我頭也不回,隻身一人離開了學校。764Please respect copyright.PENANAqe1GwPtbWD
764Please respect copyright.PENANAoan44L9BVU
看著手機的路線地圖,我朝著差館,以最短的路徑前去。764Please respect copyright.PENANASeG1l3Fr9n
764Please respect copyright.PENANAHXZbhAxxao
背著書包的我,已沒有學生的負擔,不像以前要背負學業壓力。764Please respect copyright.PENANAXitbHEPBTP
764Please respect copyright.PENANA48FddhFa9p
奈何,心頭一樣沉重。764Please respect copyright.PENANA90jah9mG8O
764Please respect copyright.PENANAt2FVHxqSfr
走進了屋邨商場。764Please respect copyright.PENANAKVxc3ozVAP
764Please respect copyright.PENANAojVCdhEOwm
剛放學的學生一堆一堆的,站在不同的商店前。764Please respect copyright.PENANAmeDdmq0y2P
764Please respect copyright.PENANANbQWn0yLjB
其中有一對小情侶,靦腆地牽著手,溫馨地走著。764Please respect copyright.PENANAjQ1dfwko63
764Please respect copyright.PENANAv1u2WEaIAf
看到有人牽手,我的步伐漸漸緩慢。764Please respect copyright.PENANAKSoHOQS28w
764Please respect copyright.PENANAbzDhDt4Ftj
我不是第一次背著書包追出去找人。764Please respect copyright.PENANAwlmEDtlcLN
764Please respect copyright.PENANAgzih6UJnmb
曾經,就讀中五的孫正直,為了替最喜歡的陸同學慶祝生日,安排了一整天的行程,還準備了生日禮物。這一切,也是作為告白的鋪墊。764Please respect copyright.PENANA2VMqhu1dAW
764Please respect copyright.PENANApYS8fMKLb9
只是某一天,發生了一件事,讓我放棄了全盤計劃。764Please respect copyright.PENANA0x73bl8fVO
764Please respect copyright.PENANABWWDfIrjEq
那天我假裝有事,要先行離開,放學不打籃球了。為的,就是想約陸同學在她生日那天去慶祝。我知道她離開不久,只要努力一點追上去,就可以遇上她。764Please respect copyright.PENANANgMU1PytGf
764Please respect copyright.PENANAtnjFyidPOz
果然,我真的看到她了。看到的,卻也是心碎一幕。764Please respect copyright.PENANAJTI2cjsNnf
764Please respect copyright.PENANAKfgEhZhCzR
陸同學背著書包,被另一名男同學牽著手。764Please respect copyright.PENANAgMepjYlkOH
764Please respect copyright.PENANAOyFLpPCiRM
兩人有講有笑,露出不時互看的側面。764Please respect copyright.PENANAiVwfFCpsPZ
764Please respect copyright.PENANAfcWTix0OW6
我站在她和他的身後,抖大了眼——764Please respect copyright.PENANA4L0YhIpbG2
764Please respect copyright.PENANAtPP3a7MKOd
她明明沒有男朋友的,她是這樣說的。764Please respect copyright.PENANAGM4jhE3Taj
764Please respect copyright.PENANAzyLFTqoioF
當下,我聽到心碎的聲音,精神受到重創。764Please respect copyright.PENANA4nQoXvYRdU
764Please respect copyright.PENANAyCekdqapCy
腳步還是能動。764Please respect copyright.PENANApDhahBPAVy
764Please respect copyright.PENANAR0xDfvdjV3
即使整個生命失去了動能,但腳步還是不死心一步一步地跟著。764Please respect copyright.PENANAzMOE5nPyyE
764Please respect copyright.PENANAoIZoJHv3d2
直至十五分鐘後,兩人走進某間食肆,準備吃個漫長的下午茶……764Please respect copyright.PENANAgQu8u2mNSz
764Please respect copyright.PENANAX9kqV6rOE5
腳步才轉向離去。764Please respect copyright.PENANA2H0cDuPJvd
764Please respect copyright.PENANAtC2MPeShz0
眼睛早就紅了,只是不知道什麼時候落淚。764Please respect copyright.PENANAeO9V460ye4
764Please respect copyright.PENANAErAcZrvd2K
然而我似乎不需要等太久,轉身離開沒有五步,淚就兩行流下了。764Please respect copyright.PENANAnYlP935dEM
764Please respect copyright.PENANAL0tYuPyCcH
途人都在看著我,而我已不在乎任何人的目光。過往我很在意自己在陸同學前的表現,儘管沒有什麼好表現,但至少我有在意,也努力建立自己的好形象。764Please respect copyright.PENANACocf3s13gm
764Please respect copyright.PENANAeIzBigZaln
但是已經不再重要。764Please respect copyright.PENANA1c8qbyWMRU
764Please respect copyright.PENANAImH5RHxhss
她騙了我。764Please respect copyright.PENANAgW74wYuZpR
764Please respect copyright.PENANAloY2ETTrlN
她是騙子,這是我唯一的解讀。764Please respect copyright.PENANAnrVh6LBcXS
764Please respect copyright.PENANAGNfzZgaTRq
第二天,我判若兩人地回到學校。第三天,我判若三人。一段時間幾乎沒有與人交談之後,又過了兩星期,我開始跟另一位女生拍拖。764Please respect copyright.PENANAom8aVVafFS
764Please respect copyright.PENANA9uhqkkqUwY
她是一個很會照顧我心情的、早就對我有好感的人。這意味著什麼?意味著我隨時可以跟她開始,發展成出雙入對的情侶。764Please respect copyright.PENANAhWzYk76JD1
764Please respect copyright.PENANATgyauMquOp
有人說,走出上一段感情的方法,是投入到下一段感情當中。764Please respect copyright.PENANAoD7xtcmAKZ
764Please respect copyright.PENANAtKzyiqFwSJ
我照做了,即使我對她沒什麼感覺。764Please respect copyright.PENANAweKKVXt33n
764Please respect copyright.PENANAZnSdApawDC
我照做了,學生情侶會做的事。764Please respect copyright.PENANAWuMD0Zrqn8
764Please respect copyright.PENANAVmlFQO1Lt8
但我錯了。764Please respect copyright.PENANAoPST2vkXKP
764Please respect copyright.PENANAAhNuiLcc3R
錯到作孽太重,錯到我想把自己打落地獄。764Please respect copyright.PENANAO1WVAyr6sU
764Please respect copyright.PENANAIOnUrQc6v4
我辜負了她,成為了人渣。764Please respect copyright.PENANAfZ7fztCd4h
764Please respect copyright.PENANAgnhu3FzBhs
眼下——764Please respect copyright.PENANAXCz56oL99L
764Please respect copyright.PENANA1Hn6sJmqOK
那對牽手的小情侶已經離開。我是時候再次上路。764Please respect copyright.PENANAj8kFqz3FTn
764Please respect copyright.PENANAi335KkC4Qz
陸傾兒,我會在差館看到你跟蔣少一起出來嗎?蔣少如果只是協助調查,應該不需要留很久的。764Please respect copyright.PENANAGi2OQYD4Xw
764Please respect copyright.PENANAF9NfM1qckK
但是,我會想看到這一幕嗎?看到你們一雙一對地出來,一雙一對地上車離去。764Please respect copyright.PENANAzYweoaIDlT
764Please respect copyright.PENANAoT86o09L6y
我能夠再承受一次嗎?764Please respect copyright.PENANAuL3iyXoMby
764Please respect copyright.PENANAoujjvBeLTr
可以的,因為我已經不是當年的孫正直,而你也不是當日的陸同學。764Please respect copyright.PENANAirEf9RwW1B
764Please respect copyright.PENANAKW9sbEY7kh
我們的關係,明明也不是那種關係。764Please respect copyright.PENANA2cKFTa6s83
764Please respect copyright.PENANAb9sP3BI6RC
「哧——」我苦笑,笑自己的胡思亂想。764Please respect copyright.PENANAuZgzLv3Br2
764Please respect copyright.PENANANlN8cRajhG
孫正直,你真是一個大笨蛋。764Please respect copyright.PENANACDv34sMwuF
764Please respect copyright.PENANA2m9xor46dK
我後來才知道,當日跟陸同學牽手的人,根本不是她的男朋友。他只是一個比我更主動的追求者而已,而陸同學只是不懂得拒絕、不好意思把手縮回,才讓他牽一會兒。764Please respect copyright.PENANAIK8mXbZjOR
764Please respect copyright.PENANASKcznJiCxd
是的,我喜歡的陸同學就是一個這麼善良、不懂拒絕的人。764Please respect copyright.PENANAnG1q0htmLu
764Please respect copyright.PENANA01PzptoowU
有人說,得不到的愛情才深刻,得不到的愛人才難忘。764Please respect copyright.PENANA4mR3ULIoNc
764Please respect copyright.PENANAhZTWPeBaA9
我永遠都得不到她,所以她永遠難忘。當日的這件事,成為了我人生中,一個極大的遺憾。764Please respect copyright.PENANA8T0UvAfrT6
764Please respect copyright.PENANAde7yxk2770
還好,還算有一點安慰的是,至少有一個平行世界的我,在當日沒有放棄,做到了我想做但沒能做到的事。764Please respect copyright.PENANA5gs7sFbDXk
764Please respect copyright.PENANAFHf0CGEBCn
神明辛,假如你有什麼遺願,需要一個孫正直去完成……764Please respect copyright.PENANAPJqLWUapHI
764Please respect copyright.PENANA2glcFVEsb2
我樂意代勞的。764Please respect copyright.PENANAdrjazRaGbS
764Please respect copyright.PENANAQN8nnwkJTF
到了差館外面,剛好有一輛的士駛離。764Please respect copyright.PENANAm572DkQtng
764Please respect copyright.PENANAY5LsypSKhZ
我馬上看看後座的乘客——764Please respect copyright.PENANAs3qVArm2Vc
764Please respect copyright.PENANAe3cEBhctAP
不是陸傾兒和蔣少。764Please respect copyright.PENANAnJwEFoS7VK
764Please respect copyright.PENANAatCfzUGzKb
我竟然鬆一口氣。真矛盾,到底我是想找到她,還是不想找到她?764Please respect copyright.PENANA9uCwU1dGDP
764Please respect copyright.PENANAlP1of7Tx9L
坐在附近的長椅,我開始無了期的等待,留意每位進出的人。764Please respect copyright.PENANAqmQd9GDdSI
764Please respect copyright.PENANAsfxf26y1w6
在下午等待至日落——764Please respect copyright.PENANAqzp0VxpVCl
764Please respect copyright.PENANAg8HN1lZXhX
這段時間,我的回憶也未曾中止。764Please respect copyright.PENANAnEfI30gZ5z
764Please respect copyright.PENANA9n4I63UmVJ
在放學的操場上,阿傑無論如何都投不進球,阿進也大失水準。764Please respect copyright.PENANAmsXOOn6XDO
764Please respect copyright.PENANAgaEEsap5pB
「算啦,唔打喇。」阿傑發脾氣,「我唔想同哩啲咁嘅人打波!」764Please respect copyright.PENANAOEqpb8vtlE
764Please respect copyright.PENANA8XOEHa2ixb
他馬上收拾水樽,收起學生毛衣,背起書包。764Please respect copyright.PENANA661oMjhqZY
764Please respect copyright.PENANAmqFtkhXMyT
「阿傑!」阿進叫他,又看我一眼,最後追著阿傑離去。764Please respect copyright.PENANAEi08QsFoLH
764Please respect copyright.PENANAs3LeyCGzMu
操場上剩下籃球、籃球架、我、愈來愈拖長的影子。764Please respect copyright.PENANAhj3ZQl4kQ6
764Please respect copyright.PENANAT2ff0luBqn
我拾起籃球,拍一下,拍兩下,起手跳投。764Please respect copyright.PENANAavqmQZ34mM
764Please respect copyright.PENANASRUs32GWF0
「嘭——」也是不進。764Please respect copyright.PENANA6ZExNqQo1D
764Please respect copyright.PENANAmO2mREhc0e
抬頭仰望,是黃昏的天空。764Please respect copyright.PENANAOYbktTYj0l
764Please respect copyright.PENANA899IWNi5O4
漸漸出現晚霞。764Please respect copyright.PENANAazFzQFPZeZ
764Please respect copyright.PENANAAeQ7sYTPkQ
回去吧。764Please respect copyright.PENANADgmJLm6jBH
764Please respect copyright.PENANA9w5XHB95tO
在差館附近的長椅,坐了兩個小時,我肚子餓了。764Please respect copyright.PENANAMxozvsGYe2
764Please respect copyright.PENANAmbrzF8SsKl
我猜,蔣少不是一早走了,就是根本不在這間差館。764Please respect copyright.PENANAB2m64ZLwF9
764Please respect copyright.PENANA4nz5LnCs9a
沒有收獲,只好先行回去。764Please respect copyright.PENANAvgUsvx0AGh
764Please respect copyright.PENANA022pQcMsWB
背著書包,累然站起——764Please respect copyright.PENANA8AKNgi4rx0
764Please respect copyright.PENANAPEzsM8dkg0
手機屏幕顯示,「此路線步行時間:40分鐘。」764Please respect copyright.PENANAfWWXUVEsez
764Please respect copyright.PENANAnF9eCqW9FW
這時再有一輛的士駛過,我留心觀察裡面有沒有人。764Please respect copyright.PENANA26hS8W7o5w
764Please respect copyright.PENANARJm17a12EE
最後,舉起手。764Please respect copyright.PENANA5UjOEsFHjw
764Please respect copyright.PENANArLCaFPZS17
「的士,唔該。」我喊,開門上了車。764Please respect copyright.PENANAFMOHYXrivJ
764Please respect copyright.PENANAWJMxjAaDpY
* * *764Please respect copyright.PENANAXPPi020FMx
764Please respect copyright.PENANAlMfct5fYRK
乘的士直達御龍庭,我想先吃晚飯才回住所。764Please respect copyright.PENANAXfRb8RXZ5V
764Please respect copyright.PENANA0Wyl9c94eV
萬一又像昨天,食肆都關了,就麻煩了。764Please respect copyright.PENANAySfdlyjCew
764Please respect copyright.PENANAtunaP1uBFt
進入一間光亮的連鎖式茶餐廳。764Please respect copyright.PENANApWi1MiEfQo
764Please respect copyright.PENANAbNG8ndFrUe
今晚特別想喝老火湯,這裡剛好有一人份的湯餐。764Please respect copyright.PENANAChss58G8c7
764Please respect copyright.PENANAezK81bRH3o
便點了一盅湯,配白飯。764Please respect copyright.PENANAPVhbtHGD1s
764Please respect copyright.PENANAFUO0KGxN2M
對於單身漢、沒有家人的我來說,這是重溫家庭溫暖的做法。764Please respect copyright.PENANAD0KPsbamEB
764Please respect copyright.PENANArJFOO3af9r
小時候,媽媽會煲湯,我都嫌熱、嫌麻煩而不想喝。然後,媽媽就會要我用湯撈飯,像吃湯飯一樣順便把湯喝掉。764Please respect copyright.PENANAntHwSeJdW8
764Please respect copyright.PENANA4ZtukCPR0x
我從來都不重視飲食,進食只是為了解決飢餓引起的難受。或者只是喝酒、咖啡前,需要替胃部打底而吃。764Please respect copyright.PENANAQOACR7WVdJ
764Please respect copyright.PENANAkczE6XrclW
但自某一天起,我發現湯很好喝,而且很難得才可以喝一碗,喝進肚子會有一種感動和溫暖。764Please respect copyright.PENANA7ilaXh15JZ
764Please respect copyright.PENANAu7JZAW3mOV
我開始珍惜了,每次喝靚湯的機會。764Please respect copyright.PENANAHs2JJYrLAx
764Please respect copyright.PENANA7QhUdTIUsq
這個「某一天」,跟其他「某一天」一樣,都是五年以前的日子。764Please respect copyright.PENANACoWejVxIGa
764Please respect copyright.PENANAHiO4bJ6baq
在流落孤島的日子裡,我常常想起過往,並把回憶寫進日記。因為實際上也沒有別的事可以做,唯有整理一下過去。764Please respect copyright.PENANAIm9By3kDaz
764Please respect copyright.PENANAWycnHY3evt
偶爾會後悔難過,偶爾會慶幸自己流落孤島。764Please respect copyright.PENANAZ3bqCKBsNZ
764Please respect copyright.PENANAqS9RgcC7yK
流落孤島並非全是壞事,因為我再也不需要與人相處,再也不會傷害人,心靈也不會受到傷害。764Please respect copyright.PENANAfIxOwwTiS9
764Please respect copyright.PENANAEm6RN36IF4
流落孤島頭幾天,我已經這樣想了。所以我從來沒有打算造一隻木筏冒險離去。764Please respect copyright.PENANA5y5BsLa3ke
764Please respect copyright.PENANADQEnCbDkhv
頂多就是留意海面有沒有船駛過,如果有就可能會盡情呼救,但從來沒有見過。764Please respect copyright.PENANALVb20Yb27L
764Please respect copyright.PENANAvyQ2jPUAOQ
「一盅湯、白飯。」服務生粗粗放下。764Please respect copyright.PENANAprhNdOjB3b
764Please respect copyright.PENANA4HfSvi2WUP
雖然熱,要吹吹,但好味道,我好享受用湯撈飯來吃。764Please respect copyright.PENANAZVFtPe2jet
764Please respect copyright.PENANAHZsVGFmD1Z
這兩天的校園生活,我吃了不少好東西,包括魚蛋燒賣。那種感覺是,原來隔了五年,即使是普通的食物,味道也會變好。764Please respect copyright.PENANANsTE5yW5ii
764Please respect copyright.PENANAskIue6YnzO
那麼,人呢?隔了多年沒見的人,如果我們再次重逢,我們會……764Please respect copyright.PENANA0mBioOKkJe
764Please respect copyright.PENANApsJDERbtcq
——放大瞳孔。764Please respect copyright.PENANAVvDYTLdsBU
764Please respect copyright.PENANAr0NyCZZAj5
如果我現在,去找她和他們。找陸同學、阿傑和阿進。764Please respect copyright.PENANAUAWn1FHU3O
764Please respect copyright.PENANAr0CIxvZC6f
手機就在我的褲袋。764Please respect copyright.PENANAg8THgszYi5
764Please respect copyright.PENANAGL5slPYRgV
有可能嗎?雖然我仍然記得他們的電話號碼。764Please respect copyright.PENANADnkINFtCFG
764Please respect copyright.PENANAiIZMpFUtsa
陸同學的電話號碼,以前每次撥出都考驗我的勇氣,我都會先想一想話題,以免她覺得悶,又或者怕沒有話題會很快掛線。764Please respect copyright.PENANAmsoKIc9Ky4
764Please respect copyright.PENANABoj1FVIart
阿傑和阿進的電話號碼,我們會打電話約打籃球,或者網吧,更會催促遲到的人。764Please respect copyright.PENANANe40nKNrtI
764Please respect copyright.PENANAEcu8bYzBUw
在當時的年代,記住常用的號碼是很普遍的,但現在應該沒有人會記住了吧。764Please respect copyright.PENANAcZRZiNCNaG
764Please respect copyright.PENANApcGmFlut4X
那麼,打嗎?764Please respect copyright.PENANAMLTnpEaJTH
764Please respect copyright.PENANAg6DPXxCsEy
打不通也沒有損失,打通了對方不認得我,我至少也能聽聽對方的聲音。764Please respect copyright.PENANATiDq4yjjhK
764Please respect copyright.PENANAlClpdesGAd
還有家人的電話,我應該聯絡他們嗎?764Please respect copyright.PENANAIVVM9S9Y9h
764Please respect copyright.PENANAmwXi6CFCh1
定或是,在這個有神明辛的世界裡,他們記憶裡的孫正直並不是我?764Please respect copyright.PENANAA04mom4nB0
764Please respect copyright.PENANA9Bhgsd7fOM
我一直猶疑,直至把湯飯吃完。764Please respect copyright.PENANAAhBIOAmzBL
764Please respect copyright.PENANAWLU9dK0MTg
對了,這可能是某個平行世界,又可能只是個虛構的測試世界。764Please respect copyright.PENANAiV28y9nbt9
764Please respect copyright.PENANAboIBN0AWpe
幾度拿出手機的我——764Please respect copyright.PENANA0spP1TwmyK
764Please respect copyright.PENANA4yckR2MPAa
算吧。764Please respect copyright.PENANAfbiwPPFRrW
764Please respect copyright.PENANA0pBLw0jWx6
把手機放回褲袋。764Please respect copyright.PENANATGUlC8IwbG
764Please respect copyright.PENANAPs5FBRM0cm
「仲愛唔愛?」服務生問,想收碗。764Please respect copyright.PENANAivS03prG1n
764Please respect copyright.PENANAIpBtOj2tjp
「唔愛喇,唔該。」我說。764Please respect copyright.PENANARBtD0yyVIh
764Please respect copyright.PENANA3ysaJvDWHO
最後把擦過嘴的紙巾也放了上去。764Please respect copyright.PENANAVr0IbtjgvA
764Please respect copyright.PENANAXeGFpn63y1