她沒有回答,依然站在原地背向著我,我聽到她因為哭過,急促的氣喘聲。92Please respect copyright.PENANAk9NzkMkMsx
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「我不想說。」92Please respect copyright.PENANAUXvxiaGTqt
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「可能是其中一個線索⋯⋯」92Please respect copyright.PENANApnoxV2hoAU
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「我不想說。」92Please respect copyright.PENANAp5kS2aU8e9
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「可能對事情會有幫肋⋯⋯」92Please respect copyright.PENANAakhiX6qE3S
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「我說了我不想說!」92Please respect copyright.PENANAmY2vAJd67z
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我第一次聽到張雅己這麼大聲說話,房間裡像迴盪住她的聲音。92Please respect copyright.PENANA1I5oyAVXCj
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薛丁格嚇壞了,躲在我腳邊,我抱起牠,把牠放進貓背囊。92Please respect copyright.PENANAOWSnJNGWoN
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「對不起,我想我該離開了。」92Please respect copyright.PENANAHm7Hjlucfg
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我轉身開門離去,張雅己也沒有回頭,我看到她的背影在微微顫抖。92Please respect copyright.PENANABaZ77SwWSB
張雅己的媽媽在門外聽到她大聲說話,以為我們吵架。92Please respect copyright.PENANALKONmDAwzl
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「對不起。」她不知為何,跟我道歉起上來。92Please respect copyright.PENANAa70CxiJ00T
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「不,是我不好。」92Please respect copyright.PENANA6vlfuXsYO6
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「她小時候,是一個很乖很親切的小孩。自從她爸爸過世後,我就不太懂她在想什麼。」92Please respect copyright.PENANAJWJNzrbZvv
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她看著客廳牆上的照片說。92Please respect copyright.PENANAIghskwUzpi
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「如果她爸爸還在這裡就好。」92Please respect copyright.PENANAsMdhgwGa1S
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我走近,想看看張雅己的爸爸。92Please respect copyright.PENANAOHJvda9BaM
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那是一張家庭合照,她媽媽年輕時更像張雅己。她抱住還是嬰兒的張雅己,坐在沙發上,旁邊站了一個高大的男人,應是她爸爸。92Please respect copyright.PENANAGQM8FsHESr
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「不好意思,我可以問張雅己的爸爸是何時過生嗎?」92Please respect copyright.PENANAxTCdJiYhCB
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「嗯,是張雅己4歲的時候。」92Please respect copyright.PENANAhJRlaxnUKx
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家庭合照的右上方,貼了另一張照片,大概是她爸爸年輕時跟朋友登山的合照。照片中有4人,前排是兩個女生跪在地上,高大的張雅己爸爸則站在後面,親蜜地用手搭著身邊另一個男人的肩膀。92Please respect copyright.PENANAWgoMvVUoBE
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「這張照片是?」92Please respect copyright.PENANA0XrDMYiPSX
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「那是她爸爸大學時期參加登山社拍的,我們當時還未認識對方。」92Please respect copyright.PENANASOAevSISfe
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我總覺得她爸爸身邊的那個男人很眼熟,好像在哪裡見過他。92Please respect copyright.PENANAUrlfXx5CT7
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這時候,廚房的水壺響起來。92Please respect copyright.PENANA2gnNHlqgMn
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我趁著張雅己媽媽跑到廚房關火,趕快用手機拍下家庭合照和那張登山照,然後匆匆離開了。92Please respect copyright.PENANA8A5KGAI7t8
「對不起,我不應該發脾氣⋯⋯」她訊息裡說。92Please respect copyright.PENANAJawXJm2hLK
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「不,是我不對,我明白你不想說,我不應該追問。」92Please respect copyright.PENANAiKhULEhzub
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