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這不可能是真的。33Please respect copyright.PENANAHla6Sai4ts
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要快點醒來,站起來,趁現在快點離開。33Please respect copyright.PENANAvnDtJKuNsN
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言曇岫的理性在腦海中急切地說著,四肢卻不聽使喚,這誘人的溫暖,要他如何不貪婪?33Please respect copyright.PENANAy5oD1Af2Ef
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跪在地上抱緊他的黎絳洵輕聲說:「沒事了,別怕。」獨屬黎絳洵的吐息主宰了言曇岫的全部。33Please respect copyright.PENANAXfxLsz4tBM
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這不對。33Please respect copyright.PENANAPWSq54nZrd
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這不會發生。33Please respect copyright.PENANAE5tziRgXYl
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黎絳洵不可能──33Please respect copyright.PENANA5S1ZSb9nM5
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言曇岫的思緒被黎絳洵的吻完全阻斷。33Please respect copyright.PENANApNlEkYRTf9
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彷彿要將他揉進骨血的渴求壓迫著他的嘴唇與胸腔。33Please respect copyright.PENANAGC8J4PIB81
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過於美好的幸福,過於美好的夢。33Please respect copyright.PENANAHvltnjlt2F
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不可能發生在他身上。33Please respect copyright.PENANAIk9nYG2Ol9
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「綉綉,沒事了,我會找到你的。」33Please respect copyright.PENANATvLhXha4lO
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心跳,好像停了。33Please respect copyright.PENANAjeVzT80FaF
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那天晚上,言曇岫沒能走成,肇事逃逸的貓早就不在屋裡,言曇岫能聽見的,剩下彼此的呼吸聲,許久後,言曇岫艱難地拿出腰間的香囊,按在黎絳洵鼻尖,直到他睡去。33Please respect copyright.PENANAMdWiNagpvQ
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言曇岫抱起黎絳洵,將他放在床上,蓋好被子後,輕手輕腳地離開,並在自己房中,枯坐到天明。33Please respect copyright.PENANAJOd1DqE7Cd
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只有生母會喊他岫岫。33Please respect copyright.PENANAviRjjpTHbV
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他從來沒有跟黎絳洵說過這件事。33Please respect copyright.PENANACgaErBDMdj
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那是和自己名字相同的他人。33Please respect copyright.PENANAtIrTNHH0Ww
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黎絳洵真正在意的人。33Please respect copyright.PENANAgWdaMSsdOe
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也恐怕是,黎絳洵當初幫他脫離言府的真正原因。33Please respect copyright.PENANALWsgVkClZO
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即便是這樣,心底還是鬆了一口氣,他還能……再多看黎絳洵一下子的,對嗎?33Please respect copyright.PENANAeRnjPxiAfo
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他只是無法下定決心,去問出真相而已。33Please respect copyright.PENANAdcAwk1BV6V
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「曇岫?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAfdUJfJJUF8
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黎絳洵偏著頭看他,雙手撐在他面前的桌子上。33Please respect copyright.PENANAd7YWGBf2PQ
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──你到底、在找誰呢?33Please respect copyright.PENANA76LxBHRyFS
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「你怎麼啦?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAsv6AEy2wNB
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──你到底、在看著誰呢?33Please respect copyright.PENANATkpoVX7YfX
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言曇岫垂眸,視線落在自己與黎絳洵指尖之間的空白。33Please respect copyright.PENANARoPr7GoQSs
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「你要是睏了,就先去睡吧?」33Please respect copyright.PENANA9M3BK3DIQF
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──你什麼都不知道啊。33Please respect copyright.PENANAiXo396ptb2
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突然滑過眼尾的是黎絳洵的拇指,言曇岫一頓,整理好情緒後,才抬眼。33Please respect copyright.PENANAcXIOzjBRb0
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「我看你眼眶有點紅。」黎絳洵望著拇指指尖。33Please respect copyright.PENANAx0z9EHRnUc
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「我沒有……睡得好。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAArJcOxJLSC
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他想著這段時間的夜晚,雖然不願多談,因應熬夜而生的眼下淡淡一層黑色,卻無法說謊。33Please respect copyright.PENANAlq7Z1wLWHV
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「是身體不舒服?還是有心事?」33Please respect copyright.PENANANWsPVsewHp
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言曇岫按在手臂上的手指微曲,袖子蓋住的肌膚,留有黎絳洵喝醉之後,用力抓握而留下的瘀青。33Please respect copyright.PENANAYXM24KIQ8z
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「你喝太多酒了。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAUxTPW6vOB1
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「嗯,最近忙著退婚的事情,言府開了很多條件。」黎絳洵聳肩。33Please respect copyright.PENANAs7KeIGVSSF
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黎絳洵變得常常喝酒,因為酒精而升高的體溫,夜裡總是,從容納言曇岫的懷抱裡傳過來。33Please respect copyright.PENANAJ7DLfRS8ch
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「你有聽見嗎?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAdQUYk5shLE
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言曇岫盯著黎絳洵的眼睛,沒有眨眼。33Please respect copyright.PENANA59vV97CvAz
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黎絳洵微微低頭說:「不是你希望我退婚的嗎?怎麼還不開心?」33Please respect copyright.PENANA3gOdSvQUf0
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言曇岫閉眼,花了幾秒鐘,才按著桌面起身,「抱歉,我先去休息。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAEcVo0B0zr0
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明明應該要感到開心,因為黎絳洵記得他說過的話;明明應該要開心,因為黎絳洵沒有要和言曇橋成婚……不應該思考,即便不是言曇橋,也會是別人;不應該思考,黎絳洵更可能是因為他心上人而退婚。33Please respect copyright.PENANAgahMQq7f48
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夏季的午後雷陣雨,來得快、去得也快,不會留下看不到盡頭的黏膩。33Please respect copyright.PENANAaIz8d30R9j
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言曇岫眼裡映著剛才還滿是漣漪的湖水。33Please respect copyright.PENANA8wjwh0rw2J
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婚約原本就會退,畢竟言曇橋與外男珠胎暗結,言府才會巴著黎絳洵不放,不過是想給女兒一個可靠的歸處,給女兒腹中的胎兒找個假的父親,只是消息無論防得再嚴,黎絳洵總有辦法知道。33Please respect copyright.PENANA98S5eZin12
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他睡不好。33Please respect copyright.PENANATmkZoKKln8
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黎絳洵喝醉以後,總要抱著他親很久,才肯去睡。33Please respect copyright.PENANAnBsovhfq6r
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白天看見黎絳洵還是老樣子,對誰都很溫柔的樣子。33Please respect copyright.PENANAWHp0LMSzGL
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他睡不好。33Please respect copyright.PENANAnYvPCeIwwF
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夜裡被黎絳洵抱得太緊,只要一鬆開,言曇岫便會感到徹骨的冷。33Please respect copyright.PENANAsVCToyo3ff
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他假扮成黎絳洵喜歡的樣子,黎絳洵喜歡的仍舊不是他。33Please respect copyright.PENANAAVwGPQPV1Q
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他睡不好。33Please respect copyright.PENANAXFP3Yb8ys2
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他要得太多。33Please respect copyright.PENANAtHzzCuyp3O
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言曇岫側躺在床上,眼皮擋住的是酸乏,卻緩解不了疲憊。33Please respect copyright.PENANAZNh9R5YKy2
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半夢半醒間,他好像看到黎絳洵坐在床邊,手心按在他額頭上。33Please respect copyright.PENANAbe5fofl6kS
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只要再次闔上眼,就能在夢境中永遠不醒。33Please respect copyright.PENANADBR5VW5qNa
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言曇岫以為自己會因為被黎絳洵強烈渴求,而希冀他在夜裡飲酒;實際上他希望,太陽不要落下,黎絳洵眼中看見的,就可能還是自己。33Please respect copyright.PENANAswRL6YLRRE
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哪怕那是在黎絳洵醒著時,不可能有的親暱,也不真的屬於自己。33Please respect copyright.PENANAXIrtf54foN
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不知為何想起了,黎家的貓終於願意靠近自己時,黎絳洵突如其來的沉默。33Please respect copyright.PENANAx38LfHVHo9
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那時候,黎絳洵在想什麼呢?33Please respect copyright.PENANAjEMwJwBaSj
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言曇岫想睜眼看清楚黎絳洵的臉,只是莫名使不上力。33Please respect copyright.PENANAVcn2jeLClb
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黎絳洵的手輕撫著他的臉龐,言曇岫聽見自己的心跳聲壓過了呼吸聲。33Please respect copyright.PENANA23Cpy0Uszo
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確認人已經離開很久以後,言曇岫才鬆了一口氣,能正常呼吸時,淚水也滑落到枕頭上。33Please respect copyright.PENANAHLOZGffEz5
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好像很久沒哭了,他想不起來。33Please respect copyright.PENANAJlV2SbbZmU
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和黎絳洵無關的過去,蒙了塵沙,模糊得看不清原本的顏色。33Please respect copyright.PENANAvr3eBmHF8r
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後來連著幾天,黎絳洵都沒出門,言曇岫試著和以前一樣和對方搭話,黎絳洵看上去心不在焉的,貓咪在他腳邊叫了很久,他才抱起掙扎的貓,走出門前,他忽然回頭問言曇岫:「你是不是不記得這隻貓的名字?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAgSu7fcjabx
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「我……我分不出來哪隻貓是府裡的,哪隻是不認識的野貓。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAEYsNGSt4Sv
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黎絳洵不置可否,背影消失在門後。33Please respect copyright.PENANAMIA9MxAmHJ
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用過晚飯後,黎絳洵放下碗問:「今年的子夜祈願,你要去嗎?」33Please respect copyright.PENANA78AJt9UXrP
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「原來明天是秋分了,我沒注意到。」言曇岫不曉得黎絳洵為什麼問他,畢竟往年,黎絳洵都會在秋分外出,前一晚總是早早睡下,言曇岫去的幾次子夜祈願,都是黎絳洵的父母帶他去的。33Please respect copyright.PENANAw0MsjOXXEQ
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因為他們這邊的習俗,秋分是休息日,前一晚會有祭典,到子時鐘響,大家會一起祈願,通常都是許願秋收豐盛、來年風調雨順,自然也有尚未婚配的少年、少女祈求姻緣。33Please respect copyright.PENANAZUy4qewSqx
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黎絳洵雙肘放在桌上,稍微往前傾問:「要一起去嗎?」33Please respect copyright.PENANA1s3EN1qSLx
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「你明天不是要出門嗎?」33Please respect copyright.PENANA4DiMhDy69R
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「不用啊。」33Please respect copyright.PENANADucZMBlBzs
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言曇岫望著黎絳洵,他們從來沒有一起去過。33Please respect copyright.PENANA8KQ8daxsAs
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「我想去,和你一起。」雖然不曉得黎絳洵為什麼今年忽然不出門了,言曇岫拒絕不了黎絳洵。33Please respect copyright.PENANAZEGtwjG3YB
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秋分前日的祭典,是在輪流在附近幾間比較大的寺廟前舉辦的,今年輪到的這間,陪祀的月老很靈,名氣甚至壓過了主神。33Please respect copyright.PENANArL98fZd5wp
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由於今年的秋分早於中秋,明年很可能是豐年,大概今天子夜祈願的時候,來許願的人比較少會祈求穀物豐收,改求姻緣吧。33Please respect copyright.PENANAQR5yzZeU4j
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好不容易才撥開人潮、追上黎絳洵,言曇岫氣喘吁吁地扶著膝蓋,看向黑夜裡更加醒目的黎絳洵。33Please respect copyright.PENANADukEa6CFyF
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「幹嘛這麼急?我又不是不會等你。」黎絳洵笑了笑。33Please respect copyright.PENANA8H0cDX9i87
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「我總不能和以前一樣,拉著你的袖子。」33Please respect copyright.PENANASKo7M4Hcgt
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黎絳洵不解:「為什麼不行?」33Please respect copyright.PENANA6h1fa2uQPx
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「因為我不是小孩子……了吧?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAj0yC67XjMj
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「你為什麼聽上去那麼不確定啊?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAizqnq5Y9SQ
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「因為,我覺得在你眼裡,我永遠是孩子。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAHEl6LCCiKl
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言曇岫等了一下子,黎絳洵都沒說話,他才將視線放回黎絳洵的臉。33Please respect copyright.PENANAde6brXymSQ
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「那不是小孩了的言公子,覺得要用什麼方法,防止走失?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAWjhCBF09Lk
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言曇岫下意識看向其他人,果然很多都是一對一對的男女,比較矜持的,是用帶子兩端綁在兩人手腕上,比較大膽一點的,是直接牽手。33Please respect copyright.PENANAKajitoRCFj
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意思是說,他能在這兩者之間選一個嗎?選哪個都可以實現嗎?33Please respect copyright.PENANAX9rACqxSve
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黎絳洵的目光隨著言曇岫伸出的手,最後落在自己手腕上。33Please respect copyright.PENANA8BBCdfKznO
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言曇岫看不清楚黎絳洵的眼神,手心也漸漸不再乾燥。33Please respect copyright.PENANAfVQMZTMpEK
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當所有人被最後一次煙火吸引注意力時,黎絳洵反手牽住言曇岫的手。33Please respect copyright.PENANAqZ4gJS0z4V
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「言公子還說自己不是小孩?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAYctwmmn0DX
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言曇岫看著對方的嘴唇,他有聽見,只是沒有聽懂,黎絳洵笑了笑,拉著他走向準備祈願的人群之中。33Please respect copyright.PENANAFT6KdUkkbw
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很多人的話,不同的聲線,不同的語速,聽上去都是祈求得遇良人。33Please respect copyright.PENANAbcNYTl6ZYl
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黎絳洵的背部很近,比虛無縹緲的神靈,要近得太多,言曇岫希望黎絳洵能聽見,又希望他沒在聽。33Please respect copyright.PENANA7izUjRGxP0
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──請給我、再多一點時間。33Please respect copyright.PENANAgalWpDaUlV
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言曇岫不確定自己有沒有說出聲,他彷彿被煙火爆炸的聲音炸礱了一樣,很長一段時間,都什麼也聽不見。33Please respect copyright.PENANA9H3Dg4Ennp
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黎絳洵見他失神,把剛買的紅豆餅貼到言曇岫唇上。33Please respect copyright.PENANADCrdJdSZG4
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言曇岫有短暫的時間,想著要是能將眼前的人,拉入懷裡就好了。33Please respect copyright.PENANAhDwvkqjXjH
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甚至想,要是現在,能接吻的話,黎絳洵是不是可能──33Please respect copyright.PENANAHkfoIKLphq
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言曇岫用力閉了閉眼,正要下定決心拋棄剛才的所有妄念,咬下那個香甜的紅豆餅就揭過去這件事,人卻被推向樹幹,他睜眼後,只看到黎絳洵的臉靠得很近,黎絳洵一手按著他的手腕,另一手阻隔在樹幹與他的腰之間。33Please respect copyright.PENANAcerTrBrRsK
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光在黎絳洵背後,言曇岫看不清楚他的表情,直到人聲漸漸杳去,黎絳洵才轉頭看向旁邊,攤販的燈籠照著他的側臉。33Please respect copyright.PENANA7npHE6KoLf
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言曇岫想知道他的真實情緒,卻只看見飛蛾在燈籠外胡亂繞行。33Please respect copyright.PENANAt6z4AbHn4A
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黎絳洵終於轉移視線的時候,言曇岫下意識低頭避開,望見的是從燈籠底部落下的著火飛蛾,掉在地上已被踩扁的紅豆餅旁邊,火花很快就熄滅了,比螢火蟲的光還要不醒目。33Please respect copyright.PENANAFWAVrJVOvN
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「抱歉,剛才言小姐在附近。」33Please respect copyright.PENANASt9nbYrUZe
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黎絳洵的聲音太近了,言曇岫只要再前進一些,就能撞上他的體溫,只是將妄想化為現實的衝動,隨著火光熄滅,也跟著泯滅了。33Please respect copyright.PENANAhYamL1CDhK
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言曇岫聽見自己說:「那個紅豆餅,我還沒吃到。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAeqlGGAoCU2
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