我和傾姐坐在沙發上，一同蓋在被子下。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQwa2gilZP
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拉上被子，右手拿出麥提莎，放進口裡。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqM2slD64fE
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「咬下——」明白了。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBEBXmewCDj
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目前，我知道了她和蔣少的關係。基本上，蔣家和家裡給予她的壓力，使她過著一個沒有自由的人生。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHup4kRJJUC
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難怪，她會向神許願，祈求能夠脫離現有的生活。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg0aObxBMdG
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脫離現有的生活？慢著，那不正是我做過的，最誇張的一件事嗎？760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLgw7rxmcDo
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封閉自己的內心，流落孤島，徹底地脫離原本的生活。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyrBnnZlMDf
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神是不是故意的？760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjm8lxNQwVu
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竟然……安排這種測試給我。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ9jL4DHL5Z
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我望望時鐘，時間奇怪了。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjeDllPBjZU
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牆上時鐘還沒到達兩點，顯示著一個奇怪的時間。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnq2qUXbCIl
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「雖然你好想幫我，但其實我唔係一個值得幫嘅女仔嚟。」傾姐訴說。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTkDlS9SByB
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「點解咁講？」我問，準備再取下一粒。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZMC0geeDi
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「因為欺凌同學嘅人，唔止得蔣少，我都有份。」她自白。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpVEg2jdKaT
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「唔止有份，我仲縱容陳菲菲佢地去蝦其他人。」她繼續說，「就好似之前，要逼李可兒除底褲咁。」760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUlpdLIi9TI
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「我做過嘅壞事，一啲都唔少。」她說，「如果唔係，啲人都唔會咁驚我，我都唔會有傾姐今日嘅地位。」760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFa96RS5nhC
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「有一次，中六蔣少啲friend想約女仔出去玩，希望我介紹幾個畀佢地，我都介紹咗。」她黯然說，「雖然……我明知會發生咩事。」760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSva9TSYQMK
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「唔好再講喇。」我說。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMp8XmAVHF
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「如果你係想幫我嘅，至少，我想你知道真正嘅陸傾兒係一個咩人。」她認真地說。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI7DtcJbMYZ
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然後我沒有再阻止她。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9DmvRSHunf
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讓她一直說著自己的壞，說著自己欺負了多少人，威脅了多少人，傷害過多少人。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD81CNaiC6C
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聽著，我聽到了熟悉的聲音。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ74VDYswe7y
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不是我也做過這些事，而是我也說過這些話，一些自責的話。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaCemVOzqrC
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透過用言語來責罰自己，讓自己好過一點。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ17Ira20y4Q
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除此之外，在寂靜的夜裡，受著海風的吹襲，以虐待自己的方式來受罰；透過惡言惡語，破壞別人對自己的印象，讓別人討厭自己，也是懲罰自己的方式。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpyYisME1dR
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如今她正企圖破壞自己的形象，破壞她在我心中的印象。彷彿期望著我拒絕她，同時又期盼著我接受這樣的她。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwKZkDtVT7n
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聽著，聽著，聽見了哽咽。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpy1YQv7dzI
760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuFGAxlvKVZ
「Sorry。」她垂下頭，「你聽完，覺得點……仲想唔想幫我？」760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzuIb66cNRm
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「定係……」她自我形象低落，幾乎抽泣，「你已經想即刻趕我走？」760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0RwI2IAxs
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「做咩唔講嘢？」她問，終於望向我，「喂……」760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu1Eyz9Lvjf
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我也正在難過。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ13TCfOoKFy
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「啜泣……」我哭了，抹抹眼睛，「Sorry.。」760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnjwZpkM8Yi
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「你做咩喊？」傾姐問。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUW5s8C5tgE
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「因為我好擔心你。」我照直說。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSwYc2pLyV
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「點解？」她問。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwTesS1XlBX
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怕你走上跟我一樣的路。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx9L66LI8IM
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「我驚你太過自責，之後會做傻事。」我說。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe4MDsv3AkY
760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ22hvQyIURI
同是做壞事的人，同是不原諒自己的人。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuUhIcsMGqR
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但是困在孤島的人、封閉內心的人，有我一個就夠了。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAVCYwPGtn
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「我亦都好感動，你肯講畀我知。」我說，收住了淚。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlTFBZ5bnPF
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只要說了出來，就不會鎖在心上了。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZzlnzQPj4
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「其實我已經做緊傻事。」陸傾兒說，「我上網識男仔，或者可能……都期望緊會發生意外。」760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHvRO6qukXT
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「如果我畀人非禮、姦咗，出咗醜聞，蔣少一家人可能就唔會再鍾意我，我就可以解脫……」她說，「從此唔再需要理屋企人嘅指示。」760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzWOk5ZuD9
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這是……什麼爛方法？760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMU0EHMgh1n
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即使要折磨自己，也不是這樣的吧！760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiayQsF2365
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在被子裡的手，握緊了拳。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqVbBPlQMYZ
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「哩個都係一個方法嚟嘅。」我漠然地說，「只係，有一個條件。」760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIEAPXP8URR
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「咩條件？」她問。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkeg6riBi6
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「搞你嗰個人，要係我。」我說，「除我之外嘅人，你諗都唔好諗。」760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoUOenx496x
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陸傾兒笑了，哈哈地笑了。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbCW2Evfrz8
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「點解？你同其他人有咩分別？點解要係你先得？」她笑著，笑容漸漸僵硬。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj8F3ExW5dD
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「因為其他男人搞完你，就唔會理你，而我會繼續幫你。」我說，「雖然我未必可以長期係你身邊……」760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzf1MhPH7Hb
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但即使我身在遠方，我都一樣會擔心著你，為你的人生而牽掛。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAGNdm0Owdh
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「你可以點幫我？」她問，「撇除哩個方法唔計，你有咩方法幫到我？」760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ86NQ8RAgFu
760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrDh7JKHu0U
「我已經答咗你好多問題，你已經知道咗我好多嘢。」她繼續說。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgcxEqMz9sL
760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdc1Epx9qvp
「孫正直，你可以點幫我？點幫陸傾兒？」她問，很想知道。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0upuc01Quk
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鬆開了麥提莎，我輕放在地上。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡracnqc8Tiz
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「我唔係神，冇可能幫你解決所有問題。」我說。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwH3giZ1Pi
760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCESJv9C8LS
「咁你可以點幫我？」她追問。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ04SyGeXNr3
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她遇上的困境，不是耍一點小聰明就可以解決的。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTyjt1oMrtW
760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpaX7O5nUd
也不是叫她離家出走、自食其力、無視家人等，就可以過上美好的生活。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡypjOoWplSb
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「我都冇咩方法可以幫你。」我說，淚水情不自禁，「但係……」760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb8b3FgiNxe
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「當你凍嘅時候，我會幫你戴一條頸巾。當你想講嘢嘅時候，我會靜靜地咁聽。當你想喊嘅時候，我可以借個膊頭畀你。」760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOVL4ybctTH
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「今晚嘅我，只係可以……今晚嘅我只可以……做到咁。」我抽泣地說，「對唔住。」760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDO8LrvZ3k
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說完，她聽完。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsejKH0OLwL
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「明白，我明白。」她說，「好多謝你今晚可以陪我，好多謝你，可以為我喊。」760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5meN6q324v
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「我成世女，都冇人為我喊過。」她誠懇地說，準備離開，「好多謝你，孫正直，我有少少感動。」760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj0AA01WnXI
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等等，時間還沒到兩點，仍然是1點35分而已。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPqZw5tdCEZ
760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQBOzC7A9w
「你係第一個為陸傾兒喊嘅人。」她看著我說，「你值得我，畀一個獎勵你。」760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwzWKJCXAjk
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被子從她身上落下，露出了她的頸巾、衣服，和手上的電池。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡasjzl1wN7W
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「個鐘粒電，我係你去廁所嗰時拆咗。」她還給我，「唔好意思，因為哩個係唯一阻止時間流逝嘅方法。」760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvOG531o3IA
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「但我依加要走喇。」她說，「實在太夜喇，聽朝仲要早起。」760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyhVgzTQcnl
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「陸傾兒……」我說。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwXK6CVXq9Z
760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQNZuJJWUhg
「我畀你揀啦，一個獎勵，當最後一回合係我輸咗，而我揀大膽。」她睄一眼空酒瓶。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡajya8VT9Ua
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「揀咩都得？」我問。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNpnNENWXTt
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「你揀之前，我仲想講一樣嘢就係，你雪櫃根本有勁多啤酒，我搵到嘅開瓶器，就係係你雪櫃個蛋格到搵到。」她說，「但你唔想我飲，寧願呃我話冇酒。」760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRpr7Nz9f4
760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡymEQdxT16o
「哩個世界點解會有你哩啲咁嘅人？」她泛淚，卻微笑。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGrUyJUiXvd
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而我不懂回答。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrcyXpsboAR
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我是知道有酒的，昨天就知道了。我也知道時鐘被拆了電池，只是不說破而已。我猜她也知道我知道，才會在默契之下，延長了時間。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFj4U429QIo
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「陸傾兒，我揀……」我準備說。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP9nKyf8itj
760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVdBvgdUlUg
「你會唔會想揀錫我一啖？」她先說，站在我的面前。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfVb82JfLVU
760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJfwhQQrPf2
我展露微笑，問，「你覺得我敢唔敢？敢唔敢揀哩樣？同傾姐錫一啖。」760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfvVKlLoeub
760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtjbLkJTskW
「視乎你驚唔驚死。」她說。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGDBwlAWoPu
760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc8WkreYfj5
「我驚死，我當然驚死。」我說，慢慢翻開被子。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoQXr7iRN8C
760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcpiLSPVEB
「但唔係今晚。」我也選了大膽。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdrcGMS5o8I
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過後——760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡztHtk0r3on
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沙發上只留下一條米黃淺啡間條頸巾。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiD9ElATnIJ
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屁股坐下。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMtYN4Al6KV
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還有開了一瓶啤酒的我。760Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm8ybW4nTkA
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