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【最近陸續有些關於我和一位童年朋友的討論出現,首先謝謝大家的關心。】24Please respect copyright.PENANAQUYTGLrcQh
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剛翻過山頭的風,夾著落葉的氣味與曬乾衣物的餘溫。24Please respect copyright.PENANATq0oNA10ed
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星野莉奈走在堤防上,鞋跟落在水泥地面時,發出清脆的聲音,一聲一聲地迴盪開來,像是在提醒這條路還記得她。24Please respect copyright.PENANAsSiU6Jtqu8
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從前下課常常會經過的堤防。24Please respect copyright.PENANA6ILgMmo2ug
那時候有兩個人陪她,一個走在前面,腳步又快又穩,幾乎從不回頭;另一個則總是邊走邊轉身看。24Please respect copyright.PENANAb8m4uEQWRe
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她是刻意回來的。24Please respect copyright.PENANAQ9phQjknk5
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這段時間以來,她沒什麼選擇要去哪裡。但今天早上,她特意搭車繞了一大圈,穿過熟悉的巷弄,從轉角的便利商店買了杯咖啡——然後慢慢地,走上這條堤防。24Please respect copyright.PENANAXabyJnKfgx
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有段時間沒回來了。這裡什麼都沒變,卻也好像哪裡都不對了。24Please respect copyright.PENANANQKmhLQQL2
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她越過欄杆,挑了一個熟悉的角落坐下來,雙手撐著身後,放在地上的咖啡溫度一點點流失。海面被陽光照得亮閃閃的。風很輕,把水面吹得微微發顫。24Please respect copyright.PENANASSvJsuq9i9
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視線落在旁邊那塊地面上。24Please respect copyright.PENANA4Rh3MaQ1wu
那裡曾有笑聲、有曬傷、有小孩的影子——現在只剩下幾片風裡翻飛的落葉。24Please respect copyright.PENANAVidDWweWA1
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記得之前的某個夏天,哥哥被曬到一直翻著死魚眼,弟弟嫌地面太熱,一邊哼哼一邊把臉貼到她的影子裡避陽光——24Please respect copyright.PENANAmcSbAc71F1
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她忽然分不清,那些畫面是過去的記憶,還是她自己想像出來的。24Please respect copyright.PENANA7i6rSypwi6
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斜陽傾瀉在堤防的弱波石上,抹上一層薄金色的光。初秋的風從海那頭慢慢吹來,帶著一點潮氣,也帶走了一些什麼——安靜、乾燥,空空的,像收尾的季節。24Please respect copyright.PENANAjRkpqUOqWH
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她靜靜等著。24Please respect copyright.PENANAjbPYLspJwJ
沒有傳訊息,也沒有打電話。24Please respect copyright.PENANAVScyBypeor
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她只是——想碰碰運氣。24Please respect copyright.PENANAGos39I9Jl0
也許會遇到那個,傻傻支持自己的身影。24Please respect copyright.PENANA1Ka3BCAWbR
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那個會從後面叫她名字、會在她嘴角皺起來時遞糖果、會用一種單純到幾乎讓人想哭的方式說「好」的——24Please respect copyright.PENANAGyYg7iUj9i
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小凜。24Please respect copyright.PENANA8GFb5jwG4M
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她很想再見他一面。24Please respect copyright.PENANAGne4VbJtgw
很想告訴他——雪夜那天,他哥哥最想說卻沒說出口的話。24Please respect copyright.PENANA5qCQNUhFIr
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那些話一直卡在她胸口最深的地方,卡得太久,太久了。24Please respect copyright.PENANA63wK399XWB
她覺得自己再不說,就會沒力氣說了。24Please respect copyright.PENANAZBdQwftoMr
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她知道那不一定能修補什麼。但至少該讓小凜知道——不是因為他不夠好,而是因為他太好了,所以哥哥才會那麼怕他走錯路。24Please respect copyright.PENANAkMLJWxvNxW
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在無數的學生經過她後,她多等了一陣子;又多坐了一會兒。24Please respect copyright.PENANAZZylHNmXzS
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還是沒有任何人出現。24Please respect copyright.PENANAxop6MIIXo2
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空氣悶得發膩,時間彷彿被什麼卡住不動。24Please respect copyright.PENANA1FYJIAcHOg
她盯著欄杆那塊地面,那曾是他們一起躺著看天的地方——24Please respect copyright.PENANA5jvC84VuNA
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她慢慢意識到——24Please respect copyright.PENANAXS3qpJMR9n
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不是冴不在。24Please respect copyright.PENANAuHSyUZfW63
是連小凜也不在了。24Please respect copyright.PENANAckrtkjFcgd
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那份最單純、最直接、毫無算計的支持,早在那場雪夜裡,一起碎了。24Please respect copyright.PENANAjgV8Sxckea
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胸口被什麼堵住,喘不過氣來——比那天回歸賽上,小凜看她的那道冰冷眼神,還更讓人窒息。24Please respect copyright.PENANAkaiWJcbwZW
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直到這一刻,她才深刻體會到,那天雪夜他們真正都失去的,是什麼。24Please respect copyright.PENANATJ9aJfSkGH
不只是一場爭執後的沉默——而是整個曾經彼此連結的、那個「我們」的形狀。24Please respect copyright.PENANAOj7TTfzvml
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有什麼東西,徹底崩塌了。24Please respect copyright.PENANAKLmoorCdsQ
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她一直以為,哪怕不在彼此身邊,他們也都在某個地方,在那個不必說出口的位置上,一直佇立著——自己還撐得住,是因為他們還在那。24Please respect copyright.PENANA2jXDnRHTOB
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可現在,那個「位置」,徹底空了。24Please respect copyright.PENANAIIHZOIhWWT
她終於閉上眼。風從耳邊掠過,帶走了什麼,只留下記憶的餘溫——只是她,永遠也碰不到那些泛黃的畫面了。24Please respect copyright.PENANAr3pjfxAl9P
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她慢慢站起來,沒有回頭看太久,只是輕輕低聲說了句:24Please respect copyright.PENANASDrl2W41tp
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「對不起⋯⋯晚了一點。」24Please respect copyright.PENANAyKoBLGRBP4
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然後,她轉身,走下堤防。24Please respect copyright.PENANA29MvG1TIkA
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——接下來,是她一個人的路了。24Please respect copyright.PENANAOG8akzruXm
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【工作這條路上,我一直都是一個人努力前行,也一直很珍惜所有合作的機會。】24Please respect copyright.PENANAgCQ4HyyrZ3
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她走進那家駄菓子店。24Please respect copyright.PENANAhUhKw5grDd
門口還掛著同樣斑駁的布簾,隨著風微微飄起,進門時還是會叮鈴一聲響。裡頭的貨架沒什麼變化,空氣中多了一點乾燥的糖粉味。老闆娘坐在櫃檯後面,戴著花眼鏡在數零錢,一抬頭看到她,愣了一下。24Please respect copyright.PENANAsmOIfAFsfF
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「哎呦,好久不見啦!啊這次怎麼只有妳一個人?」24Please respect copyright.PENANA8eb3jOGqqh
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星野莉奈輕輕笑了一下。24Please respect copyright.PENANALoPtphO3pH
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「小凜也很久沒來了耶,之前不是都會黏在妳旁邊嗎?以前你們一進門,都會先搶那個冰櫃。」24Please respect copyright.PENANARKmDbNcqrt
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老闆娘笑著點點冰櫃方向,語氣一如既往地親切,像什麼都沒變。24Please respect copyright.PENANAUC9h3eMLcp
她沒有馬上回答,只是慢慢走向熟悉的冰櫃。門外的風灌進來,帶著幾片翻飛的落葉和一絲樹皮的味道,冰櫃表面起了一層淡淡的霧。裡頭還擺著他們以前常買的冰棒——汽水、巧克力,還有她一直最喜歡的紅豆牛奶。24Please respect copyright.PENANA0LUalwo1NW
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她買了三支。24Please respect copyright.PENANAawZWOxIc2n
汽水,巧克力,紅豆牛奶。24Please respect copyright.PENANASuFF3fUZGT
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在結帳前,她看了一眼角落的抽籤箱。已經想不起,上次中獎是什麼時候了。24Please respect copyright.PENANATp7UvhYSPQ
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老闆娘抬頭看了一眼,還是笑著說:「是要一人一支嗎?」24Please respect copyright.PENANATQnMhONHq8
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星野莉奈沒回答,只笑了笑,把找零收好,走出店門。24Please respect copyright.PENANAxWvy2NuTGD
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外頭天色已經暗了下來。24Please respect copyright.PENANAQLP3jJOKLb
秋天的夜總是來得比預期更快一些,街邊的燈光剛亮,氣溫也驟然轉涼。騎樓前的長椅冷冷的,風帶著落葉打在磚牆上,發出乾乾的刷刷聲。她坐下,拆開紅豆牛奶口味的那一支,慢慢地吃了起來。24Please respect copyright.PENANAfNu2KrVj81
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甜味在嘴裡化開,比她記憶中的還要涼一些。不是夏天那種直白的冰,而是像從回憶裡挖出來的——久放在心底,反而更冷的味道。24Please respect copyright.PENANAHjqFSZhcNR
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汽水和巧克力口味的,她都沒動,就放在塑膠袋裡。24Please respect copyright.PENANApYbVtwtjUq
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沒拆,沒碰,就這樣靜靜放著。24Please respect copyright.PENANAJCLV4rMKkx
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當她吃完自己的那一支後,夜色已經壓了下來,另外兩隻冰棒也開始融化,包裝紙因為氣溫變化而起了霧。24Please respect copyright.PENANAYzRi91oR8n
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她沒有丟。24Please respect copyright.PENANASyz2Vh2sBL
只是讓它放著。24Please respect copyright.PENANA1Hg5TrO9am
就像曾經的什麼——還沒說完的話、還沒修補的傷、還沒來得及解釋的背影。24Please respect copyright.PENANA311lBCMpxe
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巧克力冰棒,跟著汽水口味,一路被她握在手裡。融化了,還是一起被冰進冰箱。24Please respect copyright.PENANAlN2BWumRAS
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在把冰箱門關上前,她又看了一次那兩根冰棒。24Please respect copyright.PENANAXCyAP1RcRJ
整個屋子只有冰箱燈亮著,白光落在她臉上。24Please respect copyright.PENANArCEvXt9uia
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她站在廚房一會兒,才緩緩走到客廳。24Please respect copyright.PENANAwebjASPdl9
媽媽那張封頂的模特照,依然對著自己微笑——最後走到聚光燈前的那種,沉靜而不喧嘩的笑。24Please respect copyright.PENANAB0N1KhIqHE
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——不是妳做錯了什麼,也不是妳不夠好。是這個世界,有時候就是這麼吵、這麼粗糙。24Please respect copyright.PENANA94DbI3oD0A
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眼神再次慢慢浮現出微光。她把手機從包包裡拿出來。24Please respect copyright.PENANAy9f6l1vQNc
訊息還沒回,電話也沒打。但社群軟體已經打開了好幾次。24Please respect copyright.PENANAUx9zdm6WFp
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不能什麼都不做。24Please respect copyright.PENANALkAMQAmVYP
至少,應該先站好自己該站的位置。24Please respect copyright.PENANABOyXeW59Tr
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『小川姐,我已經決定好了,就算不是妳原本安排的選項⋯⋯妳都會替我執行到底的,對嗎?』24Please respect copyright.PENANAPCecGlejBH
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送出,沒等回應。24Please respect copyright.PENANASTzZTs5D0t
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她把自己反鎖在房間裡,抬起頭,看向牆上一張張拍立得——那些被時光暈染的笑臉。24Please respect copyright.PENANA1BfMlfwK76
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正中央那張,是她和弟弟,一左一右,靠在哥哥身邊,笑得比什麼還要燦爛。24Please respect copyright.PENANAf1sAJsLwaO
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『以後我要拿這張照片跟全世界炫耀,這傢伙我小時候就認識。』24Please respect copyright.PENANAVY8HUCih5J
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她當時這麼說,語氣理所當然、眼神亮晶晶的。24Please respect copyright.PENANAeu4WqP4B3F
可現在,沒有炫耀,也沒有人替她開心。24Please respect copyright.PENANAit58FsB87G
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她的眼眶有點酸,但沒有淚流下來。反而更堅定。24Please respect copyright.PENANATEaOlogk28
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【我依然會專注於每一次拍攝、每一個廣告,每一位信任我的廠商,也持續挑戰自己還不擅長的事物。24Please respect copyright.PENANA66CbN4OfzF
希望大家能多多支持作品本身。24Please respect copyright.PENANA54XZ5GJk7m
#WorkInProgress #StillLearning #ThanksForCaring】24Please respect copyright.PENANAIklZOKEs15
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小川姐,對不起。24Please respect copyright.PENANAQ0XiaGsfzs
我是鏡頭前的模特兒「星野莉奈Rina」,可是絕不能否認那個在球場上、在堤防邊、三人一起的「星野莉奈」⋯⋯那是我真正的過去,我不能否認。24Please respect copyright.PENANAEBXSBM3KRF
我也不要一個從小就討厭鏡頭、從不對媒體多說一句話的人,去替我開口。那不是他會做的事——也不該是他必須做的事。24Please respect copyright.PENANAGBdGCB1x3s
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她放了一張照片。是攝影師在拍攝空檔抓到的角度。她側坐在窗邊,微微轉頭,眼神柔和,像是正在思考什麼。24Please respect copyright.PENANAkwkYeUee94
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不是刻意擺拍,也沒有笑容。24Please respect copyright.PENANA7LxAy0GYJM
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她按下了「發佈」。24Please respect copyright.PENANATjfzte2jdY
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