「你今個星期日有沒有時間來我家?」張雅己在訊息裡說。98Please respect copyright.PENANAsiRuOozToA
98Please respect copyright.PENANAQ56UwWe7zc
「為什麼?」我吃驚地問。98Please respect copyright.PENANA00FYYo95bV
98Please respect copyright.PENANAq1tCbjZgQZ
「不是你說我們要在學校保持距離嗎?我想跟你繼續討論,你不願意的話,要不我到你家去。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAnPbZI9m3zh
98Please respect copyright.PENANAFzi1QVKGpG
「不,不,還是我到你家吧。」我手忙腳亂,不知所措。98Please respect copyright.PENANAtaPx5ibGjX
98Please respect copyright.PENANA7RtV6hU2iO
「可以帶薛丁格一起嗎?我想看看牠。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAOE8GyyJ8HF
2008年12月7日星期日,98Please respect copyright.PENANAHLOHDJiJFp
我背著裝住薛丁格的貓背囊,來到張雅己的家門前。98Please respect copyright.PENANAeHS4GHgzYi
98Please respect copyright.PENANAQYJGXsp18T
緊張的按下門鐘,出來應門的是張雅己的母親,她很有禮貌地向我打招呼。98Please respect copyright.PENANA6MfubsOPqk
98Please respect copyright.PENANAZzaFlN1p1v
「雅己很少帶朋友回家的,特別是男孩子。」她笑咪咪,邀請我進屋,後面傳來張雅己的聲音。98Please respect copyright.PENANA9WTRS68xD7
98Please respect copyright.PENANApMGaaX02KZ
「你到了,快些進來吧。」張雅己催促我進去她房間。98Please respect copyright.PENANAVUNDoOKg42
98Please respect copyright.PENANAXorLFEB4hT
「要不要喝果汁?要不要吃零食?雪櫃裡有蛋糕。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAhK1g6nfcYw
98Please respect copyright.PENANATbM7GHwIgy
她媽媽繼續在我們身後說著客氣話,直至張雅己用力關上房門。98Please respect copyright.PENANAe86aQBDYMm
98Please respect copyright.PENANAiRtGGFO8Tg
她房間裡比我想像還要整潔,而且香。98Please respect copyright.PENANAMX5qVUtCwz
98Please respect copyright.PENANA0uisEFMBex
最重要是我第一次看見張雅己穿便服的樣子。98Please respect copyright.PENANAChqQGV1GDh
98Please respect copyright.PENANAuXOPoLsMy9
我從背囊捧出薛丁格,牠不太熟悉周圍環境,在地板上縮成一團,張雅己抱起牠。98Please respect copyright.PENANA46SGYpEl9E
98Please respect copyright.PENANAAlWPdWdlX5
「為什麼你主人會改你叫薛丁格這種古怪名字,他到底在想什麼。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAEOzMNfvSpD
98Please respect copyright.PENANAVmcu8w3LCp
她用比平時更可愛,像小朋友的說話方式,對著牠說。98Please respect copyright.PENANA8Fg20DeZM8
98Please respect copyright.PENANAhmZx7i3qnt
「牠好像比我第一次見牠時健康了。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAPnZjRJxj9v
98Please respect copyright.PENANAAJgSV4CZMt
「還胖了很多,我父母每天也買貴價貓糧給牠,快要寵壞牠。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAu9FE6KVeJo
98Please respect copyright.PENANATNmHh1V3Zu
「真好,我很羨慕你有幸福的家庭。」她說。98Please respect copyright.PENANAozv9QyZRI6
98Please respect copyright.PENANAD0jgHEdmBR
我腦裡閃過在警署時,她母親那哀傷的神情。98Please respect copyright.PENANAfA13NBSn48
薛丁格掙扎著從她手中逃開了。98Please respect copyright.PENANA2llwFBLUS0
98Please respect copyright.PENANATFQs584EHE
她不知哪裡找來一個貓玩具,高大的她趴在地上,一直逗著薛丁格玩。98Please respect copyright.PENANADCCilx2v8L
98Please respect copyright.PENANAfx56dIoyxc
「我把之前說的那套電影帶了過來,或者有參考的地方,你有dvd播放器嗎?」我問。98Please respect copyright.PENANArahB9XJRl2
98Please respect copyright.PENANAxaOaMC0SHh
「可以用電腦。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAmzDIcumJJ9
98Please respect copyright.PENANAPv8xyPYwwx
我們坐在地板上,靠著她的床,電腦螢幕很細,我們必須擠在一起看,肩碰肩。98Please respect copyright.PENANAWTeFl2aRuu
98Please respect copyright.PENANAdpYYPuJxhQ
若撇除了我坐在這裡的原因,是為調查她是誰的幻想,還有她是個自殺了5次還死不去的女生,我們現在這個模樣,不過是兩個平常少年少女坐在一起看電影然而。98Please respect copyright.PENANAKyc5zXHzHR
98Please respect copyright.PENANAHrJHy8Yk4I
薛丁格走過來鑽進她膀胳,她溫柔的抱牠入懷,在牠脖子的毛皮上親吻。98Please respect copyright.PENANAAsmIzBjqej
98Please respect copyright.PENANApWUql9n1O6
我想她的吻該是甜蜜又溫暖。98Please respect copyright.PENANApu5Fbx2Tid
「沒有人希望自己死去,不幸地我們都難逃一劫。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAq1oQH0IKag
98Please respect copyright.PENANAnvFbTLdz8E
「終有一天,你會死。可能在銀行心臟病發、可能被薄荷珠嗆死、或者在你度假時罹患不治之症。你會死,你必定會死,即使你逃避了這次,也有其他原因導致你的死亡,而且我可以保證不會像她寫的那樣有詩意和充滿意義。」98Please respect copyright.PENANA8fhtYMmznN
98Please respect copyright.PENANAJfYN4iBUnZ
戲中其中一個角色對男主角說。98Please respect copyright.PENANALCv7FXFMkM
98Please respect copyright.PENANA1OaThGemEJ
我偷望身邊的她,她看得入神,我看到她眼紅紅鼻子也紅紅,一顆眼淚隨她眼睛輕眨,滑落到她的面頰。98Please respect copyright.PENANA7CiDckz4JN
98Please respect copyright.PENANAA2wcqxcWQA
我不敢哼出半點聲音,不自覺減輕呼吸,假裝沒有發現她在哭。98Please respect copyright.PENANAqU7WXrw470
98Please respect copyright.PENANAlhIGRmccNW
電影完結,她立刻站起來背著我,我知道她正用手擦拭眼淚。98Please respect copyright.PENANAhGZWc87IeU
「電影很好看。」張雅己咽哽著。98Please respect copyright.PENANAdQNWIeMQYL
98Please respect copyright.PENANAiag6hO9Ao4
「嗯,但好像沒有什麼值得參考的地方。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAb1OhTjpVYy
98Please respect copyright.PENANAgTDGho0SXJ
我看著她的背影,終於按奈不住,鼓起勇氣問我一直想知道的問題。98Please respect copyright.PENANAU34nTeb9Xy
98Please respect copyright.PENANAYzP6SiGohM
「你可以告訴我你自殺的理由嗎?」98Please respect copyright.PENANACWs0wb8XSt
98Please respect copyright.PENANAvdMWq93fST
她沒有回答,依然站在原地背向著我,我聽到她因為哭過,急促的氣喘聲。98Please respect copyright.PENANAp2cLU7Z3uu
98Please respect copyright.PENANApGe4zwSjCt
「我不想說。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAwlKjme2jPB
98Please respect copyright.PENANAGkk7C3dZJt
「可能是其中一個線索⋯⋯」98Please respect copyright.PENANAvchnR9eeY1
98Please respect copyright.PENANAKy82Jc8Rq8
「我不想說。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAPRLUn9Rx5U
98Please respect copyright.PENANAabhfAUPI98
「可能對事情會有幫肋⋯⋯」98Please respect copyright.PENANAW4PJnONMGc
98Please respect copyright.PENANAaPUEEqwo5y
「我說了我不想說!」98Please respect copyright.PENANAHvgh99vE5g
98Please respect copyright.PENANA7X62IdW2NU
我第一次聽到張雅己這麼大聲說話,房間裡像迴盪住她的聲音。98Please respect copyright.PENANA3Oi6a2aMuj
98Please respect copyright.PENANAH6Zn2g692M
薛丁格嚇壞了,躲在我腳邊,我抱起牠,把牠放進貓背囊。98Please respect copyright.PENANAoLS7NZV4fO
98Please respect copyright.PENANAwq5Tbd672k
「對不起,我想我該離開了。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAWZ2m6YfE1q
98Please respect copyright.PENANAkpFOVaPS46
我轉身開門離去,張雅己也沒有回頭,我看到她的背影在微微顫抖。98Please respect copyright.PENANAy7iUQho6qv
張雅己的媽媽在門外聽到她大聲說話,以為我們吵架。98Please respect copyright.PENANAN200FmcjQS
98Please respect copyright.PENANAHJCSCytUE5
「對不起。」她不知為何,跟我道歉起上來。98Please respect copyright.PENANA0f0yrubKxR
98Please respect copyright.PENANAv5tOU0tPzi
「不,是我不好。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAu5tiaYkMxj
98Please respect copyright.PENANAoYYSDubxbq
「她小時候,是一個很乖很親切的小孩。自從她爸爸過世後,我就不太懂她在想什麼。」98Please respect copyright.PENANArLqp343Cln
98Please respect copyright.PENANAyT8B0IUkEE
她看著客廳牆上的照片說。98Please respect copyright.PENANAWt9ShBd37i
98Please respect copyright.PENANAjpVj65JHkq
「如果她爸爸還在這裡就好。」98Please respect copyright.PENANA4Zh1lefcuh
98Please respect copyright.PENANAzPERVyctSl
我走近,想看看張雅己的爸爸。98Please respect copyright.PENANAOXfTg3apQ0
98Please respect copyright.PENANAEwTYbIbPbo
那是一張家庭合照,她媽媽年輕時更像張雅己。她抱住還是嬰兒的張雅己,坐在沙發上,旁邊站了一個高大的男人,應是她爸爸。98Please respect copyright.PENANAQslCDpBR2K
98Please respect copyright.PENANAmLq8kDBqQw
「不好意思,我可以問張雅己的爸爸是何時過生嗎?」98Please respect copyright.PENANAV1TdGaigQh
98Please respect copyright.PENANAxYMls7lBuS
「嗯,是張雅己4歲的時候。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAjof7P7sYlR
98Please respect copyright.PENANAW2CF2tNQZg
家庭合照的右上方,貼了另一張照片,大概是她爸爸年輕時跟朋友登山的合照。照片中有4人,前排是兩個女生跪在地上,高大的張雅己爸爸則站在後面,親蜜地用手搭著身邊另一個男人的肩膀。98Please respect copyright.PENANAvB3BipJxmG
98Please respect copyright.PENANAlNTcV3yefZ
「這張照片是?」98Please respect copyright.PENANAapcs8IRuh9
98Please respect copyright.PENANA5jKshpsRnv
「那是她爸爸大學時期參加登山社拍的,我們當時還未認識對方。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAK8OnBBWH3y
98Please respect copyright.PENANANZ89f1dR3P
我總覺得她爸爸身邊的那個男人很眼熟,好像在哪裡見過他。98Please respect copyright.PENANAElIrxNGTfz
98Please respect copyright.PENANAMw48ZrpMxM
這時候,廚房的水壺響起來。98Please respect copyright.PENANAyWhpHBkvLS
98Please respect copyright.PENANAYQDH3YI3lH
我趁著張雅己媽媽跑到廚房關火,趕快用手機拍下家庭合照和那張登山照,然後匆匆離開了。98Please respect copyright.PENANACTWiqpXvpp
「對不起,我不應該發脾氣⋯⋯」她訊息裡說。98Please respect copyright.PENANAwHWi2AnnkJ
98Please respect copyright.PENANAummc57gCr6
「不,是我不對,我明白你不想說,我不應該追問。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAAInNcyOFiN
我回覆。
ns 172.70.100.183da2