I’m tired.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRlK4zrbPxZ
If I’m honest, the days keep dragging by724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdAvw6mKvX0
and my feet are sliding across the floor instead724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLD8JB6PNxT
of lifting with each step because I can’t find the energy724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuJj3XxTBfA
to pick them up and set them back down.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5DswlYMCMt
Some people turn and ask me to stop scuffing724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjnbeygjcfy
my feet on the floor, please lift them up and walk724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1U31iVGiWV
like a normal person, thank you.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5J7GqsxLX2
I try.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlPi3fitCV3
I try everyday to lift myself up and keep walking724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlZrXGOHhEF
but like my feet, I am scuffing across the ground724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9veTycXQbM
just barely making it from one place to another724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqzGYuMASi2
without damage.
I’m tired.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3hNSXiTWyR
Just this Wednesday I was driving home724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpoM2Z3WkHJ
on the highway, 480 West from Brookpark Road724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡth2GPs21LG
where the RTA takes me to Cleveland for classes, and724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKIilC9Jh52
during the drive, I couldn’t focus on the road before me724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡazv4BOKmgz
because the news that Trump had won left me shaken724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVithLOVIp0
for those I’m not sure how to help724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkJhq1uoXv4
when I’ve been given a privilege I didn’t ask for.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡshgTNazZrA
And while I was driving down the highway724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Bh8g84vqe
I contemplated the notion of jerking the wheel724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYaueJrBwx1
to the left and letting my car hit the divide between the724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Ysm8LAf8Q
highway East and the highway West; allow myself to724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc5RWWxBhjK
collide with the wall, break through and destroy724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRIIIRW2D0X
the other side.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmjjZ08fM5
Then, I contemplated jerking the wheel to the right724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdjsHKkd9Vz
into the ditch along the grass so I wouldn’t724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeSx3mybui6
harm anyone else in the process. But I724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOH31IkaHG5
didn’t do either, even though I724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG1ue9RZyb7
got so scared for a minute724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6c9Vpdtby4
that I would.
I’m tired.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3wOwpGXyFS
Last year on August 22nd, my birthday, I had a similar724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNKdnhZcLXD
reaction to suicidal thoughts. I had a rough724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7A2zq91AET
birthday; I worked, I was lonely, I felt724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFbt8a52lk6
pathetic, worthless, uncared for and forgotten724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfoY925701u
so I took the sharpest and largest kitchen knife724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQsxDYg99G
and I pressed the tip of it to my chest, above my heart724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNFdFOIs6wc
and sobbed until I couldn’t sob anymore.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKnVwXQ6VtA
I did not press the sharp edge deep enough to724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVjLmeDAKD
draw blood, but it was the first time724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWdrbMmLhI1
I had allowed myself to724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡez3iYE5DTM
get so close to the temptation.
I’m tired.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGrn1a4F9I
I say that I want to die a lot, even though I never724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLXkxUzseeo
actually reach out and go through with it724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz3Yw9HYfQr
I think because I’m afraid of not existing724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxWqXCIc6oW
just as I’m afraid of existing. And lately I724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhS6fAExGTS
have people who reach out to me when I’m not sure724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpukL98dAiH
how to reach out to them, and it’s sweet to have people724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSqvR2tMEfE
support me, but I go right back to wanting to isolate myself724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvDhgxTa2or
and give up. I have thought about dying every day724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpN22lMNDII
for the last few weeks and I wish I could just724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFDRwgPDcJY
go through with it.
I’m tired.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzbJO6rN81F
I’m so tired of being forgotten, of arguing724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsKRlP9w4RG
for people to care about me when they should724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEA54oXmTm
care about me on their own. I often think that724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq0x3yRhh2c
I should just stop putting in such an effort for those that724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpjhzqh20JO
do not consider me, but I can’t seem to stop caring.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP0cyj3Euwn
She often hurts me more than she improves my life724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdPGMMKyxv2
but I’m too afraid to say anything because724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbyx4dYPyAz
I need her. I need her to exist724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt04uiDEAQI
in my existence, and I need her to724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4mPt5zh4N
be by my side.724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnE4Hhr5Hv
But I’m tired.
I’m tired724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRnD9WMaQ1c
of being tired724Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLJUF2a2H9
in this tiring life.
