我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGEpSm4zJmV
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcRGNOaTWxd
拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhrN0Fl7V1e
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw4PTa38vYw
「咬下——」明白了。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡveQnJYqJSH
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1iXWyQCort
目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt5nkUyQOYx
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfC50Fqtu9
難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpnLyWMKpHE
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGCRpvFiw8D
脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhTNmfDl7om
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKHy5nRmFGj
封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡch8PnogIEe
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡusyOCdhwRx
神是不是故意的？714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSGEDxLji4v
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrtyZPiECIE
竟然……安排這種測試給我。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3fTG26Osl
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgbxuYofUDV
我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfRMKK4qf62
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb0mLtA5Hmf
牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXOUy54pTCT
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzHy60eovMq
「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ85VDAdauxM
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwYey9csTXx
「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8iJgimB9f1
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgerBjuZM3k
「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ZEOULrwhu
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8WbO6rijnf
「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBrJFx7olb7
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUAejd6NMry
「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFzI0HiEMiv
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrtf45tsx8
「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmsxiqc02CD
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFDCCw6NsBf
「唔好再講喇。」我說。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlZ629JSLJ3
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhWCbiiBWe9
「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLASExmC9M0
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡycMG54qhLb
然後我沒有再阻止她。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHif6KD99Ux
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhScximbMoM
讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡplLFyiNKA9
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7SsX4iF1If
聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0nD44w7wPR
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr8vScXYwlk
不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RFWZl2qon
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡawyM1Do2XU
透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTNvsBQ0RE2
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDC3uuolxOC
除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI5S14m5q1D
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAs2BJnkhoa
如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZfwex3eDzw
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91tT6AdMyq
聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAK2c3zpbyO
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAzymBiChJE
「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡww64ZNw0ir
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4qyxcd4oTT
「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt0LKmqSuMC
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCgZ6XeSYni
「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35XFj9ZiaF
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAnMEVhFePN
我也正在難過。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKqZnumfeLx
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRR00pZKva1
「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhhb9QjbEh3
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO8Ue9DRWxp
「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ625DBCAkKD
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaLEiqrsuFJ
「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlsIvQS1A1D
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUi7ON39oha
「點解？」她問。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaPyyjuUKlh
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡREYFFMrpY1
怕你走上跟我一樣的路。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3NgZFmhCvy
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡknZ5tJW0PM
「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIgfYIkVs3n
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDtv1ceic0B
同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmotelpFbw
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5BpnNRu3ZG
但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2S8aaZLUm
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsfyzaTZehe
「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ28aw8nMHDk
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbZqH5ES7PB
只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH6iObz82Oa
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ67eUmgtSod
「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAQhZ5Zzl43
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgaI7aBur1L
「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhMH5USJV0X
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOQ5Fst5AuM
這是……什麼爛方法？714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgGaZ6KKGwg
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2cbjsh7Nk
即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHmCGiv5r4I
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDV5glw5BUn
在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4c5iJNQsi1
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUiUYAGhT8h
「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx1vsI8Xced
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSzbRIYUir3
「咩條件？」她問。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS4GYRLPXq9
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5B2nYFqNvc
「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfblaoS3rto
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyyBXTMcL2K
陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh4mj0VSur1
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡthlWA5TPDE
「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTy3HSOYrNk
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0trPRh0rWV
「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvrJJw78199
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcFL2W1SsZ5
但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuTacCrrg7Z
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsOYFBJc5zs
「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgAZKJyzQmB
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu4Zjz4IsCt
「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ytfArdOWc
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJclUIFHtOn
「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXGL6KymYDE
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7tZx6DRB2I
鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡldItiOHLoj
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu3F09NT8gO
「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡApSAaqtqeh
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmtcmLmHGBg
「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ06BhxQYkL2
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCedixDDFlc
她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6K8KYj08LL
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKnNwKSbdR5
也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡds6YCqDFsG
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0YwBrgiwmP
「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwqoHalVU1
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjATczr3knC
「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuN2r76qLpk
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5X83dNS9Oe
「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjOfHYLcaxX
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkbGbQwJgsZ
說完，她聽完。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJfsIak6Xnz
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfve9gdzPSg
「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTeVDsSwFwe
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwyHPv4Fya
「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNnkG1aVr6
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRCr8KMCu63
等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3Iyr4Muyi
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKj3Del81Yy
「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW860ggRXdq
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjnHqHw5q0
被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIKAOPNSscd
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡya7Ium1l6o
「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8df8xxKLU
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiVW3FqNXfj
「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMGS2frHHlm
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQYfFm7yW2b
「陸傾兒……」我說。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2iekGmxmHV
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYipPnYo5Zo
「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnjA4BWLDgC
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZyJ8cQGxsT
「揀咩都得？」我問。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIhXwGnxZXP
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuWQx14X1lW
「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd8rxiMMzvH
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0qJp94zjDT
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5jlq8SmQAT
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsKlGfaw7Rs
而我不懂回答。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ625RBr4obd
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡctuYvAkQEl
我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkTteGCq7G7
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZgAia2zlII
「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc89ITThopV
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkLplcG5fmP
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm5eed8QfCU
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL11WKeSPkm
我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hj9sKyfsr
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdueTxNynOp
「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHf6iKKkBY
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjVEYiSdXov
「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgCWJTdCxWT
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyMgiDlBjjx
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsjnLboBp71
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6My2cZjiQ
過後——714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLNMznvV2pB
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbS9OocRG1z
沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVieDKHVESu
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtRUdLDBd36
屁股坐下。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlsjJp003Nc
714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqHfuJyUxHN
還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。714Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡynxAsQlTCe
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