或許是不能再聽到妳的聲音,抑或線上暑輔的開始搗亂了我們的生活節奏,有種若即若離的疏遠,而雙方卻保持沉默應對。8964 copyright protection84PENANAoSCqOLvZzJ 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAbmXn1pdrsZ
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知道因為分班,我們的交集勢必會少了許多,但對我來說無所謂啊,我還是會分享今天發生了什麼,今天心情怎樣……可是在那暑輔剛開始的一個禮拜,很明顯的感受出妳對我的冷淡。8964 copyright protection84PENANAvl13PJDF8x 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAEbq5K5SUu2
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「嗯嗯。」夜晚睡前簡訊聊天時,妳句點了每一句話,留我一個人在原地。不知道我現在是該問妳今天過得如何,抑或直接道了晚安然後就寢?8964 copyright protection84PENANA6OWs0dH45s 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAxYODl7OAuV
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說真的勉強自己去維持以前的相處模式真的有些累呢,問妳今天做什麼,妳不再如以前會透露些妳今天對這些事物的情緒,而是冷冰冰的,條列式的,如同向長官報告,一一列成清單後傳送給我,就沒有了下文。8964 copyright protection84PENANAajj4RvH9Ab 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAr1FQgCQk37
8964 copyright protection84PENANAzSYsBtJ8AF 維尼
我真的害怕我究竟做錯了什麼。8964 copyright protection84PENANAwfm0iH8azr 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAJE6cTzT3X3
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但多想是徒然,我總是想著或許這段時間妳情緒不好,經歷太多生活壓力—裝撐牙器及剛進入新班級,我需要做的就是在妳低潮時,帶領這段感情繼續走著。8964 copyright protection84PENANAK09mPoiX87 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAHW0Md49KwP
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88Please respect copyright.PENANAZIV2Aomlr7
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可是真的受不住了。8964 copyright protection84PENANAxEF9zIjuqi 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAl9QugQ4fGu
8964 copyright protection84PENANAekNKydFwNJ 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAH4hHpzsTJc
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一個禮拜過去,兩個禮拜過去,而妳對我的態度依舊是忽冷忽熱,或許妳真的沒有那個意願要這樣吧,我也勸自己不要多想,多做點自己的事提升自己,多往自己的夢想邁進,而不是拘泥於這並無是非的情感問題。8964 copyright protection84PENANAckOOkYAtde 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAbgF7Fu4EYE
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有段時間,我努力應戰即將到來的數學競賽,我跟雲層的高手組成一個團隊參戰,而每個禮拜都有線上補習上課磨練。8964 copyright protection84PENANAHQEkdCQP26 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAy4BaCbZDUg
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數學模擬題目使我徬徨,讓我品嚐到時間的付出不一定正比於回饋。8964 copyright protection84PENANApDsHW8Nf7K 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAltSiZ8DmbA
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就如同對妳一樣。8964 copyright protection84PENANA8dPsIFJonp 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAT1KKdRWHrH
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常常有種不想要努力的念頭,偶爾會在假日的下午放空發呆,抑或去海邊吹吹風舒緩疲倦的心靈。8964 copyright protection84PENANA9X6ucBKnnO 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAJyRlVI4QzR
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而這些壓抑許久的情緒,在考試那一天,久違的小爆炸了。8964 copyright protection84PENANAHfF6eBkfvV 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAn63sOm0VzX
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88Please respect copyright.PENANAf20Ied9Iwj
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我是真的在車上回訊息回到哽咽。8964 copyright protection84PENANAMH01nkXOCo 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAUL6xxebUOm
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88Please respect copyright.PENANApTJSJOlBRY
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但妳的訊息給我的感覺是,妳對我當時的狀況漠視。8964 copyright protection84PENANACE5Fo6rVjB 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANApb13AJwyyy
8964 copyright protection84PENANAYvdXIzLlfR 維尼
我到了雲層的本部門口,等待遊覽車的發動前往考場。8964 copyright protection84PENANAmriQkZ0E08 維尼
大家熱絡的討論數學跟聊日常(畢竟大家也很久沒見了),而我一個人顯得不是他們這一夥的,忐忑不安,原地徘徊,手上的手機放不下。8964 copyright protection84PENANAH7ocEQrwku 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANALdQvqK3IZO
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畢竟有些心緒不穩,明明沒有發生什麼事情我卻快要失控,從我將這些訊息打到妳的聊天室就可以知道了。8964 copyright protection84PENANA5Wg7aqoKuK 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANA6FdkyiSo7i
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「加油,希望你能自己成功走出。」8964 copyright protection84PENANA6KNVt8c4qL 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAV2XNdFnjj5
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很簡短,妳回覆了,不過本來我也不期望妳說些讓我安心的話語。8964 copyright protection84PENANAZNbSbe0UHg 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAVfF0QqLyyb
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因為我從那刻終於知道,或許我再也沒機會從妳那感到安心了。8964 copyright protection84PENANA0mX2WdUL4E 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAaNKZR3fBzF
8964 copyright protection84PENANAjD6wftLMJf 維尼
哽咽中,我假裝調侃的回道:8964 copyright protection84PENANAPEZqrVcE0K 維尼
「哈哈謝謝,我就把這句話當作妳對我的勉勵吧。」8964 copyright protection84PENANApWTwT1u8ZE 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAF5eBh0M237
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說真的很奇怪呢,明明妳也沒做什麼,妳也只是用跟平常一樣的方法回覆我的訊息。8964 copyright protection84PENANAdnCngLESXD 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANARNncVoiuqz
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可是我從心底可以深深的感受到,現在的我絕對是不得人看的慘樣。8964 copyright protection84PENANA8ZrZXR6hUV 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANA7IWfep50Py
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88Please respect copyright.PENANAXEjOzgIERw
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88Please respect copyright.PENANASzwM1obTCF
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我總是在對我們關係感到茫然的時候,才會打那些讓妳覺得莫名其妙的文。8964 copyright protection84PENANA6DhTsNo5eA 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAMREQqjE1yV
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或許妳覺得那只是我平常的習慣。8964 copyright protection84PENANAn4g6ZiW3qc 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAsqJDCeMRFa
8964 copyright protection84PENANAx1zAOgaw8N 維尼
我也跟妳說過,我好像只會對妳說這些話。8964 copyright protection84PENANAIbs3cqlghr 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANA2uYKqvOCO4
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總是在最後談完沒有結果的交談後,跟妳說那些是我多想時會有的負面情緒,希望妳不要將其放在心上。8964 copyright protection84PENANAMRpilYFkK8 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAhArvf9revd
8964 copyright protection84PENANArAhaTCHQXE 維尼
真的,我真的很討厭這樣的自己。8964 copyright protection84PENANAJsGMgZ1QfR 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAv8BP6GQlSx
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明明自己已經快不行了,還要向妳示意我沒有事情,希望妳可以不要放在心上,繼續走著妳的日子。8964 copyright protection84PENANAK7TLN0QXpD 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAXgxXgRBeXz
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88Please respect copyright.PENANAbajsNlVox8
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不過現在憶起,只能說當時的自己很強韌。8964 copyright protection84PENANAmdrFYgaKHb 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAYMf7dKS9Di
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一個人撐著這若即若離的關係,很累,很累,每一次找妳談事情,都是我每一次的崩潰。8964 copyright protection84PENANAjiV1cG8NyM 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAGShv6NgEMq
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88Please respect copyright.PENANAfRyo01YLey
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之後還有一個小插曲。8964 copyright protection84PENANAkrwRw2xKSo 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAqn6CUd5d3T
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某天深夜,我算著阿蘭交付的作業時,徐捷岳突然打了電話過來。8964 copyright protection84PENANAuxmwxnTVAY 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAadRgLnXwuh
8964 copyright protection84PENANAYRWhLqw11p 維尼
「喂,怎麼了。」8964 copyright protection84PENANAWPL4B1kKeK 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAbcfw6XJqa1
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「你怎麼不讀我訊息,受傷!」徐捷岳那邊看起來很火,但我聽得出來他語氣裏面帶有些玩味之心。「我給你連結,你來救我們數學!」8964 copyright protection84PENANAZ7GwWxHcWt 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANA2JgTVcp8Pc
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蛤……?8964 copyright protection84PENANAhtpOBJbEwA 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAzsvXhEJCk4
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「等等,什麼狀況?」我還未反應過來時徐捷岳已經切掉通話,留下一臉狐疑的我。8964 copyright protection84PENANAXC7D51mhYD 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAPERQivZtbn
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我嘆了口氣,看著頭頂的時鐘,好吧,就休息一下好了,今天也奮鬥很久了。8964 copyright protection84PENANAXEiyMROwpZ 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAqn8gM95qKV
8964 copyright protection84PENANAeg61WxXQUY 維尼
我打開了訊息,在點開徐捷岳的聊天室時瞄到了下面熟悉的對話框。8964 copyright protection84PENANAiJD27llVEp 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAlvbTYg4H0t
8964 copyright protection84PENANApshd8DeUzK 維尼
妳還沒讀我訊息呢。8964 copyright protection84PENANAiRC5K1nSwN 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAz3zPgP3DD8
8964 copyright protection84PENANAPa2aDbnXlR 維尼
但接下來的畫面讓我情緒波動。8964 copyright protection84PENANA8rBCC5NAuQ 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAKSPz5XRZ1k
8964 copyright protection84PENANA6usr3JkK7s 維尼
會議室裡面,有徐捷岳,珠姐,以及……8964 copyright protection84PENANAN3hGPXQdJn 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAINRzvPiqyN
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妳……?8964 copyright protection84PENANACvDDDOkDCs 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAnIWJtI3SPn
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妳們三個人都在裡面。8964 copyright protection84PENANAvAQy7wmdoX 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAHIWcmGmnoT
8964 copyright protection84PENANAGbUipVBBpB 維尼
忽視了徐捷岳跟珠姐在語音的吵雜聲,我按下了掛掉鍵。8964 copyright protection84PENANAVuhfQvfQyg 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANApapi7XsH3F
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我愣在原地不發一語。8964 copyright protection84PENANA7xSsYMlwmO 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAbbZGISE8gQ
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剛剛那是……?8964 copyright protection84PENANARSRtW07HXO 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAYLC0jOE4OG
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過了兩三分鐘,像是做好了萬全準備,我又再度進去了會議室。8964 copyright protection84PENANAcekcl6yh6I 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANA5HNqQJbJRZ
8964 copyright protection84PENANA5b3SvMBCP0 維尼
可是只剩下徐捷岳跟珠姐兩人的頭框。8964 copyright protection84PENANAnCN3QdfJFu 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAcM5rbnnCrO
8964 copyright protection84PENANAGJzP6YWEGI 維尼
「欸你回來了呀!!!嚇死我了你剛剛怎麼退出了啊。」8964 copyright protection84PENANAlxEzMT1l6b 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAwbEua7f8tw
8964 copyright protection84PENANAdNQbvFroT3 維尼
「你好你好歡迎~」8964 copyright protection84PENANAC2y85WstlS 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAGy5HTK9B9q
8964 copyright protection84PENANAen3rq4Ym9e 維尼
徐捷岳和珠姐似乎挺歡迎我的到來。8964 copyright protection84PENANAwjhhXDS7GQ 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANATgi865k75o
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「嗨嗨……所以你們現在在……寫數學?」我試圖忘記剛剛第一次進會議室的畫面,向他們兩個詢問。8964 copyright protection84PENANAsmXHhgbtpk 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAIZmzCUAJcE
8964 copyright protection84PENANAhDviYlclrD 維尼
「唉唉對啊…。」徐捷岳嘆了長氣。8964 copyright protection84PENANAVF3KyMqRgs 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANALzo9Svrbbw
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「維軍你要救救我們呀……」珠姐哀嚎。8964 copyright protection84PENANAXTspfuVBSt 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAPwigKuzd2t
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「好啦…就二十分鐘。不過…」8964 copyright protection84PENANAOO4OlcOnat 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAqh0V1rQ4g9
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「 「 「 啊啊啊啊啊啊! 」 」 」我還沒說完他們兩個就興奮的大叫了。8964 copyright protection84PENANATGAIPTw6g3 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANA7e3E1PCT4f
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「欸…等等先不要激動啊你們兩個!重點是我會嗎?」8964 copyright protection84PENANAOSEkoULyo0 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANArmnt0BtczN
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「哎呀放心啦這個你輕鬆。那我先傳給你題目,然後我們要問的是……」徐捷岳娓娓道來他們面臨的數學挑戰,聽著的同時,我打開了訊息。8964 copyright protection84PENANAmz3fz2CLhC 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAhotpT1whJq
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88Please respect copyright.PENANAH6jxDtA3Jr
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「剛剛好像看到妳了呢。在會議室。」傳送出去。8964 copyright protection84PENANAdndWpGfoLg 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAFGb9amA9W6
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88Please respect copyright.PENANAaZlJNguQA8
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我掛了通話,開拾收拾起了凌亂的桌子。8964 copyright protection84PENANA2vb7hiqsM5 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAe4xpoGd23O
8964 copyright protection84PENANAw7ukFsnZmP 維尼
不知道過了多久,我的手機訊息鈴聲響了。8964 copyright protection84PENANA4afXm74qBl 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAYYmuMh2CSU
8964 copyright protection84PENANA7mvVAu91cz 維尼
「嗯?」8964 copyright protection84PENANATeiqnrgdIT 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANASVY4SaI3kO
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「妳剛剛不是在跟徐捷岳他們語音?」我將東西擺放好後,向妳回覆。8964 copyright protection84PENANAvG8bLAN17W 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAxaXXGSIoZD
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「嗯嗯對呀,用數學。」8964 copyright protection84PENANAUBkJInVnkP 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAp2qPcymn53
8964 copyright protection84PENANAbJXsOrc1ga 維尼
「剛剛我有進去呢。」8964 copyright protection84PENANA4wf1OE5i8k 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANA2oqGZ5d6Ki
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「嗯?我沒有發現呢,而且我也很早就掛了,洗澡。」看到妳的回覆後我愣了一下。8964 copyright protection84PENANA2vCUFlVY09 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANA5WDAxRSbYu
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真的,沒有看到我嗎?8964 copyright protection84PENANAT8kCpu1R6r 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAkMbHfcqag4
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而且不是說這陣子都沒有打算,跟任何人打語音電話了嗎?8964 copyright protection84PENANAzYRrV0hIL4 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANADMmxzUN387
8964 copyright protection84PENANAT9xQnJOXLc 維尼
「不過妳不是說不太想講話嗎?」很試探性,有些刻意我知道,但這個是我當時能想到最委婉的表達方式了。8964 copyright protection84PENANABYbiDWwzLf 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAJ9KO3HmT3V
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「嗯嗯所以我只有聽他們講話而已啊。」8964 copyright protection84PENANAwyYgeVh7uy 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAlL7NtVasMH
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88Please respect copyright.PENANAIrldc78WmR
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有種奇妙的情緒使我打了個冷顫。8964 copyright protection84PENANAxpZXMJKg0y 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAVH6HZsiXEJ
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或許我不該繼續問下去了。8964 copyright protection84PENANAJid2CIo2qR 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAztbCUFlNSv
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還好我有做到,也轉移了當下的話題,就像是什麼都沒發生。8964 copyright protection84PENANA0vUlIibiyc 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAPlYznsQbzd
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畢竟,再問下去,好像對彼此都沒有好處。8964 copyright protection84PENANAsJP6bccVxQ 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAr9Nhf7N7ie
8964 copyright protection84PENANAA4jfXNFUNd 維尼
我相信妳,可是,我怕我又會多想。8964 copyright protection84PENANAQ1dRdnkzcX 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANA4sdfO2y2VC
8964 copyright protection84PENANAxDSdAr19mx 維尼
以為妳在躲我。8964 copyright protection84PENANA9YhEFXwmkW 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAKwKpy8hqzv
8964 copyright protection84PENANAhKCdkNvBQv 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANA5kmExq8MCW
8964 copyright protection84PENANA8rB2YZ0M8y 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAfnYDKCA9qt
8964 copyright protection84PENANAsdoP76Uukt 維尼
距離開學降臨僅剩幾天。8964 copyright protection84PENANAd6tfA6GZzk 維尼
可能是習慣了,我對妳有時的忽冷忽熱也無所謂了,妳冷淡,我也跟著冷淡,妳分享事情,我也跟著分享事情,變成了這種被動的相處模式。8964 copyright protection84PENANALPn0zv31Bp 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAy5tLTo4NTQ
8964 copyright protection84PENANANuZjKz10cu 維尼
我知道我在做違背自己意願的蠢事,但我真的別無他法了。8964 copyright protection84PENANAWcZmOsUYgq 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANA3oMowd9u6w
8964 copyright protection84PENANAqw05NDSNvB 維尼
就這樣到了開學前幾天。8964 copyright protection84PENANAlakKYjVLgS 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANA0s0q8MUaQ7
8964 copyright protection84PENANAhnxZ3UIKYZ 維尼
鑒於寒假的經驗,我對我們接下來的相處模式有種迷茫感。8964 copyright protection84PENANA8ACMC3Hy2W 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAXehOSYWS2X
8964 copyright protection84PENANAFbGKWBfSHa 維尼
更何況當時那種局面。分班,高二課業變忙,挑戰性越來越高。8964 copyright protection84PENANAR53lzKLrxJ 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAEdgaZb3jS9
8964 copyright protection84PENANAUQvTlUOXmY 維尼
所以我提議了中午跟妳去拿餐。8964 copyright protection84PENANAkBXkXMZuZ8 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAGbXxJXY8rx
8964 copyright protection84PENANAH8N4jKinqN 維尼
至少這樣每天都有見面的機會了,也排除之前困惑我們很久的誰找誰的問題(說真的這個只能說當時我們兩個不太成熟吧)。8964 copyright protection84PENANAKl5ywtADYE 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAm3zr79sOHE
8964 copyright protection84PENANA8uVuGOQot9 維尼
希望有了個保障才能安心入睡。8964 copyright protection84PENANAQYVMWEMujz 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAd2hC8u5801
8964 copyright protection84PENANAHqHaVk5LjH 維尼
只是,我那時候才意識到,真的不太像在談感情了呢,反而有點像是在破遊戲關卡,每一步都如此戰戰兢兢。8964 copyright protection84PENANAS2yRbKfVch 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANA7RUvPb7EM9
8964 copyright protection84PENANAWiEa1M4PNJ 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAue7vyQSfsT
8964 copyright protection84PENANAI0s5x9V6ty 維尼
幸好開學時我們的氣氛緩和了不少。8964 copyright protection84PENANAnmchhHHMvP 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANANVlMIrVDLJ
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一來,妳向我說妳最近憶起那些糾纏妳許久不好的煩惱,所以一直處在鬱卒的狀態。8964 copyright protection84PENANARDE7WCThIO 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANA8Q20hWGBKr
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二來,收到了妳送我的生日禮物,這陣子疲倦的心靈舒緩了不少,感動及感激的正面情緒湧現。8964 copyright protection84PENANArJ5WGgcGw9 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANACk5BMcSqQw
8964 copyright protection84PENANASiFNbdnLs3 維尼
三來,或許吧,我接受事實了。8964 copyright protection84PENANAXtHtRCnW1E 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANA34D78EH8Qv
8964 copyright protection84PENANAL2xx294bRz 維尼
至少自己是這麼認為的。8964 copyright protection84PENANAsOhJpuzOMq 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAJmBtDyLGLj
8964 copyright protection84PENANA2PuEd0YX8D 維尼
但九月十月這段時間我越來越不知道我是誰了。日記寫的凌亂,中飯吃不下去,有時會放空整天,而且越來越頻繁,胃的惡化嚴重到,我還去照胃鏡,還被醫生說可能要吃一整年的胃藥。8964 copyright protection84PENANAz5hVC95FEG 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANA7tJLIuaLwR
8964 copyright protection84PENANApB2B45c9Qh 維尼
心情也吞噬著唸書的本分。8964 copyright protection84PENANArEAiGOoqMU 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAH7Hn3OJ3Rf
8964 copyright protection84PENANAOLyDpGV2Qu 維尼
儘管複習考,第一次段考我考的其實不差,但我已經摸不著唸書的感覺了,心情的鬱卒吞噬了唸書的慾望。8964 copyright protection84PENANAeHfB85DNSd 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANA4lMyhBweAS
8964 copyright protection84PENANAFAWYjTBBLU 維尼
我這兩次段考前的週末是整天放空的,不過我沒有把這個事實告訴過任何人。8964 copyright protection84PENANAguAgWtrnxK 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANANXSZDhcfDn
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因為很丟臉阿……。原本最該認真的時刻應該就是段考前的時刻,我卻在那段時間荒廢,沉浸在苦苦的哀愁中。8964 copyright protection84PENANA3IwVzizEfk 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAvgt1XMvLPC
8964 copyright protection84PENANA2OZggCRmUL 維尼
現在的我真的很想回到過去給自己一巴掌。8964 copyright protection84PENANAxBoX9ETT2c 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAa6raIPEGb5
8964 copyright protection84PENANAGf5NZrJZ7a 維尼
真的很可笑呢,當時的我,或許妳也是這麼認為才有了疏離感吧?8964 copyright protection84PENANA7sTKz56Pv4 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAMsKtn3vAMr
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只是我沒有悔恨的意思,因為那是我的必經路程,只可惜當時妳的情況,也沒法給我適時拉一把吧。8964 copyright protection84PENANAoOulQzfcql 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAmrtEainS98
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於是我走火入魔了。8964 copyright protection84PENANAh0TGD7sJnj 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAHLMSsd04S1
8964 copyright protection84PENANAAGu3bPTPje 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAjN9mia6pq6
8964 copyright protection84PENANA6tV3htlb5r 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANA7B9isVnjFb
8964 copyright protection84PENANAFLvMtDcbig 維尼
我不該一直傳訊息跟妳討論我的情緒的,只是不這麼做,我那天的唸書計畫就會荒廢。8964 copyright protection84PENANAe0sHutVSGe 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAchBtble0Pk
8964 copyright protection84PENANAqyCVZ5PG8B 維尼
我不該太在意妳在妳的朋友圈跟在我的身上付出的多寡,不過真的很難啊…,妳說妳撐牙器拆掉後才打算跟人出去玩,我也期盼著可以跟妳出去的機會,四個月未見的心情真的很難掩飾妳知道嗎?…我真的只希望,只希望,就妳我兩個能獨自聚在一起,聊聊天,做做自己的事也好,我只是想要這樣而已…就這樣而已…8964 copyright protection84PENANAKe6cyyMvLx 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAIY5gPqM2EZ
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但我們的聊天內容中充斥著妳跟妳朋友的各個計畫,各個出去遊玩的規劃。8964 copyright protection84PENANAX1n1GnLr5b 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAcOrz8wDFID
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儘管我很喜歡聽妳的日常分享,內心卻時而有些隱痛。8964 copyright protection84PENANAcgns49WTWr 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANATj2MbbYuO1
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失望……嗎?倒也不是呢,就只是一種心痛罷了吧。8964 copyright protection84PENANASx1QcUioDn 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANA7MMItuoBYu
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88Please respect copyright.PENANAp2RenICSWU
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88Please respect copyright.PENANA617MVyoI4y
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我不該一直在拿餐時的走廊上刻意牽起妳的手,不適當的時機這麼做,顯得我需求感很重。8964 copyright protection84PENANAKPYEpbVds5 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANA32FM4skWqt
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在走廊上抱妳的那次,我真的內心快要崩潰了。8964 copyright protection84PENANAujpI2q1Cma 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAXedTpmYRpx
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88Please respect copyright.PENANAOqAASwsaVA
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而牽手這些親密舉動是兩情相悅吧,讓我憶起了妳曾經說的那句話:8964 copyright protection84PENANAC0Wb1wzqZl 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANA8XMR8aHm6Y
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88Please respect copyright.PENANAN8eCqZIz36
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訊息上每天固定說晚安是一種習慣,但牽手擁抱卻不是相同的概念呢。8964 copyright protection84PENANA6vvRx8ov5W 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAuahCxVM7r0
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88Please respect copyright.PENANAFGDwyOUImY
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當下我對妳這句話無動於衷,抑或是無法理解吧。8964 copyright protection84PENANAwiLfDNWe1e 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAzfuH5DE6lO
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88Please respect copyright.PENANAQl5sx7RnFl
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不過現在回想起來,挺中肯的呢。互道晚安只是尊重我們是情侶的關係,而牽手,僅僅只是因為,一種感覺。8964 copyright protection84PENANAqMMiTKYsbo 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAkQqzTbjJpq
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或許有些現實吧,但挺感同身受的。一直以來困擾過為何妳從沒主動牽我過這個事實,我能理解前期是基於害羞,基於羞赧,基於新知,基於尊重。8964 copyright protection84PENANAhzHBrgP8p9 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAEEM4l3ffx0
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但後期,沒有了兩個獨自相處的時間,這些真的,真的不值得一提。8964 copyright protection84PENANAvXHlFCiw4g 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAoXskhJCUCA
8964 copyright protection84PENANAfKg3HKGkic 維尼
而為什麼我當時會想跟妳探討這類問題?8964 copyright protection84PENANAyCiPuToiZk 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAb3MqTJChK6
8964 copyright protection84PENANAi9L3R1lLmM 維尼
不知道,可能我發瘋了吧。8964 copyright protection84PENANA96bEEayGY6 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAlslhEZjDqd
8964 copyright protection84PENANAl4eYjPJMJk 維尼
可惜妳也沒有阻止我,而是靜靜地聽著,靜靜地短訊息回覆,靜靜地當作一切都沒發生。8964 copyright protection84PENANArG2gXF21mA 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAKCxWNYCdSd
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88Please respect copyright.PENANA7XTlgefaFt
8964 copyright protection84PENANA5yyC12Yjal 維尼
在段考前,我提議:8964 copyright protection84PENANA5pYsiY73bT 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANA2xM2Xpypuk
8964 copyright protection84PENANAxSYRxoDp0J 維尼
這個週末一起出去走走吧。8964 copyright protection84PENANAdrOVEu8QEe 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANASPbGSh7sJx
8964 copyright protection84PENANAT95Eo7eIXa 維尼
嗯嗯。8964 copyright protection84PENANAf7Vyx54cuE 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANA23Fvfup8dH
8964 copyright protection84PENANAq6rGyz46VR 維尼
我也自己約法三章,在這一個禮拜,專心於第一次段考的課業,不再試著向妳回那些沒有結論的溝通訊息。8964 copyright protection84PENANApkC7pV21KJ 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANA9jrPYPxyVP
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我努力的克制。8964 copyright protection84PENANAI6sEFnBPfh 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAgVeUA2Zl4u
8964 copyright protection84PENANAfutLtdXeuM 維尼
成功的秘訣是什麼,那就是做絕。8964 copyright protection84PENANA76QP6mikyG 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANADMbgf0BXqM
8964 copyright protection84PENANAQkhuLy7TMJ 維尼
要是我沒有達成我給自己的任務,我就決定要給我們的關係一個了斷。8964 copyright protection84PENANAdckLOm2o03 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAMhTt0oPvPA
8964 copyright protection84PENANAe8HuIAwgKq 維尼
很絕情我知道,但正是因為不想要失去妳,我才會這樣做的。8964 copyright protection84PENANAedeIMzyAAh 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAXwXflZcHmB
8964 copyright protection84PENANAtFOugAGeml 維尼
因為不想失去,所以就能克制了。8964 copyright protection84PENANAx4upwfVfrn 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAqJ7VBU9Td5
8964 copyright protection84PENANASl2v1foshu 維尼
原本事情都很順,而我們也走在正軌上。8964 copyright protection84PENANA1e9cdofqq8 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAp722wyAnQw
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而就在某天拿餐的路程中聊天時,妳跟我說妳要跟刷刷禮拜六出去遊玩。8964 copyright protection84PENANAdmFvdxTvs0 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAE2j1pkpztn
8964 copyright protection84PENANAcGCECxy8FC 維尼
我愣住了,說不出話來。8964 copyright protection84PENANA77aUOOpwbJ 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAKHkKpmy1yt
8964 copyright protection84PENANAjdouI2dpa8 維尼
那是我約妳的那一天啊,那一天啊…8964 copyright protection84PENANAG0XoD0HOIo 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAoAhWme53Gl
8964 copyright protection84PENANAMwQelYi3lh 維尼
我跟妳提醒到,不過我們那天不是有約嗎?8964 copyright protection84PENANAUAvd6tKyID 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAzQwbliggl1
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妳轉過身來,跟我說,那就隔天啊,禮拜天啊。8964 copyright protection84PENANAZYvUQoAUSe 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAxhFoKRXy1E
8964 copyright protection84PENANALFrHoe2our 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAE52RX91OYG
8964 copyright protection84PENANAUggVpdACx3 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAujo3Ed31Bj
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我承認我過去也有跟妳毀約過。只是明明妳可以理解那是逼不得已的…我不像妳們家一樣,我爸絕對不會同意我們在一起的。8964 copyright protection84PENANAaxWuRtfprM 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAvadWohxcie
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也許妳還記得實驗課說要去小七唸書的邀約?我說的就是這個毀約。8964 copyright protection84PENANA4tcOVaD8Tt 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANArFr8Yxagvb
8964 copyright protection84PENANAufZw0f7hix 維尼
我很抱歉,記那麼久是因為,我也覺得我很不應該,應該要等我爸允許假日去看書後,再跟妳提起邀約。8964 copyright protection84PENANAyrQ8eqSOfV 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAPC9FqgA5jE
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88Please respect copyright.PENANAsG61FIGZqm
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88Please respect copyright.PENANAiws00RZtwf
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對不起,是我的錯。8964 copyright protection84PENANAvySdf1Kt6x 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAv7WDQ4kzRn
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88Please respect copyright.PENANAqq4Xsjpavc
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但眼前的妳給了我一種茫然。8964 copyright protection84PENANAtnpKASwtPb 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAiDNqXMX0VV
8964 copyright protection84PENANA5ScPdFdhNw 維尼
說真的不會很在意妳跟朋友的邀約跟我撞期,那都是可允許的,倒不如我很樂意調時間。8964 copyright protection84PENANAyNUjEpu6Nj 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANA1O8nt1zwlA
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只是妳那時真的讓我很不知所措呢。8964 copyright protection84PENANA7olPz1MMUx 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAgEzYGee9Dl
8964 copyright protection84PENANAtP6pmVVXXT 維尼
妳的語氣像是要一筆帶過,更何況……8964 copyright protection84PENANAyWf0pgd1yK 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAgrTTGSg8av
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88Please respect copyright.PENANAxRPKsJkhkv
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在一起這麼久了,我們什麼時候禮拜日出去過呢?8964 copyright protection84PENANAc4UZNc58ri 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANApKBEb2eR59
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88Please respect copyright.PENANA8wSqBw9SJo
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隨後,妳也沒有再多講,對這個邀約也沒有了下文。8964 copyright protection84PENANAvXYJ4qI5kz 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAmxNRy75meW
8964 copyright protection84PENANAkYqozDKVuR 維尼
幾天後,我淡淡的道:8964 copyright protection84PENANAhNE2xCEh8y 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAPhvboH1PpT
8964 copyright protection84PENANAahLq4qe3Aa 維尼
「不然,就原本約的那週的下個禮拜吧。」8964 copyright protection84PENANAw7VuQ3olzV 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANA99mXJK3ODb
8964 copyright protection84PENANA5iMgFN38Es 維尼
「嗯嗯。」8964 copyright protection84PENANALiQHQPDTx5 維尼
88Please respect copyright.PENANAH7Qq5gh070
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