這算什麼?725Please respect copyright.PENANAOP2Vnq6bvj
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突然之間出現,說要給我一個測試,突然之間說完就完。725Please respect copyright.PENANAaM0cKtG7jL
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說什麼,我為傾姐哭了一回,她以後就會改變。725Please respect copyright.PENANAhtV68sJX2e
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說什麼人最厲害的地方在於改變態度,什麼事都能夠做到。725Please respect copyright.PENANAfLAnECC9Wg
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說什麼脫離不了人的思維,說什麼不如開創自己的人生。725Please respect copyright.PENANAQ60eNQAOVs
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神明丁在看著我,手中仍然拿著練習簿。725Please respect copyright.PENANAeI2pl8vf7W
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我伸手接過練習簿,慢慢站了起來。725Please respect copyright.PENANA7D8FRWB6YL
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走去岩石旁邊,拾起厚皮的孤島日記,裡面仍然夾著葉片。725Please respect copyright.PENANAMOgKlXsPaO
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然後便準備下山了。725Please respect copyright.PENANAW6XDRkcQ8U
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「其實我想聽朝先畀本簿你……」神明丁說。725Please respect copyright.PENANARhhOBrGObN
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「你想去邊?」祂再問,一直注視著我。725Please respect copyright.PENANARA9bowQfSN
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我嘴巴兩動,「餵雞。」725Please respect copyright.PENANAml2GNLMvwP
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一步一步離去,不久消失在祂的眼前。725Please respect copyright.PENANAPJn0Z2X3hw
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到了山腰,我撥開茂密的樹枝葉,走到空曠的樹底。725Please respect copyright.PENANA7j9dIkIlRP
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樹幹旁邊綑了一個雞籠。725Please respect copyright.PENANAR3zhok7W3V
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雞籠是我用很長時間,以枯枝、樹滕和氣根織成的。725Please respect copyright.PENANAtI350klt6Y
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裡面住了三隻山雞。牠們都是雌雞,一年有幾個月會生蛋,其餘時間白養。725Please respect copyright.PENANAFqqOXE3fft
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養雌雞的好處是,不會晨啼,不會在陽光出來的時候,「額咯咯咯……」725Please respect copyright.PENANACdHBwnnk15
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不會告訴我,又一天了。725Please respect copyright.PENANAVc4TrBnMvm
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在沒有光的晚上,雞會發雞盲,什麼都看不見。725Please respect copyright.PENANA7ttSBG3tMR
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我總是在這個時候,偷雞蛋吃。725Please respect copyright.PENANAvm2YSwUWhn
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現在就是沒有光的時候,但也沒有雞蛋吃。725Please respect copyright.PENANA75Lqp7R3WR
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我摘了一個水果,咬了一口,又咬了幾口。725Please respect copyright.PENANA6HVH3R3mio
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靠著樹幹坐下,我打開神的練習簿,從第一頁開始看起。725Please respect copyright.PENANAbZPkRHvJf3
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「陸傾兒,17歲的少女,願望是可以脫離現有的生活。」725Please respect copyright.PENANAJJwGjIkkiM
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摸著書頁,仍然覺得紙張的質感很特別,像是摸著人的心靈。725Please respect copyright.PENANABRqduNqjbl
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但此刻的觸感,跟最初摸的時候不同了。725Please respect copyright.PENANAaAuDUfvjx5
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怎麼說呢?725Please respect copyright.PENANARU4UTsMr8y
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本來是偏冷感的,現在多了一份溫暖,有冷中帶暖的感覺。725Please respect copyright.PENANATWvQAVVZBr
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「陸傾兒。」我撫摸著。725Please respect copyright.PENANABdT7ql5qxU
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翻開下頁,記錄著我的所思所想。我像個新的人一樣,無知又懷舊地上學。理性又感性地救人。725Please respect copyright.PENANAJ9zuueWPJi
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那天剛好也是我的生日,完完全全是慶祝我的新生啊。725Please respect copyright.PENANA1s4PPUaWxo
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「新生……」我繼續看著,翻後一頁。725Please respect copyright.PENANA0D3t1F1s5f
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「咁聽住喇喎。」她看著我說,表情漸漸柔和起來。725Please respect copyright.PENANAn1iB6jYpfP
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我再點頭。725Please respect copyright.PENANAq2tkaPAClM
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「孫正直,陸傾兒祝你生日快樂。」她露出笑容地說。725Please respect copyright.PENANAVZ5CvZeolI
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一天完了,有一個記號「END」。725Please respect copyright.PENANA38zAfaCacT
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我馬上看第二天。725Please respect copyright.PENANAOUMqnbXRqd
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中六的阿豪和阿晨還沒遭到天譴,還不知道蔣少的下場,李可兒的事情還未處理。725Please respect copyright.PENANAuuPo6mHVL6
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在傾姐以外,仍有很多問題未解決。725Please respect copyright.PENANA4g8H87m7wR
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在海邊替她戴頸巾、蒙眼餵麥提莎、訴說心事……725Please respect copyright.PENANAaroXaeczgb
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聽著她說自責的話,讓有共同體會的我,流下了淚。725Please respect copyright.PENANAl5pOGiPm4d
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「如果我喊一喊,就能夠令佢產生咁大嘅轉變……」725Please respect copyright.PENANA2Rrbsp6eVt
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「咁我做更多嘅嘢,咪會有更大嘅轉變?」725Please respect copyright.PENANAJ5lqJwtsnm
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第二天「END」出現。725Please respect copyright.PENANA91thsApv3B
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我蓋上了練習簿。725Please respect copyright.PENANAaTMmi2lwCW
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雙手把練習簿抱在胸前,深深地感受心靈的重量。725Please respect copyright.PENANAwG4Yy8axpp
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如果換一個態度去面對,會變成怎樣?725Please respect copyright.PENANA399IbcuonD
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深深地嘆一口氣。既然我已經不合格了,那麼我就不需要在意什麼神的慧根,什麼神的做法,不需要在乎神的目光。我就只需要做我認為對的事,做我自己就可以了。725Please respect copyright.PENANAKMPuM9Gveq
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問題是,我不只有一個自己,我有孤獨且軟弱的我,也有堅強而積極的我。725Please respect copyright.PENANAPtFZZraHll
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活在這個孤島的我,是軟弱的我。這兩天,進入練習簿中的是另一個我。725Please respect copyright.PENANAEArzbSxBeJ
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但無論哪一個我,都受著過去的影響。725Please respect copyright.PENANA9EcOD0rM6Q
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有人說,過去的經歷會影響人現在的生活。沉重的過去會成為腳上的鎖鏈鐵球,阻礙著自己前進。725Please respect copyright.PENANAWDBU8WY97V
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我現在是不是正被過去束縛,而停滯不前?725Please respect copyright.PENANAYHKsyAeyqE
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剛剛看完練習簿,在學校裡的我總是回憶和感觸,放學後也是,看見別人在牽手也感慨一番。725Please respect copyright.PENANA3Lem4to6FH
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只有一個時候,我變得特別不同。特別珍惜時間,沒有回想過去,腦海像是沒有過去的人一樣只享受現在。725Please respect copyright.PENANAFZwuJat219
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「你都有今日。」陸傾兒陰笑,馬上得逞地說,「繼續答頭先嘅問題。」725Please respect copyright.PENANAlZo59jMOzF
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「我揀大膽。」我逃避地說。725Please respect copyright.PENANA6woBgu6DBC
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「吓?」她難以置信,激氣地說,「我話畀你知,我突然之間好唔開心!你揀大膽嘅話,你真係要好大膽先得。」725Please respect copyright.PENANAQLv3TnEd82
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「嗯,我揀大膽。」我無可避免地說。725Please respect copyright.PENANAewEGycfzrT
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放下練習簿,放在日記旁邊。725Please respect copyright.PENANA3WnC95IXd1
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我再摘下水果,用石頭砸成幾塊,悄悄放進雞籠子裡。725Please respect copyright.PENANAzq332Z2TNw
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然後再次坐好。725Please respect copyright.PENANAODeEORjlu0
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「陸……傾兒。」725Please respect copyright.PENANAr2AckjLRVW
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這一晚,在睡著之前,我一共想起了她四次。725Please respect copyright.PENANAlFkWU7dC1t
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陽光再次出現,睡醒的我看著雞籠,山雞正在喙食水果。725Please respect copyright.PENANADXnE2JJqvT
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紅頭黑頸啡身綠屁股的山雞,並不是常見的家禽品種,而我已經強制養了牠們很久。725Please respect copyright.PENANAQghl9mBmO5
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一身骯髒的我,這時,有了溫暖的想法。725Please respect copyright.PENANAb71iBO4Vw7
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不如拆掉籠子,看看牠們會不會走。725Please respect copyright.PENANAoVkqJ8l4Lp
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牠們會不會因為這裡有膳食而留下呢?或者,會不會對籠子產生了感情呢?725Please respect copyright.PENANAphMqidOpXJ
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於是,我伸手去拆開籠子,解開至牠們能夠出來為止。725Please respect copyright.PENANAMAkAxW5rrf
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坐在一旁的我,看到了有趣的一幕。725Please respect copyright.PENANAht17hE0cug
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山雞喙起果肉,馬上跳跳,再拍拍拍拍翼飛走了。725Please respect copyright.PENANAo5parFVuZ9
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第二隻也是,第三隻掉了果肉,回來喙起,也再次起飛了。725Please respect copyright.PENANAVQzQWxiSZm
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雖然只能飛五秒左右就墮地,但牠們沒有放棄過逃生,一直跳走跳走飛飛。725Please respect copyright.PENANAhOuw1JArh3
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不愧是山雞,有著天生的野性,跟被人類選來圈養的雞種不同。725Please respect copyright.PENANA5SfGUemuHT
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這些山雞,從基因裡,就有著不被馴服的特徵。725Please respect copyright.PENANAiy231TAymY
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所以,不會甘心一生留在籠裡。725Please respect copyright.PENANAQtC3S7ECJR
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只要有機會,就一定會逃出去,再次過自由自在的生活。725Please respect copyright.PENANAojjajSlidw
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那麼,我呢?725Please respect copyright.PENANA7uqLbSRdMD
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我會選擇留在籠子裡,還是想辦法逃出去?725Please respect copyright.PENANAOHJU8gzcOy
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「點啊你?」神明丁問,仍在山頂上等我。725Please respect copyright.PENANACLsi8Qj8bC
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我來到山頂,帶回練習簿和日記。725Please respect copyright.PENANAwYFdqlpnsX
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「你好似精神咗喎。」祂說,正在看著我。725Please respect copyright.PENANAanVzcsSPek
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「係咩?」我問,走到祂的身旁,掠過祂的身旁。725Please respect copyright.PENANAji30b8UuzV
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屁股坐在扁平岩石上。725Please respect copyright.PENANAEkzVOl8I4I
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第三次出發,我要做到什麼? 725Please respect copyright.PENANAYMzxnueCrt
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最後一次出發,我要過怎樣的一天? 725Please respect copyright.PENANAVdB81O8v5k
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「神明丁,你覺得我應該點做?」我默默地問。725Please respect copyright.PENANACO5gKbb5IS
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「最好……唔好咁悶啦。」神明丁說,「太無聊嘅話,冇人會想睇。」725Please respect copyright.PENANAsNKXBVyYRv
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「神明丁,我好多謝你兩日前嚟到哩度。」我說,「係我想讀完本日記就自殺嘅一晚,你及時出現,令我活到今日。」725Please respect copyright.PENANAh8VCS6w7do
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「今日,雖然你話我已經唔合格。」我說,「但我一早有咗心理準備,早就同自己講,至少我賺咗沖一個熱水涼、食到魚蛋燒賣。」725Please respect copyright.PENANAccwg5IKA8n
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「所以,即使我對你有好多不滿,但終歸嚟講,我都係感謝你,能夠嚟搵我嘅。」725Please respect copyright.PENANA05b80zu96H
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「係……係。」神明丁聽著。725Please respect copyright.PENANA979fYNpFkT
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「今日,」我回歸今日,「我一樣會救想救嘅人,幫要幫嘅人。無論係咪測緊試,我認為我都係要繼續做嘅。」725Please respect copyright.PENANASbAWBjHCOt
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「嗯,嗯。」祂點著頭。725Please respect copyright.PENANAh9hvyBV7yp
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「今日,我會活得比你『預知』嘅我,更加出色,更加超乎想像。」我宣言。725Please respect copyright.PENANAwmjySjgjpY
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不然的話,就太對不起這「一天」了。725Please respect copyright.PENANAJKRJCb9g04
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我已經很多年沒有重視過一天是怎麼活,但今天,我稍微地,想試一次。725Please respect copyright.PENANAAJ10lkwyus
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不受束縛的我,到底能活成怎樣?725Please respect copyright.PENANAqBUqT0OVE9
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我期待著。725Please respect copyright.PENANA6rz68moP1K
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——揚起嘴角,流下了淚。725Please respect copyright.PENANAZX9CLDipC8
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「點啊你,準備……好未?」神明丁問。725Please respect copyright.PENANAWF5u00Cq0l
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祂用白淨的手袖,替我抹抹。725Please respect copyright.PENANAbQwvKme8AO
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「今日,我要毫無遺憾咁度過,就算遇到令人心碎嘅畫面,我都要好似神明辛咁,勇往直前,甚至做得比佢更好!」725Please respect copyright.PENANAi0DOLKNiOR
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「加油。」神明丁眼裡的我。725Please respect copyright.PENANAWIKWaGCYho
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「我會睇住你。」神明丁再說,十分認真,「全程睇住,你放心啦。」725Please respect copyright.PENANAID5CuMDgeT
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「好,咁我去喇。」我說。725Please respect copyright.PENANAFjBoxtc44G
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「啊,係你去之前,我有一句話想講。」神明丁說。725Please respect copyright.PENANA3m771si2bM
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傾耳以待——725Please respect copyright.PENANA3LtW5krbwA
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「孫正直,做唔到一個合格嘅神,你做神『不合格』,係唔緊要。」725Please respect copyright.PENANAEElfbtOcM1
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「最重要係,唔可以做一個不合格嘅人。」祂再說。725Please respect copyright.PENANAyPI3kSBEJA
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聽完,我便低頭,準備打開練習簿。725Please respect copyright.PENANARX7BTl4xH4
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「你諗住坐係岩石度?」祂問。725Please respect copyright.PENANA7ionQtp9RJ
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「唔通又企一日咩?好攰。」我說,正在翻開,「同埋我都唔係諗住坐。」725Please respect copyright.PENANAtFevJMJSIp
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身體傾後,躺了下來。725Please respect copyright.PENANAJVdlX0APa5
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「係諗住攤。」725Please respect copyright.PENANAi9O9czzQSD
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翻到新一頁,意識隨即被牽扯。725Please respect copyright.PENANA8C4wbWuXtL
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神明丁站在一旁,默默地守候著我,目光在看著我。725Please respect copyright.PENANA1Vvg0SUVsV
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在朝陽的照射下,我把練習簿放在臉上,寫意洋洋地蓋住了眼。725Please respect copyright.PENANAsQPTT2fk8z
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露出鼻尖和微笑。725Please respect copyright.PENANAZWGtTJ57GI
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像個學生時期喜歡偷懶的孫正直。725Please respect copyright.PENANAPLcqK95gOk