No Plagiarism!yNstuUAoSDahtN6FRn6jposted on PENANA 「原來你對愛情都幾瘋狂。」鍾美嘉說。8964 copyright protection407PENANAC8UrrDGYzB 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAdBNaQSXzkr
8964 copyright protection407PENANA6ou16weopP 維尼
「我諗,呢個係感情經驗豐富嘅人有嘅共通點?無論遇過幾多無結果嘅人,都仲未識驚,愛情永遠都係對我地最重要嘅價值。」我回答。8964 copyright protection407PENANArrnbW1GxHN 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANACJyVBEbpnQ
8964 copyright protection407PENANAmiEDuaXAya 維尼
「你有無諗過係咩原因導致我地將愛情睇得重要呢?」鍾美嘉問。8964 copyright protection407PENANAYZV8PDLh9x 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAsLpfl6Z9au
8964 copyright protection407PENANAoZYLwCpVjS 維尼
「我最近都有諗過呢個問題,最新嘅結論,係自己要靠愛情去填滿生活嘅缺失。」8964 copyright protection407PENANAcq79wokZEU 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAOksCVrcPAv
8964 copyright protection407PENANAWgIIrYHQYk 維尼
「正如我存在嘅作用係填補你同女朋友關係缺失嘅部分,係唔係?」8964 copyright protection407PENANAxFWtyra4di 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANA1Un18hT2p9
8964 copyright protection407PENANAKy0iYrgjWC 維尼
「從呢一刻同你嘅關係去睇,我唔否認。」我補充:「如果早啲認識你,我地嘅故事會好唔同。至少可以正正經經咁拍拖。」8964 copyright protection407PENANAU8WFcFcrSY 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANALhFFo1aHQD
8964 copyright protection407PENANAe8oo7Vwexs 維尼
「可能真係拍拖,又好快分手呢。人無完美,我同你一齊,同樣會有缺失嘅部分。所以唔緊要啦,我地而家呢個關係都唔差。」8964 copyright protection407PENANAVX9VP1L6UZ 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAb9efveVdQw
8964 copyright protection407PENANAOGwDd5Q5mq 維尼
鍾美嘉續道:「我覺得愛情嘅重要性同原生家庭有關係。我父母都係在職人士,由細到大,佢地工作都好忙碌,成日OT又周圍飛。小學果陣,主要都係婆婆照顧我。讀中學開始,我就自己照顧自己。父母都好疼錫我,俾到唔錯嘅經濟支持,只係相處時間總係好短,屋企成日都無人。當我獨自留喺屋企,就好容易覺得寂寞,所以一旦戀愛對象出現,我就會將全副心思放喺對方身上。」8964 copyright protection407PENANAFldhfLpb7X 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAes7SW9bz8F
8964 copyright protection407PENANAoyt8VRIsW8 維尼
「即使對方係錯嘅對象,你都會依附喺對方身上?」8964 copyright protection407PENANAGudbIt7tOB 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAQGQcZhTO3D
8964 copyright protection407PENANApnzVqOuThv 維尼
「係。因為寂寞比起錯誤更可怕。愛情作為家庭溫暖嘅彌補。」8964 copyright protection407PENANAfPbFh3qsoa 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANApHx2cr2cJD
8964 copyright protection407PENANAgioLDc55zi 維尼
「我理解你嘅感受。因為我父母都係我高中嘅時候飛咗去外國。即使係短時間嘅獨居我都頂唔順,不停向外尋求社交。」我說:「可能我地都唔識用健康嘅方式去排解呢種寂寞、缺失嘅感覺,以致不斷重演唔健康嘅愛情關係。」8964 copyright protection407PENANAjhgu8LRUqJ 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAfn6KOOgrMf
8964 copyright protection407PENANAWzYwDVsgH7 維尼
「愛情就好似毒品。我搵唔到可以提供到同樣感覺嘅替代品。」8964 copyright protection407PENANAW0YuC8T64i 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANArt1KdEqd3x
8964 copyright protection407PENANAiE1rcoMODk 維尼
「哈哈,即係你都認同,愛情只係一種感覺。我地都係愛情上癮者,旨在搵人提供愛情感覺,多於一個『命中注定』嘅對象。」8964 copyright protection407PENANAhQpjCdTVZ8 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANABEW05XWN2d
8964 copyright protection407PENANAC2Obp6oCvP 維尼
「係。不過愛情同毒品一樣,會有抗藥性,愈食愈麻木。所以阿,要搵一個俾到愛情感覺我嘅人都唔容易!你好珍貴!」8964 copyright protection407PENANACwcJVaaxQp 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAp0YcAklnE7
8964 copyright protection407PENANAOzsFr0ByAC 維尼
「大家咁話。」我笑說。看一看手錶,還剩下一小時的時間。8964 copyright protection407PENANAHBFsNVUfrV 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAjKJ8p8kBSv
8964 copyright protection407PENANAYqt5lPb1ba 維尼
我們從西九龍海濱長廊的尾端折返,於公園的草坪中散步。8964 copyright protection407PENANAdDTc76I91H 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAVqBd4chDas
8964 copyright protection407PENANAg8wDlVvBQv 維尼
我延續未說完的故事:「到升咗唔同嘅大學,個女仔玩O camp、住Hall之後,俾組爸媾咗,我地由同居變成朋友嘅關係。之後兩年我都無遇到有感覺嘅人,斷斷續續咁食吓女,無咩特別。」8964 copyright protection407PENANAK9ixfanN6y 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAm7KV40BBVx
8964 copyright protection407PENANAtXtfFTfxWK 維尼
「咁你幾時遇到下一個重要嘅對象?」8964 copyright protection407PENANA3qucUkY57x 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANArzDDA9XRbh
8964 copyright protection407PENANAKnZGQ3YxeK 維尼
「喺我去荷蘭Exchange果時,撞到同校去英國Exchange嘅Ex,無耐就一齊咗Long D。與其話重要,不如話深刻更貼切。我係因為佢靚女,係KOL,條件唔錯,同埋Exchange想搵返個伴先同佢一齊。當時仲覺得佢性格好港女,唔算話非常鐘意佢。」8964 copyright protection407PENANAndXJU4sC5T 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANA4ZqiDzqXIQ
8964 copyright protection407PENANAJUbalzujNh 維尼
「咁點解會深刻?」8964 copyright protection407PENANAJO9Q5sFCdi 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAJc8ResLBEP
8964 copyright protection407PENANAUYWvXbPEx3 維尼
「因為返到嚟香港,我地扑嘢嘅片俾個幫佢整電腦嘅Fans流出咗。我地一齊搵個男仔去解決呢件事。後來個女仔抑鬱,變到神神化化,我都算陪佢走過咗人生低谷,共過患難,加深咗感情。」8964 copyright protection407PENANAj1CB4Ev05g 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAUDADw0vgTo
8964 copyright protection407PENANAOToOBGA1Ja 維尼
「嘩!我想睇!有無Seed?」8964 copyright protection407PENANAujvUJQsRvd 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANA2M9ZAH88EK
8964 copyright protection407PENANApP3njpGMPh 維尼
「不了,你得個知字啦。條片淨係睇到佢,睇唔到我個樣。」8964 copyright protection407PENANAyfvRWczhOq 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAxsoCr8WG4V
8964 copyright protection407PENANAcnYQ7XSVu0 維尼
「咁佢而家點呀?」8964 copyright protection407PENANAWN5RozUlYN 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAEGS5Z9J7Av
8964 copyright protection407PENANAdFQlBtJtU9 維尼
「佢好返啦。基本上長居外國,生活無憂。」我說:「好似同我有過關係嘅女仔都生活得唔錯。」8964 copyright protection407PENANAurHmujh1Iw 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAL867wLiivO
8964 copyright protection407PENANA9CFecrFdfx 維尼
「可能當時啲女仔都覺得同你相處都唔錯呢。」8964 copyright protection407PENANABx3SFHSWxT 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAkyo16YzWCm
8964 copyright protection407PENANAtSl7ChteVT 維尼
「當時鬼掩眼掛,可能而家會覺得同過我一齊係黑歷史。」我說:「跟住臨畢業就遇到正話戲院果個女仔,佢係少數令我有感覺嘅人。正如頭先喺戲院同你所講,我地最後無一齊到。」8964 copyright protection407PENANAWQrZ5HbDte 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAjiH0b7JoCk
8964 copyright protection407PENANAyO5wyuIcmR 維尼
跟鍾美嘉剖白自己的過去,同時整理了心思:「所以,對我生命最大影響嘅女仔,應該係初戀。」8964 copyright protection407PENANAZCwrteL1y7 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANArdOp3DaETo
8964 copyright protection407PENANAJTgOhHmFIy 維尼
「你仲未忘記到佢?」8964 copyright protection407PENANAo1KRhU3XOK 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAgrsJWRihK1
8964 copyright protection407PENANAnmPdEVR5La 維尼
「中一到而家返咗工三年幾,中間隔咗成十三年,我唔再鐘意佢啦,只係佢對我嘅影響太深遠。」8964 copyright protection407PENANALDu4diH1CP 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAcdiN4SAZzv
8964 copyright protection407PENANA4icakPSkcR 維尼
「我無諗過,你會同我講咁多。」鍾美嘉說。8964 copyright protection407PENANAz3KVPEq6BD 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAzJdzJaYnMU
8964 copyright protection407PENANAt4H8WqjfCI 維尼
「我都無諗過,你係我人生中第一個令我咁誠實分享自己故事嘅人。」8964 copyright protection407PENANASC6xDWDwqh 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAcy1k7ZoB7w
8964 copyright protection407PENANAQTiGVvmhMz 維尼
「真定假㗎,又哄我?」8964 copyright protection407PENANAG6OJAeDEYk 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAYsVV72NEW7
8964 copyright protection407PENANAsxHU6cAKEt 維尼
「真㗎,唔信就算啦。」8964 copyright protection407PENANANbaTTQpa4n 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAcgI5D9hQzP
8964 copyright protection407PENANA0A4wpeqNwm 維尼
我的心情得到很大的紓緩,心裡某個重擔似乎放輕了不少。8964 copyright protection407PENANAiCDFWCZEZO 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAnjjZwK0Myj
8964 copyright protection407PENANA34rDO9NuLw 維尼
雖然大部分「重擔」只是我在自尋煩惱。8964 copyright protection407PENANA2gFGdn44Cc 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAS23vK77yeo
8964 copyright protection407PENANAE9bUDZZvFC 維尼
在鍾美嘉面前,我不會得到任何批判,她只是靜靜聆聽,反覆詢問我內心的想法。8964 copyright protection407PENANA5U41aXTN7b 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAW94ZaHucGe
8964 copyright protection407PENANAckyZTRuE2t 維尼
原來我想要的,只是如此簡單的一段對話。8964 copyright protection407PENANAKEP9ELJr8p 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAWX3NLTcqCm
8964 copyright protection407PENANA4dCVPvbeDy 維尼
鍾美嘉完全掌控我的情緒高低起伏。8964 copyright protection407PENANAOfywwXdLiq 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANA8Dfg6JwzAN
8964 copyright protection407PENANAMwSav2bqoE 維尼
我回想起江柏琪在逛婚展後,曾經詢問我關於婚前輔導的問題。關於過去感情經歷對我的影響,我在她面前幾乎絕口不提。8964 copyright protection407PENANAbTyd027kLZ 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAbXQQXYqLxN
8964 copyright protection407PENANA58UssDP2AB 維尼
為什麼無法在江柏琪面前誠實剖白呢?8964 copyright protection407PENANABUYGAIKjqP 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANA9VvsZ2oh0S
8964 copyright protection407PENANAVsL8r7M4p8 維尼
大概因為覺得她跟我不是同一種人,出說來她只能以同理心去理解發生在我身上的故事,不會產生共鳴的感覺。8964 copyright protection407PENANAY6IOuefEkh 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAdB1tuLWy4C
8964 copyright protection407PENANAIjWUBES8pC 維尼
共鳴好像是一個江柏琪永遠無法填補的部分。8964 copyright protection407PENANANfxxh8MzqN 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANA7DOAqquXYB
8964 copyright protection407PENANAObxFoOQFpO 維尼
人本來就各有優劣,可不可以停止將兩人抽絲剝繭地比較呢?8964 copyright protection407PENANAkEag7GhIIM 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAGo7eAKP6fj
8964 copyright protection407PENANAPmQ1cremu5 維尼
我就是無法控制內心的想法。8964 copyright protection407PENANAkvS6vHTr6j 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANA6N3FKbKjkr
8964 copyright protection407PENANA3fYnL6LrME 維尼
一聲嘆息。8964 copyright protection407PENANAAulnJYa0uF 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAJVAqrGssLQ
8964 copyright protection407PENANAHGh9Z6zuSW 維尼
時候不早,灰姑娘把借來的神奇火柴燒光,我要在限時之內趕回家。8964 copyright protection407PENANAcx9E5o7aqo 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAa3ho8hcm76
8964 copyright protection407PENANADZZfeuNoYM 維尼
我還想牽著鍾美嘉的手,一直聊下去,最好是能夠走到月球般遙遠的距離吧。8964 copyright protection407PENANAsaxgH7vr6R 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANA2soBxJWeF5
8964 copyright protection407PENANAnrlOKi79Iu 維尼
我陪伴美嘉到的士站,依依不捨地將她抱完又親,目送她離開再回家。8964 copyright protection407PENANAvLsmMMKBYN 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAZzNVMthkUg
8964 copyright protection407PENANAyCw2SnwU1g 維尼
感受著她離開的空位,隨之而來是強烈的迷惘。8964 copyright protection407PENANA29IJynjEC1 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAjySlDHp2aj
8964 copyright protection407PENANAYBRHu4b1sW 維尼
愛和時間就像一杯水,是有限的。我只有100%的容量,當我把80%的關注放在其中一個人身上,另外一人便只剩下20%。兩人不可能同時獲得100%的我。8964 copyright protection407PENANAcaTaIARf6C 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAAILmJyph8Q
8964 copyright protection407PENANAt82PTFh235 維尼
我不知道和江柏琪的關係還能維持下去多久。8964 copyright protection407PENANA03poVjqeod 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANASPywcbhxU3
8964 copyright protection407PENANAzIVzxwP2g1 維尼
這幾天,我思考了好幾遍,我真的要和江柏琪結婚嗎?8964 copyright protection407PENANAsAom5chDfa 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAaE989v2yyI
8964 copyright protection407PENANAFtys2o3qCm 維尼
隨著時間的過去,要反悔的代價將會變得更大。8964 copyright protection407PENANAi3T6E1x9E8 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANABx42d3Bc78
8964 copyright protection407PENANADCDDzCLotL 維尼
考慮自己餘生,根本無法帶著謊言面對江柏琪。8964 copyright protection407PENANAloei5eo0dP 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANApBTgovcKX7
8964 copyright protection407PENANArVWFbZ7cFk 維尼
男人到了三四十歲仍然是一個有市場的黃金年紀;女人尋找另一半的市場有限。8964 copyright protection407PENANA1vymIdTXh6 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANAfMJdCzvnfQ
8964 copyright protection407PENANAHWNFEdlElV 維尼
分手,放過自責又內疚自己,放生江柏琪找個更好的對象,跟Michelle和Stephanie一樣,和詛咒一樣的我分手,是不是一個更好的選擇呢?8964 copyright protection407PENANAOIKgXnzMHD 維尼
411Please respect copyright.PENANACLb6cqTBNa
8964 copyright protection407PENANA8vYU1OoQEh 維尼
216.73.216.238
ns216.73.216.238da2