I wish I could understand why I feel this way372Please respect copyright.PENANAPMtlC07I4E
Why flying doesn't feel the same 372Please respect copyright.PENANAIc6b8VHezC
And the lows don't seem to fade372Please respect copyright.PENANAJdWLTMdZlE
They just linger and remain
I find myself trapped with no incentive to fix it, to rewrite the narrative 372Please respect copyright.PENANAF3qu2TVfPG
Instead my mind picks it apart, going straight for the heart372Please respect copyright.PENANABy7lUpT7IM
I gotta give it to them, they play it pretty smart
I wish I could tell you everything that makes me hurt 372Please respect copyright.PENANA6SpyBxpSFL
I wish I could convert it into something better, avert from the inevitable 372Please respect copyright.PENANAcIdTd5wdqQ
I'll convert this pain into something that works 372Please respect copyright.PENANAxzECWxqtsq
Something that works to be charitable to my health, make my pain more revocable and severable 372Please respect copyright.PENANAciwhSnihma
Because after several years of being rendered inseparable from this feeling 372Please respect copyright.PENANAIo5VZacnFE
I finally feel like I'm worth freeing 372Please respect copyright.PENANAhKJKxwZjlx
That this pain made me bleed, but it can't keep me372Please respect copyright.PENANAbEFB3KADFf
I'm finally fleeing
But my superficial confidence is fleeting as my heart slows its beating 372Please respect copyright.PENANAw2ficQ5t1D
The breathing turns to drowning 372Please respect copyright.PENANAGgANLIaV9j
The seconds I'm counting, turns to shouting 372Please respect copyright.PENANA1rxq7eHE9L
I'm pounding on the walls, sounding my alarms372Please respect copyright.PENANAP3KKZSYfQk
But no one welcomes me with open arms372Please respect copyright.PENANAFrvec1svKg
Their love is fictitious 372Please respect copyright.PENANAIPEoZTL4rJ
So thus, restarts the vicious cycle372Please respect copyright.PENANAokLmbRoSOG
I try to focus on my survival, but I never see its arrival 372Please respect copyright.PENANAswsG9JPG2Z
So I lay here, my body limp and my heart slowing 372Please respect copyright.PENANA7upCU0NUEv
The deprival of blood, of color, of feeling 372Please respect copyright.PENANAgSuupCaKdH
My life is fleeting, like the confidcence I once had 372Please respect copyright.PENANAweHggwdBno
I never meet my revival
But no one understands, no one offers a hand 372Please respect copyright.PENANAv0VZEJVeiW
I try to stand, my lungs expand, only to to be stuck in secondhand smoke372Please respect copyright.PENANAbS7QYn0Rqs
My voice broke as the smoke filled my lungs and covered my eyes like some sort of cloak 372Please respect copyright.PENANAmI1w77nQwZ
I tried to yell, to call out for help, but all I did was choke
Falling on my knees, right back to the ground, I look around 372Please respect copyright.PENANAKUOFTvHvU4
Listening to the elaborate planning of everything demanding a change 372Please respect copyright.PENANA9lDGhvpgCt
They get their way, nothing remains the same372Please respect copyright.PENANAw9DvVqQFJU
All I feel is shame as I call out every name, hoping for someone to see everything slipping away 372Please respect copyright.PENANA71iomRkQbR
But no one comes my way, I'm disregarded and pushed away 372Please respect copyright.PENANAPhDbniFtvT
I guess no one wanted me around anyway
I give in to the deadly game, as if I was ever given a choice 372Please respect copyright.PENANAdtkDmOgiG3
But maybe my only claim to fame would be that I'm pretty damn good at playing this game 372Please respect copyright.PENANATA8lElBSc8
Even if it feels like I'm locked in a cage372Please respect copyright.PENANA1n3bVfsQQK
The game of push and pull with the demons in my mind372Please respect copyright.PENANAy3pEsn4tLF
Darkness covering my eyes, I'm blind 372Please respect copyright.PENANAA4XIgaQy9J
But full of myself and always on time 372Please respect copyright.PENANAX9dE44sYBr
I admit that the crime is mine 372Please respect copyright.PENANAidS8FNisXA
Now I'll serve my time
I thought, maybe if I quit it372Please respect copyright.PENANALGCLoMxpyJ
The devil will lose his incentive 372Please respect copyright.PENANAg8rDDjLGUm
The weak little girl, poisoned 372Please respect copyright.PENANAw3bL8EzgjV
Too bad for his game of tainting the good
But even then he just pulled down my walls 372Please respect copyright.PENANA8sdm3lpBB2
Brick by brick 372Please respect copyright.PENANA7FXD3Wqn1Y
And now I'm back in this smoky pit, the light drained from it 372Please respect copyright.PENANAvHiR4Lu427
Smoke filling my lungs and ripping the sight from my eyes 372Please respect copyright.PENANA2ThoFBd52v
Once again, I'm blind
Even when I believe it's over372Please respect copyright.PENANAHgElUgoY0P
That the thunder has passed me by, the storm subsiding 372Please respect copyright.PENANAaIm1RpiiDW
It's still right there 372Please respect copyright.PENANAxJGd08WSst
The devil on my shoulder